I'm definitely going to make this more legitimate (with Jane's help) in a few weeks, but I keep meaning to do SOMETHING to explain that
I COULDN'T GO BACK AND F-LOCK EVERYTHING BUT HOLY SHIT EVERYTHING SINCE LIKE.. MARCH 2009--WHICH IS A LOT, BELIEVE ME, I WRITE IN HERE 10 TIMES A DAY--IS FRIENDS LOCKED.
So... if you can see this and you want to see more for whatever reason (run, now, while you still can!), add me and I'll add you back. Unless I know you in real life and you are not:
jane
kelly
rose
SERIOUSLY, ONE DAY SOON THERE WILL BE A BITCHIN' HEADER WITH LIKE, HARRY POTTER KIDS OR SIMON PEGG & JESSICA HYNES AND IT WILL SAY FRIENDS ONLY AND THE PUBLIC ENTRY BELOW WILL BE MUCH BETTER THAN THIS PIECE OF SHIT
but that day is not today and i am tired and i just worked 13 hours and I'm going to stop typing now and go to sleep.
I COULDN'T GO BACK AND F-LOCK EVERYTHING BUT HOLY SHIT EVERYTHING SINCE LIKE.. MARCH 2009--WHICH IS A LOT, BELIEVE ME, I WRITE IN HERE 10 TIMES A DAY--IS FRIENDS LOCKED.
So... if you can see this and you want to see more for whatever reason (run, now, while you still can!), add me and I'll add you back. Unless I know you in real life and you are not:
jane
kelly
rose
SERIOUSLY, ONE DAY SOON THERE WILL BE A BITCHIN' HEADER WITH LIKE, HARRY POTTER KIDS OR SIMON PEGG & JESSICA HYNES AND IT WILL SAY FRIENDS ONLY AND THE PUBLIC ENTRY BELOW WILL BE MUCH BETTER THAN THIS PIECE OF SHIT
but that day is not today and i am tired and i just worked 13 hours and I'm going to stop typing now and go to sleep.
- Current Mood:
drained
Molly called me after the Greek test to bitch about it so I invited her over and she sat in the living room with Kendra and Nichole doing work, talking about stuff, while I lied on my bed with the doors open so i was sort of part of the conversation, but at 4PM I rested my head down and waited for my internet to come back and then I woke up and it was six o'clock. I only slept for two hours last night so I'm not about to yell WHAT THE FUUUCK.
But, WHAT THE FUUUCK.
I'm in Nikki and Cassy's room being silly and probably distracting Cassy from her Diamant paper due tomorrow. I think I picked a philosophy topic, though! Apparently it can be on just about anything, not strictly ancient Greek philosophers, so I'm going to write about Angela Davis' philosophy of punishment and prisons. From the prison of slavery to the slavery of prison, what whaaat. Sorry, that's inappropriate but I'm excited to write this paper by next Monday now, since it's something I can actually get invested in. Woo!
I'm thrilled to be home and making money in 30ish days (most of which will be spent on a lolla day pass), I'm ECSTATIC to be in Chicago with my friends all summer. But every day a little creepy thing gnaws at the back of my throat, "you're never going to live with these people again.. you're never going to get drunk with these people again... you're never going to see all these people at the same time again..."
And I don't want it to end yet.
I mean, I have a month. So I need to stop thinking about it and make the most of my time left with them, but still. As happy as I am to see friends at home and at school, I'm going to be slightly miserable about the lack of constant Cassy, Kendra, Nikki and Nichole. I don't even consider myself friends with Molly, but we hang out with her all the time now and I'll probably miss her too. Actually, no I won't. Never mind.
I love living with the four of them, I lucked out BIG TIME, even though I didn't think so the first two weeks, even though they are FAR from perfect (by which I mean they are pretty fucking offensive sometimes) but I love them more than I thought I would and it's going to be really sad to wander around America without them.
THE POINT OF THIS ENTRY was to note my nap dream. Haha. Oops.
Nikki was spooning me while on a platform. It was so strange. But so cuddly nice and dream!Nikki is just as hilarious and adorable as real life Nikki. She also tried to pin my down and dye my hair red again. I told her about it and Cassy, overhearing, goes, "You're dreaming about Aggressive Nikki? Intense..."
