I read that message over and over. I go through all the possibilities in my head; what could've happened, what would've happened? Maybe I should've said something, done something, anything. But I realize that this is whats happened before. This is what has happened every single time. You could never do it. You could never fight for me. What makes this time so different? You could never even message me yourself, telling me how you feel. You never tried.. and maybe, maybe that's why i'm over it. I'm over waiting for you, waiting for you to get the fuck off your ass if you miss me so much, to do something about it. You say you can't live without me in your life? Well shit, what the hell are you going to do about it?

it was perfect. it was amazing, it was cute, it was funny, it was smart. EVERYTHING about it was great. i don't think there's one thing i would change at all about the whole movie. :D definitely one of my favorites.




it got me kind of thinking --- about first loves. should they exist? are they real? doesn't it kind of defeat the whole purpose of finding your one true love? isn't love supposed to be real, come-once-in-a-lifetime and knock you off your feet? then if that's the way it's supposed to be, why do we love more than once. i don't know. like, how do you really know if you're really in love then.. if you've felt something more than that after? i dunno. kind of broke my whole thoughts about first love. and destiny and fate. maybe it's all just coincidence - it's a possibility, isn't it? maybe everyone just wants to be hopeless romantics and think that it's something more.

/end of cynical view on love rant

"All you need is love" is a lie 'cause
We had a love but we still said goodbye
Now we’re tired, battered fighters

We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)

I called
because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don’t hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me ‘til Your dying day
Don’t let me get away


ps.
this is the cutest thing i've ever seen :)

"Do you care if I don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight will you think of me
Will I shake this off, pretend it's all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl
"

goodbye. why is that a word? there's no reason why it should even be a word. there's no good in goodbye. at all. so i guess this is goodbye forever. i never thought it'd come to this. but it should.. right? because otherwise, we'd just be stuck. i keep telling myself this is the best thing i can do. i downloaded the blink 182 greatest hits album today. why? because, i figured i should keep one last piece of you.