So... Its been 5 months since my last confession, Father LJ post. This is why I could never be a professional blogger, I would get bored with everything else and never do it lol. Also, my life isnt that interesting.

So lets start as far back as I can think.

I finished my third year, thankfully doing better in terms of marks than my last two semesters. Yay 75 average! I finished my Anatomy course and as hard as it was I think I'll really miss it, I don't think I'll have another experience like that anywhere else. And my anatomy group members still try to get together once in a while so I feel like I've actually made some university friends lol. I'm looking forward to my last year, despite being a little terrified. It doesnt help that my mother keeps breathing down my neck to pick my career and decide my whole life right now. I picked out two grad programs I want to apply to but that didnt seem to appease her. There's one a REALLY would love to get into, it sounds exactly like what I want, but it looks like its gonna be tough to get into (but I guess everything is I suppose) and its in Toronto so there are logistical complications. Maybe I'll take a year off or something, most people tend to do that I think. Besides, they pull the ol' fast one of "we'd like you to have experience in this field" but how am I supposed to have experience in it if thats what I'm going to school for?! So I'm gonna try to get a volunteer job but that seems like it will be difficult since no where around here really has what I'm looking for. But it will be nice to finally be finished. I have my next schedule all squared away and it doesnt look too bad. I hope I pass Histology this time though!

We've been to a couple concerts since the end of school (fall out boy, big surprise there lol). And they were fun and adventuresome as usual. We spent the first one wandering around Toronto and paying too much for crepes instead of waiting in line. And as per our usual luck, we got into the Much On Demand show and got to be on TV again. Unfortunately they didnt perform but oh well, it cant be perfect. Ben spent the whole time telling me what each of the machines in the control room does nad how it works, at least he knows hsi stuff lol. We made it to the concert just in time to see Cobra Starship play (cause they went on second instead of All Time Low which really blew so Im glad we got to see Cobra) and they were awesome as usual. Same for FOB, I've yet to be disappointed by them. And when we were on our way home our feet hurt so much that we ended up talking our shoes off and sitting in a subway station for a while to rest. Suffice to say we had little shoe-gasms every time one of us took off one of our shoes. We crashed at Craig's apartment which was a little short on space so Ben and I slept in the walk-in closet, which was more comfortable than you would expect but when we woke up it was soooo hot cause Ben had kicked the door closed in his sleep. But the concert was at the Ricoh Collesium so it was nice to go back there since our first FOB show was there about three years previous.

The other show was the blink-182 reunion tour that stopped in Toronto. That day was a little simpler since I got the car so we drove down. And on the way we stopped at the funniest indian restaurant. It was an average buffet with average food but they played this crazy techno indian music with was the most entertaining part lol. Unfortunately it was raining on and off all day so Kim bought us ponchos that had spiderman and Pooh on them so we stayed dry. It was a good show but we were on the lawn so it was a little hard to see but I'm not complaining since the tickets were only $20.

Work has been going pretty well, I can't really complain too much. I've actually enjoyed working in the computer department and I dread doing anything else. For example, I'm currently in furniture which I haven't been in for probably four months and this is what I'm doing lol. At least in computers there's always someone to help. Although on the bright side, Justin got hired so I have a new friend at work! I have to remember not to call him Apollo though or people will think I'm crazy lol. We also hire dthis one JR Consultant who everyone thinks is a huge douche, he hasnt really done anything to me yet so I've tried to reserve judgement although its hard when everyone else hates him lol. But on the whole its pretty good, I'm slowly becoming our new GM's (did I mention we got a new GM, Mark?) go-to person so thats kinda nice. It means he knows I do my work well so he generally leaves me alone. Which is handy for all the times I slack off. And we've been doing alot of In-Store Set Ups on laptops which the tech doesnt really do anymore so its up to us normal computer people to do them now. I like the tech work, I can hang out in the back and not deal with customer bullshit and work at my own pace. I would totally take the tech opening excpet I can't work full time come the fall. And on that note, a whole bunch of people are leaving which is kind of sad. People that have been here longer than I have. Luckily, they aren't people I associate with too much but I'll still miss having them around. Oh, and I almost forgot, Alan, one of my favourite people here and certainly my favourite manager was fired for stealing! I never saw it coming and I still miss him some days and it feels weird to say that he's a nice guy cause obviously he's a thief. But things change, we usually don't have too much turn over so it just seems to be happening all at once.

So as I said, I'm done my bachelor's this year and its only slightly terrifying. I think the worst part (and my mother doesnt help by drilling it into my head) that I don't have a definitely career choice. I mean, Sarah, Kim and Craig all graduated from a specific program that has more on-the-job training where mine is a jumble of facts and knowledge. They can walk out the door and know what type of places they can apply to where I still have anything under the umbrella of medical science. It doesnt help either that most of the job listings I see are for nurses, something which I really don't have too much of an interest in. And even if I wanted to be a nurse, I would still have to do the college program for 2-3 years and it would make me feel like uni was a waste of time. That's why I like this one grad program, it hits everything I want. But then my mother was quick to ask whether I would be able to get s job with it, which is my biggest worry, that I'll get out of school and have no where to go. But I'm resolved that this is what I want. And Guelph would be my back up, although doing a masters in what I'm doing now is just delaying the issue and would feel like a waste of time too. But I know that if I don't get into the U of T program I want, my mom won't like the idea of me taking a year off, but whatever, its what I want.

