This journal is semi-semi-semi friends only. Personal posts are mostly locked, almost all fangirl posts are not, but I hardly ever post personal posts, so 90% of this journal is me being insane *sparkly hand movements*


UPDATE: I'M SORRY BUT I AM NOT ADDING ANYONE AT THE MOMENT except for special cases (people I know irl, etc). My friend's list is HUGE, and I feel like I would not be a very good LJ friend if I never had the time to read or comment on people's journals... so... for now, I am not adding at this time.

You are welcome to add me. All of my fangirl posts and translations are unlocked -- which is 80% of this journal. But like I said I will not be adding back.

From now on I will not be adding people unless you comment on this post first. My f-list is way too large, and I would like you to at least introduce yourself before I add you back. So if you'd like to add me, post a comment or send me some sort of PM through LJ. Introduce yourself. I can't guarantee I'll add you back, but I like to get to know the people on my friends list! ♥

Last Friday marks the 6th time this one co-worker of mine has told me that there was a "discussion" about me with a group of my other co-workers. Nothing bad, but apparently they sometimes bring me up in conversation and I become the "hot topic" if you know what I mean.

Apparently, this is what I was told, a lot of them can't quite wrap their head around me. They can't figure out my personality so it's hard for them to get close to me. I am too shy, and they can't decide if I am a fun person or worth it to invite to gatherings outside of work. My co-worker who told me all this was telling me because he says he defended me, telling them that I just need to come out of my shell. He says I remind him of his son. He's quiet and shy until you get to know him... then his real personality comes out, and he's really fun to be around.

He's completely and utterly right, but it still hurt. In a way, I'm glad that he defended me, because I obviously wasn't there myself to do it. And it's true, when I first started I was extremely shy. I kept to myself, I interacted only with the people who started interacting with me first... but to tell you the truth, it's been almost 1 1/2 years since I started working there, and I was under the impression that I had come out of my shell at least 9 months ago. I don't think that I'm all that shy anymore.. I just try to be polite. Is that possibly construed as shy..? I feel like I worked really hard to try to let go and stop worrying about what they think of me. But maybe without even knowing it I am still the shy person that I was 1.5 years ago. Maybe this is why I'm so unapproachable?

How do I stop this? :\

In other news: Gong Yoo Gong Yoo Gong Yoo :)

New dresses!

♦ LIFE ♦

I got some new dresses! (I keep wanting to say "One pieces" because that's what they call them in Japanese, but no..) Was originally getting a dress for my sister's wedding but they had a sale so I ended up getting two (汗) but yay! If you are reading this now, sister, tell me if you prefer I wear one or the other!

I am not going to talk about work or anything really because there's really nothing different, special, or entertaining to talk about. Oh, except I got free lunch on Monday for doing some awesome IT stuff which was cool. Yay me :D

♥ ART ♥



God I am getting back into this finally. I have been putting it off way too long, but ever since I started my job it has just not been happening. BUT that is over from now on! /makes 真面目なface

So yeah, this little guy is a new design I am making. Since I made "Kisetsu Kitty", I thought that I should make another little animal mascot. This one shall be named "Ramen Rabbit" and he is going to have a giant bowl of ramen on his head. Yes. Because the things that I create make no sense but that is not the point here! The important point is that it is cute! That's all that matters!

♣ FANDOM ♣

I have been keeping up as best as possible. I feel really stupid but I was reading my f-list without having been logged in to LJ for about a week and a half or 2 weeks and so I got behind on shows.. I kept wondering, "Why haven't I seen Shiyagare or Himitsu or VSA in a while?? Maybe they are just busy .." LOL oh me.. but now that I've figured it out I am getting back to caught up.

THE 24 HR TV COMMERCIALS. I died on the inside when I saw them!! Oh god. So much love right over there. I am really excited to watch it, not only because of those commercials but I saw the preview for Nino's SP and it looks like it's gonna be goooood. Which, when is it ever NOT but you know.. ^_^;

Doing well on dramas as well.. just watched episode 8 of Mikeneko Holmes today, and episode 7 of KagiHeya yesterday. The day before that I started watching Rich Man, Poor Woman (I have heard many many good things about it) but I wanted to watch it without subs to 磨く my 日本語 and the main girl's character talks so damn fast in it x_x;; I understood the story and what was going on but there were a few little areas where I was just like, "??????" absolutely no idea what was going on.. even my Japanese friend told me that if she didn't pay very close attention to it she couldn't really catch everything she was saying. Yikes!



