^Inside My Head^

Fresh Start

x_rated_loop — Thu, 23 Sep 2004 11:30:36 GMT

Ok, so officially this journal will be only for my posting in different communities. I'll just use this for fun stuff. My official personal journal is over at GreatestJournal, everyone who talks to me already knows the link but if I just met you and you want to get to know my head ask me for the link and it's mostly Friends Only with a few random public entries.

My icon journal is over at GJ also (the link to my icon journal is in my user info and the icon journal is Friends Only). Credit for brushes and templates are given in my icon journal user info. Also my icon request community is also over at GJ. The link to that community is given in my GJ icon journal user info. This entry closes up this journal in the updated entries sense.
It's been fun. Like I said, I'll still be posting here in LJ, just not updating my LJ journal.

EEEEEE!!!!!!

x_rated_loop — Wed, 30 Jun 2004 15:13:00 GMT

I need a boyfriend. Or two. Or three. I'm horny. I need to get me some.

Yayness

x_rated_loop — Fri, 21 May 2004 21:22:59 GMT

Season 6 of Buffy comes out in less than a week. The 25th to be exact. I can't wait. Once it's out I'll order it on Amazon. W00t!

Other DVDs I've been meaning to get:

- Roswell First Season
- Felicity Seasons 1, 2 and 3 (when 3 comes out)
- Buffy Seasons 1, 2 and 4 (already have Seasons 3 & 5)

I used to want Dawsons' Creek but it's on syndication on TBS so why bother? ;)

- And ofcourse The O.C when it finally comes out in October.

Slowly I'll stock up my collection ;)

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x_rated_loop — Thu, 06 May 2004 20:36:00 GMT

So I lost my job a few days ago. I'm pissed. I'm sad.

That is all.

Public Entry! YAY!!!

x_rated_loop — Sat, 17 Apr 2004 17:43:56 GMT

My Spring Break weekend was ruined. I had plans to go away with my friends to the annual college sports event like I always do and let me tell you it was going to be awesome. Great bands and groups are scheduled and lots of booze which is always a good thing. So my friends at the last minute tell me they can't go because they're broke. So yeah, I'm pissed. Right at this minute there is some major partying going on over there and I'm here stuck and just peeved. One the one hand I have a ton of assignments for school to do so I guess I should be home working on them and that's what I've done but on the other hand I wanted to PARTY!!! I'm such a party girl and this is driving me insane. I want to go dance, party with my friends, flirt with guys and get drunk. But noooo, instead I'm here doing school crap. Major suckage. I need to make some new friends who actually have money. I'm so mean :( I don't really mean that. My friends are cool, they buy me drinks and stuff when I don't have alot of cash and we go out to party. Going away for the weekend does require plenty of cash so yeah I forgive them, it's not like I could pay for them, it's too much but still, I wanted to go so bad.
My other friend didn't want to drive 3 hours to pick me up and then 3 hours to bring me back on sunday (or Monday if I had the day off work) because she's too selfish, we were going to stay at her apartment but she's a bitch and didn't come pick me up and wanted me to take a taxi by myself to her place with some old guy who drives it. Uh, hell no...what if he raped me or something? I was gonna take the taxi there with my friends but no way was I going alone. Anyway, I'm pissed.
So that's the latest.

Hotness

x_rated_loop — Fri, 19 Mar 2004 11:23:13 GMT

So I decided to take tutoring for this one class I'm having trouble with and I met my tutor today. He's so hot. I expected some dorky (if nice) glasses wearing fattie, or a pimply, skinny, pocket protector wearing geek but instead I got this hunk. Strangely enough I'm not into him in a future crush kind of way, I just happen to appreciate his amazing good looks and the masculine yummy scent of his cologne -_-
He seems patient enough when explaining so I'm really hoping he can help me bring up my grade in this class because at the moment I'm oh-so screwed.

Heh

x_rated_loop — Thu, 18 Mar 2004 19:20:56 GMT

Most of my entries have been Private lately. Sorry :)

I really needed to sort out my head and thoughts so Private entries are good for all this stuff.

O...M....F...G

x_rated_loop — Thu, 05 Feb 2004 18:41:42 GMT

3 Doors Down will be playing over here, just three hours away from my house. I want to go so bad to that concert. I can't imagine anything better than watching them live...well, yes I can, but that's a whole other story.
I doubt very much I'll be able to go, my friends are way too busy with work to be able to stay over night and what not. Dammit. I'd fuck anyone willing to take me haha jk
Seriously though, it'd be very cool to go see them, I was driving to class when I heard the news on the radio about the concert and I was like, whoa, and then i was like whooaa, then I was like whoa haha -_-

