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I loved and I loved and I lost you
by abby82

category: Missing Scene
rating: Explicit
word count: 9,250
warnings: None
author’s note: In one of my first LFN stories I made an offhand reference about "a wet and amorous Michael" early on in his relationship with Nikita. I always wanted to revisit that and see what kind of shenanigans these two could get into with that scenario. It was also a nice day/night contrast to the more somber bathtub scene from "Third Party Ripoff". One is at the dawn of their relationship and the other is on the eve of their forced breakup.

story began: January 2023
story finished: October 2025

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Hot baths, willing bodies and troubled minds.
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pick up your sword
by abby82

category: Post Series
rating: General
word count: 4,800
warnings: None
author’s note: This story came together in less than a week when I hit a brick wall on another story I was working on. It's based on the screen grab for the title card from Roy Dupuis' 2013 movie, "L'Autre Maison". He plays a photojournalist with an assignment in Afghanistan and the NATO convoy he was riding in gets hit by a roadside bomb. That sequence in the film inspired the mission that Michael wants to participate in.

story began and finished: June 2025

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Nikita pulls rank when Michael proposes going out into the field for a Section One mission.

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chance is the only game I play with
by abby82

category: 1940s Jazz Club AU
rating: Explicit
word count: 46,000
warnings: None
author’s note: This story was initially inspired by two photographs. The first is a promotional image that was published in Elle Quebec for Roy Dupuis' 2004 movie Jack Paradise in which he plays a jazz pianist in Montreal. He looked absolutely amazing with his white dinner jacket, half smoked cigarette and just the right amount of stubble on his face. The second were two promotional images of Peta Wilson as Nikita that were shot for the series' first season. She was wearing a fur stole and her hair was in some Veronica Lake style waves. Those images alone screamed for a 1940s AU of some sort. The plot point concerning Nikita and Operations was inspired by a wonderful story called "Mutual Respect" by Enjoue and Jean in which they both have to feign an emotional attachment to buy them some time with their kidnappers. I had this story in my drafts folder for some time now and when the 14th round of the SMALLFANDOMFEST came around, I knew it was time to finish the story.

story began: October 2023
story finished: April 2025

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Dressed in fine furs and jewels, long blonde waves frame her exquisite face. Big, blue feline eyes add further depth to her mysterious beauty. She looks expensive and completely unattainable. Her name is Nikita and she is the crown jewel at the center of Section’s plush jewelry box.
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controlled by the pull of another
by abby82

category: AU
rating: Explicit
word count: 21,226
warnings: None
author’s note: So back in 2021 I started a High School/College AU in which Nikita was an international student in Paris and Michael was wrapping up his studies at the Sorbonne. Just like in the series, he was heavily involved in the student protest group L' Heure Sanguine and just like in the series, that group was headed down a very dangerous path that would result in the same deadly bombings that would lead to Michael's incarceration and recruitment into Section One. Except, what if he and Nikita crossed paths and became romantically involved? During this time he regularly lied to her about his increasingly violent protest activities because he knew that she wouldn't approve and wanted to shield her from it. That became the story I'm bare boned and crazy for you which was posted on April 2023 as part of the . While noodling out the ending, I reached the conclusion that it was not going to have a happy ending. I started writing an epilogue that got pretty long. I eventually decided that it would now be its own story as well. It didn't take me long to realize that the sequel wasn't exactly going to have a happy ending either, so I started a third part to wrap up the fates of Michael and Nikita. There was a point where I was writing the three stories simultaneously. The sequel, a reminder of how we were was posted in two parts in August and October of 2023. I got distracted writing two very long stories on a deadline and the third part unfortunately stopped getting the attention it deserved...until today. I know that I kind of sound like a broken record, but this story was not supposed to be this long. I thought I'd be lucky if I cracked 10,000 words. It's longer, but it definitely leaves Michael and Nikita in a better and happier place.

story began: December 2022
story finished: December 2024

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Michael and Nikita live on two different continents, but something has to give the longer they spend it apart.

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strategic automation
by abby82

category: Android AU/Canon Divergence
rating: Explicit
word count: 40,600
warnings: None
author’s note: In reading LFN fic I repeatedly came across the concept of Michael going into "machine mode". It describes the very focused headspace that he enters during missions and how very methodical, indiscriminate, and detached he gets when the success of a mission is paramount. I rather liked how prevalent it became in a fandom. The show referred to Michael's approach as "primal", but I don't feel like "machine mode" was an inaccurate description of him. It did get me wondering about how something like that would play out. What if Michael was an actual machine? I started jotting things down for this story back in the fall of 2021, so not quite three years ago, but close. It was one of my rotating stories that I had open in the background of my laptop. When I realized, that it had been idle for such a long time, a decided to commit it to the 13th round of the [community profile] SMALLFANDOMBANG.

