Short Attention Span

O HAI THUR.

xtrigger — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 11:25:30 GMT

*drumrolls pliz*

HELLO GAIZ!! *waves* How long had it been since I last posted on my LJ?

It might have been actually more than a year already. =| IMYOOOUU LJ and all of your awesomeness.

My college years are done and over but i'm prepping now for a licensure exam (BOOYEAH!)
So I guess i'll be catching up in a matter of weeks. See you then! XD

Wish me the best of luck! \^--^/

Thankful

xtrigger — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 15:25:13 GMT

I am getting my Wayfarers on Mondaaaaaaayyyyy!! xD I'm mad stoked. =DD *fingers-crossed* that they can be changed with prescription lens. booooo. I'm blind.

Market Market today with Keipi, had some photos for the postcards developed, paid for my wayfarers and we had some serious sh*t talk over our Oreo Mcflurry-ies. W/e. Ngh. It's still the same feeling whenever I talk about that "thing" -- it's depressing actually that I cried over it. But it's feels good afterwards. [No, sharing your depression is not good.] *shakes fist* Somehow you feel that you've let go of a burden. :] Thanks Keipz. And to you as well, you know who you are. *stabs Mr. :)*

But seriously,

YOU GUYS ARE MADE OF
AWESOME-NESS.
Honestly, Thank you. I owe you guys big time. ♥

Look how I made effort of saying that in gay sparkles with purple font. See how much I love ya both? xP~lol.

And to my HS friends. Damnit. The best parin kayo. Hehe. Salamat sa movie marathon! xD Lol. Sorii di ganun kasarap yung pasta, baliw yung nagluto eh. But I do hope you enjoyed -- nag-enjoy ako eh... sa mga sigawan niyo! Haha =)) House of Wax naman kasi.

@ LEA: Ambush alis na naman tayo next time.
As in yung spontaneous, naka-pambahay ulit. =P
@ MACKIE: Panakaw ako ng pics. :] Salamat.
@ EMZ: Salamat sa Chicha.
@ ALL: Salamat sa pagpunta. Na-miss ko kayong lahat. =)) Haha.
Sa birthday ko ulit, kung meron man.

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DYING

xtrigger — Thu, 21 Feb 2008 09:33:17 GMT

I believe I just died from too much spazzing.

Everything got too extreme for me to handle.

I guess my world is starting to get better now. I hope I won't drift into another
round of lame depression. 2007 had been awful. Well, goodbye temporarily
pyschotic, depressed, suicidal me. Hope i'll never see you again. xoxo~

IWANTZTHATTHEUMBRELLAACADEMYBUTTONPINS.♡

To: MCRmy PH Soldiers

xtrigger — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 12:59:57 GMT

I had a fucking great day. You could come into my house anytime soldiers/. :DD
SQUEEEE~ PWHOAR. Sorry, I couldn't stop the capslocking. I'm just happy.~xD

Share the pictures okay? OKAYYYYY??? Nom nom nom nom. Ilalagay ko yun sa site natin!!

To Ate Audrey *cough*general*cough*, Gemma, Lea, Paula, Boo (^^, Yay! Nakapunta ka!*), Aikie (Buti talaga nakahabol ka.), Sid, Jas & Elli (Super twins!xD), Padora and M. T'was nice to meet the new ones! :]]

Pasensya na medyo malayo ang bahay namin at maraming lakad tayong ginawa.

Buti enjoy ang spaghetti at ang dami nyong iniwan na chicha dito sa bahay.

Tataba ako fer sure at mapupuno ng MSG ang atay ko. LOLOLOLOL.

Oh well, sana maulit. *hint hint*

Sa April 9 ah. Tuloy na yun. Birthday gift niyo na yun sakin at ni bugnuting Gerard. QUACK/QUACK/QUACK.~*kicks self*

O sige na nga, back to business na at ako'y marami pang gagawin fer school shizz. Amp. Thesis mode na naman ako.
See ya all rmy soldiers. Hanggang sa susunod na adventures. :]] ilabyuol-LOLOLOLOLOL. ♥
Na-miss ko na agad kayo. Next time bilangin na talaga natin kung ilang beses nagkamot si Ray. xD

PS: Kalimutan niyo na yung mga pictures na nakita niyo sa bahay. HINDI TALAGA AKO YUN. SWEAR. </div>

xtrigger — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 02:29:08 GMT

Just perfect. ♥
THIS.

And just for plain nostalgic shit and ~~fun~~:
THIS.
Just one look at alam kong sa Gift Market na yan. Haha. FRANK = KID at ♥.

THIS.
*facepalms* xtrigger's internal monologue:
"K~ STFU Mimai. That plastic bag does not go very well with Bob. But he wins at life, so stfu."
*headdesk*

and THIS.
Green cellphone!! GYAAAAAAA~ ♥ Reminds me of the N3310 Casing Craze. LMFAO.
But i'm still ashame of the plastic bag. -hides-

Damn. Market Market isn't the same Market Market anymore since they came. ='(
*goes to emo corner and weeps*

Credit to mcrmy drian for the pictures.

Happy Valentine's Day.

xtrigger — Thu, 14 Feb 2008 08:34:14 GMT

I am not a fan of valentines. I hate how it turned out to become an exclusive day for lovers and such.
Some of my friends cried today for some whatever heart reasons. Gah.
I gave my friends chocolates just for the love of singleness.

