Traveling Forward and Yet Regressing

I will never be good at updating about my life

2015-04-07T00:21:04Z

+ is school EVER a negative? I mean, yes sometimes but. SCHOOL. MAKES ME SO HAPPY. I have an incredible schedule where I never have class before 1 pm and I only have one class a day, and I'm working on a bunch of lovely things and it just makes me so happy.

++All of my classes are with my advisor who. YOU GUYS HAVE I TALKED ABOUT MY ADVISOR BEFORE???? SHE'S PERFECT. I want to be her in the worst way. She's incredible and absurdly wonderful and brilliant and the best teacher THE LITERAL BEST TEACHER and I love her.

....is there ever anything in my life that isn't wonderful beside the daily annoying grind like the fact that I have a meeting tonight at 9:30 with people I don't care for? I don't think so. (It IS upsetting though, because I can't take off my pants until like 10 pm and that's absurd.)

I'm taking American Indian Religious Freedom, which is GREAT, and Social Justice Dialogue Facilitation which is gonna be intense but good I hope and I'm doing an independent study to prep for my honors project so I'm making up Transgender History as I go along and alkdjf;lajsdf;lsajdfksjad;lfkaj it's so gr12 I'm loving it.

...that's my life? those are my choices? I need to start figuring out my summer plans like asap. I need to have my advisor send the Kinsey Institute a notice that says I would like to please visit them, and I need to figure out how I'm doing my oral histories. which uh. speaking of which. if anyone on my feed is trans-identified and has pursued any aspect of medical transition (from therapy to hormones to surgery) or legal transition (changing name and/or sex on any govt. issued document) then uh I might want to interview/talk to you? if it's okay? eventually? idek guys

you must choose your own path

2015-02-01T04:43:54Z

GOD I AM BAD AT UPDATING although to be fair, I'm bad at updating on EVERY site, so

+ SCHOOL IS SO GREAT I'M SO GLAD TO BE BACK and omg just my academic life is great and my friends are great and I'm learning and back with people who get me and it's so great. I'm taking Slavery in the Americas (which is with a new professor and is an... experience. I know how I would teach the class differently so that's a thing,) In Search of America (the American Studies course required for my minor, which is a party,) and an independent study where my academic braintwin and I are examining representations of the American Revolution in children's historical fiction. I'm also auditing German Society and Film and it's a party that makes me happy and we're talking about gender this week and watching Hirschfeld's Different From the Others and

- I miss studying gay things so fucking much. it hurts me sometimes, especially because we're brushing against it in German and just. ffff. it's such an important part of me. I was explaining some queer history stuff to Todd, my German professor, and finally at the end he looked at me and was like "...this is kinda your baby, isn't it?" and yes, it's my baby, because it's my history and it's so important to me.

+ I am, however, embarking on a new venture I'm calling Queercentrism 2015, where every piece of media I consume, I view through a queercentric lens. Legit, I sit back after a movie (and I'm watching a lot of movies this term) and just say "How can we queer this?" It makes things a little better.

- it's housing application time for theme houses and this process is ALWAYS INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL because I feel like I have to defend the house's existence and my existence in it and I hate it I hate it I hate it

- I've had this headache two nights in a row now and it's so annoying

+ I submitted a paper I wrote to a journal? so that's a thing? we'll see

I think that's pretty much everything.

IT. IS. PRESIDENTS. DAY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2013-02-18T06:18:39Z

YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

MOTHERFUCKING FACTS TIME

- when he was an older man, Thomas Jefferson was out walking with a younger woman whom he happened to admire. Wanting to impress her, he tried to leap over a fence but instead fell and severely injured his hand, requiring months to fully heal

- Harry S Truman nearly choked to death on a peach pit when he was three years old. His mother saved him by forcing the pit down his throat with her hands

- both of William Taft's parents had hoped he had been born a girl

- Andrew Jackson had a habit of slobbering well into his teens

- Ulysses S Grant remained nameless for a month after his birth until his parents settled on his legal name: Hiram Ulysses Grant (HUG)

- Benjamin Harrison had his named misspelled on the program for his commencent- at which he was the main speaker

AND SO MANY MORE. If you comment with your favorite president, I will give you a fact/short story about them AND I WILL TRY NOT TO MAKE IT ONE OF THE OBVIOUS STORIES like 'Washington didn't have wooden teeth' (actually his teeth were made of animal bones and/or the teeth of slaves, and he had one tooth in his head that was his but we don't know where in his mouth it was) I will aim for the more obscure so you can be a presidential hipster or something.