Also, next summer I plan on moving out of my house. I think its finally time that I get out and live by myself. I haven't discussed this with my parents, I think it will just be easier to tell them closer to when its happening then have them try to talk me out of it for 8 months. The way I see it is that if they bring up money issues, I've lived at home for four years when most people would've had to live on their own by now so technically I've already saved so much by living at home that I deserve to be on my own for a bit. And if I do take that year off I'll be hopefully working full time so I can still save a bit. Yeah, it will be tough, but I'm working on saving up money now so it will be a little easier when the time comes. For some reason my mom thinks that I'm terrible with money but I'm really not so I know it will work out. So probably sometime in the winter semester Ben and I will be looking for an apartment or something. We were advised not to go with an actual apartment since they tend to be really overpriced so it will probably be a basement apartment or something like that. I don't really want to share a space like renting a room in a house or something, I'd prefer it to be just us. The only real issue is Ben's family (isn't it always? lol) They overheard us talking about it once and -big surprise- they think it's a terrible idea because apparently if you live together before marriage then you're relationship is doomed or something and we'll break up for sure. I honestly have no doubts about it and I just think they only want to keep him at home to have more control over him, they're really bad for that. And basically, if he leaves I doubt they'll let him move back so we have to find a way to make it a little more permanent than just the summer. But its also complicated because he would still have a year of school left after I'm done so its a little odd this way. It would work if I got that grad school in Toronto cause we could just live there and he would have a co-op in his third year anyway that he would likely have to do in Toronto so he would just commute to Hamilton the first semester (its only 45mins by train/bus which would be the same time as driving from Guelph anyway so it works either way). Its only the money thing that would be troublesome, but we'll make it work. At least I think my parents will be a little bit more receptive to the idea than Ben's.

We've had a few friend-related ups and downs this summer, some serious discussions and whatnot. I think for the most part they've been resolved, at least to the best that they are going to be. If after all that nothing changes then I doubt that it will. Certain things I've liked how it turned out and certain things I'm still frustrated over, but I'm probably just dwelling on it.

And of course my birthday was in July. Turning 21 is always fun. Now I can officially gamble and drink and do whatever I want anywhere in the world. Like I ever leave Guelph lol. But birthday parties are always an excuse to get drunk and act like an idiot. And luckily since we discovered $2.50 Jagerbomb night on fridays that's been happening alot more lately lol.

So, yeah, I think thats pretty much encompassed how my summer went. Its sad that its almost over, back to school seems to last all summer since we're so busy getting ready for it at work and then it suddenly hits me when it actually gets here. But its been a good summer, I've had a lot of fun.

Its terrible that the only time I really have to post or even feel like posting is at work. I'm pretty sure that I'm the worst employee ever, lol.

So things are going pretty well. I'm probably going to change my tune as soon as my due dates for everything start looming. Seeing as I have a scientific paper to review for embryology, a paper to write about an experiment that I conducted (for which Ben and Kim offered themselves up to science, thank you btw) which is supposed to be 20 pages and I'm like WTF?!, and my anatomy presentation at the end of the month. But Im not too owrried about that last one yet. The other two are causung me to cringe and make goals lie "by the end of the day, I will have the Purpose and Methods done" and so far, I've miraculously stayed on top of that. I just want to get it all done ASAP. I'm sooo ready for summer to start and I want to have as much stress-free time as I can.

FUCK MUTHAFUCKIN COURSE SELECTION!!!! WHY does this process have to eat at my soul every year? WHY do they continue to torture me. It doesnt matter that biomed has BALLS (aka nothing!) in terms of 4th year classes (and they took one away this year!) so suffice to say Im pissed. Theres also only one section for everything and there is nothing more than 100 people per class when I guarantee there are at least 200 of us.So now I have to scramble and take classes from other departments that I have no interest in. And they can go fuck themselves if they think I'm taking a 5th year! I'm writing an angry letter (no kidding, it's half-finished!)

ETS: It is now finished and sent! He will feel my properly paragraphed fury!

Other than school everything seems to be going okay. Thank god, I couldn't handle if anything else was stressful right now. :(

I like it when my life is like one of those stupid teen comedy movies. Even if it means I'm embarrassed for a while.

Grr I don't want to do an anatomy midterm! Isn't thins school thing-a-ma-jig done yet?

So Reading Week is almost over, I won't be cliche and say that I don't know how it went by so fast, but I knew that it would fly by so I'm not surprised. And it always goes by faster if you're having fun, so that probably explains it.

Friday seemed like the longest day of my life. I had classes, which in itself weren't too bad. Although our new Phys prof is old and boring. He's actually a kinda funny old British man, but when you're talking about Kidneys, all you care about it the old and boringness. But it was our Embryology presentations that week, on the friday, which meant that we had to stay the entire lab period. We usually get out around one, but now we had to stay till 2 30! zzzzzzzzzzz. Sorry, I feel asleep there just remembering it. We were the second last group to go. And there seemed to be a descending order of quality of the presentations. The first four groups were really good and the rest of us just stood there. I will admit it, our presentation sucked, lol. We just stood there and read the things. we knew our topic like the back of our hands but it was boring. Basically, everyone else's topic was about a procedure or technique that has ethical implications and you could either be for or against this thing. No such luck for us, ours was complicated, with different cases and circumstances. But we got an 8/10 so I guess it didn't suck as much as I thought.

I'm not sure how many of you know this, but I like being on time to things. This is the reason that I insist that we leave for movies and things an hour early because there is inevitably something that comes up and makes us late. That thing is usually driving to Ariss to get Craig, lol. So as soon as that lab was over, I zipped over to the UC to wait for the bus to Hamilton. Well I was actually walking with Connor, and magically our conversations are getting better. It used to be really weird talking to him, and I could never understand this because we had basically every class together last and this semester and now I spend 9 hours of my week with him. But we're actually better and I don't think its as awkward. although the muscle under his right eye twitches. A lot.