Now, I give you pictures for this day of overkill. ♥
[These pictures were taken during our Basic Photography Seminar, that day was made of sheer happiness.]

Photo taken by Reggie Magtibay
Edited by xtrigger

Photo taken by xtrigger
LOL. I was trying not to look at the camera for that shot, or else you'd be seeing me grinning like mad.

"Oh, are you worth the wait?"

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:1-13
Happy Hearts Day beloved f-list. ♥
I will update soon enough as I patch myself up together in one piece.

PS: Thank you Shen (lonelytourist) for the "Gerard Way is my Valentine" card.
It really made my day. =D

fic: Chasing Time

xtrigger — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 08:44:40 GMT

Frank/Gerard.
PG/ G, I honestly don't know.
400+ words.

    Gerard’s finger fumbled its way to his pocket to grab a cigarette,
    a mad strike of anxiousness filling his gut.

    “I’m sorry, sir. But smoking isn’t allowed here.” Gerard completely forgot he is
    miles above the ground in a plane.

    “Just one more show.” He assured himself, closing his eyes.

        “I can’t come to the next show Gee. Something… came up.”
        Frank explained, not looking at him in the eye.

        “Care to tell why?” He was on the urge to disapprove, but he was being rational.

        Frank didn’t answer back but instead he lighted a smoke and shared it with him in silence.

    Gerard flipped his phone and started pushing some buttons.
    “Hey.” He was calm but he will make Brian spill it out.

    The next day he found himself outside Frank’s home at 4 AM.
    Their show was cancelled. He cancelled it.
    His fingers fumbled as he reach for the keys that Ray entrusted him before he took another plane ride.

        “...two months left.”

    Brian’s voice echoed through his ears as he silently turned the knob in.

    The silence took over the house. He felt his need for another round of cigarette.
    He was nervous and worried. He could just wish he could smoke at such a moment.

        “He didn’t want you to know.” He almost hated his brother for keeping secrets from him.

    The living room was empty but decently clean. Frank was not the domesticated kind,
    but he knows how to put things in their proper places.

        “I’m sorry Gee. I will tell you soon.” Frank smiled innocently that it gave Gerard a heart burn.

    Now he was hoping to see that smile once more.
    And there he was, lying on his bed. Some pill bottles neatly arranged on his bedside table.

    “Frank...” Gerard softly whispered, trying to hold back the swell that started to burn in his eyes.

    Frank switched to his body, facing away Gerard. “I’m sorry. I only have...”

    “...I know.”

    Frank didn't answer. It was a deafening moment of silence that seemed to last like forever.

    Gerard moved in a little closer to Frank and slid his hand to intertwine with his fingers.
    Frank was trying to hold back the swell that started to burn in his eyes.

    “We’ll spend every minute together Frank. I promise.”
    Gerard finally said it out and felt Frank tightened his hold on his hand.

    And then all the tears just fell down.

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I'm in the mood to...

xtrigger — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 06:52:37 GMT

...do nothing. LOL.
I feel like procrastinating since tomorrow will be the last day of Prelims. *glee~*

So... I bring you these!

From kyoy :
MATCHMAKER ♥ MEME

And this... grabbed from norwegianeyes :

Haha. I think it's pretty accurate. I'm nocturnal, ~~yet a lazy bum~~.

And pretty pictures I took with my inherited camera HERE.
pearlsandtea is a nifty community, so I suggest you join for warm and fuzzies.

And Facebook is the new craze. If you have one, add me. =DD
I'm getting addicted with Haikoo Zoo app and my panda named Frankie. ♥♥♥

Me and Kristina (and Angeli, hopefully) will be going to Divisoria tomorrow to get something cheap. [~~yes, we're cheapskates.~~ jk. practical rather. :D] I'm gonna get a new hoodie!!~ "For goodness sake, when did all this obsession over hoodies and jackets began?!?"

I drove the car home today. I was in a sporting mood and tried to race with some dude in a fancy car. Haha. My mom was probably having a heart attack in the passenger's seat. LOL.

And.
I can't stop grinning.
Because I have fic thoughts in my head.
A Frank/Gerard short fic brewing in my pot.
We'll see. :DD

xoxo,
Charmaine. - currently addicted to bandslash. oh well, frerard to say. ♥

GHIII and Sky-High City

xtrigger — Tue, 05 Feb 2008 13:06:47 GMT

Today is fun and random. Why?

I finished Guitar Hero III career mode [easy level] in 3 hours. =DD I could never be any prouder. Yet I'm sensing that my fingers will soon have a bad strike of arthritis.
Day 2 of our Preliminary exams are done. Pharmacology was tough as sh*t. Having less than 3 hours of interrupted sleep to study 10 chapters almost made me cranky as a 4 year old brat.
I drank some energy drink and now I am twitching and hyper. xD
I got two postcards today. *yay!* I feel awful though for being too behind on my replies. I will make it up as soon as I get my hands free from school torture.
I made GWay graphics [a matching icon + banner] which I love so much. *points at icon*
I just discovered three Frank/Gerard fics that made my ~~day~~ week awesome. ♥ I mem'ed all of it like it's the end of the world. See sevenfists for sheer pleasure.
My mom bought me a "yoyo", I am pretty clueless why though, ~~probably for hitting some annoying people off~~. :D
I started researching for our project. I IZ PROUD. *smug* For I usually don't start things in advance. I'm like cramming and panicking.
My nephew could kill me 17194626275932893x for just being cute and adorable. He reminds me of someone *cough*~~special~~*cough* though.

