Got Another Job.
The FedEx job wasn't a disaster, but daysleeping was really fucking with my inner peace. Anyway, I get an E-mail a week and a half ago from thik bookstore called Books of Wonder asking if I wanted a job. They had rejected me a month earlier as shipping and recieving clerk. They said the job was open again. M-F, 9:30-6:30. Full time. 8 bucks an hour. I took it, and worked there all week. This trend looks to continue. It's not a bad place to work. There's some office politics going on that I will like less and less, and the boss is prone to screaming at people for no reason, but I think it'll be easy to not get in his way too much. The job search is not over. I have some leads that could lead to a better position over the summer. What I wanted was a good part time job really, not a crappy full time one. I mean, when I was doing word processing I was making twice as much an hour and more, and I have the skills to do that in publishing. I don't really have the look to do it in legal.

Anyway, things finally start to be looking up again for me. I'm always so wwary about saying that, because my professional life has a habit of throwing unavoidable roadblocks in my way, but we'll see. We'll see. First priority: Making enough money to move out. I wanted to do it last year, and failed miserably. Maybe this year will be different.

Current Mood: bored

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Got a job
So the FedEx job is mine. It'll be something like 15 hours a week, 4 in the morning to 7 or 8 in the morning, Tuesday through Saturday. It is certainly a transitional job, for my search has not ceased, but the hundered and whatever dollars I'll be making a week there is better then the nothing I'm making now for sure. Looke like Cyrus is becoming a Daysleeper for the moment. My arms and legs and back are all sore after doing it for 2 days, but it's a good sore. The kind of dignified sore that comes from working for a living.

The job ain't reocket science. It's just moving boxes from place to place. Hey, aything to build the ol' upper body.

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I think I got a job at a FedEx home Delivery station on Morgan Ave. in Brooklyn. I have orientation seminar on Tuesday, and the boss told me that within 2 weeks I'll be working. He's making some personell changes. Well, everyone keep your fingers crossed for me. It'd be 4-8 AM 5 days a week. Not the best hours, but I reeeeeeeally need a job.

In other news, I'm playing Resident Evil 4. It's awesome.

Current Mood: pensive

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This made me laugh on Blabbermouth.net:

"Producer: New IRON MAIDEN Songs Are 'Very Progressive With Catchy Choruses' - Mar. 24, 2006"

So there you have it. The new Iron Maiden album will be very progressive with catchy choruses. How illuminating.

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Well, let me be the next to say Lunacon was good. My body's been sore for days, but it's a good hurt. I was dissapointed that Tarik didn't show up, but I'll run into him again eventually. I didn't get too drunk. I hope tehy don't send Tozzi to war. Ah, I have a few other random thoughts which I will perhaps organize later. Thanks to everyone I had a good time with, and the wisdom to know who you are. :)

In other parts of my life, I'm waiting to hear about a job working as a stock guy for a children's bookstore. Sounds cool to me.

Also going to see ROH this weekend. "Best in the world" with KENTA and Marifuji from PW NOAH in Japan v. Samoa Joe and AmDrag. Gonan be awesome. Wrestlemania's the next week. Hell yea.

Now I cook. Soon. Soon, I eat.

Current Mood: hungry

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SUBJECT: MARCH 1, 2006
Well, everyone wish me luck. I got a job interview tomorrow at an office on Wall Street somewhere doing data entry at 10 an hour. If they can give me 30 hours a week, Cyrus will be one happy guy. But enough about my money problems. What's going on elsewhere in my head?

I've been not in a band before. Hell, for almost 2 years or something I wasn't even kinda in one. Now that I'm not again, something's different. I think I've "gotten this damn rock an roll thing out of my system" like the old folks say. I can always go play my drums if I want to. That's not the issue. I'm actually happy a few months after the fact that I'm not in a band anymore. I have time to do what I want. I have time to think about what I want to. And I don't have to fit into a unit anymore. Not like that. I mean, no offence to anyone who does, just right now it aint for me. Hell, I've even shifted my listening habits to the small handful of dance heavy pop songs I liked when I was like 16. I remember why I liked that stuff. For one, it's not like techno, which is all beat. It has catchy-ass melodies with them. I've always been a sucker for a hook ya know.

Secondly, I'm sick of the whole damn rock attitude. Let music be music, and if you don't like it, then don't listen to it but dammit stiop looking down on people for listening to stuff you don't like. That isn't aimed at anyone in particular. Just rockers as a whole. The most Punk thing Green day ever did was an acoustic ballad 'cuz it was a fuck you to all you guys.

