take a breath—make it deep

x__obsession — Sun, 01 Jan 2006 07:11:56 GMT

happy new year!
hands down, 2005 was the best year of my life.

x__obsession — Tue, 20 Dec 2005 00:50:36 GMT

back from phoenix. it was so much fun.
i met stephanie and we had a blast. <333
going to knott's with her tomorrow. yesss!

x__obsession — Thu, 15 Dec 2005 05:35:50 GMT

one. more. fucking. day. ho-ly. shit.

x__obsession — Mon, 12 Dec 2005 07:59:05 GMT

don't want to fall asleep alone,
but do i want to wake up with you

i'm only trying to be completely honest.

x__obsession — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 06:28:17 GMT

let's build a rocket to the moon, just you and i. we could start a whole new world up there, leave our past behind. sometimes i can't believe my eyes, i want to stare up, and get lost in the city lights. because i've had enough and this is the end. ~~and now i understand that a heart breaks, it doesn't bend~~.

someone please help me out, i ~~never~~ meant to take this so far, now i've fallen way too hard. take a long step back to the days when i was younger, decisions never mattered all this much. it's an ~~emptied handed~~ promise, from my heart to my conscious that says one day i will make this count. so let it all go, you have no worries now. grab my hand, let's kiss the sun goodbye.

x__obsession — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 03:33:56 GMT

there aren't any words to describe how i feel.
i never thought these feelings would come to me so soon.
everything's a rush; it's exhilarating.
for once in my life, i'm content.

x__obsession — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 10:18:41 GMT

LIBERAL
-You have two cows.
-Your neighbor has none.
-You feel guilty for being successful.
-Instead of giving your neighbor one of your cows, you write to your congressman, demanding that he pass legislation for more government programs to help your neighbor get a cow.
-You hold a concert to raise awareness of cow-lessness.
-Barbara Streisand sings for the cow-less, who couldn't attend because ticket prices are so expensive that only people with 3 or 4 cows can afford to attend.
-You wear a ribbon that signifies that you care about cowless people, even though you really haven't done anything to help them at all.

CONSERVATIVE
-You have two cows.
-Your neighbor has none.
-So?

SOCIALIST
-You have two cows.
-The government takes one and gives it to your neighbor.
-You form a cooperative to tell him how to manage his cow.

COMMUNIST
-You have two cows.
-The government seizes both and provides you with milk.
-You wait in line for hours to get it.
-It is expensive and sour.

CAPITALISM, AMERICAN STYLE
-You have two cows.
-You sell one, buy a bull, and build a herd of cows.

DEMOCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE
-You have two cows.
-The government taxes you to the point you have to sell both to support a man in a foreign country who has only one cow, which was a gift from your government.

BUREAUCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE
-You have two cows.
-The government takes them both, shoots one, milks the other, pays you for the milk, and then pours the milk down the drain.

AMERICAN CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-You sell one, lease it back to yourself and do an IPO on the 2nd one.
-You force the two cows to produce the milk of four cows.
-You are surprised when one cow drops dead.
-You spin an announcement to the analysts stating you have down sized and are reducing expenses.
-Your stock goes up.

FRENCH CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-You go on strike because you want three cows.
-You go to lunch and drink wine.
-Life is good.

JAPANESE CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
-They learn to travel on unbelievably crowded trains.
-Most are at the top of their class at cow school.

GERMAN CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-You engineer them so they are all blond, drink lots of beer, give excellent quality milk, and run a hundred miles an hour.
-Unfortunately they also demand 13 weeks of vacation per year.

ITALIAN CORPORATION
-You have two cows but you don't know where they are.
-While ambling around, you see a beautiful woman.
-You break for lunch.
-Life is good.

RUSSIAN CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-You have some vodka.
-You count them and learn you have four cows.
-You have some more vodka.
-You count them again and learn you have eight cows.
-The Mafia shows up and takes over however many cows you really have.

TALIBAN CORPORATION
-You have all the cows in Afghanistan, which are two.
-You don't milk them because you cannot touch any creature's private parts.
-Then you kill them and claim a US bomb blew them up while they were in the hospital.

IRAQI CORPORATION
-You have two cows.
-They go into hiding.
-They send radio tapes of their mooing.

POLISH CORPORATION
-You have two bulls.
-Employees are regularly maimed and killed attempting to milk them.