And of course I can't leave out the epic 嵐会 (Arashi Fanmeet!) that I hosted on Saturday. It was so fun to see everyone again and I am so glad that mynamelessname could come! She took off work and everything just to join us! ^__^

Anyway, we watched random videos, snacked on things, chatted, tried to open a wine bottle with a peeler, drank wine after we opened it properly with a corkscrew, ate cake, and so on and so on! We watched the Beautiful World con DVD (it's so good!) and everyone who hadn't seen it yet seemed to thoroughly enjoy it :D although there was a lot of screaming during Matsujun's solo (as there should be... /cringes&shudders) But really. Genuine screaming in terror. Thanks, Matsujun.



♠ OTHER THINGS ♠

I DUNNO I THINK THAT'S IT..? :(

I feel like most of my LJ friends have quit/become inactive. It's kind of lonely here~ :(

I GOT IT I GOT IT I GOT IT!!!

So I ordered concert goods from my good friend who was doing a study abroad in Japan last year, she was SO SO SO kind to pick all my わがままなwishes up for me (T^T) I'm sooo happy. Yes, it's a year later, but I don't care!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! ホントにありがとう！！！

The goodies I got were:

• Shopping Bag
• Con Shirt
• Pamphlet
• Penlight(!!!!)
• Nino Clearfile
• Phone Strap (SO CUUUTE)
• Hair band
• Matsujun Jumbo Uchiwa

And with that Matsujun uchiwa I officially have at least 1 uchiwa for each member \(^___^)/ yeayyy!

I'm just so pumped to have these con goods in my hands now!! ♥

On another note, I'm going to be able to pick up some more Arashi goodies in the near future, so I'm really excited about that too. I don't know what will be available, but I'll be raiding the magazines like crazy ヾ(●⌒∇⌒●)ﾉ わーい

By the way, to update you guys on the go karts, I really went crazy there. It was such a good stress reliever.. I thought it was going to be just drive around for a bit and then have pizza, but the place we went to made it like a tournament. I ended up being the fastest girl in the group, and I won 4th place out of everyone... (just under a placing spot! d'aww oh well.. XD) I really messed up my body though, and I did get into a bit of an accident due to one of my coworkers spinning out and I ended up getting some nasty bruises on my leg that I'm still healing from :x but because I was the fastest girl I got a $50 gift certificate to a massage place. I really need it!! haha can't wait to get my massage \(^^

..you know sometimes it feels really good to just get out, let loose, and have some fun. I got to go dancing and have some girl time. It was great ^_^ Tomorrow I get to go-kart with my co-workers which will also be good to let some steam off, and possibly make the day go quicker. This week at work has been pretty difficult, mainly because I am in the midst of PMSing and my hormones are going bonkers right now >_<;; so I got super emotional on Tuesday, and today I feel bloated to the max. I mean, sometimes I get really bad bloating, but when it's bad it's just uncomfortable to SIT let alone do anything -- and especially eat. Ugh. I hope it goes away soon, though...

Anyway, I uploaded a video to my youtube channel about the posters that I put up on my wall recently. ^^ I made a post with a picture last time, but this time I have a video! And I also organized my magazines into our bookshelf, so.. :D enjoy!

Quick update.... with pictures! :D


I got a haircut! ^_^


I got Ohno's An An!!


I purchased my very first hat ever! (Shocker, I know!)


I put my Arashi goodies on my wall finally and it feels great ^__^
I think I scared some people on Facebook, though.. I don't think they knew what extent of a fangirl we were talking.. XDD

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I also met a lot of people within the last couple of weeks, and a few of said encounters were... interesting to say the least including getting hit on a lot. I don't know what it is lately, am I just oozing some sort of pheromone that men want all of the sudden...? wtf.. But that's for another post.. x_x;;


I went to an Anime convention last week and wore my maid outfit again.
This isn't the greatest picture, but it shows the whole outfit at least ><; well, except for the shoes...


I just wanted to put this picture in because it's like a once in a lifetime shot.
Keep smiling, everyone ^_^

I listened to the preview of Arashi's new song. Arashi's olympic theme songs always make me want to get up and do something great. They are really good at doing that. So yeah, once again the lyrics have really moved me. よくやったね、嵐 (T_T *

それでは、またね！！

So I came home today and needed to just relax for a bit before taking a shower.. I was derping around on Netflix instant watch when I saw there was that 30 Days TV show in our queue.. against better judgement (I guess), I decided to watch this episode where a lady who does not believe in gay couples adopting children joined a gay couple for 4 adopted sons in their home for 30 days. To say watching this episode infuriated me would be a huge understatement...

Now, I believe that people should be able to have their own opinions and those opinions should be respected. But the arguments that were happening with this lady was just... UGHHH.

