I need to come back to here and my auto biographical blog before it's too late and everything gets erased before I can save it!!
Lady Dinah
Lady Dinah
On Facebook, everything is said then gone. Here they stay to be found later..... like a decade of my life is here!!!
Lady Dinah Lumley Donovon
Lady Dinah Lumley Donovon
Where i once trusted my thoughts and feelings.....
Sorry I avoided this space and you but 7 years back I was somehow ousted out of one half of my family.
I don't know why!!! I don't know what for.... misunderstand... or out and out lies from a cold hearted brat that cost me 7 or more years with my father whom isn't in the best health and nearly dead 2 years ago.... I discovered a year later after my beloved brother Jim's FIRST HEARTATTACK.
His second was stress trying to get everything lined up...a week but my mummie Cyndia Lumley passed away on August 2nd 2021... I finally got there.... but she never saw me... many Illegal activities go into this but in the end my mother's gone. I feel completely alone.
I'm sure I will have more to say later for those that give a shite.
Lady Dinah Lumley Donovon
I don't know why!!! I don't know what for.... misunderstand... or out and out lies from a cold hearted brat that cost me 7 or more years with my father whom isn't in the best health and nearly dead 2 years ago.... I discovered a year later after my beloved brother Jim's FIRST HEARTATTACK.
His second was stress trying to get everything lined up...a week but my mummie Cyndia Lumley passed away on August 2nd 2021... I finally got there.... but she never saw me... many Illegal activities go into this but in the end my mother's gone. I feel completely alone.
I'm sure I will have more to say later for those that give a shite.
Lady Dinah Lumley Donovon
- Current Music:April, come she will- Simon and Garfunkel
I thought you were caught up. I guess not. Ok below went to July.
To help you understand August, I should tell you, in all honesty, I began writing to the older female members of the Royal Family in 2016. Shadows were found in my breast so I had moure tests and a few weeks to think. The couple years before I had troubles with my family for reasons unknown. I think they think I lied when I told then my 13 sweet cousin from my mother's much younger half sister had been fatally bullied to death and 2 months before turning 14 or getting her first kiss, she kissed a gun.
The 4 boys that did it... made her life hell.. one couldn't take the guilt or the fact that as a Christian woman, my Auntie forgave then... and in his sophomore year, he too followed Shelby into a useless young grave.
So as I thought upon losing my niece (they were my cousin's but because I was there when most were born in my teens and adulthood, I always felt like there Auntie) and other family for unknown reasons, I made a list of people that I respected our changed me.... I sent out 35 or so letters half to England. I thanked George Harrison's widow for being his muse in all things musical, spiritual and romantic. I was so surprised when my short letter thanking her for bringing him joy was returned with her thanking me and a hindu blessing on my life.
Couldn't get better right? Until the next day when the Duke of Edinburgh wrote me. Yes I wrote the women (not Kate and there was no Meghan back then). But in British politeness, you MAY write a married man and not include the spouse of they are of age to be you grandfather. I was even later one of his last letter when he retired in 2017 and it was suddenly getting sentimental. He even had a lil nickname for me.
But when all the 6 women wrote back, 3 were obviously thank you how kind.
But 3 asked questions of my life. especially after a family gift I sent in '17 to Her Majesty for their 70th anniversary. They were photobooks throughout their life and 4 extra for the "kids."
By then I had gotten quite friendly with one though I started that I was writing 3 of them monthly... you know one a week. Also honours to the younger York Princess on birthdays and engagements, and when HM wrote me from Balmoral saying her daughter sends daughter in law we're just talking about how sweet and funny my letter were, that we thought we'd send you a letter while on holiday", I realized how far this had come. I even send my respect to the heir when talking to his wife and he will hilariously say write that I did a little jig in return.
2019s anniversary gift i did the same as 2 years before only instead of pics of then with their children when young and older, last year i did their 8 grandchildren. They loved them she said again I sent 6.
So the good news though the reasons are complicated and started off not through then but..
At dawn on my 40th birthday 5 months ago our buzzer kept going off until Robert said forget it,
But first flowers then gifts, then P and C boxes which I understand add half my mail in and our odds now private and confidential then more flowers... to Lady Dinah Z. Donovon.
Remember when in a scene or going by a side name I never went with Mistress or Domina or whatever.
I went by Lady. Because I knew no matter where I wad our what I did that I was a Lady inside Ann's that drove me.
Well people, I'm actually a legal Lady in the USA, UK oh, and I own land in these UK now so upon retiring, I'm taking my brother, my husband his mother and going home and see what I've got to work with.... my property is in the north, Which bye byes my desire to work for Cammie unless it's from home. So yes... the good news is unless I tell you, you much address me as Your Ladyship, ma'am, Lady Donovon. This my change I have many forms ro fill out and I want my best penpal to give her honest advice which i can depend on her to do.
We are stuck here 2 or 3 more years while my hubby finishes his next degree. He's already working as a drug and alcohol counsilor. After the degree he's working on, he will be wanted and needed everywhere especially in the United Kingdom.
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
The Bad news that i need a day or so ro write because i would give this ALL BACK AND ANYTHING IN THE FUTURE THAT GOD MY COME TO HAVE HIM BACK.......
MY DEAREST, SWEETEST, UNDERSTANDING, MOURE THAN A THERAPY DOG,
MILES DAVIS ECKMAN-DONOVON
DIED DURING A BLOOD TRANSFUSION AT
3:38 A.M RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, ON DECEMBER 15... 2 WEEKS AFTER TURNING EIGHT. I CAN'T HAVE THE DETAILS IN THE SAME POST. GIVE ME TIME.
To help you understand August, I should tell you, in all honesty, I began writing to the older female members of the Royal Family in 2016. Shadows were found in my breast so I had moure tests and a few weeks to think. The couple years before I had troubles with my family for reasons unknown. I think they think I lied when I told then my 13 sweet cousin from my mother's much younger half sister had been fatally bullied to death and 2 months before turning 14 or getting her first kiss, she kissed a gun.
The 4 boys that did it... made her life hell.. one couldn't take the guilt or the fact that as a Christian woman, my Auntie forgave then... and in his sophomore year, he too followed Shelby into a useless young grave.
So as I thought upon losing my niece (they were my cousin's but because I was there when most were born in my teens and adulthood, I always felt like there Auntie) and other family for unknown reasons, I made a list of people that I respected our changed me.... I sent out 35 or so letters half to England. I thanked George Harrison's widow for being his muse in all things musical, spiritual and romantic. I was so surprised when my short letter thanking her for bringing him joy was returned with her thanking me and a hindu blessing on my life.
Couldn't get better right? Until the next day when the Duke of Edinburgh wrote me. Yes I wrote the women (not Kate and there was no Meghan back then). But in British politeness, you MAY write a married man and not include the spouse of they are of age to be you grandfather. I was even later one of his last letter when he retired in 2017 and it was suddenly getting sentimental. He even had a lil nickname for me.
But when all the 6 women wrote back, 3 were obviously thank you how kind.
But 3 asked questions of my life. especially after a family gift I sent in '17 to Her Majesty for their 70th anniversary. They were photobooks throughout their life and 4 extra for the "kids."
By then I had gotten quite friendly with one though I started that I was writing 3 of them monthly... you know one a week. Also honours to the younger York Princess on birthdays and engagements, and when HM wrote me from Balmoral saying her daughter sends daughter in law we're just talking about how sweet and funny my letter were, that we thought we'd send you a letter while on holiday", I realized how far this had come. I even send my respect to the heir when talking to his wife and he will hilariously say write that I did a little jig in return.