Yeah man. Whatever, I'm going to finish this episode of Parks and Rec (I can't get over how good season 2 is after being so apathetic toward the first season) and then more clearly define my paper topic and email my professor about it for approval. Crappy day has certainly turned around :)
But, WHAT THE FUUUCK.
I'm in Nikki and Cassy's room being silly and probably distracting Cassy from her Diamant paper due tomorrow. I think I picked a philosophy topic, though! Apparently it can be on just about anything, not strictly ancient Greek philosophers, so I'm going to write about Angela Davis' philosophy of punishment and prisons. From the prison of slavery to the slavery of prison, what whaaat. Sorry, that's inappropriate but I'm excited to write this paper by next Monday now, since it's something I can actually get invested in. Woo!
I'm thrilled to be home and making money in 30ish days (most of which will be spent on a lolla day pass), I'm ECSTATIC to be in Chicago with my friends all summer. But every day a little creepy thing gnaws at the back of my throat, "you're never going to live with these people again.. you're never going to get drunk with these people again... you're never going to see all these people at the same time again..."
And I don't want it to end yet.
I mean, I have a month. So I need to stop thinking about it and make the most of my time left with them, but still. As happy as I am to see friends at home and at school, I'm going to be slightly miserable about the lack of constant Cassy, Kendra, Nikki and Nichole. I don't even consider myself friends with Molly, but we hang out with her all the time now and I'll probably miss her too. Actually, no I won't. Never mind.
I love living with the four of them, I lucked out BIG TIME, even though I didn't think so the first two weeks, even though they are FAR from perfect (by which I mean they are pretty fucking offensive sometimes) but I love them more than I thought I would and it's going to be really sad to wander around America without them.
THE POINT OF THIS ENTRY was to note my nap dream. Haha. Oops.
Nikki was spooning me while on a platform. It was so strange. But so cuddly nice and dream!Nikki is just as hilarious and adorable as real life Nikki. She also tried to pin my down and dye my hair red again. I told her about it and Cassy, overhearing, goes, "You're dreaming about Aggressive Nikki? Intense..."
Yeah man. Whatever, I'm going to finish this episode of Parks and Rec (I can't get over how good season 2 is after being so apathetic toward the first season) and then more clearly define my paper topic and email my professor about it for approval. Crappy day has certainly turned around :)
Hiatus.
Eight hours down, four more to go.
I finished A Man Without a Country. Brilliant as ever. I was mildly embarrassed by some of the notes I scribbled in the margins when I read it 2.5 years ago (a fucking RENT lyric I thought applied, not-so-nice reactions to socialism that made it seem like I wasn't even paying attention to what Vonnegut was writing, ...) and became even more embarrassed when I remembered that I borrowed it to Christian, post-scribbling. Blah.
"Persuasive guessing has been at the core of leadership for so long, for all of human experience so far, that it is wholly unsurprising that most of the leaders of this planet, in spite of all the information that is suddenly ours, want the guessing to go on. ... Some of the loudest, most proudly ignorant guessing in the world is going on in Washington today [2005]. Our leaders are sick of all the solid information that has been dumped on humanity by research and scholarship and investigative reporting.
... Loaded pistols are good for everyone except inmates in prisons or lunatic asylums.
That's correct.
Millions spent on public health are inflationary.
That's correct.
Billions spent on weapons will bring inflation down.
That's correct.
Dictatorships to the right are much closer to American ideals than dictatorships to the left.
That's correct.
The more hydrogen bomb warheads we have, all set to go off at a moment's notice, the safer humanity is and the better off the world will be that our grandchildren will inherit.
That's correct.
Industrial wastes, and especially those that are radioactive, hardly ever hurt anybody, so everybody should shut up about them.
That's correct.
Industries should be allowed to do whatever they want to do: Bribe, wreck the environment just a little, fix prices, screw dumb customers, put a stop to competition, and raid the Treasury when they go broke.
That's correct.
That's free enterprise
And that's correct.
The poor have done something very wrong or they wouldn't be poor, so their children should pay the consequences.
That's correct.
The United States of America cannot be expected to look after its own people.
That's correct.
The free market will do that.
That's correct.
The free market is an automatic system of justice,
That's correct.
I'm kidding."
