crowprincess

I was checking his email to see if the date we set to change out marriage to registered was correct, when I saw all those emails from his ex.

It seems they were having an sms/msn/email affair. And that a month or more before he told me he wanted to have a divorce. All this time I blamed myself, when in fact he is the one to blame. He told me there was no one else in his life, and that his love was just gone. And now I found out it was all a lie.

Being a woman scorned, I checked his msn files and there it was. All the info and details I rather not knew, but which makes it easier for me to get over him. Well now I hate him. I hate him most for letting me believe that there was no one else. That he would respect me and not get into a relationship quickly, while in fact he has been planning to do so for a MONTH. And now he's stranded in Brussel at HER place because his motor conviently broke down. And it will cost him € 1000,- Well isn't that an expensive fuck weekend?

I'm so pissed right now, that I could kill him.

My best friend stayed for the weekend to cheer me up. And I must say she did a great job. Instead of thinking about what I lost, I'm thinking about what I gained. I mean, single life wasn't that bad and I'm even looking forward to it :D Once I move (which will take a while :() I'm going to see her much more and we'll go out more too.

This doesn't mean I'm completely over him yet, but I'm working on that. Emotions won't shut down that easily, but I'm looking at him as a friend and no longer as a husband.
People don't believe me when I say everything's fine, since they expect me to be an emotional wreckage since it's only been a week since I heard about the divorce. I'm just not the emotional kinda person who cries for weeks/months/years. Four days is now my record (of which 3 without eating/drinking) and that's enough for me. It's not worth crying over something which can't be fixed.

I'm just looking forward and not dwell in the past. I just wish it was August already :)

Just when you think that life can't get any better, it all falls down.
My husband doesn't see a future for us anymore and decided to tell me this out of the blue.
I thought we were happy together and saw us grow old together, but in reality it was just a fantasy.
It seems he was in doubt for several months before he told me. I wish he let me know sooner than this. I really have no clue what to do next. I moved away from my family to be with him, got a new job and now I'm stuck. I have nowhere to go. I don't want to live here, since the only reason I moved here was him. All friends and family live near the south, so I have to start all over again: new job, new house.

We bought a house 1,5 years ago and on July 13th we're married for 3 years. And now all that wil be gone. I wish I could hate him for what he's doing to me, but I can't. He's the love of my life.

Life sucks!

Yes I know I'm terrible at keeping updates. I'm very ashamed (well not really but had to say something XP)
I'm still married (almost 3 years :o), have a house since January last year, and Jazz is also still around (the dog, not talking about a certain person in the UK :P)

I also have a new job since a year, so no more hospital and cleaning for me (except for my own house then). And I'm still a neopets addict :D:D:D

Just living the happy life hehe

Not much to tell for now. Just wanted to let you know I was still alive wheeeeeeeeeee

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× I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

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If anyone of you ever reacts like that to a game of neopets, gaia or whatever, I would suggest a shrink

These are the Living Dead Dolls I bought on Ebay :D:

Calico	Died and Doom
Lust

Cute aren't they >:]

I posted a while ago that I would post pictures of me and Sander which the photographer made of us and I totally forgot! Bad Crowie *twacks self*
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well those are the cutes piccies and yes the photographer made me sit backwards on Sander's bike :P

I found such a funny link, check it here