2019s anniversary gift i did the same as 2 years before only instead of pics of then with their children when young and older, last year i did their 8 grandchildren. They loved them she said again I sent 6.
So the good news though the reasons are complicated and started off not through then but..
At dawn on my 40th birthday 5 months ago our buzzer kept going off until Robert said forget it,
But first flowers then gifts, then P and C boxes which I understand add half my mail in and our odds now private and confidential then more flowers... to Lady Dinah Z. Donovon.
Remember when in a scene or going by a side name I never went with Mistress or Domina or whatever.
I went by Lady. Because I knew no matter where I wad our what I did that I was a Lady inside Ann's that drove me.
Well people, I'm actually a legal Lady in the USA, UK oh, and I own land in these UK now so upon retiring, I'm taking my brother, my husband his mother and going home and see what I've got to work with.... my property is in the north, Which bye byes my desire to work for Cammie unless it's from home. So yes... the good news is unless I tell you, you much address me as Your Ladyship, ma'am, Lady Donovon. This my change I have many forms ro fill out and I want my best penpal to give her honest advice which i can depend on her to do.
We are stuck here 2 or 3 more years while my hubby finishes his next degree. He's already working as a drug and alcohol counsilor. After the degree he's working on, he will be wanted and needed everywhere especially in the United Kingdom.
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
The Bad news that i need a day or so ro write because i would give this ALL BACK AND ANYTHING IN THE FUTURE THAT GOD MY COME TO HAVE HIM BACK.......
MY DEAREST, SWEETEST, UNDERSTANDING, MOURE THAN A THERAPY DOG,
MILES DAVIS ECKMAN-DONOVON
DIED DURING A BLOOD TRANSFUSION AT
3:38 A.M RIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, ON DECEMBER 15... 2 WEEKS AFTER TURNING EIGHT. I CAN'T HAVE THE DETAILS IN THE SAME POST. GIVE ME TIME.
I thought I posted this is July.
Much has changed.
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I know I explained in private parts where I went and why.
Plus after for Gplus years, where I am now... Plus my children have a FB that I help with because their tiny paws.
I've gone through some health stuff but I'm about to kick arse finally. I'm turning fo....fo... You know that number after 39?!?
Well that will be me next month. I ask for no flowers, cards, or gifts, just a small donation to Miles fund, but most of all, please get it seen and shared.
I'm not just showing up asking for donations but in the pictures I think I have some of my two and a half year old Gracie, Miles, 7, little sister.
I will be back. I miss Google plus because it gave me an outlet and the fact that Miles is fighting a Tumor and we spent our nest egg of thousands to go to the best vet hospital with all the specialists and machines to get the mass images then Thousands more to get a biopsy that's incomplete, we had to do this... But you know what in six years he's been my service dog, and we got a DNA test because he's such a Beagle but mixed with what?
Turns out my boy has a Beagle grandparent who mated with an Italian Greyhound!!! But the other half?!?
He's a COLLIE!!! The description was exact but he looks like a Beagle/retriever. Maybe all the Collie parts are inside his little personality.
Gracie is an American Staffordshire Terrier and she KNOWS she's pretty. I've had self aware dogs but never ones that stop and admire themselves,... It's adorable.
After I stop being 39 on the 15th, Robert and I will hit our eleven year anniversary. All we want is Miles better. We could take him back to the hospital now because he took the last of the medicine last night but this place isn't just great, it's the ONLY PLACE and they don't bill, you have to give them like fourteen hundred UP FRONT etc. In three weeks we've raised a couple hundred. I hate charity but we paid six thousand for inconclusive test. Ironically, that's about what we paid to get Grace healthy, but she so healthy our regular vet can't believe it.
Twelve K in a year too everything away so this is our only option.
And if anyone thinks we are giving up on My Miles, not even halfway through life, they are mistaken. Robert said unless they are in pain or have no quality of life, they are staying and we are fighting as a family. Until he hurts and is ready to go to sleep.
They are family. And Robert and I believe NOTHING is as important. Peace, Love, Understanding, and FAMILY.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-esa-battle-a-tumor
I have videos of them I will try to get up ASAP.
PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF ATTENTION and share Miles' story/link if you can.
Dinah, Robert, Miles, Gracie
Much has changed.
*******************************
I know I explained in private parts where I went and why.
Plus after for Gplus years, where I am now... Plus my children have a FB that I help with because their tiny paws.
I've gone through some health stuff but I'm about to kick arse finally. I'm turning fo....fo... You know that number after 39?!?
Well that will be me next month. I ask for no flowers, cards, or gifts, just a small donation to Miles fund, but most of all, please get it seen and shared.
I'm not just showing up asking for donations but in the pictures I think I have some of my two and a half year old Gracie, Miles, 7, little sister.
I will be back. I miss Google plus because it gave me an outlet and the fact that Miles is fighting a Tumor and we spent our nest egg of thousands to go to the best vet hospital with all the specialists and machines to get the mass images then Thousands more to get a biopsy that's incomplete, we had to do this... But you know what in six years he's been my service dog, and we got a DNA test because he's such a Beagle but mixed with what?
Turns out my boy has a Beagle grandparent who mated with an Italian Greyhound!!! But the other half?!?
He's a COLLIE!!! The description was exact but he looks like a Beagle/retriever. Maybe all the Collie parts are inside his little personality.
Gracie is an American Staffordshire Terrier and she KNOWS she's pretty. I've had self aware dogs but never ones that stop and admire themselves,... It's adorable.
After I stop being 39 on the 15th, Robert and I will hit our eleven year anniversary. All we want is Miles better. We could take him back to the hospital now because he took the last of the medicine last night but this place isn't just great, it's the ONLY PLACE and they don't bill, you have to give them like fourteen hundred UP FRONT etc. In three weeks we've raised a couple hundred. I hate charity but we paid six thousand for inconclusive test. Ironically, that's about what we paid to get Grace healthy, but she so healthy our regular vet can't believe it.
Twelve K in a year too everything away so this is our only option.
And if anyone thinks we are giving up on My Miles, not even halfway through life, they are mistaken. Robert said unless they are in pain or have no quality of life, they are staying and we are fighting as a family. Until he hurts and is ready to go to sleep.
They are family. And Robert and I believe NOTHING is as important. Peace, Love, Understanding, and FAMILY.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-esa-battle-a-tumor
I have videos of them I will try to get up ASAP.
PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF ATTENTION and share Miles' story/link if you can.
Dinah, Robert, Miles, Gracie
I know I explained in private parts where I went and why.
Plus after for Gplus years, where I am now... Plus my children have a FB that I help with because their tiny paws.
I've gone through some health stuff but I'm about to kick arse finally. I'm turning fo....fo... You know that number after 39?!?
Well that will be me next month. I ask for no flowers, cards, or gifts, just a small donation to Miles fund, but most of all, please get it seen and shared.
I'm not just showing up asking for donations but in the pictures I think I have some of my two and a half year old Gracie, Miles, 7, little sister.
I will be back. I miss Google plus because it gave me an outlet and the fact that Miles is fighting a Tumor and we spent our nest egg of thousands to go to the best vet hospital with all the specialists and machines to get the mass images then Thousands more to get a biopsy that's incomplete, we had to do this... But you know what in six years he's been my service dog, and we got a DNA test because he's such a Beagle but mixed with what?
Turns out my boy has a Beagle grandparent who mated with an Italian Greyhound!!! But the other half?!?
He's a COLLIE!!! The description was exact but he looks like a Beagle/retriever. Maybe all the Collie parts are inside his little personality.
Gracie is an American Staffordshire Terrier and she KNOWS she's pretty. I've had self aware dogs but never ones that stop and admire themselves,... It's adorable.