REGARDLESS I HOPE YOU HAVE THE MOST MARVELLOUS DAY EVER AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!! :D :D :D

yetregressing @ 2012-07-26T09:47:00

2012-07-26T14:31:34Z

oh yeah so nearly a week ago, I saw Murder by Death in concert for the first time.

So we got there like a half-hour early because I REALLY REALLY REALLY had to pee and didn't want to wait. So we stood around in the venue for the rest of the half-hour and just talked. I went with my little brother and my buddy Dbears who I converted to MbD while we were reading Cormac McCarthy's No Country for Old Men in AP English together.

The opening bands were okay. We sort of fell in love with Haha Tonka, mostly because they had this adorable song about an oscillating fan (and I love oscillating as a word, so, you know, that's always a bonus.) We were not huge fans of the second opening band, to the point where we all collectively decided to forget their name all together. I was very jealous of their electric guitarist's hair, though.

We had started out like four people back and to the left of the stage, and by the time MbD came onstage we were like five people back and dead center. They opened with The Devil in Mexico, which made me really happy--out of the three of us, I was the only one who had really listened to their music. My brother had heard all of Like the Exorcist But More Breakdancing in the car on the drive over, and Dbears had heard like five or six songs I had linked him to? But yeah, I couldn't tell you their entire setlist, though I did try to keep a mental tally going. The crowd was pretty good, just this one guy kept trying to swing dance when we were all in this tiny space and kept bashing into people and yeah he was annoying.

Songs I remember (in no particular order, in fact primarily by album bc I don't remember the order):
- The Devil in Mexico
- A Caucus Race
- I'm Afraid of Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf
- Until Moral Improves, the Beatings Will Continue
- That Crown Don't Make You a Prince
- Brother
- Dynamite Mine (which had this great thermite thing going on and was really awesome and cool for a song that I actually generally skip when I'm listening)
- Comin' Home
- '52 Ford
- You Don't Miss Twice (When You're Shaving With a Knife)
- No Oath No Spell (off the new album)
- Hard World (off the new album, and REALLY effing pretty)
- I Came Around (off the new album and really really fun and I'm super excited)
- Fuego! (which was the first MbD song I'd ever heard, so that was kind of special)
- Intergalactic Menopause (which miiight be my favorite MbD song and one I didn't think I would get to hear live, so that was really exciting)
- Spring Break 1899 (which was the song I listened to while I was writing the email to RPB in which I came out and so is special to me (helpful lyrics for that night = "I've been down and out/I've been spinning for so long/I stored my shame in my belly 'til I needed to be strong"))
- Those Who Left/Those Who Stayed (they ended with it and my GOD it was brilliant seeing that live)
- encore: The Desert is on Fire (which was fun)
- encore: The Devil Drives (which was also fun, everyone singing along together and just. Yep.)

And so, um. Basically I'm totally addicted now. After the show we barged over to the merch table so I could buy Good Morning, Magpie because it's the only album I don't have. When we finally got up there, and I asked if they still had copies, the guy was like "yep" and I was like "oh good, I need something to bother my mom with on the drive home tonight" and he looked at me funny and was like "that's not something I hear every day" by which I think he meant the bit about Mom driving. because. YEP I'M 18 YEARS OLD (which seemed to be below the median age--everyone was like mid to late twenties or early thirties) AND I STILL CAN'T DRIVE. And then we escaped because I felt bad about trying to talk to them, there was a whole group around them and I was also nervous because there was this posted thing about how after concerts, minors have to vacate the premises asap because it's past curfew, and while I'm not a minor any more 1) I look like one, and 2) my brother was with us and is still technically a minor, and I DID NOT WANT ANY TROUBLE, OKAY.

But yes. Seeing them live has convinced me I need to see them again and again and again if I can, because the show was FABULOUS and I just cannot. Also after the show I decided I need to give them ALL MY MONEY so I'm pledging $250 from my paycheck this week to their kickstarter (yes this is just so I can get the book club books sent to me for a whole year. Hush. I like reading, okay????) So after we deposit all my money on Friday, we're transferring some of it over to my mom's account so she can use the magic card. (Which means I should probably shoot them an email being like "uh hey guys I'm 18 and don't have my own credit card yet so I had my mom use her credit card but it's my money and I want the books to come to ME, not her, thank you?")

In other news, I AM TAKING A VACATION NEXT WEEK. We're going to Chicago so my brother can take an aptitude and interests test, and my mom and I are going to do ALL THE FREE THINGS. Are any of you going to be in the area? WE DO MEET-UPS. MY MOM NO LONGER HAS QUALMS ABOUT PEOPLE WE'VE NEVER MET HANGING OUT WITH US. She won't even freak out that you're going to take me to a bar in the middle of the afternoon on a week day! I'll be there probably Sunday through Wednesday. HIT ME UP, YO.