Moving on to White Like Me. I glanced at some of the pages Jane marked first and saw "Rachy!" with an arrow---Color of Fear!! Do we believe that Tim Wise is friends with Victor, J? Why does that just seem farfetched to me :/ I don't know.
I was going to mention this when I write you back today, but I'll just say it now: We should forever send each other books we've just read with notes and ideas and exclamation points, lol. Til we are wrinkly old women on opposite ends of the world (or next door neighbors).
I finished A Man Without a Country. Brilliant as ever. I was mildly embarrassed by some of the notes I scribbled in the margins when I read it 2.5 years ago (a fucking RENT lyric I thought applied, not-so-nice reactions to socialism that made it seem like I wasn't even paying attention to what Vonnegut was writing, ...) and became even more embarrassed when I remembered that I borrowed it to Christian, post-scribbling. Blah.
"Persuasive guessing has been at the core of leadership for so long, for all of human experience so far, that it is wholly unsurprising that most of the leaders of this planet, in spite of all the information that is suddenly ours, want the guessing to go on. ... Some of the loudest, most proudly ignorant guessing in the world is going on in Washington today [2005]. Our leaders are sick of all the solid information that has been dumped on humanity by research and scholarship and investigative reporting.
... Loaded pistols are good for everyone except inmates in prisons or lunatic asylums.
That's correct.
Millions spent on public health are inflationary.
That's correct.
Billions spent on weapons will bring inflation down.
That's correct.
Dictatorships to the right are much closer to American ideals than dictatorships to the left.
That's correct.
The more hydrogen bomb warheads we have, all set to go off at a moment's notice, the safer humanity is and the better off the world will be that our grandchildren will inherit.
That's correct.
Industrial wastes, and especially those that are radioactive, hardly ever hurt anybody, so everybody should shut up about them.
That's correct.
Industries should be allowed to do whatever they want to do: Bribe, wreck the environment just a little, fix prices, screw dumb customers, put a stop to competition, and raid the Treasury when they go broke.
That's correct.
That's free enterprise
And that's correct.
The poor have done something very wrong or they wouldn't be poor, so their children should pay the consequences.
That's correct.
The United States of America cannot be expected to look after its own people.
That's correct.
The free market will do that.
That's correct.
The free market is an automatic system of justice,
That's correct.
I'm kidding."
Moving on to White Like Me. I glanced at some of the pages Jane marked first and saw "Rachy!" with an arrow---Color of Fear!! Do we believe that Tim Wise is friends with Victor, J? Why does that just seem farfetched to me :/ I don't know.
I was going to mention this when I write you back today, but I'll just say it now: We should forever send each other books we've just read with notes and ideas and exclamation points, lol. Til we are wrinkly old women on opposite ends of the world (or next door neighbors).
- Current Mood:
impressed - Current Location:canteen (work)
Holy hell,
"CIIS as an institution neither desires to add another fundamentalism to public discourse nor to reflexively replicate the status quo of separation between disciplines, between theory and practice, and between intellect and spirit that characterizes and continually recreates a world in crisis (Bronson, 2004: Bronson & Gangadean, 2004). The vision is not merely a rejection of what is, for this would place CIIS in the unfortunate situation of being merely another alternative school, one where integral means simply "not mainstream" (Montuori, 2004). What we are naming integral education at its best encompasses what is normally sought in a good education with an added emphasis on personal and societal relevance, transdisciplinarity, and a mutual honoring of the modes of knowing glossed under mind, body, and spirit and inner and outer (or subjective and objective) realities (Ferrer, 2007). Intigral education, like this inquiry, highlights metacognition, the ability to reflect critically on one's own thinking, identify limitations and address gaps by accessing multiple models and perspectives."
AND,
"In Brant Cortright’s Transpersonal and Integral Psychotherapy Class, students are required to write a 20- to 30-page paper in which they research and explicate a clinical topic through an integral lens. Some examples are: eating disorders viewed integrally, integral treatment modalities for addiction, wilderness therapy from an integral perspective.
A student wrote on integrating therapy with wilderness experiences; in his research, he began to draw on different spiritual traditions as well as psychotherapeutic benefits. He has gone on to create a major organization in Marin County that offers vision quests to adolescents and adults. His paper allowed him a chance to put together his ideas about body, heart, mind, and spirit to create a therapeutic approach that is highly successful."