*off to get a Valentine* ~~ ^__^
Well, not really.

Today and a meme to cut in between.

xtrigger — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 13:53:40 GMT

I was tagged by duzzie216 :DD

a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself
b. tag seven people to do the same
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it"

1. I have all 5 alarm functions on my cellphone turned on with 15-minutes intervals on 'em. o__O Heck weird.

2. I don't like having colds because I have a freaking sinusitis, and it lasts up to a month.

3. I currently have chocolates stocked in my drawer. Gluttony much?

4. G. Way inspired me to draw. But I'm an epic fail though I have undying love with arts and everything, it just doesn't reciprocate me back. *cries in my emo corner* lol.

5. I once tried "spirit of the glass" [it's like Ouija board, only using a glass instead of a planchette]., oh well maybe twice. And found out that I have some kind of spirit protector. idk if it's true though.

6. I am kinda addicted to carbonated drinks and ~~coffee~~.

7. I really want to be a forensic scientist. ~♥
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And now I am going to tag...
loveangel2141
jaydenrioblue
sandersidle
lonelytourist
death_sanity
gee_tarded
mccrack

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I know bacteria and pathogens are part of this ecosystem.
But I HATE THEM. I HATE BEING SICK. I HATE VIRUSES THAT MAKES YOU SICK.
My nose is stuffy since last night and I can't properly breath.
I'm literally breathing through my mouth -- like a goldfish taken out of the water. It's mad.
And I got my own copy of LOTMS yesterday *YAY!* after two long years of longing. It was like a newborn baby, I was squee-ing inside in delight upon receiving the glossy-wrapped DVDs. I couldn't be any happier. :DD

I've been cussing more often than I should lately. Gerard gave me the cussing virus, and it's infecting me bad. Maybe I should get me some medicine. x__X

Romance for the Soldiers Part III.

xtrigger — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 16:28:21 GMT

BEWARE!

What you will be seeing next might give you a couple of heart attacks.
My posts doesn't have an insurance, so open at your own risk.
IPlease Comment and Credit xtrigger if you take/ save anything.
Karma hunts, me kills. K Thanx. ♥

You've been warned.

Videos:

This Is How I Disappear ||
Sorry for too much blurness. It was hard to mosh and take videos all at the same time.
T'was much harder than my usual multi-tasking jobs.

I'm Not Okay ||
Blur Galore. I didn't understand what Frank said for the "Trust Me" part. =[ It's my most favorite line from the song, but all I heard was mumbling. Sorry Frank. But I still <3 you though.

Frank threw his water bottle after he spitted. Lucky but lousy VIP crowd. =/
Gerard said "We're My Chemical fucking Romance?!!! I wanna, I wanna try. I wanna see you get all your fucking hands up!"
*and the crowd goes wild*

Mama ||
There was fun clapping action on the start. :D I did a one-hand clapping action. WTF?!o__O
Gerard tucking his hair on his ears was gay, but I love it. He was doing his "hand sliding his neck" action a lot, my mind went ballistic! xD
I love the part where he goes "lalalalalalala". The last part before the chorus was a rock out moment. My camera was like on earthquake. They were glorious on stage. Frank and Mikey were head banging. The Fro was doing its magic. Bob, oh bob. You're so cool.
And look out for Gerard between 00:20-00:18. LOL at his motion.
00:18-00:13 -- TOUCHING!!!! *dies*
Gerard's walk on 00:04 till the end. Priceless.

Headfirst For Halos ||
FTFW HFH!!!! Just look at them rock out altogether!! Even Mikey!!! *le gasp* LOL. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS!! ♥

Helena ||
Gerard made the crowd go "oh woh oh woh oh.." It was fun. I was clueless that it was going to be Helena. Just watch Frank and Ray's energy level. o__O Gawd. And are those almost-matching guitars I see? And Bob!! I'm glad his wrists got better. :D Wild drum playing = FTW. When the lights turned on at 00:50 on the first video, that's when I cried and got emotional.

Everything was just so fucking beautiful.

Just before Gerard explained what a B-Side is. B-SIDE EDUCATION CLASS UNDER MR. GERARD WAY. Hear me saying one of those yes?!? LOL.

There was also a part, I think it was before WTTBP, that Gerard said something about "If you want to fix something to have to take some kind of Penicillin!!" That was an epic moment win.

Kill All Your Friends ||

Sexy Gerard Dance! *dies*
01:00-00:57 WAYCEST?!?!?!

You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison ||

Teenagers ||
Frank smoking at the beginning was sheer hawtness. LOL. xD
He and Gerard were so close but but... No Frerard happened. =(
Semi-spaz dance before the chorus!!

MANILAAAAAA!!

Intro Before Cancer ||

Goodnight Gerard ||
I thought that I was it. But they just had a little break to set-up Ray's acoustic for the Desert Song. :]

Desert Song ||
James Dewees' Piano Solo was freaking amazing. I felt goosebumps on my arms.
Nobody around me and Ate Audrey had an idea of the Desert Song. I was on the urge to shoot them.
They all just shouted when Gerard stood up from lying on the floor. I didn't actually saw him there at once. Gah. I'm so blind.
01:16 - You could hear me saying "Bob, what are you doing there?" Haha. I was thinking he would play with James. LOL.
But look at them share that smoke and each gave out a puff. Madness.

