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IYKYN (4)

1 Name: Az : 2026-03-12 06:17 ID:npqu/W7r [Del]

https:// aznet . neocities . org

2 Name: Nekomo !z7ocou51xc : 2026-03-14 03:28 ID:soNRzMde [Del]

A ustedes si que los recuerdo...

3 Name: Az : 2026-03-16 01:20 ID:npqu/W7r [Del]

Join us Nekomo.

How did you enjoy exploring the farm?
Does Uxn seem interesting to you?

We add new updates every day. Did you try the VR world?

4 Name: Anonymous : 2026-03-30 05:21 ID:8gf8irCW [Del]

yo what's the password? what is this?
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Current Standing/Positional Dilemma (1)

1 Name: Era : 2026-03-29 22:47 ID:DbPcvzOZ [Del]

It's been a while since I sent anything on here, and yet it still is the place I feel most comfortable and sensible when vocalizing my thoughts, feelings, and processes. A while ago,o I was dealing with serious thoughts of suicide as well as extreme acts of violence. However, with much more effort than I wish I expended, ed I have managed to regain my footing, if only a little bit. I've started making a bit more money, ney although I am not anywhere near where I want to be. I have found a somewhat decent plan to rectify my college issues, and I am in a slightly better mental state than I was before. Nevertheless, I have found myself at an impasse. Even with all the progress I've made, that, in the grand scheme of things, has been exponential. I feel blank. I feel absolutely nothing. I try to perform emotions that don't feel real, and I've honestly forgotten what real emotions feel like. On top of the fact that I am still struggling with this frustration addiction with lust, which leaves me no room for comfortable solitude. I'm unsure if I'm doing something wrong in my plan or if the changes I am trying to achieve are not possible for me, but it's quite frustrating.

Yet that explanation is too vague to fully do justice to what I'm perceiving. I've been working hard to limit the effect my emotions have on my outward appearance, trying to stop the "performing of existence" that has been so ingrained into my life. However, I keep falling short. My brain understands the fundamentals needed for the change, the study, the practice, but when I'm in the actual act, I just fall short.

I've been trying to look at different approaches. I've read "The 48 Laws of Power", "The Laws of Human Nature", Musashi's "Book of Five Rings", and I am still trying to apply my study. I've tried incorporating more interest-based STEM studies, which I actually enjoy. I've tried working out more. I'm even planning on dieting. I've attempted meditation on the aspects and absoluteness of my inevitable death. Yet I feel like I am doing everything at just 70%. I feel like there is something crucial that I am missing to start making "absolute" changes. As Musashi put it, I feel like I'm missing "the spirit of the thing."
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Never asked out, not like it matters (2)

1 Name: Thembones : 2026-03-27 19:40 ID:CUNjAydG [Del]

I'm in my 20s. I have had several terrible experiences with men. Never been asked out. It seems every woman I see gets a boyfriend, and I get nothing. I heard most women get asked out. I hate seeing couples in public reminding me of what I don't have. My brothers get girlfriends left and right. What is wrong with me? I try to be nice and dress nicely, but nothing. Maybe I'm not attractive enough. I think I hate men.

2 Name: Arms Grace : 2026-03-29 01:25 ID:mpo004FA [Del]

Cheer up!! You’re still young and beautiful someone will find you sooner or later don’t give up
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Idk (2)

1 Name: Name : 2026-03-28 03:30 ID:HUbshCQZ [Del]

I had a messy breakup back in November. I had been falling apart for the last few months and spiraled into an anxious episode where we ended things. I handled things really poorly and did it at a really bad time and it hurt her. It's been months now and as I've been realizing just how badly I handled things and it's eating at me. We haven't seen eachother since January and probably never will again. She deserves an apology but it might be too late for it to matter, I don't want to bother her with it because she's probably moved on already. I feel stupid for even posting about this, I should be more emotionally intelligent than this. What should I do?

