Believe in Me Who Believes in You!

Asuka apparently found a crack in the state of Pennsylvania which is oddly shaped just like a fucking river.



My state is clearly broken, Asuka and I demand to speak to the manager.

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I'm bored so I ganked this from mibu_roshi

"This entry will be made public, but I'll be locking it again in a week.

Tell me what you all think of me. Honestly and truly. Compliments, insults, observations, the whole lot. And do it all anonymously. I will never find out that it is you, since I am too lazy to go on a search over some "OMG-who-be-dissin'-me" nonsense.

So go. Give it your best shot. Boo-yah."

Ok everyone....I've had about all I can stand from everyone on this matter. So since no one else is coming out and doing this openly...allow me to be the first.

All this drama needs to stop. NOW.

We were all such good friends....what the flying fuck happened? Well I'm going to come out now with all of the truth, all of the facts. If you want to read this post, and know both sides of the story, then do so. If not, then don't...that's not my problem...but don't be ignorant and go making horrible accusations. So, if you're all ready and committed, I'll begin.

Steph, yes, I said your name, because I am not witholding names. What I am about to say is nothing but truth on my part. Yes, I badmouthed you behind your back. I spoke ill of you, and I know I was not the only one. I did it. Katie and Becky did it. But we had reasons to, and now I'm going to tell you them outright. First of all, when you moved in at the beginning of the summer, I was already beginning to get irked by you. You would make me feel like shit about the stupidest little things, and I would have to apologize to you over and over. You would make me feel inferior to you in cosplay discussions. I would ask a question because I legitimately did not know the answer to it. What were the responses I received from you? "Well you do it like THIS, naturally. If you did it any other way you're just stupid" or other some such responses. Do you know why I didn't say anything to you? It's because I saw how you handled when people were upset at you. Case in point, two months ago, after AnimeNext, we were sitting around in Katie and Becky's apartment. Well I said something teasingly to you, it was quite obviously a joke. What was your response? You proceeded to KICK ME IN THE BACK. When I rolled away after you connected the first time, you tried to strike AGAIN. Let me tell you something, I don't care who you are, but you do NOT hit me. My own PARENTS never lay a hand on me, and you have no right to. And I told you just that. What response did I get? You curled up into a ball and proceeded to withdraw into a protective shell. Did I get an apology? Of course not. And yet, even after everything, I still offered to pay the difference in your hotel bill for Otakon...because I was trying to make sure everyone had a good time, and that the cost could be kept down for everyone. Yet you still pulled out, we still had to pay. Oh, by the way. You KNEW Otakon was coming up, and that it would be expensive...yet you still decided to spend 75 dollars of the money you NEEDED to survive, to pay for this con, on an import Naruto PSP game. I realize you have been going through a tough time, but show some common sense. You put yourself before the needs of your friends. The second reason as to why we did not confront you about these problems Steph, was because we did not in turn want to cause any problems regarding your living arrangements with Kate. Kate wanted to move to the city so badly, and I for one was doing my best to make SURE she succeeded. So, we decided that if we had any problems, we'd keep quiet about them, so as not to jeopardize Kate's future in Philly. Because as it stood at the time, Kate was not able to pay for a 900 dollar apartment on her own.

Now let's move on to Katie and Becky, shall we? I have heard nothing but "I know Steph better than anyone else" from everyone...and yet...none of you have actually LIVED with Steph. Katie has, Becky has, and Kate has. So if you want to know MORE about that, you will do the right thing and EMAIL THEM, and not comment to me on the matter, as I will not speak for any of them here today. What they did for you is above and beyond anything anyone could EVER do for another human being. And I watched silently as you proceeded to show, NO GRATITUDE whatsoever. In fcact, you took constant advantage of their hospitality in every way shape and form. I watched as they picked up YOUR messes, as they FED you, and as they dropped EVERYTHING they were doing to walk with you to wherever you wanted to go because you did not want to go alone. I also watched as you did NOT pay them any rent, which is surprising as they put you up for almost an entire month in their ONE ROOM STUDIO APARTMENT. I also watched as Katie found you a job, so that you could begin to support yourself over the summer. I watched as Rebecca ALWAYS stuck up for you, even when Katie and I were beginning to feel mistreated by you. I also watched as you nearly threw AnimeBoston into jeopardy for ALL of us. Not only because you waited till the last second to start on like..five costumes, but at the same time, proceeded to force us to go out of our way to pick up a sewing machine for YOU, so that you could finish your costumes on time. This prevented Becky, who works all day without a chance to eat, to have to skip dinner, just so that we could convenience you. On top of that, you made it perfectly clear at AnimeBoston that we all had to drop what we were doing to go see you in every skit that you decided to participate in. When we didn't, because we all wanted to enjoy the con for our own reasons, you cast the blame on ME, as if I MALICIOUSLY went out of my way so that we did not want to see anything you were in. That is a BOLD FACED LIE. Nothing, and I repeat, NOTHING that has been done to you this summer was done with any form of malicious intent. We did everything we could for myou this summer, but you know...it feels like your costumes and your cosplay status comes before your real friends.