Anywho, so I went to catch the bus while being about an hour and a half early. Well I was standing at the bus stop for a while. It was a nice day, so I didn't mind. But then I realized that I was being foolish, so I decided to go get lunch. So I ended up going downtown to catch the bus at the station (as to make sure that I get a seat since it was a Friday AND reading week). I went to that poutine place, and I actually liked it. I guess its hard to mess up cheese and gravy but it was good nonetheless. So I'm sitting the the bus station, minding my own business, when some hobo asked if I wanted to buy a newspaper. Other than that, it was an uneventful bus trip. It also turns out that the bus to Hamilton goes to these random places in buttfuck nowhere. It still took an hour and a half to get there when I can make it in 45min if I was driving. Oh well, the girl beside me was nice and kinda chatty so it was cool.

And of course, the weekend went by too fast. We went to Ben's friend Nicole's for a party on friday night. I didn't really know anyone there, this was my first time meeting most of Ben's friends. But it was a really good time. I'm usually terrible at mingling with people but I supposed the Apple Smirnoff helped a little bit, lol. But his friends a really nice and it was a good time. We didn't even get to sleep until 5:30, which is apparently a normal time to go home after one of Nicole's party.

We didn't wake up til 2 on Saturday. It was so nice to sleep in, I usually have to wake up at seven everyday so it did feel like a vacation. We basically spent the day watching Arrested Development (which Ben had never seen! Blasphemy!) and then a couple of movies (he'd never seen Superbad! Blasphemy!). I don't think we even went outside, lol. It was a nice shut-in Valentines.

Monday was family day of course. (Aside: I'm pissed that university reading week overlaps with family day because I was conned out of an extra holiday day. I would gladly have my reading week next week so that I could have a 4 day week this week.) I didn't really do anything family-y. They went out antiquing while I went over to Craig's and set up my new laptop. OH I GOT A NEW LAPTOP AND IT IS AMAZING AND SHINY! So we hung out at Craig's and removed all the crap that came on it and put our own crap on. Then we drove Kim and Craig back to Toronto as per our usual end-of-weekend activity.

Hanging out in the UC with Char, Justin, Wyatt and Amanda was pretty sweet, definitely a highlight of the week. I said that I was going to get some studying done, but that never seems to happen. Even now, friday afternoon, I haven't done anything and don't really plan on doing it till Monday, lol. I think it's better that my time is spent doing things that I like, hanging with friends. Life is too short, you know. But its good to hang out. Seeing Wyatt again is like a mini high school reunion, lol. And Amanda isn't the kind of person that I would usually see myself as being friends with, so its nice to branch out a little.

And yesterday Megan and I went to the Sears Drama Festival. Its kinda funny because I never went when I was in high school and now that I'm three years out, I decide to go see it. we missed the first one because megan thought it started at 7 but it actually started at 6. Luckily we weren't even the last ones there. Although judging on the plays we did see, we certainly didn't miss much. The first one was okay, it was two mysteries where one was done in a classic sherlock holmes style and the other was more of a Die Hard American style where you shoot first and ask questions later. it was kinda cute and the acting wan't bad. The second one was about how all the lessons like sharing and playing fair that we learned in kindergarten would make our world a better place if everyone kept those simple lessons in mind. It wasn't bad, it had a really clear message (although you could see the lessons in every example coming from really far away) but they did have this weird poem thing and bascially one guy doing thw whole thing. But it was okay. The last one was SHIT. I'm not sure if it was the play or the director or what it was, but neither Megan nor I knew what the fuck was going on. AT ALL. It was so bad that Megan was actually laughing at the last scene. Like, doubling over trying to not be disruptive and thinking about bludgeoning puppies to stop from laughing. It didn't work lol. Then we immediately left, all the while expressing, rather loudly, our distaste of the last performance. I almost hope they heard us. We spent the rest of the night bashing the plays and acting like superior university students and talking about boys, lol. Well we had to talk about boys, thats what girls do. But it was nice to have Megan-time, I don't get to talk to her much.

Well tonight is the party at Char's/downtown. Since I wasn't invited to last week's on account of my 'being in a relationship." I think its discrimination. Although char said I should break up with Ben for one night so I can go to the party, lol. But this week should be good. It will be a good time, I'm excited.

So things have been going pretty well. I'm trying to stay on top of this blog but it just seems that there's nothing really exciting to talk about. But I'm also sure that I preface every entry with this nonsense.

School continues to be a test every morning in which two little people in my head start fighting about whether or not I should go. One tells me that I need to learn and get good grades so I can have a life and a future and that it's not school's fault that I stayed out too late the night before. The other reminds me how warm and cozy the blankets are and that we're not going to do anything important in class anyway and that I stayed out too late the night before. I know that the smart one is right, but the lazy one gets a little more ground each time. But the only hard part is actually getting out of bed, once I'm up and dressed its much easier.

The actual subject matter of school isn't the problem, I still enjoy learning everything, it's the tedium of classes and getting up and taking the bus and doing assignments that's weary. But obviously I can't just go to lectures and listen, I need to be tested or else it wouldn't really be school.

And I'm definitely working for the weekend. Everything so much better after Wednesday because it's all downhill till Friday which is fast becoming my new favourite day. Mostly because I spend so much time looking forward to it, lol.

If someone says something while intoxicated, perhaps due to alcohol, do they still mean it? Cause I know when I'm drunk I definitely say things that I would never say while sober, but it doesn't mean they're not true. Its just bugging me a little bit, sorry to bother you with it.