After I stop being 39 on the 15th, Robert and I will hit our eleven year anniversary. All we want is Miles better. We could take him back to the hospital now because he took the last of the medicine last night but this place isn't just great, it's the ONLY PLACE and they don't bill, you have to give them like fourteen hundred UP FRONT etc. In three weeks we've raised a couple hundred. I hate charity but we paid six thousand for inconclusive test. Ironically, that's about what we paid to get Grace healthy, but she so healthy our regular vet can't believe it.
Twelve K in a year too everything away so this is our only option.
And if anyone thinks we are giving up on My Miles, not even halfway through life, they are mistaken. Robert said unless they are in pain or have no quality of life, they are staying and we are fighting as a family. Until he hurts and is ready to go to sleep.
They are family. And Robert and I believe NOTHING is as important. Peace, Love, Understanding, and FAMILY.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-esa-battle-a-tumor
I have videos of them I will try to get up ASAP.
PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF ATTENTION and share Miles' story/link if you can.
Dinah, Robert, Miles, Gracie
Plus after for Gplus years, where I am now... Plus my children have a FB that I help with because their tiny paws.
I've gone through some health stuff but I'm about to kick arse finally. I'm turning fo....fo... You know that number after 39?!?
Well that will be me next month. I ask for no flowers, cards, or gifts, just a small donation to Miles fund, but most of all, please get it seen and shared.
I'm not just showing up asking for donations but in the pictures I think I have some of my two and a half year old Gracie, Miles, 7, little sister.
I will be back. I miss Google plus because it gave me an outlet and the fact that Miles is fighting a Tumor and we spent our nest egg of thousands to go to the best vet hospital with all the specialists and machines to get the mass images then Thousands more to get a biopsy that's incomplete, we had to do this... But you know what in six years he's been my service dog, and we got a DNA test because he's such a Beagle but mixed with what?
Turns out my boy has a Beagle grandparent who mated with an Italian Greyhound!!! But the other half?!?
He's a COLLIE!!! The description was exact but he looks like a Beagle/retriever. Maybe all the Collie parts are inside his little personality.
Gracie is an American Staffordshire Terrier and she KNOWS she's pretty. I've had self aware dogs but never ones that stop and admire themselves,... It's adorable.
After I stop being 39 on the 15th, Robert and I will hit our eleven year anniversary. All we want is Miles better. We could take him back to the hospital now because he took the last of the medicine last night but this place isn't just great, it's the ONLY PLACE and they don't bill, you have to give them like fourteen hundred UP FRONT etc. In three weeks we've raised a couple hundred. I hate charity but we paid six thousand for inconclusive test. Ironically, that's about what we paid to get Grace healthy, but she so healthy our regular vet can't believe it.
Twelve K in a year too everything away so this is our only option.
And if anyone thinks we are giving up on My Miles, not even halfway through life, they are mistaken. Robert said unless they are in pain or have no quality of life, they are staying and we are fighting as a family. Until he hurts and is ready to go to sleep.
They are family. And Robert and I believe NOTHING is as important. Peace, Love, Understanding, and FAMILY.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-esa-battle-a-tumor
I have videos of them I will try to get up ASAP.
PLEASE FORGIVE MY LACK OF ATTENTION and share Miles' story/link if you can.
Dinah, Robert, Miles, Gracie
Happy New Year's and for starters,
2018 was so wowbobwow that My playlists had to be split into two parts: Jan thru June 2018.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgHzO3MPQVWqwrSQqupStzQTP6v9r8Xj3
Then July thru yesterday:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgHzO3MPQVWqdc8Nimv6AivhktLLFTl8k
Also most know I've a daughter now, Grace E. Goblynn. She's a beautiful girl that was beaten, sick, malnourished and about to be destroyed at EIGHT MONTHS. After four weeks and twelve trips to the pound, we came in an hour before close on transfer day... For she was to walk the green mile the following day.
Miles was almost six and needed a friend that didn't move our die yearly and Robert needed a doggie that looked at him the way Miles looks at Me. So we filled out Gracie's paperwork and they took her in the back room where they do shots and spaying and they get better treatment getting them ready for a forever home. She was still sick but a loan for the very and a mummie that cos homemade meals and from 17 the vet wanted her at forty. Next visit, I had her at 39.7 Pounds!!!
I don't know how to do pics here but they and more info shall Be Forthcoming.
For now HAPPY NEW YEAR, I MISS YOU, FIFTEEN YEARS AND HERE YOU STILL ARE.... SMILES...
2018 was so wowbobwow that My playlists had to be split into two parts: Jan thru June 2018.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgHzO3MPQVWqwrSQqupStzQTP6v9r8Xj3
Then July thru yesterday:
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgHzO3MPQVWqdc8Nimv6AivhktLLFTl8k
Also most know I've a daughter now, Grace E. Goblynn. She's a beautiful girl that was beaten, sick, malnourished and about to be destroyed at EIGHT MONTHS. After four weeks and twelve trips to the pound, we came in an hour before close on transfer day... For she was to walk the green mile the following day.
Miles was almost six and needed a friend that didn't move our die yearly and Robert needed a doggie that looked at him the way Miles looks at Me. So we filled out Gracie's paperwork and they took her in the back room where they do shots and spaying and they get better treatment getting them ready for a forever home. She was still sick but a loan for the very and a mummie that cos homemade meals and from 17 the vet wanted her at forty. Next visit, I had her at 39.7 Pounds!!!
I don't know how to do pics here but they and more info shall Be Forthcoming.
For now HAPPY NEW YEAR, I MISS YOU, FIFTEEN YEARS AND HERE YOU STILL ARE.... SMILES...
- Current Mood:
awake - Current Location:Blimey I'm in bed. How boring. Dogs snoring. Too sweet. I love it
- Current Music:New year's day/ Ruby Tuesday
Happy birthday RAZORNET.
SOMEDAY SOON I MUST GET BACK IN TOUCH WITH THE TEN OF YOU I CARE ABOUT THAT AREN'T ON GPLUS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED... BEING KIND, HONEST, MYSELF, LOVING, TRUTHFUL ETC HERE GOT ME BOOTED OUT OF MY FAMILY AND IF THEY just told me what the hell the issues is, I could prove my honest, genuine sincerity.
Maybe that's the issue. The man upstairs doesn't want anyone to believe me, about anything, just in case..,
Four years and I don't know if you're alive.,.
Anyway.
Many awesome things have happened to me. I've started a penpal relationship with two members of royalty and even gotten mail from Prince Philip and Her Majesty a couple times, most recently after I sent them and the four children a picture card of them getting married, I found colour stock. Then her and him looking lovingly into each other's eyes... Then the same look but recently.
Then I found the best picture of each of their kids.
Her Majesty and the other HRHs must have like it I got a beautiful thank you.
I got a response from Olivia Harrison too. After a bad health scare I made an a F it bucket list and started writing. I can't believe who wrote back.,
Miles turned six on the first,.
I rescued him a Staffordshire terrier sister. She's almost nine months. She was starting. Getting her healthy cost Nov and December's money. But she was on the list and was nine and skin. But she's not doing before she lived now and it's hard not to over feed her!!! But I'm doing ok, they say, you know. Second kid. Wink. Her name for many reasons in Grace.
SOMEDAY SOON I MUST GET BACK IN TOUCH WITH THE TEN OF YOU I CARE ABOUT THAT AREN'T ON GPLUS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED... BEING KIND, HONEST, MYSELF, LOVING, TRUTHFUL ETC HERE GOT ME BOOTED OUT OF MY FAMILY AND IF THEY just told me what the hell the issues is, I could prove my honest, genuine sincerity.