And finally we move on to Kate. Kate, you too badmouthed Steph on a number of occasions, when you harbor no ill will towards her. Make no mistake, I am not trying redirect blame. I was wrong and I stand here before everyone admitting that. But you need to come forward as well. You too particapted in these talks about Steph, when in fact, she did NOTHING to you whatsoever. The blame is on you as much as it is on us,m and I think you need to step forward and admit this fact. Furthermore, you made it sound like we spoke of Steph, like we excluded her MALICIOUSLY, which is probably one of the biggest lies I have ever heard in my near 21 years of life. I will not exaggerate here. Yes, Steph, sometimes we avoided you. Why? Because sometimes we just don't want to deal with each other. We're human. It fucking happens. Not a single person can come to me now and tell me that they always want to deal with everyone at every possible moment of the day, because I will call you a liar, straight to your face. Kate, what you're doing now is down right wrong. You made us all look like such terrible monsters. You made us seem like we were hurting Steph out of pure hatred and malice, even though you too badmouthed her on a good number of occasions. We wanted to talk to you tonight, but you ran from us. You refused to face this problem, just like I refused to face the problem that I was being a bad friend to the people I loved two months ago. That's right. I said it everyone. I fucked up. I was a terrible friend to Kate, Katie, Steph, Becky...everyone who mattered to me. Why? Because I'm human. I tried to be something I'm clearly not, and that in turn made me hurt the people I cared about...the people I loved. Well, Katie and I still want to work this out with you Kate. But you need to come yo us, and for once in your life, stop running.

To anyone who reads this all the way through: I commend you. You committed yourself to hearing the full story. Now you make a choice. Do you start an open war on people who need to work their differences out privately? Or do you sit back, quietly, and show your friends, the people who are involved in this mess, how rational you can be, and not play sides. I held nothing back in this post. Why? Because the truth needs to be heard by EVERYONE. I was wrong. WE ALL WERE WRONG. WE ALL FUCKED UP. WHY?! BECAUSE WE. ARE. HUMAN. Shit happens people. At the end of the day, what matters is your capability to forgive. We're friends people. Never forget this. But you know what? I made this post oppen to all for a reason. If you have a problem with has been said by me. You tell me. I'm putting myself at the gallows here and I am wrapping the noose about my own neck. I will declare to the world that I spoke ill of Steph behind her back, but I did so because I was hurt by her. Immensely. We all were. You all can't tell me that you've never been hurt by someone. And you CERTAINLY cannot tell me that a single one of you has not spoken about someone behind their back. We ALL need to apologize to someone for something at this point. So allow me to buckle down and be the first.

Stephanie Lozen-Kowalski. I am sorry. I am sorry I badmouthed you behind your back. I am sorry I spoke ill of you. I am sorry that you seem to think my intentions, along with everyone else's were malicious. And I am SORRY for hurting you.

Kate Ohlrogge. For two months now we have not spoken. I know you requested I never bring this to LJ...but in light of recent events I feel that this is a minor indiscretion. I am sorry, Kate. I was a terrible friend to you. I was wrong. Everyday I think about how wrong I was and I regret and abhor myself more by the day. I want to be your friend again. I want to be your nii-san again.

To the people who initiated the LJ slandering. I don't care what you were all told and I don't care who told you. Becky requested thius be worked out off of LJ, so that a million people don't know her business. What followed immediately after was not what I would call "friendly behavior." In fact, it was an all out fucking war. And it was gruesome and horrible to watch, especially since a great deal of people who decided to jump on the bandwagon DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON. Well if these people want to know what's going on, KINDLY direct them here....you should all remember the kind of love and support Becky and Katie have given to ALL of us.

And to anyone else who finds this post offenseive or whatever. I am sorry. Hate me. Unfriend me if you want. Hell, if you never speak to me again, that's your problem. I started writing this post with the knowledge that some of you will probably hate me for good now. But you know what? I'd rather lose every single one of my friends, than sit idly by and watch as the people I love more than anything get slandered, verbally destroyed, by other friends. If you are my friend, and you truly know me like you say you do, then you will all know that I would not make this post in an attempt to choose sides. I'm merely stating NOTHING but FACTS. I stake my reputation, AND my honor as a man upon these words. Nothing in this post was fabricated. All of the events were true. And all of the feelings that I have expressed are 100 percent sincere as well. Knowing this, if you still want to hate me, if you still never want to speak to me again, if you CHOOSE to slander my name, or say that I am a horrible human being, then do so. I don't care. But at least you all know the truth regardless. I want this to stop. I've done my part. So now, do yours....