Sleep ||
Just see how everything seemed so perfect. ♥

Pictures would have to follow. I need sleep. Hope you enjoy!
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Romance for the Soldiers Part II.

xtrigger — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 08:08:55 GMT

"Well let's go back to the middle of the day that starts it all
I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling
And now the red ones make me fly
And the blue ones help me fall
And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling
And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust
Just think happy thoughts and we'll fly home
We'll fly home
You and I
We'll fly home."
-- Headfirst for Halos

"Remember the day you listened to your first My Chemical Romance song and how it made you feel that you're not fucking alone in this world?"
And since then you were never alone, because you know you've got heroes who sings sentiments connected to your heart.

So we rested our tired flesh as we got to the VIP Black Right Gate. Gave the gifts to Jackie and and tried to catch up our breaths. Literally sprawled on the sidewalk and fed on bottles on mineral water -- we had dehydration galore.

Banner-making time!! It was like art attack live action! Ate Audrey bought illegal (because it's from her office, so hush!) scissors and glue. TJ Manotoc passed by and saw these bunch of crazy-looking kids making banners for their Rmy and asked his crew to film them. Those kids, who aren't crazy as they looked, were US. MCRmy PH on national TV, FTFW!! :DD

This is my f*ckng beloved army. And I'm the retarded one with the duck face.
Credit to Ate Audrey (gee_tarded)

At around 8PM, we decided to enter the gates. Ate Audrey, Gemma, Aldrich(sp?) and me walked all the way to the other side of the ~~world~~ venue for the Gold Left Ticket gate. It killed my foot. But honestly, as we got closer to the entrance, I was having a major stomach churn. THAT I REALIZED THAT I AM FUCKING EXCITED, I'M TOO EXCITED I COULD JUST DIE RIGHT THERE. *capslock* And too much stress is not good for me, I almost died from stress. But I won't care. If I die, I'll die happy, 'coz that night is the epic moment of my life.

So we were ushered to our seats. BOO! Metal stage frame blocking my view from my seat!! I could've thrown tantrums at that moment and demand a VIP, but I'm not a bitch like that so I have to improvise. Dyan was only a few seats on the row behind me, Ate Audrey two rows behind and Gemma three rows. I usually don't do scheming thoughts unless needed but I was planning how me, Ate Audrey and Gemma would get ourselves nearer to the stage.

WE JUST HAVE TO RUN THERE AS SOON AS IS STARTS AND NO ONE CAN STOP US.

Even the evil bitch we saw. ~~I wanted to get my hands on her fugly face and give her a good bitchslap~~. We got pushed but we pushed back harder. I was ready to kick the bouncer in the balls if I have to if he told us to sit our asses off. RLY.

The front act started, I don't know who it was. They were like a Linkin Park rip-off, no offense. We jumped and moved to the nearest seat to the stage we could get to and stayed there, praying that the real ticket holders of those seats won't arrive just yet or we'll be busted out. And LOL to the music they were playing while the techs were setting up the stage for MCR. It sounded so much Queen -- which I liked very much. :D But there was one song that had an intro like Beyonce's song, I almost fell from my seat. LMAO. And oh, Matt Cortez is one hawt tech by the way. ^__^

"All I could hear is my heart pounding."

When the backdrop opened and the intro played, I frantically raced amidst the raging crowd and made my way to the VIP Barricade. Gemma was behind me who got pushed backwards by the crowd but luckily got inside the VIP and out again into the barricades and Ate Audrey got in front of me a little later. THE TWO OF US WERE AN EPIC MOSH TEAM. XD~ <3 I'm thankful we were able to stay in the barricade until the end of the show. But I was seriously pissed with the girl behind me and I kept throwing glares at her everytime she gives me the accidental buttsecks. Her knee kept brushing on my ass every time we mosh. So I have to coordinate my jumping so I won't go against her knees. o__O LOLOLOL. Oh, I'm so harassed. ~

Here is the wonderful set list that could conquer the ~~entire universe~~, oh well maybe not, just a planet perhaps. (not all are in their particular order)

This Is How I Disappear
Dead!
I'm Not Okay
Give 'em Hell Kid
The Sharpest Lives
Mama
My Way Home Is Through You
Cemetery Drive
Welcome To The Black Parade
I Don't Love You
Headfirst For Halos
Helena
Kill All Your Friends
You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison
Cancer
Teenagers
House Of Wolves
Desert Song
Famous Last Words
Sleep

I couldn't believe my eyes when they came out. It was like a called-for drama moment. I was in the great urge to cry but instead I screamed "Thank You" and rocked out with history.

Gerard Way was awesome. Period. He is like a legend on stage.
"You still make my heart burn Gerard Arthur Way."

Dear Mikey Way, you surprised me.
I love you more now because you're not your old shy Mikey-ness anymore.
You rock just like your brother and you are looking a lot like him. :D
I'm glad fer ya. And I would like to steal your jacket please.

Frank Iero -- our adorable Frank Iero.
He's an angel. Despite his lack of enthusiasm that night to pwn the stage (the stage is too small for him to do it, in my opinion), I still and will forever love him. He kept on spitting on the dead VIP people, he should have spit on us. We won't mind.
And did I just saw that Pansy-looking guitar?
They should've given Frank better lighting. I kept missing him on my videos.
EPIC.