HAPPY PRESIDENTS DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2012-02-20T05:30:23Z

In honor of this most wonderful of holidays celebrating dead white guys, I'm going to tell some facts (because it's the only day where it's socially acceptable to do so. ....Although that never stops me the other 364 days, so...) HERE WE GO:

Teddy Roosevelt hated vulgar jokes and he would walk away in the middle of a story if he thought it was going to get dirty.

Calvin Coolidge liked to wear underwear that was too big for him.

James Buchanan had one eye that was nearsighted and another that was farsighted—he would close one eye and tilt his head depending on what he was looking at.

Benjamin Harrison had his name misspelled on the program for his commencement, where he was giving the main address.

Taft’s parents had hoped he was a girl.

John Adams loved Shakespeare so much that when he went to Shakespeare’s house, he carved a sliver out of the wood form a chair.

George Washington died while taking his own pulse.

JFK lost his virginity at age 17 (which is a bit late if you think about his reputation) in a Harlem brothel.

Abraham Lincoln was so good at reading/reciting Shakespeare, people swore he’d missed his calling and ought to have been an actor.

I hope y'all have the most AMAZING Presidents Day EVER. I'm going to carry my giant cardboard cutout of Lincoln all day tomorrow, so that's exciting. MAYBE I'LL DANCE WITH HIM AT DINNER AND DANCING.

Character Meme!

2011-11-19T04:33:40Z

SUP, Y'ALL. I'm. Very bad at activity in the world recently. So we're going to attempt to resolve that by doing a CHARACTER CPR MEME.

Everyone put on their 'Another One Bites the Dust' and follow these rules:

1) Click on this link. It will take you to my CHARACTER LIST. Are you impressed with it? Are there any good usernames? Any appealing PBs? CLICK AROUND FOR A WHILE.

2) DON'T CLICK AROUND FOREVER. Find one or two or a thousand (idk where you'd find that many, but GO AHEAD AND FIND THEM FOR ME!).

3) Think about your own characters. Would any of them want to ask one of mine a question? Would they meet in a random actionspam scenario? WOULD THEY FIGHT? I love fighting. COME BACK TO THIS POST. Post a comment with your character and a question or a scenario for one of mine.

4) PROFIT FOREVER. WHOOOOOO. :D

(You should always have someone call the hospital when you're using CPR, just so you know. You don't have to call the hospital for this meme, but someone else should always call for an ambulance while you perform the actual procedure. This from Ai's PSAs. kthx)

Warning for anger, homophobia and transphobia

2011-11-05T04:56:02Z

I. Hate. The world.

I shouldn't, either. Things have been going BRILLIANTLY. Well. Not brilliantly. It's been a rough week, but it's tech week so that's expected.

But then the Max, my co-president in GSA who is also gay had a story to tell me today. I guess apparently today in the boys' locker room (which is like the hub of all homophobic comments, I guess, I've never been in there), there were some boys explaining my trans* identity to another boy. According to Max, they were saying something akin to the following "I mean. She just decided to be trans one day. And so like... she's not human. And since she's not human, she's not protected by the Constitution!" Max felt horrible and because of that, shot really poorly in his rifle team match today, so I'm having him write an email to his coaches (one of whom is my former US teacher) explaining about language in the locker room and how it's affecting his performance and shit. Y'know. If they don't do anything, we'll just have to wait until I get physically attacked by kids who don't think I'm human. :| (I'm bitter right now. Sorry.)

So whatever. I've been called an it before. I can handle it. What sent me into a huge rage tonight is the fact that a picture of this week's GSA poster was posted on Facebook. We talked about blood donation rules for the MSM community, and has a comic on the poster. A former faculty member who is incredibly unaccepting commented on the poster, and eleven people liked the comment. Including a student leader. I just. I feel worthless. I've considered killing myself and politicizing my own death. Because apparently that's the only way shit gets done anymore.

As I said on plurk, I won't kill myself over this or any other thing of this nature, and for two reasons. The first is that I refuse to become another fucking statistic in the book. Killing myself fits neatly into that narrative, and I refuse to follow it. Just... no. I won't let it happen. The other reason is if I wasn't alive to be the target for this kind of stuff, other kids who maybe can't handle it would be the target. And I can't let that happen. When I decided to come out, I had to consider the possibility--no, the probability that stuff like this would happen, and I still came out. And I don't regret coming out. And I refuse to regret it, because I did the right thing.

Just. Holy fuck, they make it hard to stay alive. Apparently it gets better, but fuck me if I'm going to wait that long.

And force from the world a patient smile

2011-07-10T03:51:24Z

Dear internet: I need help.