2 Name: Arms Grace : 2026-03-29 01:24 ID:mpo004FA [Del]

Sounds like you’re in a tough situation but here’s what’s goin on.. life’s too short to stress about those things though loves worth fighting for.. I say go and apologize and make things right. It’s only normal we make mistakes and tell ya what we’re all going through something it shouldn’t matter what others think. I’ve been in a similar situation and it eats at ya heart thinking ur not able to change it. The only outcome different is it stays the same or you get her back. You got this
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I wish I lived somewhere where I could feel like a person (40)

1 Name: Vivi : 2025-03-11 16:45 ID:9IGBrvet [Del]

Deleted this in another thread and posting it here instead
I feel like a poser. I've been in a weird spot in life for the last 4, almost 5 months? I feel like I lack an identity or any sort of purpose. I have no means to express myself, people around me or way to pursue my goals. But I keep moving anyway, I keep finding things with meaning to me and I keep reminding myself of what I want to become. Because my purpose is to make it out of here. To move somewhere where I can express myself and have a shell to contain these, idk, shapeless goals and aspirations I have? I don't see a reason to exist, but there's a girl who loves me and wants us to live together. She's my hope and reminds me of my humanity. We live across the country and her life is so much better than mine, she's so much prettier than me and yet she still wants me there. Not just to rescue me, but because somehow a person like me can still bring value to her life. I can't ever stop looking up to her. But I want to be worth looking up to, too. I just need to keep praying and hoping that someday things will change and I can leave this mess I'm stuck in. Someday. As long as she's there on the other side of the screen, someday. Idk.

38 Name: Vivi : 2026-02-21 17:12 ID:mz6P7kzT [Del]

Time for an update. I decided to stay. I'm confronting the fact that she abused me, and working on it. I'm trying to get better and I'm confident I will! There's a girl I have a crush on, I might shoot my shot soon. I'm broke as fuck, unemployed and still homeless though :p but I moved to a new shelter! It's a lot better here and I actually feel like I can work on my traumas properly now.

I went out today and spend a portion of my dwindling cash supply on cd's and books. My new shelter is near a record store and a small downtown area. It's really nice, there's more homes and parks and places to go. I fit in a lot better in smaller places.

I'm worried about my head. 3 concussions in a row has had some awful side effects, I'm still recovering from the last one. I've decided to try to quit instagram and youtube for a bit because doomscrolling is only gonna make things worse. My life's starting to calm down in the right ways, my confidence is starting to manifest itself. I'm getting seen as a girl a lot more now, which surprises me. I still feel the same, but I know everything's changed. This is the first time in my life I've felt fully human. I still have a lot to learn.

Sick.

39 Name: Wolf_ren : 2026-02-22 01:49 ID:1n22wjV4 [Del]

Glad to hear things have gotten better for you ^w^ Swapping insta/YT for books and records is super neat, I wish I had the power to stop doomwcrolling ;-;

Used to be in a shelter myself, nice to hear yours is in a place that makes you feel good + you have access to things that make you happy, that first time feeling fully human is relatable as hell. I hope things only continue to improve for you ^w^

40 Name: Vivi : 2026-03-18 14:35 ID:+304uDUi [Del]

Update time. I'm about to talk to someone about how she treated me. I've realized that her being a part of my life has made it impossible for me to heal. I'm really disoriented right now from all the sleep I've been missing x_x ugh. But I've made the decision to cut multiple people out of my life in order to distance myself from her. She's started talking shit about me to other people and I just can't deal with that. I should've done something about this a long time ago but I couldn't with the way things went. I've matured enough to be able to look out for myself and set boundaries. I'm just scared of how she'll react to me talking about her to someone she knows. I'm doing what's best though!

I've been going a little insane lately. I wanna blame the head injury from a while back, I don't think I've healed properly x_x but I'm still kinda young, so there should be no problems in the long term if I take better care of myself. I've also been living in isolation. I finally have space to enjoy myself and play video games and listen to music and it's crazy to think that a comfortable life was once my major goal. I'm figuring out what I want to do next and now that I'm severing all connection to my abuser I might find some things I've been missing, whatever those might be. I've been in this weird state of hyper self awareness, I'm trying to work on how hard I've been repressing myself and my body image and oh golly I have a lot to work on '-w- turns out living your entire life indoors (usually sitting down) doesn't do good things for your body. I also found out I'm intersex recently, which alongside my childhood trauma explains a lot about how I've developed as a person and the way I've seen things. I realized that hrt didn't just help my mood, it actually gave me the proper hormones to grow up. It's kind of crazy to think about but I didn't have a puberty until around the time I started hrt lmao. I still feel mentally 17 but I'll get better (but I don't want to). I've spent my whole life in isolation, usually suffering from abuse. I wanna enjoy things the way I want to and if that doesn't look like a typical adult life then who gives a shit :U My abuser used to go out of her way to patronize me and make me feel bad for being the way I am and I still have to shed that.
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My Mathematics exam ☠️ (12)

