I like too many things and get all confused and hung up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion. - Jack Kerouac, On The Road

The world breaks us all. Afterward, some are stronger at the broken places." Ernest Hemingway- Farewell To Arms

Actual happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the overcompensations for misery. And of course stability isn't nearly so spectacular as instability. And being contented has none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand. - Aldous Huxley, Brave New World

Promise me you'll always remember: you're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." -A.A. Milne, Winne the Pooh

There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors. - Tennessee Williams

Why do we trust one another so little? I know there must be a reason, but still I sometimes think it's horrible that you find you can never really confide in people, even in those who are nearest to you. - Anne Frank

Because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart. -Anne Frank

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become. -Buddha

Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know. -Ernest Hemmingway

Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand. - Margery Williams, The Velveteen Rabbit

No explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant. - Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

Oh Miken. :(

I think sometimes I forget how hard it is to be a teenager. I read the melancholy, overly dramatic posts they put up on facebook (since I have a lot of my players on my friends list) and I think about how unbelievably hard it was to be that age. Sure, things have changed into a different kind of hard. Dealing with larger issues, like the economy, institutional discrimination, among other things, but I don't feel that thing that I used to feel. The second guessing of myself and who I am. I let myself be whoever I am in that moment and everything's a lot different now. I suppose lots of adults told me that this would happen and I'd "come into my own", but when you're a teenager and uncomfortable in your own skin, I think you really wonder if it'll ever be possible for you to feel like you fit somewhere. That who you are is okay, and possibly even good enough.

Being ambiguous in so many ways, I never really felt I fit quite right and most people couldn't deal with my life being so gray rather than black or white. I think that speaks volumes about where I grew up though. I'm still lost somewhere in the middle, but it feels more like exploring than wandering.

I guess this is all related to the bullying suicides of late, and knowing that had things been slightly different, less support or involvement in activities, I might have been one of those casualties... and I wasn't even bullied. I just felt lost.

I turned 28 yesterday and I'm happy.

Who needs this?

Tired. And not the sleepy kind.

I never write anymore, but I feel more now than ever.