Shall we overcome ourselves?

In normal times, our leaders would be working tirelessly to remind us of our common humanity. Reminding us that the people we see on the streets in this country are not the people making decisions about war and peace in others.

In normal times, our fellows would be sensitive enough to our situations that they could hold us in our moments of pain and our moments of fear. Sharing our sorrow; rendering us comfort; wishing us peace.

But in these times,
Trauma lies naked on trauma.
The raw meat of one sickly event sticking to the next, only separated by the gritty salt of our leaders’ words.
Pain leavened with fear;
baked in the heat of injustice;
outrage the eventual feast.

At that bitter table, too many of us succumb:

Empathy hides behind a stone façade
Our hearts shielded from the blows we visualize falling
from a thousand strangers’ hands.
Compassion is locked away
A danger to us when we see a world without innocents
Just Death,
Death…
death
Lurking behind every smiling face.

In this environment, so many of us become our lesser selves.
Seeing, not people, but the oases and obstacles of a desolate land.
Will you support my just crusade or hinder?
So many of us lose our ability to see nuance,
to seek connection,
to work towards mutual understanding….

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Are we a generations lost?
forever scarred by whether we chose to support this innocent or that innocent in this moment, not quite able to support all innocents?

Or will we, on a scale of years, decades, the lifetime we yet have, be able to find our better selves again?
And in so doing, find each other?
To understand our friends’ concerns from a time long past.
To feel their pain and confusion and outrage and terror?
And to let go of our own pain and confusion and outrage and terror — to heal and find the stillness of peace when stillness is all that remains for us?

)

-Anonymous Badger, May 2025, Granite Bay

Touring through my Memories of You

Four years ago the bulb within this lamp
Had burnt to a flickering nothing
And I sat within that circle of light-that-wasn’t
Launching pieces of myself through the darkness
To one i trusted to hold my soul

Alas, those days are done
And although the trust remains I do not know
If that is curse or blessing….

No violent demarcation lives within my memories
To push me beyond the empty sense of loss
And I am left with this enduring trust
In one with whom I refrain from imposing.

-Anonymous Badger, March 2025, Granite Bay, CA, USA

Schrödinger

The urge to connect
tempered with the fear of rejection
Caught in the oscillation
    of a harp string
Blurring back and forth
hesitant question: “do you want to talk?”
Peering into the box
Where has the particle settled?

-Anonymous Badger, Sacramento, December 2024

Reflexão

Tu vens pela ponte. Tu vês carros a passar pela rua à tua direita. Um comboio vem do lado oposto de onde vinhas. Vês pássaros a mergulhar no rio, pescando os seus jantares. Vejo-te a vir na minha direção. Vens lentamente, aproveitando a luz da tarde à tarde. Pássaros, ponte; carros, comboio… todas estas coisas são sensações da tua visão. Elas vêm do mundo, entrando pelos teus olhos, e vivendo dentro da tua memória daquele instante. Assim como a visão de ti a passar por essa ponte vive dentro da minha memória todo o sempre.

-Granite Bay, September, 2024

Do you need me?

I had a dream
That I was in the middle of
retrieving shredded wheat
and cheerios
from my own private stash because the housemate who always ate them
had moved out
and the new housemate said that she’d eat them with me

When

I realized that you were talking to me from my pocket
My phone was on and I rushed
to say your name so you wouldn’t hang up ¡God!
it’s been so long since I heard your voice
and there it was just like
yesterday
except that I could hear unsaid tears in your voice as we struggled
to get past pleasantries and cell phone reception to
whatever had prompted you to call
<<me>>
to say something
<<real>>
after all these years.

-Toshio Kuratomi, Porto, 2023