darkinternecion

Due to recent events doing a number on my normal routine and my life in general, I'm gonna go on a semi-hiatus to be safe. I will try to tag here and there, but I need time to recover from this. I have an enormous mental and emotional block on my RPing right now, so I think this is the best thing I can do for the moment. I'll be back... let's say September 1st, I suppose.

Affects Juudai (darkinternecion).

...So I don't suppose we're gonna get any rain anytime soon to help wash away the sand, among other things?

Jeez.

I constantly have to wonder if this is really worth putting myself though... I'm so bored all the time, and I feel pretty isolated at that. The only thing I've been able to do is sit with aibou and feel frustrated about everything.

And I don't care if she sees this anymore. By all means, Yubel, if you have anything to say, tell me something that'll encourage me to go on for a little longer this way.

[Screened from Yubel]

...If... if you made a mistake in the past that wound up with someone you love getting hurt, so hurt that they went crazy for it...

...No, I shouldn't ask like that. It's hard to explain, and I can't really put it in hypothetical terms, because it's such a... unique situation.

I have to stay with her and isolate myself from everyone else because she's so jealous and overprotective. If I don't, she'll start hurting other people, start hurting my friends... she's manipulative, too... and the worst part is that she's stronger than me. But I feel like I have no right to complain, because the mistake was mine to begin with. If I hadn't sent her away...

And then she talks about some promise I made that I can't even remember... which makes me think maybe I'm even further obligated to deal with her this way...

What am I supposed to do? What would anyone else in this place do?

[Private to Manjyome and Asuka]

You guys are doing okay, right...?

...I still really miss you two, but I've gotta make sure Yubel stays in line. She probably thinks it's the other way around, but... whatever.

[Juudai is sitting against a wall, hugging Hane Kuriboh tightly, his face buried in its brown fur. It looks unhappy as well, unable to do anything for him as it is, and simply continues to offer its presence as solace. After a moment, though, it wriggles out of his grasp and pokes at his duel disk with one paw curiously, which is laying seemingly innocuously on a table in a corner.]

...Aibou?

[He watches it glance from the disk to Juudai and back again as though trying to indicate something to him. He can't seem to comprehend what it's trying to point out, though -- until the thing activates of its own accord, extending its features and knocking Hane Kuriboh away.]

.............

Huh? How--

[And a surprised yelp as it leaps up and attacks him (somehow), almost smacking him in the face. He whips his arm up to defend himself at the last moment, though, and seemingly inadvertently deflects the oncoming technology with a layer of shielding dark energy. The duel disk falls to the ground, and he kicks it away frantically as Hane Kuriboh floats back over behind him.]

W-Wha... that...

[After a moment of stunned staring, Juudai hurries to his feet and scrambles into another room. For the observant, a muttered "If it's not one thing, it's another" can be heard as he scurries away.]

[As this plays interminably in the background.]

...Heeeeelp! How do I turn it off?!

...Mn... that looked fun. Kinda wish I could've gone... oh well.

Too busy keeping an eye on her, though. I hate this...

Beaches are kinda nostalgic for me... for good reason, I guess. I've spent the better part of my life around them. I wonder how long it's been total, though, since I've seen one... months, at least.

...Well, I'll always have aibou if nothing else. Shouldn't get too pessimistic...

((OOC: Strikes are screened from Yubel even though she's on hiatus. ;w;))

[The sound of something being slammed. Fists against a table, perhaps.]

...Damn it.

( Filtered from YubelCollapse )

...Manjyome, I... need to go find her. I don't care how bad it's storming outside; don't follow me and don't try to talk me out of it.

...Manjyome?

Why are you avoiding me suddenly?

Open the door, pleeeeeeease? It's my room too now, isn't it?!

((OOC EDIT: Backdated to directly after the family ties plot. >>;))

[A simple, short voice transmission. The voice is recognizable as the boy who was clad in black armor before, but it does not have that cold, deadly lilt to it anymore. It's more natural now, and actually possesses some semblance of emotion.]

...Hey, um...

[He sounds ashamed and more than ashamed. It's very clear he's not comfortable with anything quite yet, and is probably feeling quite awkward about this whole thing.]

...Um... I'm sorry about all the trouble I caused. I guess... I don't know if Manjyome told anyone about it, since most of it happened back in... our world, or one of our dimensions, but... I know I snapped at a few people here, as well. And just... wasn't very pleasant in general.

It was... because I was disillusioned about something, and I made a lot of mistakes because of it, one after another.

[An uncomfortable pause.]

So... I'm sorry.

[Another pause, but this time, he seems distracted by something. It's not very clear, but anyone sensitive to spirits may hear a high-pitched sort of "kurri~" sound in the background before the transmission ends.]

((OOC: So, uh, most normal humans can't see or hear spirits in GX canon, but there's a few who are able to hear them for plot/other reasons, and even fewer who can see and interact with them. Juudai can, Manjyome can, and... potentially other characters if they would be sensitive to spirit activity. I don't know what Yumi does concerning spirits over the PCDs, if anything, but I'll leave the hearing the sound up to discretion for now, and if you don't know, ask? 8D This is so breaking the laws of... everything. HAHAHAHA DISREGARD THAT. You guys can all hear Hane Kuriboh because I guess that's how it works here. 8D))

[A loud smack as the PCD switches on whilst slamming against the wall of a building somewhere, Haou visible for a split second before the device hits the ground and faces the sky. Pitch-black tendrils dissolve away from the camera for a moment before more creep upon the recorder moments later, blocking the visual and making the audio even more filtered and somewhat hollow-sounding. There's a bit of crackling, and the sound feed sputters, half from the malfunction and half from the abuse its owner is subjecting it to.]

...Stupid thing... stupid, stupid, stupid...

[The creak of pressure straining the frame of the PCD, which lasts for quite a while (with the occasional blips and silences in-between that clearly don't belong, even though the recording is under... extreme circumstances) until a growl is heard and the darkness binding the device dissipates.]

I refuse to send that message if there is any possibility at all that this goddamn thing will screw up like it has been doing. What's worse, it won't display anything correctly...

Damn it...!

[There is a light condescending inflection of sorts to Haou's voice, the only item of emotion remotely flavoring it. Otherwise, it's just plain detached-sounding.]

This talk of people disappearing... I can't say I see the need to panic like everyone seems to be doing.

Those who have possibly left this place, even the ones who may have been taken, are lucky. Even luckier are those who may potentially already be dead. For a situation that may never rectify itself, or even be rectified through years or decades of hard work, the less time one has to spend here, the better.

Better for themselves, if not for those they leave behind, that is.

((OOC: Um, yeah, we still haven't finished the thread, so I'm just going to go ahead and say if someone can help me with any sort of living situation for Juudai, I would be eternally grateful? I was going to rely on the thread we were doing for that, but... it doesn't seem like that's going to come to a close anytime soon.

Also yes, this entry was intended to piss everyone off. |D))