Ray Toro was ZOMFG!?! Guitar god (together with Frank, of course).
He wins with his fro that I assume is endowed with great powers.
I kept staring at his fro every time he headbangs.
It was like watching a shampoo ad and I kept going, "oooohhhh. Soft and Fluffy. Must resist."
LOL. I would like to poke his fro someday please.

And last but not the least, Bob Bryar.
He wore the red checkered shirt with his long, blonde hair. I just died.
My younger sister calls him Prince Charming, because he gots nice golden hair. :D
Bob is master of the drums. Me likey his drumset, it was the one with Mother War on the bass drum, even though I adore the gold, glittery fleur one.

Lastly, to My Chemical Romance.
THANK YOU. -- is all that I can say.
I can't find better words to express my honest gratitude.

And Gerard recognized MCRmy PH.
He said something like, "I wanna say thank you to the MCRmy."
That made my life complete. And made my every efforts as the lieutenant worth it.
Making the banner and writing MCRmy PH on my arm that I raised so high so he can see it,
which I think he did because I was the only crazy person on that side of the audience who had big, bold letters written on her pale arms. :DD I'm happy. Very fucking Happy.

Now, as this epic post comes to its near end, we should move on to the video and picture spam (with personal comments *winks*.
Shall we?

ETA: Okay, there will be a Part III for the videos and pictures. Livejournal would probably me sue me for overposting.
See you at Part III. HERE.

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Romance for the Soldiers Part I.

xtrigger — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 04:05:42 GMT

This would be post of randomness, failure, drama, epic and everything in between. No, maybe not failure. Because I will try to extract every memory there is to suffice this very long post I will be making for the first time in my life.

Project Revenge: The My Chemical Romance Phil. Experience
I want it bad-ass so the day I received the good news that almost made me throw up in too much happiness, I named this whole love affair to begin with.

"Remember how I lost the passion? But buried myself in guilt, 'coz it was not the right way to end this shit."

I was just a temporary excitement. After getting my Gold tickets (which I gained by swindling some of my scholarship), I thought that all I have to do is wait for that day and just be there. And that's it. (Those were the days that Gerard was being... err... I don't know. Lost perhaps?)

"So much for being a lieutenant huh?"

For being the elected Lieutenant of the MCRmy PH, I felt remorse for not doing anything other than procrastinating. So I kicked myself (not literally), and sparked up my missions.

"For all those plans and all those trips, for what came real and came fail. There was no much we can do but just wait and do little steps in the way."

Only 7 days to go. One week is freaking one week. And school was being terribly shit. I was already feeling the pressure but more of regret. I should have gave more effort. We didn't nail a meet and greet for the Rmy soldiers or anything special and equal to what we deserve to have. It made me cry.
We did our best but... we can't just have it.

Then Sid gm'ed the NU contest. I felt a small spark of hope. Just one shot, and who knows, this might be the answer to our pleads.
BUT I can't go. School was a torture -- quizzes and practical exams were scheduled for every single day of the week. And there was no chance that I could cut classes and send myself out there.

"If there's a will, there's a way."

But I just can't put down school behind. My parents would kill me.
So I will just have to pray hard for a miracle.
I almost died everyday thinking that instead of seating myself in that clammy classroom, I should be rocking out in NU and trying to win that thing for me and my beloved Rmy. It was more bitter than suicide...

Then Thursday came, January 24, 2008. Less than 48 hours left.
That night before I was asking God for a sign if I should skip classes or what.
My thursday became a disaster. Signs were there. But what really matters is my choice.
And my choice is NOT TO GO.
I felt my heart shattered every time I attempt to laugh it off.
It was like losing without even trying. And it was painful to bear.
But Jackie (swordsandsheep ) if she can finish my banner. Good thing she said yes. I hurriedly left home and I was cursing on the bus coz' I forgot to brush my hair and the wind is raping it more. Geez ~kthnx.

Then I met up with them -- Ate Audrey, Kim, Dyan & her friend, Aikie, Tinay and Paula at the Intercon. Ha. I arrived in pure haggard-ness. Dyan and her friend (damn dementia. I forgot your name dear ;__; ) left before us. So we, by that I mean, me and the others decided to go altogether and buy the presents and then go to Market! Market! to meet up with Mikehell and Paula's singaporean friends. Zing! STA-BUCKS!! LOL. But the shop where we're suppose to get Frank a shirt was close, t'was time for plan #2. Kim bid us goodbye and we marched on and took the Fort Bus, which turned out to be a semi-roller coaster ride that lasted for eternity. o_O Haha. We were making a party of five on the back of the bus. We were loud and hyper, but we don't care. We're shizz like that.

Then we arrived at M!M! and bought the boys the crab ashtray as a present -- The sharp, pointy and dangerous crab ashtray. *insert evil laugh here*
The barrel man first that caught our attention but we thought that it was too.. err... stiff? LMAOLMAO. We had other options like the backscratch (that Ray could use as a comb for his fro all at the same time), the jeepney diecast model, a bakya, the pretty red boa (that cost freaking 600 pesos. Expensive much.), the vase (that we thought they could use to fit Frank in and save airline cost when they travel. lol.) and more native stuffs that we got fascinated with.