One of the perks of the bigbang is getting paired up with an artist. The mood boards that are embedded within the story were created by the wonderful [personal profile] PATTROSE. Even though she wasn't familiar with the series, it was such a joy to work with her. Her selection of quotes was an absolutely inspired direction to go in. As I was slowly revising my draft of the story, I would often go back to her work to help me refocus on the themes of the story. I never expected them to be the asset they eventually became. She has her own post on AO3 with her boards compiled and encourage everyone to drop by and drop her a kudo and/or a comment.

story began: September 2021
story finished: April 2024

summary: "You don't want a person, you want a machine."

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr
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you are the space in my bed
by abby82

category: Alternate Universe
rating: Explicit
word count: 140,000
warnings: References to acts of terrorism, sexual assault on a teenager and homelessness.
author’s note: This story was inspired by this lovely fanvid by vedavanda that interweaves clips of Peta Wilson's very glam Bally Fitness commercial with B-roll from an interview with Roy Dupuis where he's working on his boat. There are also clips of him with his cello. The worlds of both clips are so vastly different but they really work with this version of Hooverphonic's song "Vinegar & Salt", which heavily incorporates a cello. While I love reading AUs, I've never really considered myself someone who would even consider writing them. Once again LFN has proven me wrong. There was a point over a weekend where this story grew from a couple of hundred words to way over 10,000. That completely floored me and it also gave me the motivation to delve further into this world. It also has an obscene amount of smut. I'm almost a little embarrassed by it. Almost.

story began: November 2021
story finished: November 2023

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Can a Hollywood starlet on the rise and a solitary craftsman find enough common ground to overcome their radically different backgrounds? This is their love story.
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the most primitive form of comfort
by abby82


category: post-episode
rating: General
word count: 2,670
disclaimer: they don’t belong to me, no money is being made. I’m only borrowing them.
author’s note: This was written for Emm, who suggested in the comments of my canon divergent season 5 centric story "the hour of separation", "Perhaps you could write the dinner Nikita has with her father in S5? I always wanted to see more of their relationship"

I'll admit that I haven't really watched season 5 all that much. Perhaps three times through when I first binged LFN in 2020. I did, however, remember Peta's performance early on in the episode when she tells Walter about meeting her father. She was so good in it and she perfectly convey's Nikita's state of mind as she's trying to process everything that she's just discovered. There's a mixture of disappointment, confusion, and anger on her face. He's "all business" is her assessment of Mr. Jones. That initial meeting didn't give her what she was looking for. It was definitely a highlight of the season for me.
story began: April 2023
story finished: November 2023

links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

summary: Nikita and Mr. Jones break bread.
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Title: a reminder of how we were [1/2]
Author: abby82
Category: Alternate Universe
Rating: Mature
Characters: Michael, Nikita
Pairing: Nikita/Gray Wellman, Michael/Nikita
Word Count: 24,600
Author's Note: This is a continuation of my high school/university AU i'm bare boned and crazy for you. For context, you might need to read it to understand where the characters are. The series as a whole is a trilogy.

Summary: Four years after Nikita left for school in New York City, Michael and Nikita once again cross paths.

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Title: dealing with the devil [2/2]
Author: abby82
Category: missing scene
Rating: Teen
Characters: Michael, Nikita
Pairing: Michael/Nikita
Word Count: 3,582
Author's Note: This is the second part to my story from earlier in the year that touched upon what the conversation between Michael and Egran Petrosian would have looked like when he ordered Michael to go to Nikita. The "date" pimp session that Petrosian sets up between Michael and Nikita comes and goes pretty quickly in the episode, but it does touch on some pretty interesting character beats from the episode, namely Nikita's flirtation with the perks that Petrosian offers her and how Michael handles powerful women. I've always wondered what Michael and Nikita would talk about if he did stay for that drink. Michael's not exactly known for his small talk. And of course he stayed. There's no way he was going to humiliate Nikita by leaving.

Summary: "You have a well documented protectiveness towards your material.

Links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr
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Title: in the early morning
Author: abby82
Category: missing scene
Rating: Explicit
Characters: Michael, Nikita
Pairing: Michael/Nikita
Word Count: 3,743
Author's Note: Do I need every single moment of Michael and Nikita's relationship depicted on the show? No, but I definitely would have preferred that a little more of their courtship be shown. I also didn't appreciate feeling like I blinked and missed something important when I saw the opening teaser to the season 3 episode "All Good Things." Michael, clearly naked and waking up in Nikita's bed. And I definitely would have liked to have seen a little more of what transpired as the opening teaser ended. This fan wants to see her OTP have some happy sexy times together. Someone show me Michael's moves damn it! So, that's what this is. Michael and Nikita completely glowy at the beginning of their relationship before the show throws all the obstacles in their way.

Summary: The early morning sun casts Nikita's bedroom with a warm, golden hue.

Links: DW | AO3 | Tumblr

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