For a month or two at the end of freshman year, I thought about training to be a leader on those Outward Bound type retreats for troubled youth, or I guess troubled anyone. This is inspiring :)
"CIIS as an institution neither desires to add another fundamentalism to public discourse nor to reflexively replicate the status quo of separation between disciplines, between theory and practice, and between intellect and spirit that characterizes and continually recreates a world in crisis (Bronson, 2004: Bronson & Gangadean, 2004). The vision is not merely a rejection of what is, for this would place CIIS in the unfortunate situation of being merely another alternative school, one where integral means simply "not mainstream" (Montuori, 2004). What we are naming integral education at its best encompasses what is normally sought in a good education with an added emphasis on personal and societal relevance, transdisciplinarity, and a mutual honoring of the modes of knowing glossed under mind, body, and spirit and inner and outer (or subjective and objective) realities (Ferrer, 2007). Intigral education, like this inquiry, highlights metacognition, the ability to reflect critically on one's own thinking, identify limitations and address gaps by accessing multiple models and perspectives."
AND,
"In Brant Cortright’s Transpersonal and Integral Psychotherapy Class, students are required to write a 20- to 30-page paper in which they research and explicate a clinical topic through an integral lens. Some examples are: eating disorders viewed integrally, integral treatment modalities for addiction, wilderness therapy from an integral perspective.
A student wrote on integrating therapy with wilderness experiences; in his research, he began to draw on different spiritual traditions as well as psychotherapeutic benefits. He has gone on to create a major organization in Marin County that offers vision quests to adolescents and adults. His paper allowed him a chance to put together his ideas about body, heart, mind, and spirit to create a therapeutic approach that is highly successful."
For a month or two at the end of freshman year, I thought about training to be a leader on those Outward Bound type retreats for troubled youth, or I guess troubled anyone. This is inspiring :)
- Current Location:canteen (work)
- Current Mood:
enthralled
The Institute's Seven Ideals
1. Practices an integral approach to learning and research
The Institute facilitates the integration of body-mind-spirit. It values the emotional, spiritual, intellectual, creative, somatic, and social dimensions of human potentiality. Students are encouraged to take an interdisciplinary approach to learning by complementing their specialized program of study with courses in other departments.2. Affirms spirituality
The Institute is committed to the study and practice of multiple spiritual traditions and to their expression and embodiment throughout all areas and activities of the Institute community.3. Commits to cultural diversity
Promoting a dialogue of difference, the curriculum reflects a commitment to the diversity of the world's cultures and spiritual traditions while seeking their holistic integration.4. Fosters multiple ways of learning and teaching
The Institute honors many learning modalities and ways of knowing–intuition, body-knowledge, creative expression, intellect, and spiritual insight.5. Advocates feminism and sustainability
The Institute embraces intellectual, cultural, and spiritual traditions which further the effectiveness of emancipatory movements such as feminism, social and political liberation, cultural self-expression, and ecological activism.6. Supports community
Community at the Institute is understood to be founded upon an underlying core of values which affirm shared understandings and differences, scholarly efforts, and humane concerns. Such community is a vital part of the Institute's effort to provide an effective, visionary, and nurturing environment for study and training.7. Strives for an integral and innovative governance
The Institute recognizes the importance of a mode of governance which would eliminate, or at least reduce, the polarities and fragmentation which typically plague institutions. As with other ideals, integral governance is difficult both to formulate and to practice. This ideal stands among the seven as a constant challenge and encouragement to try new forms, procedures, criteria, and language as aids to a more shared and collaborative decision making process.
You mean I can get an MA in 'Cultural Anthropology and Social Transformation' AND explore my, as of yet, unfailing Potter-sense?!
Really now, if the institute was in Portland I would be quite sure that I've dreamed this all up.
I'm taking advantage of the 12 hour work day I sort of unexpectedly landed in by reading every single word on the CIIS webpage. I also brought Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter, Vonnegut's A Man Without a Country, and White Like Me (thanks Jane) to read.
- Current Mood:
optimistic - Current Location:canteen (work)
Good day keeps getting better:
I'VE BEEN OFFICIALLY ACCEPTED INTO THE ATHENS, GREECE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM!!!!!!
*dances*
I'VE BEEN OFFICIALLY ACCEPTED INTO THE ATHENS, GREECE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM!!!!!!