On a semi-related topic, Craig's birthday was pretty fun. It felt like I was just driving around all day, we had to go to many places to get many things for the party. But it was all worth it. Although I was pretty stressed out by the time we got to Toronto. The weather had started to get worse (we got a lot of snow that night) and everyone on the road was a moron. I was fine with the weather and everything, but the world was fucked up, it was like these people never drove in Canada in the winter before. But overall it was quite good. We managed to cram everyone and all our stuff in the car (this back seat is coming in very handy lately) and arrived in (relatively) undamaged condition. We listened to Demetri martin all the way up and everyone thought it was great. Especially Craig's friend Nate. Half of the time, I wasn't laughing at the jokes but Nate instead. And I also learned that Green Apple Sour Puss plus Ginger Ale is very delicious. I may have found my new party drink. But it's only good when there are three shots in it so you are satisfied with the amount of sour and the increasing tipsy-ness.

But all in all, the weekend is far too short. It seems like I wait an eternity for Friday to come then it's all gone in the blink of an eye as Sunday night swiftly arrives.

Sunday was also Steph's dad's memorial service. I didn't know Dr Ziegler very well, I have obviously hung out at Steph's a few times but I never really had much of conversation with her dad. But the service was really touching. I'm not very good at funerals and the like, I've only been to a couple, and so I think we all ended up crying pretty bad. One of Dr Ziegler's friends said a speech and I was tearing up, I needed to blink really fast to stop from crying. Steph said her speech and my lip started quivering. But when Jon choked up during his speech, I lost it. I can't deal with it when other people cry, I completely lose it. They even had a slideshow of pictures and it was really sweet. I'm just glad I could be there for Steph, I have no idea how she's managing to handle this so well. I just hope that she's okay.

So the first week of school was officially over on Friday but I didn't have the desire to post about it. It was kind of uneventful. I was still feeling kinda sick so I missed class on Tuesday but it doesn't sound like I missed anything. And I think my classes will be okay. I have physiology again, but thankfully not Human Phys, rather Mammalian Phys which seems a little more slower-paced and manageable. And my other classes seem fine, not big complaints thus far. One of my lab partners from anatomy is also in my embryology class since we share a major and he seemed a little too zealous that we were in the same lab. He even sent me a message on Facebook about it. He seemed to be more personal than he usually is. And he's my partner again in anatomy so I guess I had better get used to him. Speaking of anatomy, I was the only one in my group with any balls and picked the hardest part of this semester's dissection: the Head and Neck. Yup. I get to dissect my donor's face. I'm going to have a major case of the willies near the end of the term. I'm quite nervous, almost as nervous as I was on the first day. But since I lived through that, I'm sure I can handle this.

And things with the boy are going pretty well. I don't want to talk about it too much cause secretly I'm still paranoid that it's going to be like my last relationship. Meaning that he's gonna all of a sudden stop talking to me and treat me like I never existed. I'm sure that it's not the case this time but I can't help but be paranoid about it, you get blindsided once and you don't soon forget. But I'm sure Ben cares about me more than Marek ever did, I just don't want to jinx anything by saying that I'm actually happy. The gods or the universe or whomever don't seem to appreciate confidence.

Why can't it be holidays forever? Its barely been a week and I already miss the late nights and raccoon city and drive-thrus.

I finished one of the books I got for Christmas today. It's called The Know-It-All by AJ Jacobs. Not as good as his other book, but good none the less. He reminds me a lot of myself and I think we would be pals if I ever got to hang out with him, but I just think it would be weird if a late-thirty-something writer from New York and a early-twenty-something biology student from Guelph would be strange bedfellows. Not literally of course, he has a wife. I just love his semi-logical brand of neurotisism. Although I think he's into Woody Allen a little too much.

Next on the reading list is Charlotte's Christmas present, a fiction entitled The Gods are Crazy (or something, I don't have it in front of me so I sort of forgot, lol). It's basically about Apollo and how he can't get laid. Or something like that, I only read the first chapter. But I'll keep you posted Apollo on your modern-day hijinks. I was also going to tell you a funny Apollo fact from The Know-It-All but I've forgotten it, I'll look it up later.

I hope you're all having a good start to your semesters!

XO

So I'm currently sooooo bored at work. I probably should be finding something to do, but after Christmas there really isn't much.

I also fail at typing apparently .I had like 10 mistakes in that first line. I'm messed up.

I need a kick in the butt. I need to send out these emails to profs asking if they'll be my sponsor for my 4th year project but I am current;y unmotivated. Partly because it's still Christmas in my head and school seems too far away for me to deal with it and partly because I have no bloody clue what I'm doing and need to figure it out soon. But clearly putting it off will only hurt me so I should get on that. Although I don't know why I'm so afraid to do this. Maybe because I've never met the people I'm talking to and I'm asking them to help me.

Last night was the Tabely Christmas Party. It was really good, I think everyone had an okay time. WE ate food and there was sooo much left. I hope my family left me some cabbage rolls cause I want to nom them later. And my phyllo pastries, yum yum.

And I'm super excited for new years. We are acutally all managing to get together which is pretty much a miracle. Well, except for Steph which will make me sad. But I bought a pretty new dress today. I've never been very excited for pieces of clothing, but I'm excited about this. *girly squee*

We're also going out tonight, which is quite exciting. It seems we've fallen back into the pattern of drinking/smoking every day, lol.

In the interest of year-end countdowns, shall post my own list of things I learned this year. Mostly because I am the kind of freak that actually watches the "20 Hottest Guys" or "Top 10 Albums of 08" countdowns on tv.

