Yesterday I knew was going to be stressful..in fact this whole week is. My five day work week is all show control except tomorrow.

To head off the week long anxiety attack *please picture Kermit the frog running around in a panic* I'm taking one half of my anxiety meds in the morning and the other half at night before bed.

Its working so far as this is day two of this plan. I pushed myself to come into work today. One because I'm the only one in who can Show Control. But we're fully staffed. *eyeroll*

FMLA got approved. I  don't know why they need to know my physical restrictions for a mental illness.

Almost stayed home today. Stupidly I convinced myself to begrudgingly drag my ass into work. Plus it's that time.

#medicatedandmighty #depression #anxiety

Today is a new day. I'm up and moving and holy shit I feel "normal".

I felt super guilty for staying home yesterday. Like I apology called in to work yesterday. I was super restless and couldn't make a decision to save my life. Barely ate anything and I didn't start feeling normal until about six p.m. last night.

I pulled apart the bracelet I started on Tuesday night because I was a dummy and didn't end the base row right. I'm super excited that its coming along beautifully. I'll edit this post later to put a pic in of the progress.

I know Mental Illness awareness week is next week. October 6th - 12th. Break out the green ribbons! My inner Slytherin is somewhat pleased by greens. I'm going to see if I can find some scrapbooking little green ribbons so I can put one on my name tag for work.

I  don't like the fact that we as a society don't talk about mental illness. We can freaking run commercials for Erectile Dysfunction drugs but lets not talk about any mental illness. Let's not talk about the "crazy people" or the "wackos". Because not discussing something always works as a solution.

People need help and not talking about depression,  anxiety or any other mental illness isn't helping anyone. If we talked about what some of the common symptoms are maybe more people would be able to identify and ask for help. Knowledge is a powerful tool and giving people that tool to help themselves or others is very mighty.

For a long time I thought that it was just me that's how I was wired. I am compliant with my meds and I plan on staying that way.

And there's a new hash tag #medicatedandmighty so if you see a selfie of me and my pill bottles later today its to support the #medicatedandmighty. To read more about it here: http://www.attn.com/stories/3376/medicated-and-mighty-hashtag?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=post&utm_campaign=internal

And then today happened. I did so good yesterday! And today is meh. *sigh*

I was okay for a bit. Now there's a headache brewing. It's good that I'm not in a stressful position at work. I just want to go home.

Monkey knew and practically begged me to stay home in her own way. Ugh.

Shortly after I got up this morning I had an anxiety attack. I don't know why. Thank goodness that Maggie, my dog was there. I  picked her up and loved on her until I  could stop crying and freaking out.

I almost had a few on my way to my chiropractors. Dad wants to meet me afterwards and the though is making me super anxious.

I ended up skipping breakfast with Dad. I got something on the way home, not what I wanted. But it was food. Not much of an appetite of late.