x_rated_loop — Sun, 01 Feb 2004 13:39:55 GMT

x_rated_loop — Wed, 28 Jan 2004 19:41:55 GMT

My Hair

x_rated_loop — Tue, 20 Jan 2004 23:34:11 GMT

So my hair's back to normal...sort of. The stylist worked on my hair for hours because it's so long and I have alot of hair and she applied the dye mix. It came out in a dark brown tone but it's reddish at the same time, the roots is where it's the reddest. One of the girls who works with me assured me that it would lighten out alot once I washed my hair a few times so there's always hope. I don't really want to dye my hair ever again but I think I'll end up doing it again once some time passes because this still doesn't look my natural hair color and I want it to be lighter. But all in all my hair looks good, especially when you compare it to yesterdays' horror. The one thing I'm not satisfied with is the blow drying, the top is kind of puffy, it's okay though, my mom's going to fix it tomorrow before work. She knows how to do that because she's the one who always blow dries my hair straight.
No time to blow dry it but she'll work on it with styling cream and the hair straightning iron. -le sigh-
School starts tomorrow...blech, I hate having to go back there with my hair not being it's normal brown tone, I don't like this reddish dark brown, everyone else loves it though. Blah. I can't wait till Saturday so I can wash it and my mom can blow dry it nicely. I hate puffyness. Yech.

OMFG! EW!

x_rated_loop — Mon, 19 Jan 2004 21:22:37 GMT

Ok, so yesterday I asked my mom to highlight my hair. I bought the Herbal Essence highlighting kit in copper and it was supposed to come out in nice light brown tones. Big mistake. Now my hair is covered in horrible orange splotches. It's awful. I wore a hat out today to go to the salon and ask for advice. The stylist told me to buy hair dye in my natural hair color and mix it up with Peroxide 20 but my mom's afraid to experiment again with my hair and truthfully I am too. So tomorrow I'm going back and they're doing it. It's going to cost $65 dollars though because they said my hair's really long and I will need plenty of dye mix to get it all. I just want my hair back to normal. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing these orange splotches, it's so ew. I hope they do a good job. I want my hair back! I cried yesterday when I saw my hair. It's so bad.

Those people at Herbal Essence will be getting an email from my asap, stupid assholes and their terrible advertising.

So Yeah

x_rated_loop — Tue, 13 Jan 2004 03:22:31 GMT

The People's Choice Awards sucked. I didn't even watch it, just the first ten minutes of it, the hosts sucked, the people sucked and after it was obvious that Joan Of Arcadia was going to win over The O.C (which is completley ludicrous) I turned the tv off...well, right after coming across the Surreal Life. What is that about? I mean, yes, I watched the first one but this second installment is moronic. Who wants to watch a group of old, washed up, has beens in a hot tub or just trying to hold on to that one, miniscule barely there drop of fame they believe they have...or maybe they realized they're nobody's and decided to do this venture...then there's Real World Las Vegas' Trishelle...omg what frickin airhead whore. I refuse to put my brain through that...I can't even find the word for it. So I shut my tv off last night and went to bed. It was a nice sleep.

Busy Bee

x_rated_loop — Sun, 11 Jan 2004 23:51:23 GMT

I've been busy lately. Having fun mostly. Except, well, there's always work but that can be fun, if you ignore the lack of many shifts.
My friend, Emma, is such a stranger girl. She's a 21 year old paramedic and lets her mom control her life. Like whenever me and my friends call her to go out with us she has to ask for permission and as if though that weren't bad enough her mom rarely lets her go out, not unless she takes along her bratty 15 year old sisters. It's like "Uh wtf, you're a frickin adult...a working adult at that" I don't understand it or why she's letting it happen. She can't even have a boyfriend without her mom getting all up in her buisness and making her break up with them. It's so ridiculous. Friday night D calls me up that he wants to go out and chill so I call up a few people to come and I call Emma...and she's all like "Well I have to work tomorrow but let me ask my mom" so all's fine...up until I tell her that her sisters can't come with us (we wanted to be teeny bopper free and go to a club) so that's when she starts making up all these lame excuses and I can hear her mom in the background saying she can't go out..wtf. She's like scared of her mother practically. It's stupid and well, stupid I think I'll stop calling her to ask her to come out with us, there's no point in it since she most likely won't...unless those brats come along, which is a big fat NOT INVITED Someone has to put a stop to the carrying along little girls with us deal, it's annoying, very much so.
So I almost saw J.D again last night, my friend was in town and we were cruising around and she called him up from my cell phone so he'd come along but unfortunatley he's back at his dorm a few hours away. I have his number on my cell though, it's saved from when she made the call. I kinda want to call him, it's lame I know. I won't. There's no point in it, he's back at his dorms and only will be coming back every other weekend or so. Besides, I got the feeling from the conversation they had that he's intrested in my friend. She's not into him though, so he'll just get hurt. Guys are morons.

But even though they are complete idiots I really like them. I want a boy toy. I've been boy toy free for awhile now...it's getting boring...and my hormones really can't stand it.

I love Sundays like today. I spent the whole day in bed, wrapped up in a big fluffy comforter, spongebob pjs watching my Buffy The Vampire Slayer Season 5 dvds. I still have a few episodes to go but I'll get to those later. First I want to watch the new Charmed episode and the People Choice Awards. Ahhhh, I feel so... relaxed. I have to enjoy these next few days...school starts again on the 21st... ugh.