Maybe that's the issue. The man upstairs doesn't want anyone to believe me, about anything, just in case..,
Four years and I don't know if you're alive.,.
Anyway.
Many awesome things have happened to me. I've started a penpal relationship with two members of royalty and even gotten mail from Prince Philip and Her Majesty a couple times, most recently after I sent them and the four children a picture card of them getting married, I found colour stock. Then her and him looking lovingly into each other's eyes... Then the same look but recently.
Then I found the best picture of each of their kids.
Her Majesty and the other HRHs must have like it I got a beautiful thank you.
I got a response from Olivia Harrison too. After a bad health scare I made an a F it bucket list and started writing. I can't believe who wrote back.,
Miles turned six on the first,.
I rescued him a Staffordshire terrier sister. She's almost nine months. She was starting. Getting her healthy cost Nov and December's money. But she was on the list and was nine and skin. But she's not doing before she lived now and it's hard not to over feed her!!! But I'm doing ok, they say, you know. Second kid. Wink. Her name for many reasons in Grace.
https://youtu.be/qIqEqsJUCuk
We adopted our daughter yesterday for Miles sixth birthday . Miss Major Griffen Gracy.
Gracie.
We adopted our daughter yesterday for Miles sixth birthday . Miss Major Griffen Gracy.
Gracie.
#mylivejournal #lj18 #happybirthday
Even though due to family MISunderstandings, I stopped REALLY blogging here on the regular a few years ago. So these are stats for just a decade. Rad, Daddio. I miss you guys. 😢
I know I post so seldom here...
But friends, you're not forgotten. Even if I had to blog mostly elsewhere for My own piece of mind.
Most came but I miss those that didn't.
In less than a paragraph, between three and four years, family, blood, sweet and tears family either misread, misinterpreted or decided to lie and paint me as something I could never be.
I still love them. But unless they come to terms with themselves and the balderdash I've heard spewed right after, NOTHING I CAN DO CAN MAKE THEM SLEEP AT NIGHT.AND IF THEY DO SLEEP COZY AT NIGHT.....NOTHING THEY CAN DO WILL MAKE ME FEEL I'M NOT AROUND A SOCIOPATH.
I wish there were another word. But add it up and.....
My back is so much better than I dreamt but as I worried myself with mum and Jim and their bouts of Cancer, I'm happy to report that both are doing well after surgery and I'm so proud.
I found out today that while getting over a month long bout with bronchitis, I'm being denied the medicine needed....to cure one of my illnesses.
This is what occurs when at sixteen you start paying for your own doctors and dentists.
You have a parent that could do something but....they are busy working on family number whatever and unless new meds come soon...I'm going to have organ failure by forty or forty one.
I told I friend I was better (meaning this bronchitis) and he said so your fixed??
I laughed to myself.
I'm saying my cough is better and he jumps the gun and thinks I'm fixed.
"Fixed"
If I die, please let me live long enough to be w mum and Jim.
I always swore to my brother Jim is never leave him alone....
And I will be jealous but Robert's a baby. Let him find someone to laugh at those salty jokes a couple decades. Dogs, a sexy woman, maybe a child. I SAY I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT...BUT REALLY, I CAN'T STAND SWEET EMPTINESS AND HIM WITHOUT A WOMAN THAT WASHES DISHES AFTER HIS VEGGIE PASTA, LEAVES HIM NOTES IN HIS HOMEMADE LUNCHES... AND SOMEONE THAT LOVES HIM AND HE DOESN'T COMPARE TO ME.... OFTEN ANYWAY.
TTYL... HOPEFULLY DOCTOR WILL ASK FOR DIFFERENT MED AND THEY WILL SAY OK....
IF NOT AND I HAVE ONE WISH...FAMILY, FRIENDS, HUSBAND, AND AS ALWAYS MILES.
But friends, you're not forgotten. Even if I had to blog mostly elsewhere for My own piece of mind.
Most came but I miss those that didn't.
In less than a paragraph, between three and four years, family, blood, sweet and tears family either misread, misinterpreted or decided to lie and paint me as something I could never be.
I still love them. But unless they come to terms with themselves and the balderdash I've heard spewed right after, NOTHING I CAN DO CAN MAKE THEM SLEEP AT NIGHT.AND IF THEY DO SLEEP COZY AT NIGHT.....NOTHING THEY CAN DO WILL MAKE ME FEEL I'M NOT AROUND A SOCIOPATH.
I wish there were another word. But add it up and.....
My back is so much better than I dreamt but as I worried myself with mum and Jim and their bouts of Cancer, I'm happy to report that both are doing well after surgery and I'm so proud.
I found out today that while getting over a month long bout with bronchitis, I'm being denied the medicine needed....to cure one of my illnesses.
This is what occurs when at sixteen you start paying for your own doctors and dentists.
You have a parent that could do something but....they are busy working on family number whatever and unless new meds come soon...I'm going to have organ failure by forty or forty one.
I told I friend I was better (meaning this bronchitis) and he said so your fixed??
I laughed to myself.
I'm saying my cough is better and he jumps the gun and thinks I'm fixed.
"Fixed"
If I die, please let me live long enough to be w mum and Jim.
I always swore to my brother Jim is never leave him alone....
And I will be jealous but Robert's a baby. Let him find someone to laugh at those salty jokes a couple decades. Dogs, a sexy woman, maybe a child. I SAY I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT...BUT REALLY, I CAN'T STAND SWEET EMPTINESS AND HIM WITHOUT A WOMAN THAT WASHES DISHES AFTER HIS VEGGIE PASTA, LEAVES HIM NOTES IN HIS HOMEMADE LUNCHES... AND SOMEONE THAT LOVES HIM AND HE DOESN'T COMPARE TO ME.... OFTEN ANYWAY.
TTYL... HOPEFULLY DOCTOR WILL ASK FOR DIFFERENT MED AND THEY WILL SAY OK....
IF NOT AND I HAVE ONE WISH...FAMILY, FRIENDS, HUSBAND, AND AS ALWAYS MILES.
https://www.gofundme.com/cancer-dad-plz-1-xmas-w-daughter
My mum is in a four month remission stage... I started to tell her yes!!! But she said oh honey.... I'm so sorry you can't just enjoy this.
I'm calling from your brother's hospital room.
Please read the rest...
If you can't donate that's ok but please, Twitter, Facebook, get it out!!!
I have no FB and Jim won't put it up.... Because it would scare people especially the little girl of his ex that he raised.
Spread this... his is more aggressive and is spreading.
Just get the word out.. he wants to see her one more Christmas. Yes my fund is still up to see him but that's my problem.
Every dollar helps but every time it's on social media helps too!!!
My mum is in a four month remission stage... I started to tell her yes!!! But she said oh honey.... I'm so sorry you can't just enjoy this.
I'm calling from your brother's hospital room.
Please read the rest...
If you can't donate that's ok but please, Twitter, Facebook, get it out!!!
I have no FB and Jim won't put it up.... Because it would scare people especially the little girl of his ex that he raised.
Spread this... his is more aggressive and is spreading.
Just get the word out.. he wants to see her one more Christmas. Yes my fund is still up to see him but that's my problem.
Every dollar helps but every time it's on social media helps too!!!
https://www.gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
Forgive me... I can't think of anything but overwhelming fear and feeling so alone...
Sorry this is all I feel I am now.. worried. Scared.
Forgive me... I can't think of anything but overwhelming fear and feeling so alone...
Sorry this is all I feel I am now.. worried. Scared.
Gues wot! We r going to Nana's next week or something like that. Mummie said in less that s couple weeks!!
