Surely, I'll admit I am far better than I have been in the so recent past, but there are times when sudden bursts of rage take me by surprise, provoked by something unbeknown to me. Why I keep feeling this bothersome prick in the back, I do not know, but what I do know is that I still refuse to look back to the past and bring it to the present. But there is one thing I wish for. If only I could posses some power, anything, which could either let me know what people really do think, or whether I could see what really happens, even if it must be in the past and not present. Or to be able to use magic to punish and hurt.. no, I couldn't. But still, I confess, it is something I would like very much to posess. However, it is impossible, and therefore I am forced to settle with my brooding and planning at the desk of my room. I have ideas, many of them I have kept with me for the longest while, but I am unsure of which card to pick first. It is a delicate matter, especially since I am, in part, the one who is likely to lose control along the way and finally shatter all that I might be able to accomplish. It is only July, and there is still much time at my hands.

On another note, I still have something else that I have not resolved. KK, check your post box for there is something important in it. 

Apart from that, life here has been very dull, filled with nothing but the usual walks down deserted alleys and walking into bars for the occasianal ice cream. Thankfully there are not many more days until my return.