Well, I gotta go meet my dad. He's gonan hook me up with some pants that aren't ratty Blue Jeans for my interview tomorrow. Alls I need is an income. Then I can go become a wrestler.

Current Mood: determined

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Note about Job search
My Dad says to me, he says "Cyrus, you have to stop looking so much on the internet and go to some stores and apply." Seems like good advice so I do. Turns out most of the retaikl chains now do their applications exclusively on the internet. Who knew? Well, now I do. That's cool. I'll go to them sites and apply now.

Oh and to Matt, thanks for the heads up, but I went to the Toys R us and they told me they weren't considering anyone new until April. That doesn't mean it's true, but that's what they told me. Thanks again!

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SUBJECT: FEB 20, 2006
Well hooray for me! I go broke again today. Gotta start getting cash in 20s and 30s at a time from my dad whilst the impending doom of rent is forever dangling over my head. Dammit I need a job. If anyone has any ideas for me there, drop me a line. I'm looking for something in word processing or data entry. I have about a years experience doing that kind of stuff and it pays pretty well.

I've entered panic mode again mentally. I just can't seem to get my act together long enough to get out of my Moms house. That's not self-deprecation, that's just a fact. Check the last couple years of my journal for more examples. It's not that long. Go ahead.

As stated previously, it would help if I wasn't thrust into the position to start taking care of myself including home bills when I was 19. My mom hasn't had a job since 2001 and she's not really looking. Sweet Charlene has been with me through it all though, and that makes me happy. Good luck to her getting a new job. There's one considering her right now.

I'm out of my band. There was some petty bullshit on both ends of a disagreement that I wanted no part of, and seeing the way it was dealt with prompted me to lose all my motivation about the project. They'll bounce back without me. I used to have that fire about music. You keep plugging away at it until it subsides.

This is of course for the best. I want to start training to become a wrestler. I got Johnny Rodz' number, and would use it if I had any goddamn money at all to use for schooling. Hell, I don't even have money for Pizza. I need to make like 200 a week to even start saving for anything after all the bills are paid, and thats if I cut back on things like "food" and "essentials". It's so damn frustrating I feel like robbing a freakin' bank. I won't, but the urge is there. Being poor sucks.

I broke into my old hard drive and got my old MP3s from a few years back. I immediately got the dance music I liked and have been listening to it ever since. There's only like 12 tracks there (I hate most dance music), but those 12 tracks I love and would like to find more of. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being nostalgic to a time when my life was more filled with video games and fun than despair. Come to think of it, back then I had plenty of despair too. Time just blocks it out.

Anyway, that's all from the Cyruster for now. Anyone has anything to say to me, reply to it here 'cuz I usually don't read other people's Journals.

Peace

Current Mood: frustrated

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State of the Cyrus Address, 1st in a long time.
Hey everybody. Cyrus is still alive. Its mid-november, so here comes the latest tale of me getting fucked with something pointy in the wallet. My job isn't paying me on time. "on time" was supposed to be 6 weeks since I worked. That sucks anyway, but acceptable 'cuz it is to be quite a pile of cash. I'm waiting at the moment for money I worked for in mid september. That's just too long. I gotta pay my freakin' rent.

I feel like I let my band down in terms of money not because I'm poor, but because when I do get this money, I can't make the band 1st priority. It has to be my apartment bills.

THIS, it turn wouldn't be so bad if I didn't still have to live at home with my Mother. She lost her job in 2001 and hasn't made any real money since, so since I've been 18 I've been supporting my home one way or another. Now it's me and Charlene.

Charlene is the greatest comfort in my life. She's the best thing that ever happened to me and she supports me emotionally greatly and financially when I need it. And she does it with love because she knows I support her as much as I can as well. I love her. Hey, if you're reading, I love you sweetie!

My band, for those of you who only know me through LJ these days, is called the Human ashtray. We recorded some stuff and are working on making it as good as we can. I think it'll be pretty good. I think I have the most optimist view in my band about it, but I don't care.

The truth is, I'm in this band to play the drums and if it comes get a music job. This is the first time I'm not in a band to be on some crusade with my friends. it feels good. It feels professional. I wonder how long it'll last.