An Nana gibs me treats and uncle gives me snacks and visitors to my Nana's sick bed pat me and give me food and then i still get the speciality super dooper just for you sir meals mum makes.
My girlfriend has a pic of Me thin like now but don't tell Maggie I'm gonna eat everything.
I'm a beatle....bEATle...bEAGle?
Mum loves us both!¡
From Miles the dog.
Ps the doctor took me on the TARDIS to the spirit of st Louis to learn to fly from chuck lindberg and i got proof!!!
The doctor said said dapper dogs and chuck put his arm around me cause he was flying and the doctor took the pick so if have proof for mum's birthday!!! See
An Nana gibs me treats and uncle gives me snacks and visitors to my Nana's sick bed pat me and give me food and then i still get the speciality super dooper just for you sir meals mum makes.
My girlfriend has a pic of Me thin like now but don't tell Maggie I'm gonna eat everything.
I'm a beatle....bEATle...bEAGle?
Mum loves us both!¡
From Miles the dog.
Ps the doctor took me on the TARDIS to the spirit of st Louis to learn to fly from chuck lindberg and i got proof!!!
The doctor said said dapper dogs and chuck put his arm around me cause he was flying and the doctor took the pick so if have proof for mum's birthday!!! See
I'm leaving in A few weeks to sing hello, goodbye to my mother...
https://www.gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom 😘
Any donations get a kickarse postcard from Tampa!!
This month, someone in India stole all for hundred dollar i get while back heals. They did it BEFORE the life insurance I pay to help mum got paid. I can pay two payments next month leaving me with nothing plus oh yes since I've filled a fraud claims. I HAVE no money
ROBERT, finally told me someone was trying to guess password... they are all changed.
At least i had a couple hundred on the fundraiser (they don't tell you that we get mine percent or put that you paid seven hundred in airline tickets to my mother's.
But then they FROZE THE ACCOUNT BECAUSE A WOMAN gee i wonder who ....i have sooooo many enemies
::Rolls Eyes::
.
Contacted them to day it was sz Lie... A HOAX AND I HAD NO SICK MOTHER AND WAS ON IT FOR MONEY?!!!
AFTER LESS THAN A DAY OF RESEARCH THEY APOLOGIZED AND THEIR RESEARCHE showed SURPRISE!!
WE ARE TELLING THE TRUTH!!!
ANYWAY SO THAT'S BEEN MY MONTH...
LISTEN OLD MENOPAUSAL BITCHES OTHER THAN LACKING MONEY AND LOSING MY MOTHER, LIFR FOR me is too peaceful and happy to think up or have the time to think up ways to be evil and hurt my fellow brothers and sisters.
Your soul must be so black and ugly
https://www.gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom 😘
Any donations get a kickarse postcard from Tampa!!
This month, someone in India stole all for hundred dollar i get while back heals. They did it BEFORE the life insurance I pay to help mum got paid. I can pay two payments next month leaving me with nothing plus oh yes since I've filled a fraud claims. I HAVE no money
ROBERT, finally told me someone was trying to guess password... they are all changed.
At least i had a couple hundred on the fundraiser (they don't tell you that we get mine percent or put that you paid seven hundred in airline tickets to my mother's.
But then they FROZE THE ACCOUNT BECAUSE A WOMAN gee i wonder who ....i have sooooo many enemies
::Rolls Eyes::
.
Contacted them to day it was sz Lie... A HOAX AND I HAD NO SICK MOTHER AND WAS ON IT FOR MONEY?!!!
AFTER LESS THAN A DAY OF RESEARCH THEY APOLOGIZED AND THEIR RESEARCHE showed SURPRISE!!
WE ARE TELLING THE TRUTH!!!
ANYWAY SO THAT'S BEEN MY MONTH...
LISTEN OLD MENOPAUSAL BITCHES OTHER THAN LACKING MONEY AND LOSING MY MOTHER, LIFR FOR me is too peaceful and happy to think up or have the time to think up ways to be evil and hurt my fellow brothers and sisters.
Your soul must be so black and ugly
A week or so ago someone called my fundraiser for My mother a HOAX
(THIS ONE THAT MY HUSBAND WROTE)
gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
Because I made her a moderator on one of My sites and was trying to help this amazing man. Over the course of a couple months we became friends..... and I was there for him or tried to be. And in thanks and because he knew how much mum means to me he brought it to goal. Amazing!!!!! I even call this girl sobbing that he gave b me almost eight hundred dollars to see my mum who is finally getting a break from chemo until test on October.
She must have been jealous because next this I know I'm being told she has My SWEET ANGELIC MOTHER ALL OVER THE INTERNET SAYING IT WAS A HOAX I WAS A LIAR, I"DID THIS HOAX LAST YEAR".
NO, WHEN SHE GOT CANCER I DID A FUNDRAISER TO SEE HER AFTER THEY REMOVED HER BREASTS.
MY HUSBAND STARTED THIS ONE WHEN MY BROTHER CALLED THIS YEAR AFTER MONTHS OF CHEMO SAYING MUM WAS GETTING THINNER AND WORSE AND I BETTER GET MY ARSE TO FLORIDA.
SAME ILLNESS LADY!!
SO THEY TOOK OFF EIGHT PERCENT OF MY GENEROUS FRIENDS DONATION AND IN THE four years since I've bought tickets. Prices doubled. Doesn't help that I'm going in August... To FLORIDA.
WE COULDN'T AFFORD TO FLY TO TAMPA.So I played with days and still.... Tried maybe Amtrack?!
Finally the ONLY WAY TO GET TO MY MUMMIE WAS TO HAVE HIS MOTHER drive is a day later and get us earlier from ANOTHER STATE!!!! WE HAVE TO LEAVE OUT OF D.C.!!!
YET THIS BITCH IS TELLING PEOPLE I'M A SCAM ARTIST AND COULD FLY THERE AND BACK A FEEEEW times!!!!
I wish that were so. THIS MIGHT BE MUM'S LAST HOLIDAY SEASON!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
BAD ENOUGH RIGHT?! I LAUGH AT HOW STUPIDLY UPSET I WAS AT THAT!! I GET A VERY VERY SMALL DISABILITY FOR ALL THE SURGERIES AND SPINAL AND LEG SHITE AND IT'S HALF WHAT THE LAWYER SAID THE JUDGE AWARDED ME BUT NO AMOUNT OF GOING TO SOCIAL SECURITY HELPS.
HALF OF THE money I get off the TOP goes to my mother's life insurence which she couldn't pay in chemo and I took over. Forty goes to a lawyer.
I'm left with less than two hundred. TOO FEED A SIX FOOT SIX collage student, A dog and A cat I'm allergic to but could bare to have put down.
Toiletries. CLEANING SUPPLIES, SOAP, TOILET PAPER. PETROL. MEDICINE.
I GO HUNGRY OFTEN AND WEAR THINGS UNTIL THEY FALL OFF.
MY DOG HAS A BETTER DIET AND WARDROBE THAN ME AND I WILL HAVE IT NO OTHER WAY. POINT PLEASE....
I called to make sure they took mum's insurence out. They put be on hold. I tell Robert they haven't done that in a few months since those people spend the rest of My money in a Vegas Resort getting umbrella drinks and a new card with BETTER PROTECTION FEATURES was issued......
THAT'S WHEN SOMEONE COMES ON AND AND OF I MADE ANY ONLINE PURCHASES FROM EBAY. I'VE NEVER USED EBAY.
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
EBAY INDIA EMPTIED MY ENTIRE
ACCOUNT BUT ELEVEN CENTS.
