I am searching for something. Each day I go out, and only now I realize I am searching for something.
So why is it I am not entirely certain what it is I search for?
So why is it I am not entirely certain what it is I search for?
[A frustrated, enraged scream is heard first--sounding mostly reptillian. Then deep, rasping breaths as Aara tries to calm down.]
This has to stop. These deaths... these attacks, they have to stop!
[A strangled whimper is drawn from Aara's throat.]
What good is this doing us? We could very well be all we have left.
[The blood. The countless, headless bodies. The sickness. Vicious attacks.]
No more. No more. [Aara didn't know if she could handle it, otherwise.]
...
Varric? I would like to speak with you.
This has to stop. These deaths... these attacks, they have to stop!
[A strangled whimper is drawn from Aara's throat.]
What good is this doing us? We could very well be all we have left.
[The blood. The countless, headless bodies. The sickness. Vicious attacks.]
No more. No more. [Aara didn't know if she could handle it, otherwise.]
...
Varric? I would like to speak with you.
[Aara stares in horror at the Kanan pumpkin, face pale as she tumbles to the ground. Back. Away from the angry and hurtful words being screamed at her.]
'You are not a part of us. You abandoned your Clan. You shirk responsibilities and spit in my face! You are never welcomed here! You mean nothing to me. I should have let you die. You are no longer my burden to bear.'
[Aara is shaking her head, tears forming as her body trembles.]
Kanan... m-my lord...
'I know your secret, and it is unwelcome. I will never feel anything for you but obligation.'
[And that is all Aara hears as her ears road and her vision blurs as her mind goes completely blank. Her heart hurts, but she cannot yet bring herself to move.]
'You are not a part of us. You abandoned your Clan. You shirk responsibilities and spit in my face! You are never welcomed here! You mean nothing to me. I should have let you die. You are no longer my burden to bear.'
[Aara is shaking her head, tears forming as her body trembles.]
Kanan... m-my lord...
'I know your secret, and it is unwelcome. I will never feel anything for you but obligation.'
[And that is all Aara hears as her ears road and her vision blurs as her mind goes completely blank. Her heart hurts, but she cannot yet bring herself to move.]
[Aara has been watching Ironhide of late. If she sees him from a window in the keep, she watches him until he leaves her area of sight. If she's outside, and notes he isn't too far away, she'll casually walk to a higher vantage point and watch him sneakily from above. She's only done this a couple of times so far, but she has yet to find out if he's noticed her avid interest. She's never behaved this way towards anyone before, and honestly does not know what to make of it. Her nervousness around him suddenly shifted at some point though, and instead of hiding or avoiding him when he came near, she waited and watched. In fact, if Ironhide happens to be outside at all, she's probably crouched low, watching him with intense interest that was not altogether human.]
Ah...Alex? You were kind enough to help me with dresses before. Would you mind terribly...ah...helping me?
[Aara's cheeks are flushed with embarrassment and excitement. A party. And Bobby already asked her for a dance! She wanted this to be special. She wanted to feel special. beautiful. She holds her breath, waiting for a response.]
I can do something for you, in exchange!
[Though she hasn't a clue what.]
[Aara's cheeks are flushed with embarrassment and excitement. A party. And Bobby already asked her for a dance! She wanted this to be special. She wanted to feel special. beautiful. She holds her breath, waiting for a response.]
I can do something for you, in exchange!
[Though she hasn't a clue what.]
[Aara's headed to the kitchens, bone-wearily tired and yet her mind is wide awake. Unable to sleep, she decided she would take her wakeful hours and use them to show her dear friends she cared. She wasn't about to waste away the precious time given to her, and the bonfire party had given her a lot of food for thought. Literally.
So, with a few books, a bottle of ale, and a pumpkin tucked into her arms rather precariously, Aara makes her way into the kitchen and smiles and nods her small greeting when she sees Joe. Her eyes feel heavy and her muscles ache, but Aara is determined to bring a smile to her friends' faces today.