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10 Name: Roma : 2024-01-22 05:50 ID:e6zdbCLO [Del]

i will be transfered to the hospital tomorrow for a lack of sleep and nutritions, this thread haunt me every night, i dont eat anymore because of it

11 Name: Roma : 2024-02-06 15:37 ID:tx90ASZN [Del]

3 weeks that i'm in this hospital, i'm gradually starting to sleep well again, they sent me a psychiatrist today to try to divert my thoughts from this math exam, I think I'm optimistic

12 Name: Nekomo !z7ocou51xc : 2026-03-14 03:27 ID:soNRzMde [Del]

Al parecer a mi yo de hace años le pareció buena idea escribir algo que ahora mismo no puedo recordar.
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Cansada de las mentiras en esta vida. (4)

1 Name: Nekomo : 2026-02-08 04:13 ID:xoAaMtuW [Del]

Hola, recién me vi envuelta en una situación un tanto... complicada. Soy una persona que cree plenamente que una relación (no necesariamente romántica) funciona en base al respeto y sobre todo confianza. Así como la otra persona confía en mi, yo debo de confiar en ella, si, entendiendo que algunas cosas es preferible no contarlas en X momento, pero tarde o temprano uno lo tendrá que decir, es en esos momentos donde realmente confiamos en la otra persona pero... ¿Qué sucede cuando aun así, la otra persona miente? ¿Te llevarías una decepción? ¿Es doloroso? ¿Te sentirías traicionado? Yo sentí todo eso y tal vez un poco mas cuando me vi envuelta en toda esta situación. Mi respeto, confianza, cariño y demás cosas, se convirtieron en ira... en odio hacia aquella persona.
Pero aun así, tengo una sonrisa en mi rostro y le digo "Todo estará bien" cuando realmente nada esta bien. Quisiera solo desaparecer y no volverlo a ver, olvidarme de esta persona y dejar todo atrás, pero no es fácil olvidar a alguien con quien pasaste buenos momentos, con quien compartiste tanto y a su vez nada... Todo era una fachada para acercarte a ti.
Fui una tonta al caer dos veces en el mismo truco, el no saber que es real y que realmente es verdad, cuando tu eras el más verdadero de ambos. Aun me duele pensar en esto, fue una puñalada directa al corazón. Cuando todo esto sucedió yo solo tenia una sonrisa falsa en mi rostro y repitiendo las mismas palabras "Todo estará bien" "Seguiremos con esto" "No te puedo odiar" Pero nada podía seguir igual... No se que hacer, esa persona llego a ser alguien importante para mi, no mentía cuando me preocupaba por el, no mentía cuando reíamos, no mentí en ningún aspecto... Pero el, decidió traicionarme... no tengo el suficiente coraje para decirle en la cara todo lo que he escrito aquí, lo único que puedo hacer es ahogarme en mi propio sufrimiento.
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2 Name: Nekomo : 2026-02-08 04:13 ID:xoAaMtuW [Del]

yo realmente, quiero morir...

3 Name: Marks : 2026-03-02 22:09 ID:V3hBOji7 [Del]

Si aún estás por aquí, me gustaría saber más sobre lo que pasó. No te conozco personalmente, pero eso no significa que debas desaparecer. Espero que puedas recibir este mensaje pronto.

4 Name: Nekomo !z7ocou51xc : 2026-03-14 03:24 ID:soNRzMde [Del]

Hola, soy la persona detrás de este hilo, las cosas mejoraron un poco después de escribir esto...
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Nearly hanging in life (3)

1 Name: Est : 2026-01-25 16:57 ID:hNBrVsZs [Del]

I don't understand why, but I feel so guilty whenever l open up about myself or my mental health. It's like I'm a negative person and some other stuffs. It makes me feel so pathetic.