BEFORE I BOUGHT FOoD FOR THE ANIMALS, miles meds, food FOR US AND BEFORE MY MOTHER'S LIFE INSURENCE CAME OUT.
I TRIED EVERY ONE AT METLIFE but NOBODY WILL BE THERE UNTIL AFTER YOU PEOPLE CELEBRATE leaving king and crown!!!
--_------__---_-_--__-_--
So believe it or not be careful.
SOMEONE IN INDIA MAY STEAL EVERYTHING YOU HAVE!!!!
LAUGH AWAY KARNA. I'VE NOTHING ON DISABILITY AND SEVENTY FOUR dollars on A fund that claims A thousand because it doesn't go down when tickets or things for the trip are bought!!
(THIS ONE THAT MY HUSBAND WROTE)
gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
Because I made her a moderator on one of My sites and was trying to help this amazing man. Over the course of a couple months we became friends..... and I was there for him or tried to be. And in thanks and because he knew how much mum means to me he brought it to goal. Amazing!!!!! I even call this girl sobbing that he gave b me almost eight hundred dollars to see my mum who is finally getting a break from chemo until test on October.
She must have been jealous because next this I know I'm being told she has My SWEET ANGELIC MOTHER ALL OVER THE INTERNET SAYING IT WAS A HOAX I WAS A LIAR, I"DID THIS HOAX LAST YEAR".
NO, WHEN SHE GOT CANCER I DID A FUNDRAISER TO SEE HER AFTER THEY REMOVED HER BREASTS.
MY HUSBAND STARTED THIS ONE WHEN MY BROTHER CALLED THIS YEAR AFTER MONTHS OF CHEMO SAYING MUM WAS GETTING THINNER AND WORSE AND I BETTER GET MY ARSE TO FLORIDA.
SAME ILLNESS LADY!!
SO THEY TOOK OFF EIGHT PERCENT OF MY GENEROUS FRIENDS DONATION AND IN THE four years since I've bought tickets. Prices doubled. Doesn't help that I'm going in August... To FLORIDA.
WE COULDN'T AFFORD TO FLY TO TAMPA.So I played with days and still.... Tried maybe Amtrack?!
Finally the ONLY WAY TO GET TO MY MUMMIE WAS TO HAVE HIS MOTHER drive is a day later and get us earlier from ANOTHER STATE!!!! WE HAVE TO LEAVE OUT OF D.C.!!!
YET THIS BITCH IS TELLING PEOPLE I'M A SCAM ARTIST AND COULD FLY THERE AND BACK A FEEEEW times!!!!
I wish that were so. THIS MIGHT BE MUM'S LAST HOLIDAY SEASON!!
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
BAD ENOUGH RIGHT?! I LAUGH AT HOW STUPIDLY UPSET I WAS AT THAT!! I GET A VERY VERY SMALL DISABILITY FOR ALL THE SURGERIES AND SPINAL AND LEG SHITE AND IT'S HALF WHAT THE LAWYER SAID THE JUDGE AWARDED ME BUT NO AMOUNT OF GOING TO SOCIAL SECURITY HELPS.
HALF OF THE money I get off the TOP goes to my mother's life insurence which she couldn't pay in chemo and I took over. Forty goes to a lawyer.
I'm left with less than two hundred. TOO FEED A SIX FOOT SIX collage student, A dog and A cat I'm allergic to but could bare to have put down.
Toiletries. CLEANING SUPPLIES, SOAP, TOILET PAPER. PETROL. MEDICINE.
I GO HUNGRY OFTEN AND WEAR THINGS UNTIL THEY FALL OFF.
MY DOG HAS A BETTER DIET AND WARDROBE THAN ME AND I WILL HAVE IT NO OTHER WAY. POINT PLEASE....
I called to make sure they took mum's insurence out. They put be on hold. I tell Robert they haven't done that in a few months since those people spend the rest of My money in a Vegas Resort getting umbrella drinks and a new card with BETTER PROTECTION FEATURES was issued......
THAT'S WHEN SOMEONE COMES ON AND AND OF I MADE ANY ONLINE PURCHASES FROM EBAY. I'VE NEVER USED EBAY.
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
EBAY INDIA EMPTIED MY ENTIRE
ACCOUNT BUT ELEVEN CENTS.
BEFORE I BOUGHT FOoD FOR THE ANIMALS, miles meds, food FOR US AND BEFORE MY MOTHER'S LIFE INSURENCE CAME OUT.
I TRIED EVERY ONE AT METLIFE but NOBODY WILL BE THERE UNTIL AFTER YOU PEOPLE CELEBRATE leaving king and crown!!!
--_------__---_-_--__-_--
So believe it or not be careful.
SOMEONE IN INDIA MAY STEAL EVERYTHING YOU HAVE!!!!
LAUGH AWAY KARNA. I'VE NOTHING ON DISABILITY AND SEVENTY FOUR dollars on A fund that claims A thousand because it doesn't go down when tickets or things for the trip are bought!!
http://gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
I can't think...I barely eat.. just worry!!! Fear lives in my gut.
I hate this ugly fucking disease. It teases you, plays with you, like a Sadistic cat with a wounded mouse
Anyway.. Sorry.
I can't think...I barely eat.. just worry!!! Fear lives in my gut.
I hate this ugly fucking disease. It teases you, plays with you, like a Sadistic cat with a wounded mouse
Anyway.. Sorry.
Http://gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
They are now checking a third place on mum.,. Like it's spreadinh faster than she can take in the Chemo.
Happy mother's day to you...
Please call and tell your mother EVERYTHING NOW. SEND ALL YOUR LOVE IN A CALL NOT A FLOWERBOX.
NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE YOU ADD MUCH AS THAT WOMAN DOES. CHERISH HER EVERY MINUTE SHE'S ALIVE.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY FROM DINAH AND HER MOTHER..
They are now checking a third place on mum.,. Like it's spreadinh faster than she can take in the Chemo.
Happy mother's day to you...
Please call and tell your mother EVERYTHING NOW. SEND ALL YOUR LOVE IN A CALL NOT A FLOWERBOX.
NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE YOU ADD MUCH AS THAT WOMAN DOES. CHERISH HER EVERY MINUTE SHE'S ALIVE.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY FROM DINAH AND HER MOTHER..
http://gofundme.com/dinahlovesmom
Seriously, Ashley, John, you have both helped more than anybody. Go get yourself something nice for you!!! Karma said so, :-)
Seriously, Ashley, John, you have both helped more than anybody. Go get yourself something nice for you!!! Karma said so, :-)
http://Https//www.gofundme.com/SendDinahToMum
Though it's empty and has ten or so dollars on it now, Miles has had most of his shots and needs one more before getting his certification, then registration to fly to see mum with us. Together both should take 100-150.
Then we are ready and when the call comes, we will just need to have enough money aside for two round tickets for Robert and me to be with mum and back. Hopefully a couple times next year!! She has chemo until at least April. It's sadly wiping her out but she's excited we only have to raise five hundred before another visit and not five TIMES that.
Beyond that, though the pain is rough, I'm forcing my back to strengthen so a healthy baby is in our immediate future. It's hell on a woman's body anyway but on mine... But I want to take the extra measure and steps. This child will KNOW how long we waited and went through to bring them into the world and will not doubt our love when they see the planning that went into their being.... The second... Even though will probably be adopted... Will know "we planned and chose you too... Before you were even born,.."
That's about all. Family on the brain. Family whose light is starting to flicker yet lives on forever inside ME... And family I've yet to name or meet but I'm in love with just the same. I used to laugh at women like me... For "giving it all up". Now I have PROFOUND RESPECT. Those women didn't give it all up.... They gave it all TO...... And isn't that what that hokey pokey is all about?!?