My wrestling obsession has grown in leaps and bounds over the last couple years. RIP Eddie Guerrero. RIP Chris Candido. As far as the living go, I've gotten way into Ring of Honor. They're just great. I've been to a number of ROH shows and will go to the next one 12/3 at basketball city. It'll be a blast.

More and more it seems my real dreams are to be in the wrestling business. That's not something my father wants to hear but fuck that, I'm not living my life for him. I've been looking into wrestling schools. I'd be in one already if I wasn't so god damn poor that al my money has to go into my apartment. If it ever does happen, I'll probably have to quit my band and dedicate myself to wrestling.

I'm actually getting in some semblense of shape. My gut is shrinking and my arms are growing. I hate getting out of breath after any physical activity and it's time to change it.

Life has thrown lots of shit in my face, but dammit I'm going to make it through all. I'm a survivor. I'm a winner.

I'm destined for greatness.

I'm just pacing myself.

-Cyrus out.

Current Mood: discontent

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Mindless News
From the official MSI Website:

MSI News
Forthcoming MSI Video
Posted on 01/26/2005
Jhonen Vasquez, legendary creator of Invader Zim and Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is currently in pre-production for a live action video of the new MSI song, "Shut Me Up". Check back for more details.

New Album due in April. It's time.

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Why don't you poist it in your LIVEJOURNAL!!!!
Thank you Sam Kaplan, I think I will.

Hi everybody.

I've been working. I've been working at Dunkin' Donbuts. They opened one about 2 blocks from my house 2 months ago and I've been on board since it opened. My bosses like me. I think they have things planned for me. We'll see where it all goes. I've been working like 43 hours a week, but these people have a problem with the overtime laws so instead of getting all bitchy and reverting to my previous state of jobless misery, I'm just cutting down to 35 or so hours and will continue to be happy. We're paying the bills, some even on time!

So my financial problems seem to be alleviated for the time being. About freaking time, too. it's been years, as any fan of mine will know. This caused me to realize something surprising. Now that I'm not broke and miserable anymore, I realize that I'm really unsatisfied. I want more. I look at some of my co-workers and realize I'm worth a whole lot more then some of them in terms of $$. I want to go back to school in the fall, and am taking steps in that direction. If I don't get there, I should be a lock for the spring. I actually kinda want to go to school for the first time since I was 6 or 7. It's a strange feeling. I'm going to change up my education away from philosophy and more towards media and computers. I wanna make video games. I realized while I was sitting on my ass playing video games that it's the only thing that's held my attention since I was 3.

OK, enough of me. you'll all see me when you see me.

and don't forget - It's ALL about the game.

Current Mood: awake

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Huzzah and gadzooks. Charlene's at lunacon, so I get to be online till all hours of the morning tonight. Ah, I miss her a lot but its not getting me down. I'm having some me time. I'm watching wrestling, an having a beer.

In other news, got me a job. Another polling place. its a lot more professional then the last polling place I worked, but further away. It's fine tho, cuz now I have finally some steady work. April looks to be the month I finally get my life back.

I think I wanna put my own VG music band together sometime this year. Just musing.

OK people, enjoy yourselves and maybe you'll get a chance to enjoy me ;).

Current Mood: relaxed

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Resume
My Dad and I punched up a resume for me. This is a good thinig. I've always needed one, and now I have one. Time to continue my ever-persistent job hunt!

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Back to Skool
Went to Hunter today. I hate school and everything about it still, but I'll probably be back in september. I also went to the denist's today and had a filling. Wasn't my day just fun and yummy? It's been 2 hours since the procedure finished and Im finally able to feel my mouth again. Whatever. The rest of my night will be ok. I'll probably go hang out with people or whatever. What I need is food, so I'll go find it.

Cyrus' Wisdom for the post:
Never let yourself only see one side of any given issue. Everybody means well, so see through the BS and make up your own mind.

Current Mood: hungry

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I mentioned last year in this space a great change coming over me. I think its happened and still happening. The last one took a while to finish, and I was pleased with the results. I hope to be again here. I find myself a litte more jaded, and a little less compassionate. This would seem bad until you take into consideration how much of a sap and a pushover I once was. I'm attempting to attain self confidence without becoming completely stubbrn. My empathy gets the better of me, still, more often then I'd like it to. I barely have any money, so why do I feel so guilty when I can't give a quarter to a homeless dude who's obviously drunk? Oh Well. I know I'm gonna do well in life, it's all a question of where and how to begin. I've Never been the heavy self-depricating type. Well, maybe for a little while when I was 13 and 14 but I got over it. I'm more likely to look at my situation and see what I can do to improve it, never accepting "Stop being so stupid and lazy and awful" as an excuse. Goddamn, so many of my friends over the years failed to reach their goals (or will fail to reach their goals) because of shit like that. Grab the Brass ring. Its right in front of you. Its right in front of me too.