Good night everyone. Here's hoping you all actually read this and come to a rational conclusion.

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I seriously have no thoughts...just....WTF?!?!?!? XD

I swear to God it never fails.....I go to bed at like....1:30 trying to get a good night's sleep because I have a 9:30 class on Tuesdays. I fall asleep only to wake up 4 hours later, unable to go back to sleep. Hence the reason I'm writing this at 6:30 AM -.- ANYWAY. last week was me basically struggling to get ahead in my work. Which I kinda did....thankfully. Now this week is going to be spent getting even more ahead and then cleaning the entire apartment for when Lea arrives. Because frankly, I live with four other guys....it's not the neatest place in town, just the most awesome. XD I also need to make sure I have certain things, i.e. napkins. I've been told by a number of people that girls like napkins. Once again, I am a guy, I use the two-in-one shampoo and conditioner for my hair for this exact reason...I can't be expected to use napkins...eating pretty much takes up all of my brain power XD. But rest assured, THERE WILL BE NAPKINS. Also Lea, if there's anything else you need that you don't want to bring, lemme know and I'll go out this weekend and pick it up for you. This includes but is not limited to snacks, drinks, uh......snacks.....yeah.....you can guess where this is going. So just lemme know and I'll go ninja it-er....."buy" it. Aside from that not much else is happening. I applied to eight other places for co-op opportunities and whatnot, I'm waiting to hear back on those. Been practicing my skit for Katsu....things like that.

Also, I've noticed people putting up cosplay schedules....

I have two costumes....sooo......yeah
Here goes:
Friday = Jiraiya
Saturday = Jiraiya (morning)
Saturday = Roy Mustang (evening + Masquerade)
Sunday = depends on whether or not my feet are killing me at this point and if I can do the sandals or the boots XD

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT.


God I am SOOOOO pumped for next week. *bounces around*

So I got tagged to do this by Becky, so here we go!

"The first player of this "game" starts with the topic 5 Weird Habits of Yours and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 quirky habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names:"


(1) I always end up biting or chewing on my nails when I'm bored. It's a terrible habit, but it somehow keeps me focused on whatever the hell is boring the crap out of me. When I run out of nails to bite, I fall asleep XD
(2) I get cravings for weird food at weird times. Sometimes when I'm up really late working I get a craving for like....McDonald's or some sort of burger or fast food. Hell, any kind of sandwich really...
(3) When I'm alone and I know no one's in the apartment or will be anytime soon, I sing in the shower. Mostly japanese songs that I happen to know XD
(4) The first thing I do when I go to a store is go to the video games. If there's nothing good there, I go to the toys. If there's nothing good there, I usually leave unless I went there for something specific that was not one of those two things. That's right....I'm still 12 years old XD
(5) I tend to cheer for the "hero" of certain animes. One time while watching Fushigi Yuugi, I quite literally stood up and cheered for Tamahome because I'm the biggest sucker in the world XD.

I hereby tag:

addicted2seto
no_fishing
stardustshadow
nikolai
depravednerd

I should be doing work but....I'm not!! XD
Anyway, I was bored so I totally ninja'd from lousyitachi

What if...
�� I said I liked you:
�� I kissed you:
�� I lived next door to you:
�� I started smoking:
�� I stole something:
�� I was hospitalized:
�� I got into a fight and you weren't there:

What Do You Think About My:
�� Personality:
�� Eyes:
�� Face:
�� Hair:
�� Clothes:
�� Manners:

Answer These Too;
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me? (Gaa-chan note : Ew, that's in bad taste *feverishly crosses out*)
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

"Write a message to me in the voice/style of the anime/manga character you are best known for/most identify with. "Me" can either be the anime/manga character you most associate me with, either from the same series you chose for your character, or "me" as an anime/manga character from another series if you feel like doing a wacky crossover. Just put who you're writing as, and who you're writing to, in (( )) at the end of your post"

I just totally got a really random compliment today.....

So after Keith and I got out of Korean class today, I had to run to a Western Union because I had no money whatsoever and my dad was awesome and wired me 50 bucks! So the first place we went to that had Western Union was a grocery store that I go to. Their computers were down. So I went two blocks up to another convenient store that I know. The guy who does the Western Union wasn't there today. Great -_-. So NOW I head up ANOTHER two blocks to this really shady 7/11. So I give this really cute girl the form and my ID and she looks it over and then looks at me strangely. I'm like "Uh....is there something wrong?" And she says "Are you really 20?" I nod and say that I am. She got really happy all of a sudden and asked me "Do you do sports?" I laughed and was like "not....really....hehe..." Apparently, to her I looked like a "well muscled, handsome young man." That totally made my night XD


And that's all for tonight....man I'm boring.