*dances*
- Current Mood:
giddy
( season 5 reactions!Collapse )
I'll probably have a lot more to say later, but it's nearly 3am and I'm going to go to sleep.
I'll probably have a lot more to say later, but it's nearly 3am and I'm going to go to sleep.
- Current Mood:
accomplished
My mom just forwarded me an email...apparently my dad wrote CBS because they cancelled guiding light, which he tapes every day and watches on his stationary bike after work, before making dinner. It's a routine. He defies gender roles. i.e he is the woman of the house.
( It's okay to laughCollapse )
Note: he watches it almost everyday and hahahaha since he was 15 years old. I have to agree though, nothing good is on CBS.
Also, my mom unwittingly told me how much my parents make after years of SHHHing me if I asked.
( It's okay to laughCollapse )
Note: he watches it almost everyday and hahahaha since he was 15 years old. I have to agree though, nothing good is on CBS.
Also, my mom unwittingly told me how much my parents make after years of SHHHing me if I asked.
- Current Location:fort
- Current Mood:
bored
/insanity
Ignore the last post and please enjoy my new Skins icon. Jal is my favorite female character because Michelle is obnoxious (and in love with Tony for fuck's sake), Cassie is loony, while Jal is very very kick ass and incredibly beautiful.
Anwar is my favorite male character, and I've finally found an icon for him too :)
It's about 12:30am, I've got morning class downtown, haven't finished the reading, so I best get to sleep and cram on the train :/ Night all.
Ignore the last post and please enjoy my new Skins icon. Jal is my favorite female character because Michelle is obnoxious (and in love with Tony for fuck's sake), Cassie is loony, while Jal is very very kick ass and incredibly beautiful.
Anwar is my favorite male character, and I've finally found an icon for him too :)
It's about 12:30am, I've got morning class downtown, haven't finished the reading, so I best get to sleep and cram on the train :/ Night all.
- Current Mood:
tired
I am slowly letting my head and heart discuss (quietly, and without my annoying interruption) what I want to...do, when I grow up lol.
I'm trying to be calm and think it through, sort of, because I normally just go frenzy crazy when I get excited about a possible future, and that just doesn't work. I want to know what I'm talking about when I talk to Jane :)
Last night after swim (girl Alex and Brena!) wolfbane and I watched The 11th Hour and had a seriously wonderful conversation. I will never get tired of sounding like an idiot while you speak golden words of concise...ment, Jane! This morning Rosie took J and I to the theater school where I touched a piano for the first time since Christmas and Jane and Rose did..tumbling? behind me :)
Lots of .... tonight, apparently.
Then we watched GATTACA (!) and took an hour yoga class, the effects of which are currently killing. I love this feeling. Tonight I started watching The West Wing again (I stopped after the first couple episodes of season 3), and while it's not as exciting (to me) as S1 and 2, I'm becoming obsessed again. I can't get over how much I love C.J. She is always kicking all kinds of asses.
It's been a laid back, lovely day. All my homework is chapters of reading out of various texts for various classes, and writing a resume/cover letter for any anthro grad program. So I didn't feel in any rush to start anything today lol.
virtuistic, you asked about Biomimicry before, I'm only 40ish pages in, but it's so freaking interesting and I think you should check it out immediately. Or when you get back from WI. Hope the 4 hour mix goes superbly ;)
DUDE MARY LOUISE PARKER IS ARGUING WITH JOSH LYMAN! I love this show.
I'm trying to be calm and think it through, sort of, because I normally just go frenzy crazy when I get excited about a possible future, and that just doesn't work. I want to know what I'm talking about when I talk to Jane :)
Last night after swim (girl Alex and Brena!) wolfbane and I watched The 11th Hour and had a seriously wonderful conversation. I will never get tired of sounding like an idiot while you speak golden words of concise...ment, Jane! This morning Rosie took J and I to the theater school where I touched a piano for the first time since Christmas and Jane and Rose did..tumbling? behind me :)
Lots of .... tonight, apparently.
Then we watched GATTACA (!) and took an hour yoga class, the effects of which are currently killing. I love this feeling. Tonight I started watching The West Wing again (I stopped after the first couple episodes of season 3), and while it's not as exciting (to me) as S1 and 2, I'm becoming obsessed again. I can't get over how much I love C.J. She is always kicking all kinds of asses.
