| Thursday, February 14th, 2013 |
| 2:47 pm |
Today is one of those days where I feel like I "can't take it anymore." I think I actually said those words to my DH last night. When he asked what is "it", I replied, "My life." I don't think I'm courageous enough to work toward the life I think I want. And since my life is half over anyway...maybe it doesn't matter so much. My dad died when he was only two years older than I am. Sometimes I think that 50 years is quite enough, thank you very much. That I could go gentle into that good night. Sure, there are a lot of things I haven't done...but I don't really have a bucket list, and I feel that I won't have enough money/energy/whatever to do them anyway. They're so far from the reality of my life that they might as well be things that happen to a character in a novel. Is this what they call hopelessness and despair? Does anyone read these posts, by the way? |
| Tuesday, January 15th, 2013 |
| 5:02 pm |
punch
I feel like I keep getting punched in the gut. My health insurance bill just went up by $100 a month, and now I am making $30 less a month thanks to some stupid effing Social Security/tax thing. Why don't you just eliminate me altogether? I obviously don't deserve to have money on this earth. |
| Monday, June 11th, 2012 |
| 11:45 pm |
damn
I feel lonely. I don't know why I want time alone, and then when I get it, I am lonely. Also I wonder why I torment myself by looking at other people's artwork and then feeling like a failure at my own art. I need to spend more time making art and less time online seeing what other people are doing. |
| Monday, May 14th, 2012 |
| 11:52 pm |
Well, I didn't win the $35 washi tape contest at ihanna's blog. Disappointing... I'm doing as well as I can right now. Up and down all day long. Maybe that is all I can hope for right now. |
| Saturday, December 17th, 2011 |
| 3:30 pm |
Am I the only one?
I know people on Facebook have a tendency to "play up" what they are doing, but I feel like I'm the only one who is NOT excited about Christmas, is NOT decorating the house/writing out cards/baking like mad, and is feeling sorta crapola. I'm afraid to say anything negative on there these days. I need to go make some art, Or something... |
| Sunday, December 4th, 2011 |
| 7:16 pm |
Hanging in there
I just wanted to say I am OK. In case anyone has been reading this journal and wondering. I'm still hanging in there. Here? Wherever. Not much has changed, but I keep getting up every day and living. Peace to you. |
| Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 |
| 5:23 am |
broken
I am broken...exhausted...numb...perhaps I'll never be the same. Perhaps this night will only be a bad memory. Perhaps it will be a good one. Perhaps it will come to mean nothing, like so many others. |
| Friday, March 18th, 2011 |
| 12:02 am |
Places
Do I have a place in this world? Current Mood:  depressed |
| Tuesday, March 15th, 2011 |
| 11:24 pm |
Crappiness
I haee been having some really crappy feelings the past day or so. The usual: job search, unemployment benefits, lack of health insurance, feeling unable to talk about this with my friends and family... I know this will pass but I am scared of what the future holds. |
| Wednesday, March 9th, 2011 |
| 1:49 am |
Bored to Death right now. Middle of the night and I should probably just go to bed...Harumph... Just applied for medical assistance but I think our income level is a tad too high. Double Harumph... Current Mood: bored |
| Wednesday, August 27th, 2008 |
| 3:44 pm |
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| Tuesday, November 27th, 2007 |
| 5:17 pm |
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| Thursday, August 26th, 2004 |
| 10:21 am |
Have you seen anything like this?
Hello everyone-- I'm new to this community, and...I've fallen in love with Bruno Magli handbags! I don't have the technical capability to post photos to this journal, but if you go to Zappos.com, and look for Bruno Magli bags, you'll see the Dalila and the Dalima bags. I've been checking in every day to see if they go on sale. I've also been looking at a pair of Magli shoes for nearly a year that NEVER went on sale. Seems to me these "old lady style" hanndbags used to be everywhere. I have a pic of my grandma from like 1969 holding one. Does anyone know where to get something similar? Discounted Magli? Anything at all? Thanks muchly! Current Mood: lonely |
| Thursday, July 29th, 2004 |
| 1:25 pm |
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confused