So I am co-president of my school's GSA, yes? And we run a blog, so people who can't come to meetings can still see what we talked about at meetings (okay so in reality the blog just started this summer, but that's its intent). I am primarily in charge of the blog, because I am the information monarch of the club. We've made a couple of posts this summer, about Pride Month and Stonewall and stuff.

We got our first comments... yesterday? Two days ago? I can't even really remember. But they said the following:
"fuck fags"
and
"stop shoving your views down our throats. gay-straight alliance my ass more like gay club. how many straight men are involved? yeah. homosexuality is wrong and you will go to hell. no way around it. biological it does not make sense either."

Now, the other leader of the club and I aren't SURPRISED we've received these comments. We sort of expected it. We didn't allow them to be posted, we created a document for such comments/incidents and recorded it and we disabled anonymous commenting on the blog. But now we're stuck at this weird impasse of what to do next.

Do we not make any comment about it? Do we do a blog post explaining the outline of what happened? We're trying to be careful here, but just discussing between the two of us, it feels like we're doomed if we do and doomed if we don't. If we talk about it on the blog, it's just fuel for them to say we're shoving our views down their throats--and it will also come out that we deleted them, and they'll say we're "cutting into their First Amendment rights". If we don't say anything, no visibility happens and they think we're just going to lie down and take it.

Basically, we need advice. What should we do? We've gone over our options so many times nothing sounds right and you all out there are intelligent, level-headed people. Please help us?

Thank you in advance. <3

PROMPT MEME

2011-06-22T06:27:24Z

'Cause it's been like an entire year since I last did one of these, and I told Ella I would re-post this 'cause it's the best set of rules I've ever come up with (which is probably a little sad, but w/e I do not care).

CONGRATS. YOU HAVE SUCCESSFULLY FOUND A MEME. HOW DO YOU TAKE CARE OF THIS MEME? YOU FOLLOW THE FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS, BUCKO. IT REALLY ISN'T THAT HARD.

RULE NUMBER ONE: Wait for Godot. While you are waiting, instead of contemplating your existence, click on dis link. Do you know where it will take you? A magical list where all of my truly fascinating characters are.

RULE NUMBER TWO: Rejoice that you can read and therefore have made it past rule number one. Alternately, rejoice that you are a clicker of links. It is good. While you are rejoicing, poke your nosy butt around a little. Not literally. That would be. I don't even want to think about it. ANYWHO. Take a peek at my characters. Do some more reading/link clicking. They are interesting, yeah? I am very protective of them. DON'T TOUCH. Okay, you can touch with two fingers. GENTLY. On the arm.

RULE NUMBER THREE: Pick some of your favorite characters of mine. Alternately, pick some random ones. Ones with nice journal names, or pretty PBs. Yeah, I know how people pick characters for these sorts of things. You don't have to fool me.

RULE NUMBER FOUR: Is Godot back yet? Probably not. But you should come back to this page to check. Guess what? He's not. While you're moaning about how fucking late Godot is every goddamn time, you can comment below with a specific character. You should also have a prompt of some kind--a quote, a song lyric, one of those picture things that Ella likes so much (and is so good at finding).

RULE NUMBER FIVE: Face facts that Godot is probably never fucking coming, for srs. Cry a little bit about this, then click away and forget that you ever came here to wait for Godot. Only remember this when I comment on your comment, probably with a character's journal, with a response to the prompt you left me. Rejoice that SOMEONE finally came through for you, even if they weren't Godot.

RULE NUMBER SIX: There is no rule number six. It is a figment of your imagination--or is it? Do you even exist? DO YOU? DO YOU????

Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeme?

2011-03-10T07:31:08Z

HI INTERNET. This is me breaking up my "OMG PRONOUN CHANGE" posts with a meme! So. Celebrate that. 'Cause we'll be back with news-style update stuff probs tomorrow.

SO. THIS IS MEME. IT WILL BE FUN. But with most types of fun, there are rules. Because without rules, someone will ALWAYS LOSE AN EYE. THIS IS A TRUE FACT.

1. Click on this link. It will take you to my character page.

2. Isn't my character page lovely? Feast your eyes/eye/visual organ thing on my list. Admire it. ADMIRE IT. I COMMAND YOU TO ADMIRE IT.

3. Have you admired it? If no, please see the previous step. If yes, come back to this page. COME BAAAAAAAAAAACK. Click on the 'Leave a comment' button and leave me a comment. In that comment, because this is a meme, you should probably have a prompt of some kind for a short ficlet, and if the fancy so strikes you, PUNCH IT IN THE FACE. And then maybe pair your prompt with a character of mine, if you desire that.