I can't wait to get my Gamecube so I can get the Buffy: Chaos Bleeds game. I won't have much time to play it once school starts though...sucks. But still, I want it badly.
Roswell Season One comes out next month...so cool -_-

Weeee

x_rated_loop — Tue, 06 Jan 2004 04:07:35 GMT

Tomorrow's 3 Kings Day, I can't wait. 3 Kings Day is like Christmas over here. Except instead of Santa Claus it's the 3 Kings who "deliver the gifts". I'm psyched, I can't wait to give my cousins, nieces, nephews and godsons they're gifts. I got my parents nice gifts too and they were nicely gift wrapped at work, my boss gave me a discount on the wrapping fee so one of the girls who works with me did an amazing job at arranging my mom's gift in clear paper with ribbons and candy and all this other stuff, it looks great. My dad's gift is wrapped in a box with a beautiful gold and silver wrapping paper covered in gold trees and a pretty gold ribbon and bow.
I actually did the last minute shopping today on those two gifts but it was fun, I went with my best friend.
What sucked was that I hit another car at the parking lot of one of the stores. I was SO scared and nervous. Neither car was damaged, the fender of the other car was only slightly bent and the guy assurred me that all it needed was to be hit with a hammer and it would like swoosh back up okay again. He just smiled and said "Don't worry about it, happy 3 kings day". I was relieved . You have no idea how much so. I've never hit a car before. The only thing I hit was a pole when I was learning to park, I knocked it down even but the car wasn't hurt so my sister and her husband and I drove away fast before the cops came. My best friend was like "It's okay, it's okay, all good drivers have to be atleast once in some type of accident before they're considered good drivers" lol I <3 her. She's awesome.

Meh some guy keeps leaving me these annoying voice mails on my cel and it's pissing me off. Things like "I love you and I want to get to know you better" WTF! First of all he doesn't even know me and he's saying that shit. I have no idea who it is and I don't care to know either. Last night some chick left me a voicemail calling me a whore. His gf maybe? Whatever. It's completley ridiculous.

Can't wait for 3 Kings Day. I know it's a kids's holiday but I hope I get something cool from my parents.
I know it sounds cheesy but the best part of these things isn't receiving, it's giving. And I honestly love giving the kids their gifts and seeing their cute faces. It's great!

Happy New Years!!!

x_rated_loop — Fri, 02 Jan 2004 05:26:46 GMT

I had a whole week of work and I had a good time. I wish they hadn't given me so little shifts at work though, I need the money but that's what happens when your boss hires extra employees during Christmas when they aren't neccesary. Now they're giving us older employess less hours so they can give some shifts to these new people...blah, it fucking sucks.
But I took the week off as a mini vacation and had fun, back to work tomorrow, I really hope this shit doesn't happen again but considering everything it most likely will, unless he fires the new people, which I know they won't do.
So one of my oldest male friends is gay now. Yup, I found out recently that he's been living with some 40 year old man. It's crazy. I always thought of him as one of the most level headed guys I know and didn't see his gayness coming. I'm not judging him, it's just weird to think of him as some homo. But if he's happy well let him be whatever he wants to be.
The casino was fun today, I'd never gone before. I enjoyed myself and ate free food. I don't know why I bothered eating, I just went and threw it up afterwards. I think I might be half bulimic...I say half because I don't binge, I just make myself barf after I eat something. It's not really a problem. I read about bulimia and I don't do what it says are the "signs" of it so I'm okay. I don't want to be fat so yeah, it's a good method to stay in shape.
New Years Eve was good. My family's crazy. As usual the gathering ended in a fight with a couple family members. It was hilarious. All our family parties always end up in some type of drama. It's always funny, no harm, everyone gets along great. In the end whoever does whatever makes up and while the drama is happening the rest of us have a good laugh.

Isn't my icon the shit? Had it done by one of the fine people at userpics :)

It's Weird...Or Not?

x_rated_loop — Mon, 29 Dec 2003 04:45:47 GMT

~Get a load of you, get a load of me, walking down the street and I hardly know you...it's just like it was meant to be~

Have you ever met someone and just felt this incredible connection? Like you just sit and ponder the possibilities because it seems so amazing to meet someone you have so much in common with. This happened to me the other night and I know it's silly but I even felt like I could marry this guy someday and be happy... really happy. It's crazy, I know, but I couldn't help it.
It's rare to find nowadays a guy who posseses all the qualities this guy does. I kept thinking as I walked around with him through various places that night "I want to find someone like him...I want a boyfriend like him...I want a husband someday like him" But by the end of the night all I could think was "I want him"
It's insane I know. But seriously, I've never met someone as amazing as him. Ever.

J.D sigh swoon melt

x_rated_loop — Sat, 27 Dec 2003 04:05:56 GMT

!!!

x_rated_loop — Fri, 26 Dec 2003 20:38:29 GMT

Last night was fucking awesome.