1. Sometimes people don't turn out to be who you thought they were. Sometimes this is for the better or worse.
2. Not doing your homework leads to bad marks.
3. Being emo gets you nowhere, being proactive does.
4. Don't be afraid to try new things.
5. Don't be afraid to have adventures.
6. Getting caught in the rain is sometimes better than the sunshine.
7. Drive-thu at 3am is a hotbed for comedy.
8. Nine tequila shots in a row is not a good idea.
9. Appreciate the people you have around you while they're still here.
10. Sometimes you stop being friends with someone for a reason.
11. Getting drunk on a Tuesday can be one of the best experiences.
12. Open up to people, let them surprise you.
13. Surprises that I know are coming can still be fun.
14. Being in the passenger seat wearing a blindfold prompts questioning looks from other drivers. (Not that I could see them.)
15. You can't control everything.
16. Quiet times can be the best times.
17. Custom Smash Bros stages can lead to frustration and lolz.
18. S'mores should be a food group.
19. Things are never as bad as you think.
20. Ankle-high slush is bearable if you're with the right people.
21. Sometimes losing touch with people is a mistake.
22. Time doesn't care about anyone or anything.
23. Bus rides are times for power-naps.
24. The back, back seat is sometimes the best seat in the car.
25. Nothing is better than having someone to catch you if you fall.
26. Some people actually admit their mistakes.
27. Everyone can be bitter if you hurt them hard enough.
28. I can be hurt easily.
29. Coffee and Vanilla granola bars should be a food group.
30. Texting is the best invention of this millennium.
31. It's hard, but sometimes you just have to let some things go.
32. Your real friends are the ones you can tell your deepest secrets to and they won't run away.
33. I am unable to tell people my deepest secrets.
34. I would rather be lonely than become something my friends would hate.
35. It's perfectly normal to enjoy Christmas specials.
36. No one is perfect.
37. Everyone has thoughts they wish would go away.
38. You can't control how you feel, no matter how hard you try.
39. I am quite often a sad drunk.
40. Gas is not nearly as precious as memories.
41. Raccoon City is more lively with fireworks and fireflies.
42. Some people are just supposed to be together.
43. People can change if you let them.
44. Why make an enemy when you can just as easily make a friend?
45. It a high school reunion everywhere I go.
46. Relaxation and procrastination are not the same thing.
47. I like my daydreams better than my real life. I wish I could live in my head.
48. I tell too many little white lies.
49. I'm so glad that I have a car. Life is hard without one.
50. Life can suck sometimes but it isn't bad forever. There is always something better on the horizon, you just have to wait a little bit sometimes.

Okay, so I've been trying to post for like a week and I've never gotten the time to finish it so I will try to now. But I make no promises.

The first thing that happened was that my computer exploded. Well, not so much exploded as imploded. I tried to plug in my ipod and camera at the same time and it just completely froze which it never does. It's a kinda crappy computer to start but it never completely freezes on me. Then i was forced to turn off the power because nothing I did caused it to move again or to restart or shut down or do ANYTHING. And I know that's basically the cardinal sin of computers, turning off the power and everything, but drastic times called for drastic measures. I had even tried hiding in a corner and crying for a while to no avail. Will, long story short, it didn't turn back on after that and it cause me to panic enough that I started hyperventilating a little bit. But after three days of not touching it, it magically turned on again, no worse for the wear. So I guess the moral of the story is that magical computer elves exist and they fix my shit in the night if you give them enough time.

One of the reasons my computer crashed is my camera because I was trying to upload pictures from the bar night we had last Tuesday. A couple of work people and a couple of non-work people went downtown to Doogies and had a gay ol' time. one of those non-work people happened to be BETH ANN who got SUPER SMASHED and HIT ON MY CO-WORKERS. Ryan came up to me the next day and said that "my gypsy friend really wanted me to kiss her." And I blushed furiously. Also, my manager Alan was there and in the interest of full disclosure I will admit that I have the tiniest crush on him. He's just really sweet and that's all I'll say about the subject besides that it will never happen. Anywho, Alan and Ryan were cleaning off Alan's car and drunk!Sarah just had to run up and steal the snow brush from Alan and start flinging snow onto him before pawing him trying to get it off as Steph actually cleans off the car. It was terrible. I told Alan that i was sorry my friends sexually harassed him and he "was just thankful for the human contact" in his self-depreciating way. THEN we went to McDonalds cause all the Chinese food places were closed and as we were leaving I GOT PULLED OVER! Seriously! It was kinda stupid cause I wasn't doing anything wrong at all but what can I do, I guess. I never got a ticket or anything but it was kind of nerve-wracking. Also I think it was totally random cause the cop pulled over the next guy he saw. All in all, a good night though. This is an abbreviated version but if you'd like the full embarrassment, just ask.

The Godly Field Trip was last Wednesday. And it was kinda awesome and kinda balls all at the same time. We got to the ROM and everything, which was great, despite being very damp from the slushy sidewalks. Except on Wednesdays, you get free admission between 4:30 - 5:30 and what I didn't know is that on that particular Wednesday, the ROM was having some sort of fancy gala and kicked us all out at 5:30 which would've been a rip off except we didn't pay for anything except coat check and a dollar is hardly worth bitching about. So we spent the rest of the evening wandering around Younge St in search of neat shops and luckily there were neat shops everywhere! There was one in particular that I would've spent all my money at given the chance. I even nabbed some last minute Christmas gifts. And it was so great to spend time with everyone, it feels like I never hang out with that group of friends anymore, which makes me super sad. :(

