Another overdue update. I suppose that's just my nature with this thing; have things to write, not write them for weeks (but will make ample time to post YouTube videos). Shame on Michael, indeed.
As far as news goes, there's very little in concrete detail, but so much in development that I really am resistant to share (for concern of cursing or dampening the momentum). Oddly enough, it all appears to converge within the next 8 days with a mighty culmination upon my birthday. I have had no thoughts regarding any celebration for the day, yet there could be much to celebrate indeed—none of which I will share in any explicit detail until it is rightfully accurate.
I feel as if I could use some good news though. My life has become work; work has become my life. The nature of the site I am creating means that there will really never be any respite. In fact, I am writing this now during a break from work that I truly ought best to do instead. I can rationalize it easily, as it is the weekend, but the work cannot really end: there will always be something new; always be a better way to do something. Hell, the new guy we're hiring could possibly know of entirely different, but better methodologies than that I have deployed, thus ushering a seamless background revamp of all main functionality. I am both excited and frightened by the prospect of another programmer on the project. My code is strong and very new school, but he could far be more experienced (faster). I think I fear professional confrontation the most, and I am way too close to this project to not take it personally.
Speaking of the new guy, the Engineering VP is giving me 30-45 minutes with each candidate to assess their expertise and determine if they are someone I would like to work with personally. At first, I couldn't imagine what I could talk to them about for that long, but after thinking about it, I'm not sure if it will be enough. If they are talkative, it won't be enough time. If they are too quiet, then I will be forced to take stealth pictures of them with appended Office Space jokes. I have been forewarned to expected introversion out of all of them, but we are all nerds in the room, so it could go either way.
In other news, I have been experimenting with my health to startling positive results. At this rate, I could hit first-level goals by March, and second-level by May. I also shaved my head, and was silly enough to be surprised that people would notice. I love the way the rain feels now. It has been very much like I have rediscovered weather, and it's spiffy.
I have only three present media amusements: reading, Netflix and videogames. I cannot seem to manage more than one a week. Progress on all fronts severely diminished. I start numerous things, and finish none of them. Accept for Mass Effect 1, which I finally beat after two years of ownership. Really neat ending, even despite my dorky-ass character I created.
Otherwise, my real life is just sort of moving on. It is so weird, but all I want is to be a better person. I really don't know how, so I keep going with the flow. My career is going well, which is good, but I fear that by sacrificing everything else I have made myself less valuable as a personality. Sure, I exemplify the overworked-corporate-worker very well, but who really wants to know
that guy? Why am I so willing to play the part?