4. Go back to doing whatever you were doing that is probably more productive than anything I am currently doing. Give me some time to write a response to your prompt, either with the character you designated or a character of my own choosing. MWAHAHAHA.

5. Eventually, a notif will probably pop into your inbox with a link to a page where I have post a ficlet that I wrote with your prompt. READ IT! Or not, as you feel the impulse. nbdizzle!

YAY MEME. Repost as you please, because I love leaving prompts. And other stuff. I need to go make a journal and then maybe write and then, uh. other stuff.

Just a quick thing...

2010-11-27T05:38:49Z

So. Over this break I've realized it's been a very very very very very very long time since I really poked at the Small Crimes folks (that's the BtR AU that Scout comes from, with the cast of wonderfully moral gray stuffus). I need an excuse to.

Oh hay, meme.

Prompts/questions/whatever. It's not very extensive, but. It would help me a lot and it would make me happy. And. idk. Kittens? And. Other stuff.

Much love. <3 <3 <3

I DUNNO IF YOU KNEW THIS, BUT THIS MEME MUST BE IN CAPSLOCK

2010-11-23T04:01:38Z

THIS IS A HEADVOICE CPR MEME.

HOW DOES THIS MEME WORK?

IDK, KIDS. YOU FIGURE IT OUT FOR YOURSELF. :|

(jk jk ilu all here are the rules)

RULE NUMBER 1) CLICK HERE. CLICK IT

RULE NUMBER 2) ADMIRE. ADMIIIIIIRE.

RULE NUMBER 3) LOOK AT YOUR OWN CHARACTER LIST. LOOK AT ITTTTTT.

RULE NUMBER 4) ADMIRE YOUR OWN CHARACTER LIST. IT'S PRETTY, ISN'T IT? YESS, PRECIOUS. SO PRETTY.

RULE NUMBER 5) NOW PICK ONE OF YOUR CHARACTERS. THROW THEM AT ONE OF MY CHARACTERS. IT CAN BE A QUESTION, A SITUATION OR JUST A. THING. I DON'T KNOW. YOU'RE SMART, FIGURE IT OUT.

RULE NUMBER 6) SIT BACK AND THINK TO YOURSELF 'WHAT THE HELL IS THIS PERSON DOING WITH THEIR LIFE?'

RULE NUMBER 7) DISMISS THAT THOUGHT. IT IS UNIMPORTANT. I'M SURE I'M DOING IMPORTANT STUFF. FO' SHIZZ.

YAAAY.

(Note: This meme does not actually have to be in capslock. I just said that because I was too lazy, once I started, to turn it off. Yaaay.)

yetregressing @ 2010-09-29T22:51:00

2010-09-30T03:16:31Z

I should be doing homework, but I don't really feel like it, and if I don't write this now I don't know if it'll ever get done.

The English teacher I have a huge grudge against (he's kind of the one who pushed me to socialized and made me cry and by proxy has traumatized me to the point where I have difficulty looking him in the eye) made a speech today as part of a promotion for a suicide prevention walk. There are intensely personal reasons for his doing this, and while I won't go into those here very much, he did end up discussing his own fight with mental illness briefly. He then talked about how great the therapy he has received in the ensuing years has been for him, and he went on to explain that here on campus we have a great community of counselors and teachers and friends. He concluded that bit by saying "Just remember, you are not alone here."

This, of course, lead to me smiling bitterly in my pew. Because to my knowledge, I am alone--not in the world, of course, but certainly here at school. I've sought out the counseling services here at school, and they're just not equipped for kids like me--kids who aren't cisgender, or kids who are intensely uncomfortable with their own bodies. It turns into a huge talk, as I'm trying desperately to educate the person I'm seeing in the hopes that she'll be able to find some kind of solution. But even the terminology I'm using to describe myself is beyond her, and in the end I know that really, there's nothing she can do, or anyone can do. It's why I don't find it necessary to come out to people, because I know that even if they know, there's nothing they can do. It's not going to change anything in the way they view me--they'll still refer to me with female pronouns, still call me by my given name, still think of me as a girl. And that's fine, because they shouldn't change their entire perspective just for me.

But that knowledge doesn't make the discomfort--I hesitate to call it dysphoria, because I imagine it's a 150 times worse for other people, therefore I can't really be dysphoric--go away. This week especially has been bad--Sunday and Monday I was practically sick I was so uncomfortable, and today I was just. Uncomfortable. And I want to reach out, but there's no one to reach out to--because the people that know are either too busy or can't do anything anyway, not even sympathize. I know that all gender experiences are intensely personal, so you can't really know what the other person is going through, but there is some comfort to be found in having someone else say "I went through something like this, and it sucks, but it's going to be okay." And there's no one like that here. I'm willing to educate, and I do as much educating as I can, but sometimes I get tired of leading the way and I just want to listen to someone tell me how the hell you do this, or how I CAN do this.