Mostly we debated on Mikey's welfare before finally settling on buying the crab. Everything was based on Mikey's safety.
"No we can't buy this one. Mikey might hurt himself with this. You know that boy, he might poke himself with this pointy stuff."
We care because we love you Michael James Way ♥. But we still bought the crab. Because it was kick-ass.

Afterwards, we met with the singaporean fans (Grace and I forgot the other one), almost harassed the kuya who had backstage access ID and gave the winning expression after we gave him a surprise attack, and dragged our feet towards fully booked, where we died 8345678436483657x after seeing all those scary kids. Met-up with Mike-hell and looked for Jackie, finding out that she's already on the VIP Black gate, we made a mad run that almost paralyzed my legs.

I'll make a stop here for the Part 1.
Hope you enjoyed this. But this would most likely be for myself and the soldiers.
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PART II IS HERE.
Thanks for reading. And I'd be more than happy if you leave comments. =DD

So long...

xtrigger — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 17:18:51 GMT

F*CKING AWESOME.
Enough said.

Thank you. Thank you.
... and I really mean it.

MCRmy Ph.
we finally got what we deserve.
And it came right from his mouth.
It was surreal. Blah. And he's gay.
Writing on my arm and being haggard with that banner.
One word...

LOL.
I'm off to my solstice. But I still can't sleep. I'm sore like death..
We've gots ~~stalking missions~~ to do in the morning. LOLOLOLOLOL.
TV Patrol tomorrow. Wah. Crazy crazy.

xoxo,
Mimai.

O Hai.

xtrigger — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 08:39:58 GMT

3 MORE DAYS TO GO!

And I'm worn out like dead-beat. D=
We'll be streaming the week with a bowl of brain soup.
[ I am now fully convinced that my brain had turned into creamy stuff. EWW. ]
I DON'T WANNA STUDY ANYMORE KTHNX. ;__;
And to think I just failed on my Quiz today. (Cue: Epic Failure Week)

Of Secret Doors

The door creaked in silence
amidst the night's sheer ebony
an amber glow flooded
murmurs sounded like the cricket
a he and she shadows playing
softly motions swifting

the silhouettes moved
a watchful eye from afar
pupils dilating, a throbbing heart
slowly burning,
rising disgust

like a thunderstorm
it came rushing through the door
startled from their silent deeds
a shriek came from her throat

two hits was all it takes to end
the drama scene
still trembling
a pocketful of keys
she smiled at her bitter reality.

A thud and a click,
the door stayed innocently still
for two unfaithful hearts
came her bloodstained hands,
a sweet revenge. alas!
-- S. Blackstein

STICKAM!!!xP

xtrigger — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 13:49:14 GMT

Had fun with Allen, Dale and Perec on stickam tonight!
We talked for hours! XDDDDD~ Talked about ninjas, pirates and sharks!
And skittles! So much FUN!
And Allen and I planned on going to Tokyo [YEAH BB! TOKYO!!!] in the future to meet
and pwn the streets of Tokyo. =]]

I'm so stoked about it and my fingers are crossed!!

A meme a day, keeps insanity away.

xtrigger — Sat, 12 Jan 2008 11:28:17 GMT

Borrowed from frek:

1. The first article title on the page is the name of your band.
2. The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.
3. The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4. Use your graphics program of choice to throw them together, and post it in your own journal.

Here's mine... [of course, I can't resist not to edit it. xP]

I think having my band named ONE WORLD would be totally made of win.
And look at the title and cover of the album! Body, Nourishment and Refreshing. Sounds wonderful.

This is a late post and with a hint of salt and pepper to taste -- 2nd attempt.

xtrigger — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 10:53:49 GMT

Yes, you've read it right. 2nd EPIC ATTEMPT at writing this post. The first one just magically *poofed!* away together with the crashing of my Firefox system. ~KTHNX.

Let's get on with this and get ready to read and be bored. Y/Y?? But let me interrupt first with this multi-tasking discovery:

NOTICE from the Promoters of
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE Concert,
January 25, 2008,
Fort Bonifacio Open Field

Rules to be implemented at the venue
“Your safety is our utmost concern." Please submit to security checks and note the following prohibited items:

1. Professional video cameras, audio recording devices or any recording devices. If in any case that a person is caught filming, material will be confiscated. Refusal to comply will result to asking the person caught to leave the venue.
2. Professional still cameras. Only those with show photo pass will be allowed.
3. Banners and flags of any kind. -- WTFH?!?! Ate Audrey and I were just taking about this earlier!!! Well, kthnx.
4. Laser pointers. -- Wanna know why? Because we can poke Gerard's eye out with this. Okay, I just made that up.
5. Weapons or any sharp object that can be used as weapon. -- Because Bob is a ninja and he can sense weapons and gets all clingy with the enemy. So I will bring a weapon. LOL. And Ray can be turned-on with the sharp objects, which leads to invisible secks on stage. WE REALLY SHOULD BRING WEAPONS AND SHARP OBJECTS!!!... Another figment of my imagination.
6. Fireworks and/or any kind of pyrotechnics. -- another turn-on for the boys. /jk.
7. Glass bottles, pet bottles, cans, hard plastic containers, etc. -- TOTAL NO-NO! Because Frank is not glass, can nor plastic-friendly. He can perfectly live in your pockets.
8. Large back packs, waist packs and bags. -- Refer to #7. Frank can only occupy very limited space, no need for big containers.
9. Alcoholic beverages.
10. Large chains or spiked bracelets.
11. Wallet chains. -- Wallet chains? SRSLY? Uh-huh, they are now officially declared illegal.
12. Glow sticks. -- Really now?!?!!!~ Like for the f*ckng seriousness? Since when did glow sticks cause chaos and had the world in total disorder?

