Welcome to the Jungle

I have to take a bit of time off... I have gotten lost and can't find my way back. memories of the past two weeks are scattered. There are lots of good ones and lots of bad ones and I can't pick out the details anymore. Rather than stress myself out trying to make sense of it all I will restart on Monday, with this or something new. Sometimes the best thing to do is retreat and regroup.

Appreciations:
Sewings, green dress, bike rides and coffee dates, hugs, shoppings, white cloak, Chinese foods, allergy meds, Maeve dresses, sleeps?

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
Good day with Prairie tomorrow, finished projects, fun at Clinton.

Horse farm, enough money to dream, Success.

New Information:
Not all fabric is created equal... and teeny tiny stitches and strong thread are great as long as you don't plan on making mistakes.

Puzzles:
Why can I sew for anyone other than myself :P

Complaints with Request for Change:
The perfect is the enemy of the good.

I lost a day somewhere... not even sure what I did on Friday.

Appreciations:
Seven Nation Army, sewing prep, Fabricland, taking control, anticipation, Lord of the Rngs. Loves, Bike rides through the forest, Pony adventures and playtime at the river, MOAR BBQ! White Merlot, Cuddles. Much progress, Red dresses, orange dresses, Outback oilskins, tent helps, fine linen, Sergers. Green dresses, grocery lists and good sales, Friends with cars, pulled pork, Dungeons and dragons, dreams.

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
Working Vehicle, Repaired Patio, Kitchen cupboards, Rescued garden...

Organization, stability, freedom?

New Information:
Started a new business called "The Lady's Wardrobe" for my sewing ventures.

Puzzles:
Why is it so hard to communicate when we all so desperately want to be understood?

Complaints with Request for Change:
Make a plan. Make a list. Focus. The days get lost in chaos, and before you know it, you've lost one...

Appreciations:
Interesting conversations, hot baths, plotting, sewing helps! Time in the Viadrina sweatshop, progress, red rooms, red dresses, anticipation!

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
Financial Stability, Independence and Growth.

Tents and Dresses and Clinton fun!

New Information:
Leaving for Clinton at 2:00pm on THURSDAY the 29th!

Puzzles:
What the heck is squeaking in the Viadrina kitchen? and is it alive???

Complaints with Request for Change:
Ask for help before you throw your hands up in desperation. Help is good. Help is not a sign of weakness.

I'm gonna fight 'em off
A seven nation army couldn't hold me back
They're gonna rip it off
Taking their time right behind my back

And I'm talking to myself at night
Because I can't forget
Back and forth through my mind
Behind a cigarette
And the message coming from my eyes
Says leave it alone

Don't want to hear about it
Every single one's got a story to tell
Everyone knows about it
From the Queen of England to the hounds of hell

And if I catch it coming back my way
I'm gonna serve it to you
And that ain't what you want to hear
But that's what I'll do
And a feeling coming from my bones
Says find a home

I'm going to Wichita
Far from this opera forevermore
I'm gonna work this job
Make the sweat drip out of every pore
And I'm bleeding, and I'm bleeding, and I'm bleeding
Right before the lord
All the words are gonna bleed from me
And I will think no more
And the stains coming from my blood
tell me "go back home"

Appreciations:
Early morning loves, rides to the barn, Mama visits, Prairie pony, summer bike rides, baby snuggles, stolen kisses, clean kitchens, BBQ! Making a plan, Natural Horsemanship.

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
find a career Where I can work with horses., find a home where I can live with horses, find a way to interest my husband is horses... :(

Clinton Tent, Dress, Food!

New Information:
Wednesdays make a good time to visit Prairie and Rebecca and the boys.

Puzzles:
How to beat the Thursh!

Complaints with Request for Change:
Organization would be helpful, you have so many unfinished projects scattered about. Finish something before moving on to the next project!

Last night I had the strangest dream
I sailed away to China
In a little row boat to find ya
And you said you had to get your laundry cleaned
Didn't want no-one to hold you
What does that mean
And you said

Ain't nothin' gonna to break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down, oh-no
I got to keep on movin'
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'

You're on the road and now you pray it lasts
The road behind was rocky
But now you're feeling cocky
You look at me and you see your past
Is that the reason why you're runnin' so fast
And she said

Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down, oh-no
I got to keep on moving
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on moving

Never let another girl like you, work me over
Never let another girl like you, drag me under
If I meet another girl like you, I will tell her
Never want another girl like you, have to say
Ooooooh
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh-no, oh-no, I got to keep on moving
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch the ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'

Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh-no, oh-no, I got to keep on moving
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch the ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'

Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh-no, I got to keep on moving
Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
I'm running and I won't touch the ground
Oh-no, I got to keep on movin'

Ain't nothin' gonna break my stride
Nobody's gonna slow me down
Oh-no, oh-no, I got to keep on moving

Appreciations:
MUSIC, clean clothes, clean dishes, clean kitchen, walking, busses, impromptu shopping buddies, yummy pasta. Progress?

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
Respect, support, a plan

tent, garb, and planning ready in time for Clinton

New Information:
D&D on couches is uncomfortable.

Puzzles:
What to do with the sewing room?

Complaints with Request for Change:
Try to make a schedule for your day and stick to it as best you can. Unstructured days lead to wasted time and lack of motivation.

Appreciations:
Lazy mornings, clean Jeep, rum slushies, hot-tubs, friends. Value Village, Waffles! red paint, fight practice.

Wishes, Hopes, and Dreams:
Money, freedom, health

Driver's License, Repair armor, finished dance room

New Information:
White vehicles always look dirty...

Puzzles:
Why is Jeep leaking fluid?

Complaints with Request for Change:
Stay focused, stay focused, stay focused. Don't get so caught up helping out you forget your own stuff. People survived before you were born and will continue to do so once you are gone...

From the Picture on the wall
To the bed posts that touch them all
This is where I live
This is where I do my screamin'

How do you say
I loved you in so many other ways
This is where I live
This is what I do best

Chorus
Dreamin' up so much ugliness
Wakin up to all this beautiful blue
Beautiful you

From the time I walked in
To the point where were both arguin
This is how I live
This is where I start screamin'

How do you say
Ive always felt this way
This is where I live
This is what I do best

Dreamin' with so much ugliness
Wakin up to all this beautiful blue
Beautiful you

Na na na...

Dreamin' under this ugliness
Wakin up to all this beautiful blue

Dreamin' under this ugliness
Wakin up to all this beautiful blue
Beautiful you
Beautiful you

Na na na...