It's just. I don't know. Stupid, because I shouldn't be this focused on it, but it's so hard to ignore sometimes. I feel like the dumbest teenager in the world saying this, but here? I am alone.

Ella made me. :|

2010-08-02T04:01:03Z

Oh my god, y'all. If you do not know how this goes by now, I will have ALL THE LEGITIMATE QUESTIONS about how often you look at my journal. Also, coming up with creative presentations for this is becoming harder.

CONGRATS. YOU HAVE SUCCESSFULLY FOUND A MEME. HOW DO YOU TAKE CARE OF THIS MEME? YOU FOLLOW THE FOLLOWING DIRECTIONS, BUCKO. IT REALLY ISN'T THAT HARD.

RULE NUMBER ONE: Wait for Godot. While you are waiting, instead of contemplating your existence, click on dis link. Do you know where it will take you? A magical list where all of my truly fascinating characters are.

RULE NUMBER TWO: Rejoice that you can read and therefore have made it past rule number one. Alternately, rejoice that you are a clicker of links. It is good. While you are rejoicing, poke your nosy butt around a little. Not literally. That would be. I don't even want to think about it. ANYWHO. Take a peek at my characters. Do some more reading/link clicking. They are interesting, yeah? I am very protective of them. DON'T TOUCH. Okay, you can touch with two fingers. GENTLY. On the arm.

RULE NUMBER THREE: Pick some of your favorite characters of mine. Alternately, pick some random ones. Ones with nice journal names, or pretty PBs. Yeah, I know how people pick characters for these sorts of things. You don't have to fool me.

RULE NUMBER FOUR: Is Godot back yet? Probably not. But you should come back to this page to check. Guess what? He's not. While you're moaning about how fucking late Godot is every goddamn time, you can comment below with a specific character. You should also have a prompt of some kind--a quote, a song lyric, one of those picture things that Ella likes so much (and is so good at finding).

RULE NUMBER FIVE: Face facts that Godot is probably never fucking coming, for srs. Cry a little bit about this, then click away and forget that you ever came here to wait for Godot. Only remember this when I comment on your comment, probably with a character's journal, with a response to the prompt you left me. Rejoice that SOMEONE finally came through for you, even if they weren't Godot.

RULE NUMBER SIX: There is no rule number six. It is a figment of your imagination--or is it? Do you even exist? DO YOU? DO YOU????

"I didn't do it! I was, I was, I was dead at the time!"

2010-07-17T04:17:01Z

HI GUYS. I'm going on vacation tomorrow. I KNOW, SAAAAD. It'll be pretty fun, though. I'm excited. I haven't seen my cousins in a long time, and they're awesome people. It's a bummer my sister and my mom can't stay for the whole time, but it's still gonna be fun.

ANYWAY. That was only half the reason for this post. I mean. It's good to let you all know that. So you know I haven't died, 'cause I dunno if we'll have internet. I'm bringing my computer, but dunno if there's free intarbutts or whatever. Anyway.

The other reason for this post is I WANT MOAR PROMPTS, GUYS. I know, I've still got some, but SHINY NEW PROMPTS. I want them. I like them. Please? *wibble face?*

Anyway. Y'all probs know how this shiz goes by now, but I'm gonna make some rules anyway BECAUSE WITHOUT RULES EVERYTHING WOULD BE CHAOTIC ANARCHY. O.O

THIS TIN READS: THIS IS A MEME.

HOW TO MAKE SAID MEME WORK:

1) Click on this link. It will take you to my CHARACTER LIST.

2) Celebrate that you have clicked.

3) Find INSPIRING STUFF. Like, I dunno. Quotes. Or song lyrics. Or random phrases from your Russian phrase book. (If you choose the last thing, please translate for me. I do not speak Russian. Sadface.)

4) PUT A CHARACTER NAME FROM MY LIST INTO A COMMENT. THEN PUT SOME FITTING INSPIRING THING NEXT TO THE CHARACTER'S NAME. Then leave the rest up to me--I shall write you some ficlet thing.

5) YOU CAN PARTY. And be happy. I KNOW I WILL BE. YAAAAAAY.

HELL YEAH SPARKLEPONIES.

2010-06-29T04:24:31Z

BUT I DON'T CARE. I LIKE PIMPING SHIZ.

GO. GO NOW. WRITE IT. PLEAASE? I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER. And possibly comment on anything even if I don't know the fandom. Yeah. I'm cool.

