Distractions

I don't know how to do this.

This journal was once my go to place for brainfarts and all manner of non-RL based tom foolery, but RL invaded and now I don't know what this is. I'm retreating to figure it out.

It seems that I can't get away from stress. My job with the census was going well until this monday when the office went nuts and started making last minute demands. They said to be flexible about changes but they are changing so much that our training is literatly pointless now. On top of the regular bs, I'm down one assistant and they wouldn't let me get another. A day after I got her, the office screwed up her file and she is suspended because of a non-existing possible arrest which she's trying to get a court letter to clear. Im 1
more impossible demands away from telling them to stuff the job up their ass.

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I've caught the writing bug once more, but this aging computer and it's inability to work with office 07 blocks any creative juices from flowing. Maybe because all my work is saved in said format and openoffice cannot open. grrr.

Things are changing, and yet they are not.

I feel less alive and free. Weighed down by financial obligations in my name that are not truly mine. Burdened by health concerns and questioning how fulfilled I am in many aspects...my job, my friends, my love life, my education and career.

The things that used to thrill me....my fandoms...just don't do it for me anymore. I use to sit at my computer for hours at night, typing away like a madwoman...churning out stories dripping with plot and depth like only a 20 year old fangirl can create. These stories might have been interesting at best and ridiculous at worst, but they were mine.

And boys....

It seems that they really are all the same. They turn your head with bouts of sensitive, caring deeds...and talk of your beauty, your intellect, your sense of humor...your spirit. They say there is nothing they wouldn't do to be the one that makes you happy. They write you poetry and bring you flowers...but once they have you....they forget why they wanted you in the first place. You were an impulse buy. Something they can't find a place for in their room, so they tuck you away on the shelf in their closet...taking you out only when absolutely necessary...oh but the Xbox has a permanent place out in the open...continuously dusted and firmware upgraded...God forbid that halo edition Xbox no longer works! It's not replaceable!

my car. my freakin' car. my POS car!

Just because it's been a while since i've posted (or read any friend's postings...sorry)

I'm still in school and yes, I'm nearly done with English Ed.

I've taken a job as a media rep at a local Best Buy. The pay is okay and the hours are murder.

My car was stolen and the perp used 2 of those handy balance transfer checks that credit cards mail out to you and I had left in the glove compartment.

Because the idiot that stole my car actually used those stupid checks, he'll probably (and hopefully) get caught. I got my car back but it cost me 200 to get it out of the inpound. Needless to say, I didn't want that car anymore since it was so EASILY broken into. On the plus side ( I guess) this forced me to buy another car. A 2002 Jetta. It was an okay deal...at least I can afford to make the payments every month.

I'm aparently a guy magnet at work. Which is awesome for my ego, but in the long run kind of pointless, because 1) I'm not interested since I have a current bo' 2) they're younger and 3)lack the balls to actually approach me with this intent in mind. The poor numbnuts tell my best friend (who also took a job there as a Geek Squad rep) that they're interested and make her promise not to tell me. Of course she's gonna tell!

That's about it...other than I like my job and love the people, except for 2 specific asses that piss me off every time we're on shift together. One even made me cry out of sheer rage as I was complaining to his supervisor. The other is a scrawny little twerp who weaseled his way into the lead gamer position, giving him slight authority over me. It's okay, since I'm not a gamer, but there were far more deserving people for that position...like all the other gamers. I have no problem with authority...as long as it's justly used, appreciated and benevolently exerted. This fool does none of the above and lacks a work ethic, forcing me...a lowly nobody to get on his case and drag him back to the department whenever he's taken a 45 minute "30 min lunch" or mysteriously dissapears during closing activities. Grrr.

On a side note, I survived my first Black Friday.

Okay, I have a 6 am shift tomorrow. must go to sleep now.

Peace my LJ soulmates.

I. am. so. broke.

So I was late in entering HP fandom, but I'm so glad I did so in time to participate in the big Book 7 release. My sister won the "Grand Hallows Ball" spelling bee at Borders and got a free copy of the book. That was awesome. She spelled Gobbledegook. Wow.

So my thoughts on the end:
OMG.
First off, she killed off everyone I liked, with the exception of Ron, Luna and Neville and a twin.

Fred: I adore the twins and I couldn't believe my eyes when I read Fred's death. It came out of nowhere! He got blow up? what bloody hell kinda death is that???

Lupin and Tonks: What??? Not even the dignity of having their deaths detailed??? Just casualties of the war??? NO.

Severus and Lily: Duh. That was obvious but so beautifully described in this final book. I fought back tears during "The Prince's Tale." Snape is the ultimate romantic tragic hero.

Neville: WOOH WOOH. I knew Neville would come through for everyone in the end! A true Griffendore! So brave! Standing up and taking the lead at Hogwarts during Harry's absence!

Luna: I love the girl. Her mural touched me. I hate that Rowling didn't include details about her whereabouts in the epilogue. I like to think she married Neville.

Dobby: Never thought much about the elf until he died in such a non-magical way. Stabbed. And Harry's digging his grave. Oh...so sad. It seems that Harry came to terms with what he had to do because of this.

Harry's near-death: well... it's okay.

Severus' death: My heart is broken.

well..that was a quick blurb. More later. maybe

Lucifer is being a butt. BTW, Lucifer is my new kitten.
I'm done with the first summer session class and I'll be starting the new one next week.
I've got my B.A. Paper diploma and everything. Now I gotta see about what my next move is. It seems that no matter how much I plan around it and am determined to go through with the next step, new info, new routes and new opportunities or difficulties arise. Should I just go into a Masters program? Should I wait off on that?

Since this semester has been ridiculously heavy on the work, I haven't been able to keep up with too much TV, so "Heroes" is about the only show I've been addictively watching. I've put off the last episode all week because of finals and today as I sat waiting for my professor to arrive and deliver the brutal punishment, the two classmates I socialize with decided to start discussing the awesomeness of the season finale. I screamed at them to stop before they gave anything away but they mentioned something I cannot stop wondering about. DAMN IT!
I finished the final and walked to the bus stop, trying not to think about the little tidbit they let slip when damn-it-all-to-hell my bus had broken down and the next, although already there, wouldn't leave for another 40 minutes. Luckily, I knew the driver fairly well since he's the guy that helped me find my lost wallet. He let me on the bus to wait and struck up a conversation which made the time just fly by. I've been feeling a bit low lately, and his attention kinda perked me up because he was obviously trying to find out if I had a boyfriend and my exact age. He's a bit older than me, but still cute and a pretty interesting person. Apparently, he's related to two radio disk jockeys in the L.A. area and DJ's himself on the side. He gave me his number to pass on to my dad since I mentioned he does catering and banquets and the two business kinda go hand in hand.
I was a little bummed that I couldn't watch the show today, since my source was unavailable, but luckily it's online and I believe it recorded on my parents DVR (if they didn't stop the recording since their show comes on at the same time) so if all else fails, I'll still be able to find out exactly what the two girls alluded to...
*sigh*