I skipped the whole school day again. I just couldn't find the resolve to put myself through the effort to drive, struggle for a parking space, be uninterested in class, and go home to work later that night. I was just as bored at home as I would have been at campus. I have all these things I could do, projects I could conduct, and etc. I just can't find the motive to do ANYTHING. This kind of lethargy's going to bite me in the end. After all, it already has in my grades. A nice, juicy 2.3 GPA. I just can't get myself to care anymore. There's no reason for the lazy behavior. I don't have anything particularly fun that would tempt me to ignore my studies. I just don't care anymore. The things I 'wanted' to do after college, working for the government, programming and stuff... I can't determine whether I really WANT to do those things, or simply because that's all I really CAN do well enough to justify a job for. What kind of person is one that lacks the drive to do anything at all? It's like I'm not really living anymore.
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depressed