Alyssa singing

atlantic city?

 I am going in a few weeks, wtf... 

what to pack???


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Alyssa singing

o/~ It's easy like Sunday morning o/~

Breathe and reboot. Tomorrow is never promised. 

*If you ever feel dizzy, drowning, heart racing like you are having a panic attack... pick 5 things in the room and say them out loud. Sing a song (like Happy Birthday) just breathe. Deep breaths of air and exhale (make sure to brush the teeth and floss the ones you'd like to keep!). This works every time. Focus on the future. The brain is a muscle; however it's mult-tasking skills are not up to par on most days. 

     So, in a nutshell, the human brain🥫 cannot do two things at once, fully. So try to stay calm during a panic attack. Just breathe and reboots, count things. Any action is great. A body in motion stays in motion. These are self care tools that have helped me when I have felt overwhelmed. Watch how much blood sugar you are injesting on a daily basis. Everything in moderation. Godspeed.. My heart is with the 🌏 Planet Earth to keep us spinning...


   In life, you will fall and make mistakes. You are human. This is to be expected. What you CHOOSE to do with those mistakes will let you succeed. Don't give up on yourself, God (higher power always has your back; and a great sense of humor! How do I know? He told me! 


Stay postive. Pet your dogs. Get thme fixed. If you need help with finances, ask  someone. Embrace your neighbors, especially the elderly in this heat. Get up and let them sit if you are riding on a bus. Pay it foward. I have faith in Gen Z. 


May the FORCE be with you! <3. live LAUGH love. You got this. <3


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Alyssa singing

April 30, 2024

Forcing myself to use this new editor. ugh. I don't like change. I don't. It's not even new at this point, been around for a while. That's how much I don't like change. 

I've lived long enough to know that if nothing changes, nothing changes. #facts. 

So worried about my Dad and he may have to have open heart surgery to clear out his arteries. Angioplasty 


NOTE TO SELF: DON'T GO DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE AND TRY TO SCARE YOURSELF SILLY ON THE INTERNET. YOU ARE NOT HIS DOCTOR. 

FUCK. adulting is SO hard. SO hard. 

and if certain people are keeping life changing events in their life from me. You can tell me. I am NOT that fragile. FFS. 

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Coming soon! LJ is 25

reposted by akaleia

Folks, 

April the 15th is coming! What makes this spring date so special? Well…

On April 15th, 1999, 19-year-old student Brad Fitzpatrick opened a new page in history – he registered the livejournal.com domain. And the most attentive will notice that almost 25 years have passed since then!

For the LJ anniversary, we’ve prepared a holiday festival – LJ 25! We'll be sharing festival activities and news with you for the whole next week!

Don’t miss it. See you on April the 15th!

LJ is soon 25!
LJ is soon 25!

With love ❤️, 

LJ team

My girl kiss

Destination? unknown

I am sitting here half baked, car keys in my hand, waiting to leave.

I just got to get out of this house. Anywhere but here. It's so fucking ❄ cold outside. My body hurts. My lungs hurts. My face hurts. My eyes are swollen from crying earlier.

I didn't plan to start 2024 like this. I thought my bf would have come up here and we would have had a nice Christmas. I'm all alone. Everything is always my fault and I play the victim. I can't even be hurt properly without judgement or people making it about them. At the end of the day everyone gets to be with loved ones. I don't. Yes, I have my parents. As of late, my Dad has been verbally abusive. It gets better. My mom is just going through her woe is me thing. I know in a few days the J train will come and steal all my thunder like she always does. Year after year, it's a big show of how she is the best daughter in the world. Meanwhile, I am the one that puts up with all of it.

I am a skeleton at times. I've lost so much weight. I can't stand it. I just want to be with someone that can't be with me. Isn't that always the case though? Whether you are in a relationship or not? I bring this shit on myself. Oh btw, if I even think of contacting the bitch from NYC, please write stupid on my forehead. She showed her true colors. Nope. Not today SATAN. She is a parasite.

I can't wait to move. I am reckless and it's not even Spring, not even Indian Summer anymore... it's the cold, cold, dark, dark night that haunts me. why wasn't I saved from this hell years ago? It wasn't my time. Just dangling a 🥕 carrot in front of me waiting for me to dance and seduce.

New Year New Word.

Pandering. 🤙 🐛 ♥ xxx

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Definitions from Oxford Languages ·
pan·der
/ˈpandər/
verb
gerund or present participle: pandering
gratify or indulge (an immoral or distasteful desire, need, or habit or a person with such a desire, etc.).
"newspapers are pandering to people's baser instincts"
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gratify
satisfy
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give in to
fulfill
yield to
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