Happy fill in the blank..
Robert, Dinah, and Miles
Though it's empty and has ten or so dollars on it now, Miles has had most of his shots and needs one more before getting his certification, then registration to fly to see mum with us. Together both should take 100-150.
Then we are ready and when the call comes, we will just need to have enough money aside for two round tickets for Robert and me to be with mum and back. Hopefully a couple times next year!! She has chemo until at least April. It's sadly wiping her out but she's excited we only have to raise five hundred before another visit and not five TIMES that.
Beyond that, though the pain is rough, I'm forcing my back to strengthen so a healthy baby is in our immediate future. It's hell on a woman's body anyway but on mine... But I want to take the extra measure and steps. This child will KNOW how long we waited and went through to bring them into the world and will not doubt our love when they see the planning that went into their being.... The second... Even though will probably be adopted... Will know "we planned and chose you too... Before you were even born,.."
That's about all. Family on the brain. Family whose light is starting to flicker yet lives on forever inside ME... And family I've yet to name or meet but I'm in love with just the same. I used to laugh at women like me... For "giving it all up". Now I have PROFOUND RESPECT. Those women didn't give it all up.... They gave it all TO...... And isn't that what that hokey pokey is all about?!?
Happy fill in the blank..
Robert, Dinah, and Miles
Mommy... member win u said i should ALWAYS tell u if i had 2 go potty no mater da time???
"Of course baby!!"
Eben if it wuz weally cold?!
"Absolutely sweetie, no matter how cold or late, mummie will always take you for walkies...."
Ummmmm.... Iz it...uhh...can wee uh....
"Miles honey just say it real quick, it will be OK...."
Itz two in the dark and twenty D-grreese. Will u ask daddy too watch us frum the when-dough???
"Of course baby!!"
Eben if it wuz weally cold?!
"Absolutely sweetie, no matter how cold or late, mummie will always take you for walkies...."
Ummmmm.... Iz it...uhh...can wee uh....
"Miles honey just say it real quick, it will be OK...."
Itz two in the dark and twenty D-grreese. Will u ask daddy too watch us frum the when-dough???
( Sorry I blog mostly where people don't attack me these days..Collapse )
Happy Holidays (Yes, the Tiffany's style art deco lamp Ro got fit me is our "tree". DEAL!!! lol)
Happy Holidays (Yes, the Tiffany's style art deco lamp Ro got fit me is our "tree". DEAL!!! lol)
- Current Music:Goodnight Sweetheart (lullaby)
Mum's friend calls me.. Tells me they changed it to 24 rounds of chemo... Her doctor won't return calls... She has two kinds of expensive insurance that takes so much of the little money she can make in her condition..,
Now, with the port in ready for meds, they want 300 dollars a session!!!
She needed this started last month!!!!
So the 'well off' get to LIVE and the good and generous die as DOCTORS count money, not living patients...
FUCK FUCK FUCK
what can i give? What won't i trade? What will i do if....
Give Me The Pen!!
TWO YEARS...THREE... FIVE..
TEN YEARS OFF MY LIFE FOR HER TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY FOR TWO!??
COME ON, DEATH, NEGOTIATE?!
WHAT WANT YOU WITH A FRAIL, ELDERLY LADY WISE IN MIND YET FADING IN BODY??!
AND WHY SO SILENT, THAT WHICH CALLS ITSELF GRIM REAPER? SILENT AS A FINAL BREATH BUT WITH A PRESENCE AS TELLING AS ANY OTHER BODILY APPERITION.
COME ON, DON'T BE SHY. MAKE A DEAL WITH ME... AT LEAST SIT AT THE CARD TABLE... I CAN SENSE YOUR WEARINESS.... PLACE A BET...
just let my mother go free from your gaze and never feel your grasp...
We can be friends, you and I.
If you.... Just give me what I ask.
+++++±±++++++±+++
https://www.gofundme.com/SendDinahToMum
Now, with the port in ready for meds, they want 300 dollars a session!!!
She needed this started last month!!!!
So the 'well off' get to LIVE and the good and generous die as DOCTORS count money, not living patients...
FUCK FUCK FUCK
what can i give? What won't i trade? What will i do if....
Give Me The Pen!!
TWO YEARS...THREE... FIVE..
TEN YEARS OFF MY LIFE FOR HER TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY FOR TWO!??
COME ON, DEATH, NEGOTIATE?!
WHAT WANT YOU WITH A FRAIL, ELDERLY LADY WISE IN MIND YET FADING IN BODY??!
AND WHY SO SILENT, THAT WHICH CALLS ITSELF GRIM REAPER? SILENT AS A FINAL BREATH BUT WITH A PRESENCE AS TELLING AS ANY OTHER BODILY APPERITION.
COME ON, DON'T BE SHY. MAKE A DEAL WITH ME... AT LEAST SIT AT THE CARD TABLE... I CAN SENSE YOUR WEARINESS.... PLACE A BET...
just let my mother go free from your gaze and never feel your grasp...
We can be friends, you and I.
If you.... Just give me what I ask.
+++++±±++++++±+++
https://www.gofundme.com/SendDinahToMum
Mum is bad.. Even worse than she let's on. My therapist (yes, when my 13 year old niece took her life, I didn't reach for a drink or pill as I would have fifteen years ago... I called a shrink.... I love that people think I'm so horrible and my therapist even thinks I'm one of the most compassionate) wrote me a letter saying in her professional opinion, Miles acts as a tranquilizer for me and therefore should be an E.S.A.
Yay!! His vet said he is the sweetest calmest little guy and after he gets his last shot and everything, she too will recomend him, so Thank Dog (my fundraisers say) because instead of needing to raise all that money and wasted time getting to mum and back, a few hundred regulating him and making sure he's in the national registry and then when mum is bad, just a few hundred to fly round trip cuz Miles flies free as any Service Dog.
(I highly recommend, especially with cold months coming that you avoid puppy mills and buying an animal and save ones life. I reached Miles but he rescued me back. Get them out of the winter weather and if you take meds for whatever your doctor might see a marked improvement, perhaps lessoning or taking you off medicine. Petting Miles, making his meals, walking him I'd more calming for me than anything else. Just a thought, if you have the room and time, open your home up to an animal and you will be loved FOREVER!!
Next week marks a year since Shelby shot herself. Then a brief reprive and the month of DOOM... November. I always hated it as a teen I was tape in November. But then David died on the first five years ago, which is also the bday of one of the twigs on the looney and crackerjackedcrazed branches of the "family" tree. Tomorrow marks the anniversary of Jonathon's murder.…who was born November 5th.... Shelby was the 25 and Aunt Lea would have been the 27th.
Now I understand why mum wanted me to come again then. But it was too soon. I told her I must raise more funds, deal with MY health and Robert can NOT put of one more class!!! I'm getting to old to put off motherhood anymore. There are like the things about that sentence I would have gagged at a decade ago...
Early November also marks when that branch became rotten out of the clear blue a couple years back. Those in the know say not to waste my sweetness and love on such people... But driving back up north, this song by The Police came on... And.... It (the wound of family ties ripped out like hairs by the folicle) got to me, and hot tears told me I DID still care.... In here... Somewhere.
https://youtu.be/ePwjipxjAmA
Police – Message
Just a cast away an island lost at sea-o
Another lonely day, no one here but me-o
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair-o
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but love can break your heart
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Oh message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Walked out this morning I don't believe what I saw
A hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems I'm not alone in being alone
A hundred billion castaways looking for a home
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle whoa
Message in a bottle yeah
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
I'm sending out an S.O.S.