CALIFORNIAN
-You have a cow and a bull.
-The bull is depressed.
-It has spent its life living a lie.
-It goes away for two weeks.
-It comes back after a taxpayer-paid sex-change operation.
-You now have two cows.
-One makes milk; the other doesn't.
-You try to sell the transgender cow.
-Its lawyer sues you for discrimination.
-You lose in court.
-You sell the milk-generating cow to pay the damages.
-You now have one rich, transgender, non-milk-producing cow.
-You change your business to beef.
-PETA pickets your farm.
-Jesse Jackson makes a speech in your driveway.
-Cruz Bustamante calls for higher farm taxes to help "working cows."
-Hillary Clinton calls for the nationalization of 1/7 of your farm "for the children."
-Gray Davis signs a law giving your farm to Mexico.
-The L.A. Times quotes five anonymous cows claiming you groped their teats.
-You declare bankruptcy and shut down all operations.
-The cow starves to death.
-The L.A. Times' op-ed says your business failure is Bush's fault.

TEXAN:
-Shoot it in the head, chop off its horns, wipe its nasty ass, throw it on the grill until all the hair's burnt off.
-Serves 3.

x__obsession — Thu, 01 Dec 2005 05:44:03 GMT

hi. update. bye.

x__obsession — Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:32:50 GMT

question: is it possible to miss someone so much that it aches.. even though you've never had them?
answer: yes. it's very fucking possible. please make this pain go away.

x__obsession — Thu, 24 Nov 2005 03:17:45 GMT

she's an hour or two away from me.

x__obsession — Mon, 21 Nov 2005 03:35:17 GMT

my personal world map

visited 4 countries.
like to visit 51 countries.

tonight was extremely, extremely intense. no joke.
but after much begging and pleading and whatnot, if all goes accordingly, i should be going to phoenix for winter break. ♥

x__obsession — Tue, 15 Nov 2005 08:18:00 GMT

let's take this moment, squeeze it and hold it for the rest of our lives,
then the time will never come to say goodbye.

being infinite?
33 days away.

& every night i lay in bed with all my thoughts still left unsaid. all night, ~~restless sleep~~ emptiness, so, sweet dreams...

x__obsession — Sat, 12 Nov 2005 11:19:57 GMT

intense longing is forming inside me.
it's getting stronger and stronger every day.
*sigh* i know exactly how it can go away.

x__obsession — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 07:22:17 GMT

love is in the air.

x__obsession — Tue, 08 Nov 2005 09:09:53 GMT

why is it that with me and some people, the night ends on a good scale..
..while with others, it's unresolved and uncomfortable?
i hate that. it's been happening a lot. it must change.

x__obsession — Mon, 07 Nov 2005 07:08:56 GMT

hopefully stephanie's package will be sent tomorrow.
and i'll get it by wednesday. fucking post office.
tonight has been good for some, for others, i'm in the process of making it amazing.
let's see if my hardwork will pay off.
i don't try this hard unless i really, really, really care for the person. could this be love?
i ~~think~~ know so. ♥

x__obsession — Sat, 05 Nov 2005 09:22:18 GMT

tonight: went from fucking amazing to shitty.
and whose fault was it? mine. of course. i'm sorry.

x__obsession — Tue, 01 Nov 2005 06:20:47 GMT

i'm going to overdose on candy by tomorrow morning.

x__obsession — Mon, 31 Oct 2005 08:49:09 GMT

stephanie, prepare your ass for my package!

(lol @ that sounding really dirty)

x__obsession — Sat, 29 Oct 2005 08:15:59 GMT

i have a million things to do. at the top of my list: send stephanie's package.

the past few nights have been really slow.
in fact, this entire week has been. ugh.

x__obsession — Mon, 24 Oct 2005 06:43:30 GMT

i have the best friend anyone could ever ask for.
and for that, i'm eternally grateful. ♥

x__obsession — Sun, 23 Oct 2005 10:00:03 GMT

things ended well tonight. i'm just.. so confused yet so sure.

lift me up, just lift me up don't make a sound,
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground.
i wish i could be every little thing you wanted.
all the time; sometimes.

i'm crazy for even thinking it, let alone it actually happening.
but it is and it shouldn't. but i can't help myself. i'm torn.
i know i can't let this happen. it has to stop.

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x__obsession — Thu, 20 Oct 2005 07:29:18 GMT

my mood went from: :[
to :/
to :]
to :D!

x__obsession — Sun, 16 Oct 2005 09:08:31 GMT

I LOVED TONIGHT.
BECAUSE I'M IN LOVEEEE!

x__obsession — Sat, 15 Oct 2005 04:09:32 GMT

fuckin' ecstatic. yet confused. whoa. headrush.