For safety reasons, children below 7 years old are not allowed to enter the venue.

"THE MANAGEMENT RESERVES THE RIGHT TO DENY ENTRY TO ANYONE CARRYING PROHIBITED ITEMS OR DEEMED TO BE UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF DRUGS AND OR ALCOHOL.” -- I look drugged anytime of the day. So will I be excused?

Thank you and please be guided accordingly.

Reading this just gave my renal function a deathwish. First, the concert will not have a PIT. For goodness sake, where in the world have you ever heard of a rock concert without a pit? Only in the Philippines. *violent head desk* ;___; And then goes the good seats -- they're not for sale to the public, well, except for the VIP Black which was just recently released for a flashing f*ckng P10K. And the rest of the good seats would go to the promoters and their kids. Bah. *ignites them*
And Warner Philippines is still being a bitch, with a reason, but still not paying attention to us.
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It just seems unfair. *weeps in the corner*

Okay, too much off-topic. Let's get back to this week's rundown.

MONDAY -- We had a Research and Thesis Writing Seminar. No Pharmacognosy, TechWri and Pharmacology class. YAY!~ No quiz! Recollection was postponed though. Seminar went alright, but I was surprised to find out how much moolahs we'll be spending in doing our thesis. I'm talking about thousands here! o__O I'm gonna go poor and hungry for the rest of my senior year.

TUESDAY -- No Manuf Lec. Absent Professors are <3. Lol. Sir Apostol = PWNS. Manuf Lab = Brand Name Clearance. And more of passive time. Had Confession in the evening as a requirement for the Confirmation. ~ "Clean and Sin-free." But when I got home, I had some WTF?!-screamo because I got too excited with something -- but I couldn't remember now what was it. *facepalm*

WEDNESDAY -- NO CLASSES!! XP So, TriNoma Bloggers Food Tour here I come to ~~pig out~~. I almost killed myself for not bringing Zero (the camera.) ;__;

I'll edit later for the whole experience. [ I almost typo'd it to ~~sexperience~~. Now see how my mind is being polluted.]

I bought two new pens to the family -- a black *i forgot the name* korean branded pen and an orange Staedler fineliner. I'm gonna call him Kio. [ I will have a hard time naming when I get the Staedler 24's Fineliners. XP] And,..

IT FEELS GOOD TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE BELIEVES IN ME.; :DD ♠

THURSDAY -- Pretty much the same routine every thrusday. But Sir Apostol saying, "Me, THE GENIUS." , a pack of strawberry chews and letters & postcards made my day. ★

As of today, school was still the same shizz. First quiz of the year on PharEco -- and I'd say that I did good.
I visited the library to look for a topic for our TechWri // Pre-thesis Preparation but all I had was a headache. Angeli and I had a little cough*yaoi*cough convo while waiting in line to get our lunch. I was too happy that I think I said the word FOURSOME too loud. ~LULZ. XP And I had some weird experience with the autoload-ing -- errr... the kuya was somewhat stalker-ish and he typed in my number before I finished writing it. "WTF? Did he memorized my number?!?" *shrugs* o_O creep.

And now I'm gonna go back to my Youtube and watch NCIS season 5 episodes, after sidetracking to DL some sidebar gadgets for my desktop and download more PD episodes at downloadcomplex, *plugs shamelessly*.

Panic! at the Disco just removed the ! in Panic. But I think you all know that.
And their new album is named "Pretty. Odd." And I like.
Perez Hilton addressed Ryan as a lesbian. lmao.
Spencer is a bearded lady.

But I still don't have a topic.
And I still have to make my post about the food tour.
And we still have a practice tonight for tomorrow's confirmation.
And I want to join a challenge community.
And I still need to make the PhCog Glycosides Tabulation.
And type the examples for TechWri.
And I just said YES to make a design for the MCRmy Ph armbands.

So where's the salt and pepper? -- I honestly don't know. It's outside the galaxy perhaps.
And I think my liver just had a failure and died on me.

Go ahead and make your pic Jess.

xtrigger — Tue, 08 Jan 2008 15:56:10 GMT

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[008] Jon Walker
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Comments, Concrit and Credits will make my day.
Please do not hotlink or claim them as yours. D:
Kindly tell me if you're the owner of some of the textures,
I will be more than glad to give you credit for it. =]]

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ETA:
DEAR JONATHAN WALKER,
YOU ARE SUCH AN EFFING DIVA.
NOW LEMME SEE YOU WEAR THAT CHANEL. ^o^ ~squee!

tomorrow

xtrigger — Sat, 05 Jan 2008 15:46:55 GMT

I'll catch up tomorrow with things. I'm tired like deadbeat. ;___;
*off to finish homeworks*

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I bring you my first multi-fandom icon post. :D :D
Had my first attempt on making anime/ cartoon icons. Hope ya likes 'em. ^o^