It's been a laid back, lovely day. All my homework is chapters of reading out of various texts for various classes, and writing a resume/cover letter for any anthro grad program. So I didn't feel in any rush to start anything today lol.
virtuistic, you asked about Biomimicry before, I'm only 40ish pages in, but it's so freaking interesting and I think you should check it out immediately. Or when you get back from WI. Hope the 4 hour mix goes superbly ;)DUDE MARY LOUISE PARKER IS ARGUING WITH JOSH LYMAN! I love this show.
- Current Mood:
content
- Current Mood:
happy
lol. I dislike the song Bleeding Love, but
hahahahah cryyyy if i want toooooo. You would cry too if it happened to you! is apparently next on my itunes.
anyway,
...but singing it in my head makes me feel better and less melodramatic. Or more melodramatic? But it sort of feels good. And of course, makes me think of Lark and Megan and last summer :)
I'm not going to class at 3, but I'm going to TRY to straighten some things out at the bank, drop off my B&N application, and get OJ and yogurt from country market. Then it's to the school library where I will do my self-assessment for anthro :/ (what personality traits do I have?), make an exercise plan for completing in my room once Tess moves out in 1.5 weeks for the days I can't convince myself to go to the Ray, finish my last study abroad answer, submit an online movie theatre application, read Powedermaker, maybe (hopefully) see Jane, borrow her 11th Hour(?), reflect and cry in the tub, and run at the Ray.
Then it's time for bed, and then it's Wednesday where I have one dinky morning class and a day wide open for walking, thinking, writing, exercising, doing more homework, and calming the fuck down.
This place is a terrible fit, but if I just calm down, good can come out of it all. I can't wait to go home next weekend. I've got Tyler George and my bike in my mind's eye, and nothing can stop me from enjoying 3 full days playing music, hugging my mom, and biking around town. I bet I can convince Ty to explore the Forbidden Forest with me :D:D:D The river won't be frozen any more!
hahahahah cryyyy if i want toooooo. You would cry too if it happened to you! is apparently next on my itunes.
anyway,
...but singing it in my head makes me feel better and less melodramatic. Or more melodramatic? But it sort of feels good. And of course, makes me think of Lark and Megan and last summer :)
I'm not going to class at 3, but I'm going to TRY to straighten some things out at the bank, drop off my B&N application, and get OJ and yogurt from country market. Then it's to the school library where I will do my self-assessment for anthro :/ (what personality traits do I have?), make an exercise plan for completing in my room once Tess moves out in 1.5 weeks for the days I can't convince myself to go to the Ray, finish my last study abroad answer, submit an online movie theatre application, read Powedermaker, maybe (hopefully) see Jane, borrow her 11th Hour(?), reflect and cry in the tub, and run at the Ray.
Then it's time for bed, and then it's Wednesday where I have one dinky morning class and a day wide open for walking, thinking, writing, exercising, doing more homework, and calming the fuck down.
This place is a terrible fit, but if I just calm down, good can come out of it all. I can't wait to go home next weekend. I've got Tyler George and my bike in my mind's eye, and nothing can stop me from enjoying 3 full days playing music, hugging my mom, and biking around town. I bet I can convince Ty to explore the Forbidden Forest with me :D:D:D The river won't be frozen any more!
- Current Mood: optimistic
I keep leaving my anthro classes feeling sad because I'm not motivated to go after any career or learning opportunity and I'm sort of scared, but I don't want to sit and process any of it, I'd rather watch Breaking Bad and avoid life. I have an hour and a half to convince myself to go to class this afternoon.
Also, there are two fuckers in my morning class who really piss me off, and all they're doing is sounding pretentious and demonstrating a desire for social change. But in a pretentious way. Which, apparently, I can't handle. One of them is in my afternoon class too, so there's more of him to look forward to.
I need something to wipe this sour taste out of my mouth, metaphorically speaking.
Now who's the pretentious fucker.
Also, there are two fuckers in my morning class who really piss me off, and all they're doing is sounding pretentious and demonstrating a desire for social change. But in a pretentious way. Which, apparently, I can't handle. One of them is in my afternoon class too, so there's more of him to look forward to.
I need something to wipe this sour taste out of my mouth, metaphorically speaking.
Now who's the pretentious fucker.
