So it's 2013, I didn't realize it had been quite that long since I last posted, and god knows that last post was depressing...

Not that things are peachy but lord have mercy I was being an over dramatic queen. So since I last updated, I moved out of my house and in with my best friend, I changed jobs, not for a better one, but one that is probably a little more mentally healthier, and i'm 30 almost 31 who the hell saw that one coming, I remember being in my 20's and just spending all kinds of money on crap and having fun and now it's just constant responsibility. No fun, and might I add that i'm so used to auto correct it's throwing me off when this thing just tells me i'm wrong and doesn't spell it right for me LOL.

Well guess that's all for now, i'm going to go back to obsessing over Zachary Quinto and Tyler Hoechlin.

thank god 2010 is almost over cause dear god what an awful last couple of months it's been. Halloween on has pretty much just sucked every last bit of hope and dream out of my already drained body...

Christmas was just uh, I had one to many to drink the night before while Nick was sleeping and then I woke up still drunk after 2 he stepped out I freaked out, and well everything was fine but it sucks when your really drunk and you expect someone there and they aren't...then the next day was just god awful I was just depressed as all hell, and I actually got really good gifts this year, but I had no holiday spirit so everything just got to me. Then I managed to get a freaking cold. Which hasn't helped anything.

Today me and Nick headed down to King of Prussia mall cause he was going to buy me coach, anything I wanted in the store, and I couldn't find a damn thing and that just added to my mood, we had a nice lunch at one of my favorite resteraunts, so that helped until we got back into town and hit up our mall. Um hello Christmas is over come december 25 so my question is why the hell was the mall like super busy as if it were christmas eve. So yeah by the end of our little drop by I was near tears, I yelled at someone for cutting in front of me. I just had had enough. We ended up deciding on a Wii instead of Coach since the new logo makes the bags look fake and I don't want some solid leather with some little coach tag, totaly not worth it then. And the wii's were sold out, I shouldn't have been shocked, I've worked retail I know things sell out. So we hit up one last place before heading home and they had it. I was so happy. I have a red wii. very exciting..i'm sure the exciting will wear off sooner or later but for now i'm happy.

Well sort of, in the next few months i'll be moving out, i'll be 29 and I need to get my liscense...so basically i'm freaking out. I just need a vacation and badly...just be away from everyone and everything. It's so sad I told nick we are at our happiest when we don't involve anyone else, just us. Now in a perfect world it would just be us no more guys dating, gays, just us being happy people. Going to our families for holidays, and just being low key.

so yeah it's 6:26 am and i'm doing my usual staying up all night to make sure Nick gets up...not sure why I do this, I could be getting 17 hours of sleep...and with the holidays coming up i'm gonna need it. Survived another black friday, it really wasn't that bad, it was busier today to me then it was on friday, so sad. But at least i've been making my goals...I am taking some bitches down...lol.

Can I tell you I actually really want to see that new movie Sucker Punch coming out in march. I know me I doubt I will but it looks so good. Its rent worthy if anything else. I'm sure you could tell because of the new icon.

I know i'm doing my usual babble like I always do at this hour. I'm so bored, and no one is up. Uh so boring. Oh well, i'll just continue to listen to lords of acid. Totally takes me back to when I was a teen. God how the years have flown by.

so I totally need to change my title from ASM (assistant store manager) to something like DCM (damage control manager) its just been one clean up situation after another at my store..when my manager goes on vacation I would love for him to come back to hey no troubles. Course when im out for a few days I would prefer to come back to fabulous and clean and no engraving but hell would freeze over first

so I have an andriod phone and it has a livejournal app so im testing it. course it doesnt let you pick an icon or any of that other stuff

well it's 5 am and i'm up as usual. No matter what these days i'm up till this god awful hour. I can't go to bed though cause Nick is in it sleeping since he has work and I have off...Hell yeah 3 days off don't know what to do with myself. Probably just sleep the weekend away is what it will come down to.