MEME

2010-06-10T05:36:09Z

Stolen from Riley

1. Go to my Character List.
2. Pick a character.
3. I will ramble until there's no tomorrow about said character.
4. If you'd like, after knowing more about the character, throw a character or a prompt at them.
5. Dance.

I'm a meme writer, I'm a trend-setter...

2010-06-01T17:56:47Z

YO, biznitches. Yeah. I be here with another meme thing. This is because I was doing prompts for the prompt meme and realized that it's FUN to give people awesomely awesome prompts for their original characters. Except... you know nothing about them! So giving weirdly perfect prompts is haaaard. Now, the easy answer would be to check their profiles, but for some characters their profiles aren't done, or their profiles aren't specific enough or left intentionally vague for whatever reason. SO. Here there be meme.

RULE NUMERO UNO: Look at my character list.
RULE NUMERO DOS: Pick one of my original characters!
RULE NUMERO TRES: Comment here with their name and a question and I will tell you about them! The question can be anything from 'what are they like?' to 'what is their favorite color?'.
RULE NUMERO QUATRO: I will link that reply in my character's profile so that for the next meme, you can click on it and remember!
RULE NUMERO CINQO: PARTY!

Communicate through the mattress

2010-06-01T03:10:59Z

Shut up. I know I should be studying. I have new notebooks. WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE? :|

(Yes I stole it word for word from Beka. Hush. EVERYONE IS JUDGING ME, GAAAAWD. ;_; ...I am so weird.)

Writing Meme! Very easy!

1) Pick a canon, a pairing, or a character you know I write, or at least know. Go look at my list of characters if you need some ideas/help.
2) Comment with said canon, pairing, or character and a song lyric. Can be a single line, a verse, the chorus, whatever you like.
3) Repeat as desired.

Then I will use those song lyrics as a prompt and write you fic! Yaaaaay!

Take my hand and take my whole life too

2010-05-12T02:21:53Z

THIS IS A MEME.

THESE ARE THE RULES OF THE MEME:

1. Click on this link here. It will take you to my character list.

2. Now go to your own character list. I don't have a link for that. What do you think I am, a stalker?

3. Look at our lists. Compare. Don't I have a ridiculous amount of Riftverse people? It's ridiculous. Are there any people on your list that wanna talk to any people on my list? If so, move onto step four.

4. Comment on this post with your character and a specification of who they want to talk to. Or not--I'm open for open posts. You can also link to one-off if that's what you wanna do. I'm cool!

5. HAVE FUN. THIS IS A REQUIREMENT. >:|

I make the meme/Sparta joke waaaay too often.

2010-03-30T00:17:33Z

Dear internet: I am bored and need to start writing things again. Thus, there will be meme.

THIS. IS. MEEEEEEEEME.

HOW TO PLAY:

1. Click on THIS LINK. It will take you to my character list.

2. Pick someone off my character list.

3. Picked someone? Good. If not, go back to step two. If you've got someone, put their name in a comment.

4. Go to your iTunes or music player or wherever you get prompt ideas. Find me a prompt.

5. Put the prompt you found in the comment with the character you chose. You can repeat this process several times in one comment.

6. Once you have put a suitable number of prompts and characters in a comment, hit that little button that says 'post this' or whatever the hell it says.

7. Wait to reap the fruits of my mediocre writing!

The end.

THIS. IS A MEME. READ IT, PERSONS. :|

2010-03-07T02:49:11Z

THIS IS A MEME. YES, I KNOW. JUST BE QUIET FOR A MINUTE AND READ. Or something. (My brain is SOOOO out of it, oh my god.)

THESE ARE THE RULES OF THE MEME:

1. DON'T TALK ABOUT THE MEME. OKAY THAT'S A LIE. DO TALK ABOUT IT. IT'S MORE FUN IF YOU TALK ABOUT IT.

2. DON'T MAKE REFERENCES TO FIGHT CLUB IN THE RULES OF YOUR MEME. Okay, do if you want to. Or if you're just copypasting that shit. I don't care.

3. CLICK ON THIS LINK. IT WILL TAKE YOU TO MY CHARACTER LIST.

4. ADMIRE THE CHARACTER LIST. SOME OF THEM ARE PRETTY. SOME OF THEM ARE INTERESTING LOOKING, YES? NO? IF NOT, OH WELL.

5. LOOK AT YOUR OWN CHARACTER LIST. ARE THERE TWO CHARACTERS--ONE OF YOURS, ONE OF MINE--THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE INTERACT? YES? OF COURSE THERE ARE. IF THERE AREN'T, PLEASE REVIEW STEPS FOUR AND FIVE AGAIN. OH WAIT YOU'RE AT FIVE. OH WELL.