I'm sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
As for my kid....
Smiling Miles!!: https://youtu.be/atjoZPej_VI
Yay!! His vet said he is the sweetest calmest little guy and after he gets his last shot and everything, she too will recomend him, so Thank Dog (my fundraisers say) because instead of needing to raise all that money and wasted time getting to mum and back, a few hundred regulating him and making sure he's in the national registry and then when mum is bad, just a few hundred to fly round trip cuz Miles flies free as any Service Dog.
(I highly recommend, especially with cold months coming that you avoid puppy mills and buying an animal and save ones life. I reached Miles but he rescued me back. Get them out of the winter weather and if you take meds for whatever your doctor might see a marked improvement, perhaps lessoning or taking you off medicine. Petting Miles, making his meals, walking him I'd more calming for me than anything else. Just a thought, if you have the room and time, open your home up to an animal and you will be loved FOREVER!!
Next week marks a year since Shelby shot herself. Then a brief reprive and the month of DOOM... November. I always hated it as a teen I was tape in November. But then David died on the first five years ago, which is also the bday of one of the twigs on the looney and crackerjackedcrazed branches of the "family" tree. Tomorrow marks the anniversary of Jonathon's murder.…who was born November 5th.... Shelby was the 25 and Aunt Lea would have been the 27th.
Now I understand why mum wanted me to come again then. But it was too soon. I told her I must raise more funds, deal with MY health and Robert can NOT put of one more class!!! I'm getting to old to put off motherhood anymore. There are like the things about that sentence I would have gagged at a decade ago...
Early November also marks when that branch became rotten out of the clear blue a couple years back. Those in the know say not to waste my sweetness and love on such people... But driving back up north, this song by The Police came on... And.... It (the wound of family ties ripped out like hairs by the folicle) got to me, and hot tears told me I DID still care.... In here... Somewhere.
https://youtu.be/ePwjipxjAmA
Police – Message
Just a cast away an island lost at sea-o
Another lonely day, no one here but me-o
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair-o
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but love can break your heart
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Oh message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Walked out this morning I don't believe what I saw
A hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems I'm not alone in being alone
A hundred billion castaways looking for a home
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I'll send an S.O.S. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle yeah
Message in a bottle whoa
Message in a bottle yeah
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
I'm sending out an S.O.S.
I'm sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
Sending out an S.O.S.
As for my kid....
Smiling Miles!!: https://youtu.be/atjoZPej_VI
http://www.gofundme.com/SendDinahToMum
As the above shows... It's not over yet.... I thought it would be which is why I promised to try to restart my help column/ postsecrets.
But since my health plus mum's leaves me with so little time for others, i would rather apologize and come back on when I can give YOU MY ALL, than claim I'm with you and listening when my mind is not focusing.
You ALL deserve better than that.
As soon as I have the time to give and focus on others, the column will continue.
Until then, hope Robert and I have a happy seventh year anniversary tomorrow and wish good health and recovery for my mother who is about to start 18 weeks of chemo.
Love to all. Love each other.
Dinah and Family
As the above shows... It's not over yet.... I thought it would be which is why I promised to try to restart my help column/ postsecrets.
But since my health plus mum's leaves me with so little time for others, i would rather apologize and come back on when I can give YOU MY ALL, than claim I'm with you and listening when my mind is not focusing.
You ALL deserve better than that.
As soon as I have the time to give and focus on others, the column will continue.
Until then, hope Robert and I have a happy seventh year anniversary tomorrow and wish good health and recovery for my mother who is about to start 18 weeks of chemo.
Love to all. Love each other.
Dinah and Family
http://www.gofundme.com/senddinahtomum
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I did as much as I could but my mother is worse than I'm ready to discuss.... I just am going to have to go back in months. So keeping fundraiser open until my birthday... Almost home.... Thank all that helped. She tried making a video to thank you and cried so much I just told her I would express her feelings. And mine. Xoxo
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I did as much as I could but my mother is worse than I'm ready to discuss.... I just am going to have to go back in months. So keeping fundraiser open until my birthday... Almost home.... Thank all that helped. She tried making a video to thank you and cried so much I just told her I would express her feelings. And mine. Xoxo
I know you hate this updating but it's something the fundraiser suggests. Do NOT feel I am upset or feel slighted if you can not donate. I know most would if possible..
Anyway. I just have to keep this at the top of my page until I'm with my mother... And all is well. Because I don't know when... I don't know how much time I have left with her.. And that frightens me more than I can express.
As you know. My friends started this so I can go and be with her
Anyway. I just have to keep this at the top of my page until I'm with my mother... And all is well. Because I don't know when... I don't know how much time I have left with her.. And that frightens me more than I can express.
As you know. My friends started this so I can go and be with her
click here to donate I love you mum....i am trying..i swear
There was a time.. Many in fact.. That i had.... OR THOUGHT, i had many people to rely on... Now i find that really... My house is small.. My brother, my husband, my dog, my bff 
slabgar John, and my mother. Like a thread, if she's taken away from the equation, the house of cards falls in on itself... The dress falls at my feet.. With thread, yarn, and cotton... I fall off the trapeze and the net crashes to the floor with me like it wasn't there. News worse daily...
I'm not ready for this.. Then again, who ever is?!?
I believe in the right to die. And after her second sister suffered she asked.... No.. She begged me.. Cornered me into a promise... That if she was ever like that... If her quality of life was THAT horrible... Would i love her enough to let her go.
Yes.
No... I mean... Do you love me enough to HELP me go... Please don't let me suffer like my sisters, please oh God, baby, please.. Promise you will allow steps to be taken to allow me to go to my maker before I'm in a state of endless agony.
I said yes.
You put down a sick animal its humane.... You help a sick person die in their own bed.... It's "murder".
At least there is Holland.
Please mum. Oh Glory!! Please beat it again!!! Try, fight, love US enough to make Holland a last resort.
slabgar John, and my mother. Like a thread, if she's taken away from the equation, the house of cards falls in on itself... The dress falls at my feet.. With thread, yarn, and cotton... I fall off the trapeze and the net crashes to the floor with me like it wasn't there. News worse daily...I'm not ready for this.. Then again, who ever is?!?
I believe in the right to die. And after her second sister suffered she asked.... No.. She begged me.. Cornered me into a promise... That if she was ever like that... If her quality of life was THAT horrible... Would i love her enough to let her go.
Yes.
No... I mean... Do you love me enough to HELP me go... Please don't let me suffer like my sisters, please oh God, baby, please.. Promise you will allow steps to be taken to allow me to go to my maker before I'm in a state of endless agony.
I said yes.
You put down a sick animal its humane.... You help a sick person die in their own bed.... It's "murder".
At least there is Holland.
Please mum. Oh Glory!! Please beat it again!!! Try, fight, love US enough to make Holland a last resort.
Getting excited about seeing my old stomping grounds for my birthday in a couple weeks. Radiation, chemo, seeing mum.. First time I will see mum for bday in like fifteen years!!! Is it wrong to be excited to see her tho under these circumstances?
https://youtu.be/MRHN7nUg26M. For these reasons and more I've needed time....also, since i need time for me and mine, my Dear Dinah column will be four times a year. Instead of monthly it will be the First of September, December,March,and June. You know, the start of the months as they teach in kindergarten. Lol.I'm still around for those that need to talk. I love my mum and I'm not ready to lose my best friend.
You may know our family's history with Cancer..and like the last one at the horror flick, she made out alive. Scarred yet alive. That is no longer the case... Try crossing mother and health in my tag search and find noble and kind feats of strength. I don't know what to do.
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