Friday was the illScarlett concert. Craig, Kim, Ben and I went to T.O. and hung out before going to the show. We had to get up really early to catch the bus which we almost missed but thanks to Craig's dad for doing a couple of illegal things to get us there we made it on time. We went shopping but Ben was the only one who bought anything, we mostly just wandered around and got cold and almost slipped and died. The wind near Kim's apartment was so bad it felt like little razor blades cutting your face. It made me feel very sorry for the pioneers who had to deal with that shit with no relief. We went to this really sweet Indian place that was super delicious. I think next time I'll get the tandoori cause it was super yummy, I'll just have to deal with the spiciness. The concert was pretty good, they are good showmen and it almost didn't matter that I only knew half of the songs. After, we went back to the apartment and got totally baked. I'm not sure how everyone feels about drugs, but we had just seen illScarlett and it's pretty much a law that you have to get high before/at/after an illScarlett show. And if you ever decide to get high, try standing against a wall and slowly sliding down, it is the coolest shit ever. Also, music is pretty much the bomb and you always sound better singing than you actually are. Kim recorded one of our conversation with her mp3 player and I really don't want to listen to it, I think I'll be too embarrassed.

The new FOB album came out (FINALLY) on the 16th and it is SOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD. I'm sure you're all well aware of my FOB obsession (I'm only casually obsessed) but this is actually a work of art, not emo at all. We ended up going to WalMart at midnight ot see if they would let us buy it, but damn it all, Trevor wouldn't let us have it. So we drove to Kitchener and had some good times on the way. We were all mesmerized by the album that we didn't talk all the way home. Seriously, SOOOOOO GOOOOOD.

Today as everyone is well aware is Christmas. I was actually excited this year, usually I'm kinda meh but it was actually really nice. I got a couple DVDs and books I wanted including Ironman, Pushing Daisies, Wall-E, The Kid, and Know-It-All. That's right bitches DAN MUTHAFUCKIN SAVAGE. My bro got the new Guitar hero and made me play drums cause he sucks ass at it and I'm acutally kinda decent and was really getting into it. This was followed by the family Christmas dinner at my aunts house where we all gathered around and ate too much turkey. Pretty much your standard Christmas dinner. Tomorrow it will be a Supernatural marathon since it is my mom's birthday and that's what I got her. It's a tradition every year now, one of us gets her Supernatural and we watch it until we're in a snack food coma.

I'm also working on a new fic. Yes, it's bandom but there isn't going to be much, if any slash, in it. It's really only for Beth Ann and I but I'll post it if you want me to. It's going to be really long and epic so hopefully I will actually finish it.

There's just one last thing before I sign off. There are some of you (coughErincough) that are aware of a certain ... boy. I'm not going to say anything as nothing is official, but having two bfs in one year is pretty much setting a new record for me (/lame). Maybe this one will actually call me back. He opens doors and stuff for me so I think that's a pretty good start. And I think it's kinda cool that we can have a text conversation all day and not get bored.

So I am attempting to study. And trust me when I say that this is harder than it looks. Curse whoever invented Facebook because I think it's a tool designed for procrastination. And blogs don't help much either. And since I'm doing my work on the computer right now, the ol' trick of going to the library so I'll actually work doesn't seem to be helping either. This is because, surprisingly, the school computers can access Facebook too.

FOCUS!

It's hard to concentrate because there are so many awesome things that will be happening as soon as this week is over. I will list them as such:
1) GETTING TANKED ON FRIDAY NIGHT TO CELEBRATE THE END!!!! Not so much, but I need to do something wild and crazy, like stay out till 4 in the morning and smoke pot in a park. Wait, what? The point is I need to do something.

2) I will be working again on Sunday. Which doesn't sound exciting in the least, but I miss everyone. I haven't seen anyone there for over a week. I even missed the Christmas party because I was not studying for exams.

3) Beth Ann and I are going to have a Strangers day on Wednesday. I haven't watched it in forever and we haven't hung out in a while.

4) FOLIE A DEUX! JESUS IN HEAVEN IT WILL FINALLY COME OUT ON THE 16TH. Can you tell I'm excited/ impatient?

5) Also on the 16th is the Staples Night Out. We got out on Tuesdays and rock out to the sweet sounds of Mike Something and get tipsy off Jagerbombs at Doogies. Good, good times in the summer. And it will be just like that except colder.

6) The 17th is the Godly Field Trip to the ROM. I haven't been there since grade 11, it's been too long. And Christmas shopping in TO won't hurt either. Although I've think I've taken more buses to TO this month than any other time in my life. I'm in TO more than home lately.

7) The 19th is the illScarlett show in TO (see my point) and Kim, Craig and Ben will party it up and blow out a few ear drums. I've only been to one illScarlett show before and it was pretty sweet. This time I'll actually know the lyrics. :)

8) Tabley is having the annual Christmas party. (Please do not get on my case about how Tabley is too exclusive or some shit, I don't want to hear it.) It's kind of been a disaster to plan, but it's always worth it. I can't wait to start cooking. I'm such a housewife. Cabbage rolls!

9) Christmas, obvs. And Mom's b-day, which is boxing day.

10) New Years! Need I say more?

And that is my December in a nutshell. Now I just need to make it to Friday at 9:30 and I will be free!


And I think my anatomy presentation went pretty well. My section was the thorax and I think I had to cut out alot of content to fit it under 5mins (and I think I missed a few things cause I was nervous anyway). I only had one content mistake (stupid intercostal nerves) but I completely blanked on transversus thoracis muscles at the beginning and Connor had to same me. I felt terrible, but my group reassured me that they would know it was a blank and I wasn't dumb ("It's not like you decided to not study that one muscle!") And I got to save Connor once too so I felt vindicated. And when we were handing in our Lab Journal, the prof looked super impressed and asked if she could watch us present and was genuinely sad that she had missed it. It made me feel pretty good.