First, there was a conversation between her and her "host families" dad's where they got onto the subject of morals and laws. The gay couple was trying to tell her that they don't care that she doesn't agree with gay couples with adopted children, but when the activists are trying to make it illegal for them to have a family that is then affecting them and then they are stepping on them and it becomes their problem. This lady came back saying, "Well isn't it also stepping on ME when you are allowed to do this when it is so obviously against my morals?"

UM. NO. Is the mere thought that there are gay couples out there with adopted children THAT upsetting to you that you cannot go about your daily routine? Is it making your life harder? Worse? Is it creating friction within your marriage or your children or your family?? HOW IS IT AFFECTING YOU? PLEASE TELL ME. She of course did not explain herself.

Second instance, she was being taken around by people from adoption agencies through their old shitty neighborhoods, people who were pushed around themselves between foster home and group homes, and showing her what it's like for kids out there. She was CRYING saying, "Oh how horrible! This is horrible! No child should have to go through this" ... and then within the same god damn breath, "I still believe that gay couples should not be allowed to adopt."

...........are. you. serious.

Then, one of her other arguments was that bringing children up in a gay household only creates an illusion that it is okay to be gay, therefore the OPTION to become gay arises.

What in the actual FUCK?? Apparently teaching your children that it is okay to be true to yourself, and loving and kind to all colors, races, genders, sexualities is horrible. Oh yeah, and you will probably become gay too.

And lastly, they actually went and talked with this lady who is an activist against gay parenting and even wrote a book about it. Her whole deal was that her father forced her to be open with her sexuality by taking her to sex shops and such, while he pranced around with his boy toys. I am not belittling her situation at all. I think that is a horrible thing to have to grown up with... HOWEVER just because she had a bad experience with her gay father does not mean that everyone is like that. THAT IS HOW IT WORKS IN THIS WORLD. We are all different. Her experience could have just as easily happened if she had a mother and father parenting her. In fact, I'm sure there are a lot of people who have had similar experiences as her, but because it was in a heterosexual relationship, NOBODY DID OR SAID ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

Seriously. Just.. mad! But it's better that I just got this all out!!

Just a quick post from me today. I have lately been so busy trying to have a social life but at the moment it is turning into a bit of a stress factor. I am stretching myself too thin and I have had to cancel on a lot of plans because I am just getting too stressed, along with other things that I have committed to and working 40 hours a week.. Its just a bit too much right now.

I need to make sure that I make mystical_mayhem's birthday present and print, label, and send all the invites for my sister's bridal shower before the end of this week. This is what is mostly stressing me out right now. Who knows if I will have time to actually do all this... I really want to put more stuff on my website/store but it just hasn't happened lately and I feel like CRAP about that.. but I will admit it has been on the back burner, and not thinking about it just feels better than thinking about it...

Right now I just want to relax and not think about anything but I have to go to sleep so that I can get up tomorrow and go to work :(

There has been a lot of talking about Japan lately in random groups of my friends and talking about it more and more is making me feel kind of sad actually :((

I really miss Japan...

Hey everyone! So as you may know, I got my copy of the Beautiful World con DVD in the mail on Wednesday. It was quite ironic because that was the day that I finally got enough free time to even WATCH the concert, so I was planning on going home and watching the one I had gotten earlier, but lo and behold, there the DVD was, sitting and waiting for me ^_^ (along with my copy of Face Down :D)



Anyway, you know I promptly ripped that box open as fast as my grubby little hands could lol I haven't opened Face Down yet, for my vlog purposes, but that's ok!

I popped the DVD into my JPS2 and watched away :D woo!! So, without spoiling it for those of you who haven't seen it, a cut!!

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And lastly!! I watched the full PV for Your Eyes today, and the Music Station performance as well. For Your Eyes being a slow song, I actually enjoyed the PV. It was visually interesting and had some really pretty shots. And I like the song :D at least somewhat! lol.. it's not a bad song.

The Music Station performance was good, Nino's hair stands out so much especially since Ohno has black hair now. Jun's brown hair looks pretty good on him, I like it lighter with that hairstyle.. and Aiba's hairstyle looks especially good right now..! I don't know why, but it does ^^;

Anything else..?? hmmm... I liked that they talked about their trips and stuff on the show. I remember reading on the jweb Matsujun was talking about his sudden trip to Spain, and it was interesting to hear more about that ^^

Okay, that's it!! I'll talk to you guys later!! ^_^

(P.S. I had homemade cinnamon apple crepes for breakfast today.. YUMMY YUMMY!! :D)