Other then that, I really am starting to be annoyed with work. I mean I feel like i'm surrounded by idiots, and I don't mean in my store I mean in general just the shit they come out with and then what they want to you to say to sell it. I mean really why don't I just play a recording and say if you'd like to speak to a customer service agent please press this button. Oh well it's retail they just want money and to be the #1 blah blah blah.

It's so sad really I have been like super crushing on some guy I went to high school with. I don't even know if I even talked to him in high school. And yet I can't seem to get him off my mind. He's super hot and i'm sure has a super sexy voice to go with it. Speaking of guys, my ex has been living in NY for over a month now, keep in mind that he's bi and well had never been with a man before, Well that certinaly changed it's always nice hearing about your gay virgin ex (well virgin in the gay world) go on and on about his tranny neighbor who apprently is pre op and well he did every gay thing possible. I was shocked, and a little upset. but that's probably because with me he was all talk and with some random stranger was all for it.

Why oh why can't I get a boyfriend to meet me halfway. They either are whores, or don't want to do anything. I may not be sexual but damnit I do have needs that do require attention from time to time. Guess that's really about it. I know so exciting but i'm super tired and i have to be up for at least another 4 hours.

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I was going through 8ball graphix when it dawned on me. I was such an icon whore...

So wow almost 2 years and I finally made my way back..lol...guess this is one of those things you can't really ever get away from. But it's something to do at 8 am when you should have been in bed, but aren't because thank god I have off again which means I can sleep all day.

Update wise, i'm still working for things remembered, my life is full of drama, work is drama right now. I do like my job but I do get a lil tired of always having to clean up messes or be the go between I may be the assistant but that's not my job. Basically I get treated like the store manager and yet i'm not.

Other then that, I am sort of dating Nick again, and for those of you who don't remember him he's my ex turned best friend. Well he wanted to get back together, but now he's playing the I want to take it slow, I need to get my head into it, blah blah blah game. I'm happy to wait not forever but I don't want to rush him and have him run off and ruin something because I have the paitence of a 2 year old who wants their way and wants it now.

Other then work and Nick, I pretty much come home, get on facebook and relax. It's been a lil stressful with Nick just getting back to work after a couple months of medical leave from the car accident. I do own a car now, sort of, it's in my name. But her name is Alice and until I slid into those leather seats I never got why people name things. Now I know. It was just meant to be. LOL. But that's all for now. Who knows when i'll get on again I just saw my friends and got inspired for a few simple icons, and it brought me back to a simpilar time in my life.

so my best friend calls me after hanging out tonight like we do every night, to inform me that his father won't let him in the house because it was 3 am. ok I will admit I don't like athority very well, but I do respect rules and know when to not break them, and when your father is an ass all the time and is in control of the house because your mom's out of town you probably should get home when your supposed too. But he figured he'd be in bed. Well he wasn't. so yeah and his brothers well the one didn't want to be put out way to be a douche bag to your twin, WTF, the other wasn't picking up his phone which means it was downstairs and not beside him and I don't know who does that, I keep mine beside me 24/7 if I don't pick up it usually means i'm busy or i'm just not in the mood to deal with whatever drama is going on right now.

so he came back and now is going to be sleeping in my bed and i'll be staying up all night to make sure he doesn't get caught for being here which if I do I run the risk of getting kicked out...YAY go me. Which is not good since well the best friend doesn't live on his own, and my other friends can't just let me move in, at least not that I know of, and I really can't afford rent right now I have bills like everyone else and oh good news I did get my permit yes I still don't drive, i'm so shocked. But I had my first driving lesson the other night on a stick shift and I actually did it. LOL. don't ask me how I did better then the driver of the car his first time round. YAY go me...but in a good way this time

Other then that i've been working all the time, vday is over so thank god for small favors, but it sucks not being in charge anymore because with the store manager being back now i'm not in control and it's constantly something isn't up to code or done right and it's not well things were fine when I was in charge never had an issue to to much so I don't understand what is wrong now. and well things have changed there so YAY..ok i'm going to go for now, thanks for listening I mean reading...