And I got to hang out with Jess on friday. It feels like we haven't hung out in like two months. :( We're both been busy. Me with some studying and mostly goofing off and her with Jodi's wedding and sleeping.
But of course the first thing she asks is whether I have a bf. I think she's slowly turning into my grandmother. She's also taken to telling me about the cute guy at work (who turned out to be gay) and Dean's cute, single best friend. I just roll my eyes. Although Kim's eyebrow wiggles don't help either. I think she thinks I'm sure sad about being single, and I'm not, usually. I've been to busy with projects and shit to think about anything anyways.
But it's nice to spend time with her. It seems like she never leaves the house though, every time we hang out we do so in her living room.

God, I need to focus on school now. Especially since I spent one day studying for my phys exam that was worth 100% of my mark. It's my own fault, but I'm nervous anyway. Even though it seemed really easy... which makes me worry.

So I was trying to post while I was at work last night. But that didn't happen because Patrick (this sorta-creepy older guy) kept coming up just as I was starting to type. it's like he has spidey sense for time-stealing. Then he would tell me dirty jokes for 20 mins while I was trying to restock the bankers boxes. And I never realized before that bankers boxes are like kleenex. Bankers Boxes are a brand name but people all ways call them Bankers Boxes even if they are a different brand. Oh, the things I think about at Staples. Anywho, Patrick clearly isn't against time stealing so maybe he's against blogs. And online shopping. Yes, I purchased a Christmas present online while at work. I'm a maverick.

And I'm currently in a mild panic spiral as we near closer to the end of school. It feels like I'm running out of time to do everything I need to, yet I still can't force myself to do it. Apathy > fear. I need to study for Physiology cause I'm writing a 100% final and if I fail it screws up my plans a little. Not too much, but enough to be annoying. Plus the class bores the living hell out of me. I almost fell asleep in it today and I sit in the front row. That bitch needs to know how boring she is.

And I'm meeting my anatomy lab partner today. We need to start writing out lab journal which is due the day of our presentation next Thurs. I'm a little nervous for it, obviously, it's a big deal but we can at least get the journal done a little earlier to take some of the stress off. And Jay (my cute [alas, married] TA) is holding extra lab hours tonight so we're going to that too. Anatomy is one of those things that I like and actually care about.

Also, I'm going to be busy ROCKING OUT WHEN I GOT SEE TAI... AND COBRA THIS WEEK!!! YAAAAAAAY! You wish you were this cool. But it does mean I lose between 2-4 days I could be working on school... However, Gabe is made of sex and you can't exactly turn him down. Beside, I would've pissed away that time doing something or other anyway. I CAME HERE TO MAKE YOU DANCE TONIGHT.... *GLEE**DANCING*!!!

Note to self: Never argue about politics till three am again, it just causes more problems than it solves and makes friends get angry/frustrated for no reason. Also people tend to be arguing the exact same point and thus getting no where. Although it is nice to be able to talk politics and commiserate with someone.

And I missed reading books. I found this absolutely charming non-fictional book. I won't spoil it for anyone cause I hope to lend it around. But I picked it up in Chapters while waiting for Charlotte and I couldn't put it down. I literally had to force myself to stop reading to eat. I missed it, feeling like every word every page was an accomplishment and flying through the chapters with the voracity that I used to. It's also nice that I'm reminded that I am indeed not lazy but not doing my work, I just don't care about it. Apathy and lethargy are completely different creatures. I tore through this book (~300 pages in under a day, including eating, sleeping, and staying out till 3am arguing politics; see above). I forgot how witty prose can completely shift my mood and when someone explains exactly how I feel in much better diction than I could ever possess comforts me somehow. Or when he learns a lesson that I definitely need to take to heart. I think this book is going to help me be a better person. Now I want to read his source material, lol.

Or maybe I'm reading too much into this. Because in my process of literary adventure, I've neglected the goals that I had set for myself today. Namely, homework. But I've pretty much settled comfortably into my apathy these days. I'll figure it out eventually.

Damn, I wish I payed more attention to philosophy class right now.

"Then Peter came to him and asked 'Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven?' Jesus said to him 'I do not say to you seven, but seventy times seven.'" Matthew 18:21-22

Yeah, not really looking forward to getting my exams back. So far it isn't going so well... *nervous* I really hate not doing well, and it's not like I didn't study or anything so I feel like it's not my fault. But there really isn't a good excuse.

On the not-school (and therefore bright) side, going out with Ashley and Krystina from work on Saturday was great. I was really tired but it was totally worth it. Ashley's breaking up with her bf so she was drunk at 9, lol. He's a jerk, she deserves better.

And holy fuck, it's the American election today. It's kind of sad that I definitely care more about their election than our. Mostly cause ours is always full of cockbags and no one I ever like wins. At least there is a more or less of a wise choice and I don't understand how anyone can be undecided. And Prop 8 just makes me sad. That's all I'm going to say becuase it's not my election so I shouldn't really bitch.

I really want to start writing the presidential-bandom fic that's been rattling around the ol' noggin for a while. But I know I'll just get distracted and not do any work. Kind of like I'm not doing now. Plus I really don't have a plot, just some random ideas.

And I want to start looking for a new phone. Joe is getting a little beat-up looking. But I feel bad cause he still works fine. But having a nice new shiny Joe would kick ass.

And oh god, I need to go shopping. There are so many birthdays and Christmas and stuff coming up. I hate the mall and I never know what to get anyone. Maybe I'll make something cool. At least Charlotte liked her home-made gift aka ridiculous story, lol.