She hoped they would be hungry.]
[ooc: Feel free to say Aara left your character a chocolate-orange cupcake with a creamy, orange-zest frosting, or a pumpkin ale cupcake for those with... more eclectic taste. You can tag through the journal, comment log it up with Aara in the kitchens or wherever she might find you to deliver her gift. There will also be a platter of cupcakes that will remain in the kitchen that are free game, with a note to help yourselves when she is done baking. Since she will not wish to waste the pumpkin, she will also be serving a pumpkin stew and a pumpkin curry with rice for any who are interested. Then she may promptly keel over from exhaustion.]
So, with a few books, a bottle of ale, and a pumpkin tucked into her arms rather precariously, Aara makes her way into the kitchen and smiles and nods her small greeting when she sees Joe. Her eyes feel heavy and her muscles ache, but Aara is determined to bring a smile to her friends' faces today.
She hoped they would be hungry.]
[ooc: Feel free to say Aara left your character a chocolate-orange cupcake with a creamy, orange-zest frosting, or a pumpkin ale cupcake for those with... more eclectic taste. You can tag through the journal, comment log it up with Aara in the kitchens or wherever she might find you to deliver her gift. There will also be a platter of cupcakes that will remain in the kitchen that are free game, with a note to help yourselves when she is done baking. Since she will not wish to waste the pumpkin, she will also be serving a pumpkin stew and a pumpkin curry with rice for any who are interested. Then she may promptly keel over from exhaustion.]
B...Bobby?
[There's horror and traumatized fear in her tone.]
Zachariah?
Zhaneel! Varric...
[She isn't bothering to withhold her cries, or whimpers of pain. She had done something terrible. Horrible. She deserved to be punished. She deserved...]
I am... so sorry...
[Crying can be heard before she is able to switch off the audio. She doesn't want to face them. Not any of them. Not after harming so many. Breaking her promise to Bobby. What would her friends think of her? What if... they really wanted her dead?]
[There's horror and traumatized fear in her tone.]
Zachariah?
Zhaneel! Varric...
[She isn't bothering to withhold her cries, or whimpers of pain. She had done something terrible. Horrible. She deserved to be punished. She deserved...]
I am... so sorry...
[Crying can be heard before she is able to switch off the audio. She doesn't want to face them. Not any of them. Not after harming so many. Breaking her promise to Bobby. What would her friends think of her? What if... they really wanted her dead?]
Um...
I think...I had a dress before.
[A brief pause. Her memories are jumbled, but most memories of the Keep she does not have back yet, sadly.]
If anyone finds it, will you return it to me, please?
Oh! Ah... thank you.
I think...I had a dress before.
[A brief pause. Her memories are jumbled, but most memories of the Keep she does not have back yet, sadly.]
If anyone finds it, will you return it to me, please?
Oh! Ah... thank you.
She's dead.
She's dead.
[A pain-filled sob, abruptly cut off.]
Kloe.
Zhaneel asked me to tell you--she doesn't blame you.
She's dead. [There's disbelief in her tone--a running mantra of horror and pain.]
She said... you are her friend.
And she does not blame you.
[Silence for a moment.]
But she's dead...
She's dead.
[A pain-filled sob, abruptly cut off.]
Kloe.
Zhaneel asked me to tell you--she doesn't blame you.
She's dead. [There's disbelief in her tone--a running mantra of horror and pain.]
She said... you are her friend.
And she does not blame you.
[Silence for a moment.]
But she's dead...
Does... anyone know how to play capture the flag?
I have just learned of this game, and while some may not want to play in the snow...
I would... really like to guard the flag. If...if we can get enough people to play, sometime.
Um, would any of you be interested?
I have just learned of this game, and while some may not want to play in the snow...
I would... really like to guard the flag. If...if we can get enough people to play, sometime.
Um, would any of you be interested?
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