- Current Mood:
lazy
I just started The Sixth Sense, and already I've got a twitch in my left eye. Why do I do this to myself? I've kept half the lights on, at least, and I'm keeping busy with t-shirt ideas and kind of homework.
- Current Mood:
scared
hahahah the next time someone asks me what I do in my free time I'm going to say I do karate and try to get females pregnant.
That's what I do!
That's what I do!
- Current Mood:
giggly
I always have a good/productive day after a really shitty emotional day. Which is great, but also a little, "so is tomorrow going to be shit like ever other day after the day after?" Hope not!
I woke up seconds before my 7:45 alarm this morning, but decided it would be nice to have a lie in. I ended up having freaky dreams about killing Tyra Banks (which was more of an accident/hassle/inconvenience that you would think), vacationing with family and missing out on all the fun/swimming, and Robert Pattinson? Or .."Edward"? Three girls were talking about Twilight in one of my classes yesterday and it was annoying me, so I'm not surprised, but I can't remember what Robert/Edward was doing? Whatever. OH, I remember Jonas and Sara were dating and it was FREAKING ME OUT but Madeleine was totally calm, and I didn't understand how she could be.
Classes were really discouraging yesterday, and I'm trying to better..prepare myself for next week. I don't really know how to explain it...it's not that the content is over my head, and it's definitely not that I'm bored with what we're going to learn. It feels like...treading water...kind of? Moving, moving moving, not really going anywhere, but still getting..something out of it? I don't know, so I'm going to stop now. It wasn't frustrating, but made me feel really sad. Which kind of freaked me out lol.
Good Things!
1. There's an unassuming girl in one of my anthro classes who has facial features very similar to Kate Winslet. I want to be her friend.
2. A guy in my other anthro class group has sort of a stutter (and looks sort of like the red headed doctor on Grays Anatomy), which meant whenever I spoke to him, I was the picture of composure. WHY DO SOCIALLY UNCOMFORTABLE PEOPLE PUSH ME INTO THIS CALM, COLLECTED, SOCIAL MODE.
3. Jane, I really want to be in an anthro class with Bret(t) now :)
4. I put money back on my dad's credit card by returning yet another textbook that came in at the public library!
This post (even with the good things list) put me in a weird mood that I am not digging, so I'm off to do something else instead!
Hang in there my friends.
I woke up seconds before my 7:45 alarm this morning, but decided it would be nice to have a lie in. I ended up having freaky dreams about killing Tyra Banks (which was more of an accident/hassle/inconvenience that you would think), vacationing with family and missing out on all the fun/swimming, and Robert Pattinson? Or .."Edward"? Three girls were talking about Twilight in one of my classes yesterday and it was annoying me, so I'm not surprised, but I can't remember what Robert/Edward was doing? Whatever. OH, I remember Jonas and Sara were dating and it was FREAKING ME OUT but Madeleine was totally calm, and I didn't understand how she could be.
Classes were really discouraging yesterday, and I'm trying to better..prepare myself for next week. I don't really know how to explain it...it's not that the content is over my head, and it's definitely not that I'm bored with what we're going to learn. It feels like...treading water...kind of? Moving, moving moving, not really going anywhere, but still getting..something out of it? I don't know, so I'm going to stop now. It wasn't frustrating, but made me feel really sad. Which kind of freaked me out lol.
Good Things!
1. There's an unassuming girl in one of my anthro classes who has facial features very similar to Kate Winslet. I want to be her friend.
2. A guy in my other anthro class group has sort of a stutter (and looks sort of like the red headed doctor on Grays Anatomy), which meant whenever I spoke to him, I was the picture of composure. WHY DO SOCIALLY UNCOMFORTABLE PEOPLE PUSH ME INTO THIS CALM, COLLECTED, SOCIAL MODE.
3. Jane, I really want to be in an anthro class with Bret(t) now :)
4. I put money back on my dad's credit card by returning yet another textbook that came in at the public library!
This post (even with the good things list) put me in a weird mood that I am not digging, so I'm off to do something else instead!
Hang in there my friends.
- Current Mood:
cranky - Current Music:Ani-Untouchable Face
01. Make a list of 5 men you would like to do today, but won't unless you got the chance:
-Alex from Latvia
-Emile Hirsch
-Gael Garcia Bernal
-The boy I had a crush on FOREVER, who is NO LONGER compatible at all, but still dead sexy. I would, without question, tap that (Am I allowed to say that?). As long as we didn't have to talk afterward.