I am coming to fear the day when I won't love them anymore. Because maybe that will mean I won't love anything at all.

I have been watching way too much of The Office. But I love it so! I also need to stop prowling around LJ for icons cause I think my retinas are shot from staring at the screen for too long. And I just read the best Toby/Pam/Ryan fic and it was awesome. Oh god, how I love Andy and Toby. And Michael and his FACE! And Jim/Pam is probably the cutest canon pairing ever. And the FIREWORKS! And the MUSTACHES! I can't wait for the new seasom.

So yesterday I was asked to come into work to help Alan clean the warehouse. Oh, that was fun (/sarcasm). We basically rearranged everything, put out stock, swept the floor, scanned everything for clearance items, and generally got sweaty and dusty. Put it was kind of good in a way too because we actually accomplished something. If anyone messes it up, I swear, heads will roll! But I basically got to hang out with Alan all day, which was cool. We didn't get talking much because we were both busy lifting heavy things, but it was good. We talked about school and stuff.

On Saturday I went tothe mall with Natalia from work. I'm always slightly nervous spending a lot of time with someone I don't know very well because I'm always afraid that we'll run out of stuff to talk about and it'll be awkward. Luckily, that didn't happen. We actually had a good day and I ended up buying two new pairs of jeans and new work shoes, both of which I desperately needed. And for dinner I went with Becka to East Sides. I haven't been there in a while, lol. She falls under the category of people I don't know too well, but that also went perfectly fine.

And can it stop raining for like two days? It seems like all it does is rain.

What else is going on.... A whole bunch of nothing.

So I think I'm finally getting over that stupid cold I've had since Wednesday. Usually, colds don't last that long but this one kicked my ass for some reason. I think I need to start eating more fruit and getting more vitamins or something.

But this week was obviously the first week of school. Well, starting on Thurs for me. Which is totally lame I'm not sure what was going through the heads of the university people when they thought that starting classes on Thurs would be a good idea, but I think it sucks balls. Oh well, nothing we can do about it now.

But I think I will grow to like my classes. Well, two of them anyway. Human Physiology started pretty slow, we're just doing review stuff. Human Anatomy was a bitch to get into but I think it will be tough but interesting. HA is the class that uses human cadavers which still freaks me out a little, but I think I'll be able to do it. We start the dissections next week. We're taking off the skin! And we actually started learning new things in the first class. Biomedical Histology is a bit of a joke so far, this is the class that I think I won't enjoy. It's basically learning micro-anatomy, meaning the subcellular structures and how to identify certain tissue types and blah, blah, blah. And the room is so MUTHERFUCKIN HOT! Jeebus, it was like a wall of humidity when you walk in the room. I wanted to die because humidity + sick =/= fun and I'm not sure how I'm going to survive the whole semester.

Notes about my profs:
HP - young & hot woman, guys in my class were like *drool*
HA - kinda spacy, but she's kinda nice and doesn't talk down to us
BH - kinda old, but obviously likes what she does

And work has officially made me a furniture associate. On our schedule, we group the different departments together and when i checked my hours for this week I was no longer in the cashier section and I started to freak out that I was fired. But it turns out that I'm just going to be furniture now. I basically only work Monday, Wednesday and Friday because most people are only available on weekends so I have the next three weekends off. woot! But we have a new kid, Scott. I shouldn't say kid cause he's older than me. But he seems really nice. I was training him on cash last night. They're going to be doing interviews and stuff in the next few weeks and I really hope they call Craig. It'll be cool working with a friend and he really needs a job, lol.

And I'm not going to name names, but last night during our conversation, Kim and I were talking about celebrity crushes or whatever, and basically we thought of one of our friends being with someone from a certain band and the image totally freaked us out (cause honestly, thinking about your friends with anybody is kinda weird) but then I realized that I totally ship it! I even started writing a lovely little Mary-Sue fic in my head about how this person from this band would seduce this friend. I'm a terrible person!!! But for some reason, I still really want to write it! Probably since I haven't written anything in a while and this was a really good plot bunny... Oh god, I'm sick. And no, it wasn't either of us and someone from FOB... It may have been same-sex.

Well I think that was just vague enough.

Oh god help me, I'm still thinking about it.

Wow, I've been at work for a grand total of one hour and I've already fucked four things up. I think that's a new record. And I'm also posting at work because I found out that our productivity filter doesn't filter LJ. woot. Too bad I can't read fandom_secrets cause this computer is all pixel-y.

Okay, Webadvisor can officially go die in a hole. It's been all glitchy and weird lately. This doesn't help when I'm trying to enroll in classes that I NEED to take or else it kinda fucks me over. It's not impossible, but then it means that I would have to give up a couple classes that I want to take. Although I did find this sweet History class called Darwin, Culture and Society (only because I can't fit Philosophy of Science in my schedule ANYWHERE!). But either way it works out that I'll still only have to take 4 years. And it only took all afternoon to rearrange, woot. And that also lead me to remember that one of my old phil profs has a Facebook with a really emo pic which makes me laugh and wish I still had him as a teacher. Ah, how I'll miss the sweatervest. ♥.

And work was pretty good too. I heard about that promotion I applied for. I didn't get it, which didn't really surprise me. They needed someone 9-56 and there was no way that I could do that for them. Although, Jill really wants (including front office paperwork), and Aisles so I'll basically know how to do everything. I'm not disappointed or anything, I figured that my availability wouldn't work.

I also really like a new-ish girl from work, Ashley. She's super nice and I can see us being good friends. I like everybody at work, but there aren't many I would call "friends."

And it's odd. This is the first night I've actually stayed home in .... pretty much all summer.