2 Name: 1dolr : 2026-02-16 22:06 ID:4cC9iMyA [Del]

I hope nobody in your life is making you feel that way, but I get how it feels from within.

you're not a negative person. you're not pathetic. everyone struggles - not to minimize your feelings, but just to say, everyone has negative moments. its part of life. its totally fine to be in the dumps sometimes, esp if you're dealing with mental health issues.

maybe see if there's anyone in your life you can help a little. anyone you can make smile. anything you can do to brighten another's day. even a pet or a plant counts. make note of those things, each little one. write them down in a notebook, even, give yourself a physical record to look back on - and pat yourself on the back for them, cuz you deserve it. let them stack up, and congrats, you are, objectively, a positive influence on the world ! maybe that could combat the guilt, then. 'I've helped others a lot, I can give myself a break and be helped instead sometimes'

cuz it feels good to help other people. & /letting/ people help you back, even if it's only a tiny amount, lets them feel good about themselves, too. People connect through ALL emotions, not just happiness, yknow?

& always thank people for trying, even if they couldn't help you a whole lot. it's good to take a moment to acknowledge the effort. acknowledge that you're loved. even while sad. you'll prob feel a little better just for that, and the other person will too
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3 Name: Est : 2026-03-01 03:14 ID:TFVpFNoe [Del]

hey @1dolr thanks for this. some stuff you have mention so ive been doing that ever since 2019 when i met my bestfriend who i think of it as a family.

During my Highschool and Senior Highschool Days wayback ive always been used, fake friends even i want to hang out it, betrayed since then ive developed PTSD even finishing highschool when i enter Senior Highschool i was very independent on my own yet i still drop even 4 subjects left no issues on grades, im happy yet i felt something missing and i even questioned that day why did i dropout then developed depression with PTSD triggering.

Thats when 2019 comes in what i have mentioned etc. I really did my best and everything outcomes too yet during this year 2026 college im only 2 subjects left yet i cannot fufill its transfer school or continue due for issues the Dean and Chairprogram questioned hints me that its impossible now to finish.

The issues i have mentioned it started on December because of burnout from research yet this 3 members i have in groups are scared for the leader or stand up i couldnt even brin it to dean due it might backfired and it did happen ko January just WOW. Going back in burnout in December my bestfriend and i were playing yet gets mad on me even hurtful messages i just get down and shutdown thinking what i have done i just want to enjoy our momemts. Now in January i mentioned this problem yet the conversation gets thru chaotic even hurtful messages and bringing up past even the person is changed. I havent gone to school in the start of January till today now. I even used SWEAR for last chance because im going to set it right now this kind of situation and all. Because we shared the dream plans and goals as well.
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Letter to the girl who was once my sister (1)

1 Name: Angelus ex Machina : 2026-02-26 17:19 ID:+304uDUi [Del]

That was my home. My family, my dogs, my house, my sister. That was the one time in my life I had stability. It was cruel for you to treat me like that. After everything we did, everything your parents did for me, after you and them tried so hard to get me back to a stable proper life. You've become a horrible person, and your cruelty took away so much. I still can't see you the way you see me. I still see you as family in a way. That never got addressed. I never got the closure. I was only made to feel insecure about myself for whatever reason, and to feel like I lost my home because of "childishness." Fuck you :< I've been realizing that you never cared about me even when you said you did. But somehow, even after we stopped being close, you decided you could pet me because you want to, text me when you were h*rny for whatever reason, talk about your body in weird ways, get close to me randomly. Act unpredictably because you know I'll put up with whatever defense you make. It's so cruel. You're a horrible and disgusting person. I feel so taken advantage of. I wish I wasn't always so scared of you because I don't think you meant to hurt me. You're just immature.

I wish I could've said goodbye.
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Realizing your parents don't know anything (2)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2026-01-23 19:50 ID:AQ2GLkDA [Del]

Every now and then I realize that some of the things my mom say are just straight up lies. Like if she doesn't know an answer to a question, she'll just make it up. Or she'll see something on Facebook and call that a reliable source. Its annoying.

2 Name: Wolf_ren : 2026-02-22 01:52 ID:1n22wjV4 [Del]

Older generations really started out with "You can't believe stuff you read online, anyone could have made that up!" Only to turn around and swallow whatever charismatic influencer or ai has to say (but somehow still resort back to "the internet isn't trustworthy" When it comes to peer reviewed journals)
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