6. ONCE YOU HAVE FOUND TWO CHARACTERS--AGAIN, ONE OF YOURS, ONE OF MINE--THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE INTERACT, COMMENT BELOW WITH YOUR CHARACTER AND THE NAME OF MY CHARACTER IN THE SUBJECT OF YOUR COMMENT. That's on this page, not my character list.

7. NO SHIRTS, NO SHOES. NO, ACTUALLY, KEEP ON YOUR SHIRTS. NOT THAT I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR CHEST, IT'S JUST... I'M UNDERAGE. Alternately, sit back and relax and get ready for some, uh. I don't know. Fun, I suppose. That's what this is about. FUN. Also, I apologize for the cracked out meme rules. My brain is in a loopy loop place right now.

THIS. IS. MEEEEEEEEEME.

2009-12-30T19:38:06Z

THIS IS A MEME. YES, I KNOW. JUST BE QUIET FOR A MINUTE AND READ. Or something. (My brain is SOOOO out of it, oh my god.)

THESE ARE THE RULES OF THE MEME:

1. DON'T TALK ABOUT THE MEME. OKAY THAT'S A LIE. DO TALK ABOUT IT. IT'S MORE FUN IF YOU TALK ABOUT IT.

2. DON'T MAKE REFERENCES TO FIGHT CLUB IN THE RULES OF YOUR MEME. Okay, do if you want to. Or if you're just copypasting that shit. I don't care.

3. CLICK ON THIS LINK. IT WILL TAKE YOU TO MY CHARACTER LIST.

4. ADMIRE THE CHARACTER LIST. SOME OF THEM ARE PRETTY. SOME OF THEM ARE INTERESTING LOOKING, YES? NO? IF NOT, OH WELL.

5. LOOK AT YOUR OWN CHARACTER LIST. ARE THERE TWO CHARACTERS--ONE OF YOURS, ONE OF MINE--THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE INTERACT? YES? OF COURSE THERE ARE. IF THERE AREN'T, PLEASE REVIEW STEPS FOUR AND FIVE AGAIN. OH WAIT YOU'RE AT FIVE. OH WELL.

6. ONCE YOU HAVE FOUND TWO CHARACTERS--AGAIN, ONE OF YOURS, ONE OF MINE--THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE INTERACT, COMMENT BELOW WITH YOUR CHARACTER AND THE NAME OF MY CHARACTER IN THE SUBJECT OF YOUR COMMENT That's on this page, not my character list.

7. NO SHIRTS, NO SHOES. NO, ACTUALLY, KEEP ON YOUR SHIRTS. NOT THAT I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR CHEST, IT'S JUST... I'M UNDERAGE. Alternately, sit back and relax and get ready for some, uh. I don't know. Fun, I suppose. That's what this is about. FUN. Also, I apologize for the cracked out meme rules. My brain is in a loopy loop place right now.

Where it's brighter but no one will care half as much as I care about you

2009-11-27T03:14:09Z

I am thankful for so many things it's ridiculous, but mostly I am thankful for family. I am thankful that I have gotten the oppourtunity to form so many families, and I am thankful that in all my families, I have relearned what family is, and how important it is.

I'll admit, I would rather not spend the day with my biological family--they work and I do love them, but there's this ache for the ones I don't get to see, the ones that are too far away but I love so much anyway. I would give just about anything for chat to be a real, physical place, so I could have Thanksgiving with all my siblingthings. I am so thankful for each and every one of you, who have helped this growing up process be so much easier.

I am thankful for my school family, for teaching me how to care for others even when they do stupid things, for helping me when I needed real physical contact, for being there theoretically in case I get raped. ;) I really do love all of them and I'm thankful for them.

And of course I am thankful for my biological family, even if I don't really want to be with them. They put up with me on a daily basis, and I know that gets pretty damn difficult.

I love you all, and I hope your holiday (or Thursday, whatever) was safe and happy-making. <333

MEEEEEME

2009-11-20T05:04:15Z

I should be studying for various quizzes. I have studied for none of them. My emotional state was shot to hell tonight, and thus I got NOTHING done whatsoever.

And I still haven't studied but I don't care. SO HAVE A MEME.

1) Look at my character list. Look at it. Admire it for a second.

2) When you have admired my character list, pick some people. Pick some you don't know. Pick some you do. Pick the ones you never see, or the ones that you love seeing. JUST PICK SOME, DAMMIT. OR ONE.

3) Give me a prompt. It could be anything--'a breakfast with the queen', 'a ride on a llama'. I just want to write.

4) Repost this so you too can write your ass off instead of doing more productive things!

NaNo? What NaNo? I have no idea what you mean... it's not my fault, blame the brotherthing. He said I should write.