-Paul Rudd circa the '90s. I know it says "today", but it's just a meme.
02. Would you ever get a tattoo?
Got the one I've wanted for years this winter.
03. What was the last (fill in the blank:epiphany) you had?
I don't remember
04. What's your occupation?
I have been unemployed for just over two months :( And besides the fact that I have ONE DOLLAR AND NINETY FIVE CENTS TO MY NAME, I can't be bothered to fill out coffee shop applications. I've been searching my school's campus job/internship web page for the past two months and applied to many. No dice.
( EEP SORRY, forgot to cut for lengthCollapse )
No tagging tonight, anyone who wants to do it should.
Random aside: I have been in a better mood since discovering the comics Chris drew me in high school, choice Weezer songs, and finally putting the LP Zoo shot glass Matt and Betsey got me to goodish use.
-Alex from Latvia
-Emile Hirsch
-Gael Garcia Bernal
-The boy I had a crush on FOREVER, who is NO LONGER compatible at all, but still dead sexy. I would, without question, tap that (Am I allowed to say that?). As long as we didn't have to talk afterward.
-Paul Rudd circa the '90s. I know it says "today", but it's just a meme.
02. Would you ever get a tattoo?
Got the one I've wanted for years this winter.
03. What was the last (fill in the blank:epiphany) you had?
I don't remember
04. What's your occupation?
I have been unemployed for just over two months :( And besides the fact that I have ONE DOLLAR AND NINETY FIVE CENTS TO MY NAME, I can't be bothered to fill out coffee shop applications. I've been searching my school's campus job/internship web page for the past two months and applied to many. No dice.
( EEP SORRY, forgot to cut for lengthCollapse )
No tagging tonight, anyone who wants to do it should.
Random aside: I have been in a better mood since discovering the comics Chris drew me in high school, choice Weezer songs, and finally putting the LP Zoo shot glass Matt and Betsey got me to goodish use.
- Current Music:Yeah Yeah Yeahs
- Current Mood:
weird
My spirits are low and I want to pause life for three days. How would one go about doing that?
Do you sometimes have two parts of you arguing about whether or not to do something? Like I was walking home from class and the dejected part of me was going, "I don't want to go to swimming in half an hour" and the little tiny rational, lovely part of me was screaming (as it always does) "YES. GO. DO IT. PLEASE. FOR ME. I WANT TO. TAKE ME SWIMMING." and the dejected part kept whining like a baby, until the rational, lovely part actually screamed, "I'LL KILL YOU IF YOU DON'T GO!!!!" which made me giggle in the middle of the crowded stairwell.
I've never threatened myself with death before, it was...surreal.
I know I'm not the only one who talks to myself!
EDIT: I did go to swimming, just got back in fact, but I don't feel that much better. But I won the relay :)
Do you sometimes have two parts of you arguing about whether or not to do something? Like I was walking home from class and the dejected part of me was going, "I don't want to go to swimming in half an hour" and the little tiny rational, lovely part of me was screaming (as it always does) "YES. GO. DO IT. PLEASE. FOR ME. I WANT TO. TAKE ME SWIMMING." and the dejected part kept whining like a baby, until the rational, lovely part actually screamed, "I'LL KILL YOU IF YOU DON'T GO!!!!" which made me giggle in the middle of the crowded stairwell.
I've never threatened myself with death before, it was...surreal.
I know I'm not the only one who talks to myself!
EDIT: I did go to swimming, just got back in fact, but I don't feel that much better. But I won the relay :)
- Current Mood:
sad
I found a show called Nearly Famous, which is terrible, but in a way that makes you want to keep watching. Actually, that's not even true, I just like that the kids are British and in some fancy performing arts conservatory college. thing. AND one of the extras is OWEN from Being Human!!! And one of the four main characters is from the horrible movie they made out of the first Georgia Nicolson book (he plays Robbie). So I may at least finish episode one. Later.
Because it's pushing four and I'm headed to Oz Park. Might as well start some reading for tomorrow's classes.
Because it's pushing four and I'm headed to Oz Park. Might as well start some reading for tomorrow's classes.
- Current Mood:
geeky
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