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Please do not hotlink or claim them as yours. D:
Credit to papermoon_icons for some of the anime bases.
Kindly tell me if you're the owner of some of the textures,
I will be more than glad to give you credit for it. =]]

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Fo shizzle!~xD

xtrigger — Fri, 04 Jan 2008 16:40:38 GMT

Shall we do this, y/y? Y/Y!!
【THE TIME CAPSULE MEME】

From kyoy :

Anyway, let's start the new year off right; The problem with LJ:
we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.
So I want you to ask me something/ anything you think you should know about me.
Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

WELCOME TO THE CRAZY WORLD ZACK! ♥
Zack is my G-Pen 560 Pen Tablet. WOOT!~xD
Buying him was purely impulsive. I just fell in love with the thingy.
Therefore I should drown myself in a "no buying things anymore" penalty. ;___;
LOL @ my first drawing attempt. I obviously do not have talent. Kthnx. D:
Please teach me how to draw or how to use my precious Zack.

So, today was still ermm.. indifferent. My friends are still on a hostile mood trip. Idk. AND THEY COULD KILL ME WITH THAT ATTITUDE IN NO TIME. And I hate it really. They should either talk and spit it out or bang themselves to some certain object so that they'd get amnesia and forget how to bitch out. Sorry. Rant mode.

*le sigh* QUALITY CONTROL MONTHLY EXAM RESULTS WAS GIVEN TODAY.
It was a failure. SHEESH. WHY DOES QC COMPUTATIONS HAS TO BE SO FREAKING HARD?!? ;___; Ugh. 2 more points to pass. Good thing my quizzes were decent or else I'd be dead by now. And my other examination results was released to the wild environment and my grades should be tamed, well.. they were decent enough but I SRSLY NEED TO STUDY. [Note to self: Study hard loonie or you'll lose that chance to get your hands on a SLR.] *weeps in the corner*

On the other "more optimistic" hand, I'm still thankful for some things. A LOT OF THINGS, actually.
I'm thankful my depression isn't so bad anymore and my mood shifts aren't coming often either. ^o^ So I guess I'm starting to have control over it now, but me being apathetic lately might be a side effect. PSH. PSYCHO. My new year didn't start quite right but i'm hopeful *fingers-crossed* that this chaos i'm in is temporary and things will eventually be okay -- not really back to normal, it's a hard situation.
I guess you just can't expect things around you to be perfectly alright, but there's no reason to not live life happy and do things as you want.

YEAH, I'D BE HAPPY TOO. EVENTUALLY. ♥

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FIGHT CLUBBBBB!!xD

xtrigger — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 12:24:02 GMT

Watching Fight Club on Youtube!xD

EDWARD NORTON = FTW.

Merry Christmas Y'all!

xtrigger — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 13:40:16 GMT

Hmmm.. Let's say I am terribly bored right now hence I am writing again. Seems nonsense but do bear with me, idleness is not a good option.
So last night we had our annual Christmas party for the family {and when I mean family, I mean the whole extended family} and also with the neighborhood kids. :D
It was fun {as usual} well, except for the moments that my mum got all bossy on me with her do-this and do-that. I honestly don't have the patience with the nagging. ~lulz. with the presentations. Everything was gay, haha. Believe me. I put my word on that. :P

We had karaoke, some fireworks, disco and lots of FOOD!!~squeee!XD *spaz dance*
My brother was my secret santa! Lol. That didn't became so secret anymore since he spilled the beans right after he had picked my name on the lots. He gave me a shirt -- a dark blue shirt with pooh bear in it. I grinned with my thoughts of pooh bear being asexual. So I <3 the shirt, said it'll make me more gay after I wear it. :]] I received two more gifts, one from my aunt -- a pajama trouser. She knows how much I love pj's. I got a duck plushie from my sister -- it reminds me of Gerard's impersonation of a duck. I am imagining him quacking right now. lmao. So we ended at one in the morning and I had to wake up early at four to attend the last of Misa de Gallo. I'm proud of myself for completing it again -- and hopeful at the same that He'll grant my wishes for this year. My wishes are pretty indefinite but I know he knows it. When I got back home, I slept again. Haha. So much for only having three hours of sleep, I have to get myelf some rest too.

I made another layout for Project Revenge fansite. I should kick myself in the ass for not gathering the things I need to put on the site.
I am more than an epic fail for such. :P *kicks self*

Still, we have no news/ development about our proposition with Warner Phils. They did not answer back any of my emails yet *shakes fist* and they're telephone lines are always busy. Let's burn their office now shall we? lawlz. But i'm still hopeful. I'm getting my hands on it again after Christmas. :D

I guess i'll leave it here for now. I'm played Animanundi the whole afternoon. :]] Yay! ♥ Georik Zaberisk is mah shizz Gurlfrieend!! Durrrr 8D *cue: don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like him* and James of Team Rocket as mah boyfriend!xD

Waiting for Christmas to arrive is FUN!! (even though i'm close to being broke) lol. I'm getting myself an external HD by ~~early january~~ and perhaps a tablet if i'm lucky. xD My Georik's [IZ teh LAPTOPZ] memory is failurez. RARRRRZ!!8D I need more games and songs/albums/videos to downloads!~lulz. I IZ TEH RIPPPERZZZZ YO!xD
Any recommendations?? y/y?? :]]

xtrigger — Fri, 21 Dec 2007 06:41:28 GMT

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