I never underestimate the stupidity of most people, and in doing so, I realize that I probably have a better chance then most of them. I surround myself with intelligent people. I Think about life, the Universe and everything. I capitaliza Words for no apparent reason a Lot. And whatever you do, don't think Im arrogant. I don't. Not really...arrogance is when someone think's they're great because they are and there is no contesting it. I am simply trying to hold awareness of my qualities and not drown in the aformentioned pit of self-deprication. I gots me flaws. And i'm working on them. I just dont let them consume my mind.

Current Mood: contemplative

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Well, here we go Again. I wanna go back to school in September. I'm gonna force myself to go to the Financial aid office in the next week or 2 to ask exactly how. 9 months should be plenty of time. I only really have 8. 7 before registration. Whatever. It SHOULD be enought time. I'm gonna re-structure my priorities and go for the big comp sci major. I took time off to re think what I wanted to do with my life, and ended up sitting on my ass playing video games. Damn, why didn't I think of it sooner. I wanna be in the game world one way or another. I'll never get bored with them. I haven't yet and I've been gaming for damn near 20 years now. I'm so old school I remember before Mario was Super. I eat Grues for breakfast and wash them down with whatever is left of the frogger frog after he's hit. I'm starting a bit late, but if I get my degree when I'm 25 in stead of 22 it wont be a disaster.

...and dont give me that you only have one year left crap that I've heard a few times. If you wanna say that to me then you haven't been paying careful enough attention to my life. (Not that you should make that a priority - lord knows you have enough to be deaing with on your own) To complete my current degree would take another 2-3 years at least anyway.

So yeah. 2004 may be my year. I knew 03 wouldnt be, and 02 was hands down the worst year I can remember. At least I had electricity for 97.

Current Mood: rejuvenated

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You are a True Metalhead. You dig the
classic music and the classic lifestyle. As
metalheads go, you're pretty open-minded in
terms of music and lyrics; if it rocks, then
you'll listen to it. Concerts are the pinnacle
of the metal experience, though sometimes they
get a little too crazy. You generally respect
everybody else, but as far as you're concerned,
they all wish they were Priest or Maiden.


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Well, I'm glad I have an answer to THAT. True Metalhead. If they only knew how much I loved Aqua back in the day. I'm a barbie girl, damn it!!!

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I'm supposed to be working now.

...Chances are you are too.


People say that "I want to hold your hand" by The Beatles is a little suggestive.
I always thought "Please Please Me" was way more suggestive. It sounds like they're begging for head after providing it themselves.
come on
come on
come on
come on
please PLEEEZE me o yea, Like I please you.

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Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl but she doesn't have a lot to say
Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl but she changes from day to day
I wanna tell her that I love her a lot, but I gotta get a belly full of wine
Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl and someday I'm gonna make her mine
O yea
Some day I'm gonna make her mine.

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Well, life goes on in the world of Cyrus. I'm damn broke. Been looking for work for a while now. My old job at central marketing says call back i na few weeks. Thats good. Hope for the future. I applied as the ticket booth guy at some club downtown. That would be interesting. I'm also scouting messenger jobs, to keep me up and moving this summer. All I know i sthat I need to get a job and soon, cuz living on frozen raviolis and bread just isnt the life for a International man of mystery like myself..

In musical taste news, Ive been listening to Gaming FM on the net recently. Their classic console station is great for old skoolers like me. Check them out at www.gamingfm.com.
I like their slogan too. "Audio stimulationm for the gaming nation"

I gotta get musicing again. I'm currently on standby for this one band who will call on me when their drummer inevitably quits. Man, back in High school, I wsn't just in a band. I was in THE band. I've been meeting some kids who wewre in stuy when I was in science, and when I mention I was in Homer, a lot of them show a bunch of recognition, and a couple are genuinely impressed. Dimitri (Homer), incidentally, is a rapper now. If he becomes a huge star it wouldn't surprise me in the slightest.

Well, thats all for now I guess. See whoever at the party tomorrow!
ciao

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