I still miss you & think about you all the time, this month has been hard for me for 5 years & I hope one day the pain will not be as much. Love you & Miss you Sherrie.

So I know I haven't been here in a while but there is some stuff I don't want to post on Facebook yet due to still not knowing a lot. So once Jeremy got insurance I made a doctors appointment cause I basically just haven't been feeling right for a long time. Very fatigued, always in pain, just not right. Plus I keep gaining weight and no matter what I do can't seem to lose it. So I had a lot of tests done and it turns out I do have sleep apnea and I am also diabetic. So I'm waiting to hear back from the hospital because they are setting up appointments with a pulmonologist and the diabetic specialist. I will post more as I know more, just a waiting game for a while. Keep me in your prayers or thoughts though please. :)

One of those days I just can't stop crying. :(

Also, somehow I really feel I should leave counseling feeling better, this is the second time I've left feeling worse. I am willing to give her one more time but if the next time I still feel like this I may have to request someone else. Which of course stresses me out even more.

I just feel extremely disconnected and down right now. It's not a good feeling.

So today is my official last day of work. It was a mutual decision with the hope it will get my health back on track. The factthat the only money I will have coming in until I possibly get disability is my jewelry scares me beyond belief though. I will be taking the time off to get more items on stay and try to ge things in stores though. Start with the new counselor tomorrow and will be calling Alsup about the disibility stuff when I get home today. Still really scared though. J is working til at least August but after that? Wish my health was better I really do bib at this point in time I really don't know what else to do. Luckily his parents are helping out with the wedding cause if they weren't I'm not sure what would happen. As it is we are keeping the budget around $6000 and doing great with that so yay for small miracles.

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This fun toggle clasp bracelet is sure to be a hit. Yellow resin flowers jingle along with white glass pearls, green resin leaves, and blue glass beads to create a fun, pretty bracelet that invokes thoughts of spring.

$5 from the sale of each of these bracelets (as well as any of the other bracelets in the spring serenade series) will be donated towards charities that help Suicide Prevention and Mental Health Diseases.

$20



Pretty Pansy Bracelet

This fun toggle clasp bracelet is sure to be a hit. Pink resin flowers jingle along with white glass pearls, green resin leaves, and blue glass beads to create a fun, pretty bracelet that invokes thoughts of spring.

$5 from the sale of each of these bracelets (as well as any of the other bracelets in the spring serenade series) will be donated towards charities that help Suicide Prevention and Mental Health Diseases.

$20

I don't give a care if you have physically slept with a person or not if you are in a committed relationship and you are talking to and making plans behind your significant others back with another man or woman it is cheating. I can't believe the stupidity of some people. Also if the person you are cheating with has cheated ON YOU before what makes you think it is going to be any different this time? The fact that they are cheating on someone else to be with you should show you they don't have a problem with cheating.

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I can feel myself falling into a really deep depression and it really scares me. I can already see it affecting important things. Mainly the start of the jewelry business. I'm forgetting to send and call about finished products. I haven't taken the pictures I need to send for the website. I have ideas and don't know how to take the creativity and make it into what I want. Calling the counseling center tomorrow but the thought of adding one more thing in scares me into doing nothing. The wicked cycle starts again.

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Thank You sameinanylingo I wasn't angling to get paid lj time but I appreciate it honey. Love you!

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Tried to set my default icon back to the one that Sherrie made me that has my name and the avatar with pink hair. I always really wanted to try that look. Guess I will look into redoing my paid account after my paycheck on the 15th or my income tax comes in.

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I was finallyable to read my friends page from my phone so I shouldn't have any excuses not to stay updated now. I'm keeping track of everything on my phone right now lol.

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