YourPetJade

The first time Master said "I want you to experience a mild bondage, Dear".  I felt the fear in me raise but I wanted so much to please Master I told myself I wouldn't let him know how I felt.  I told myself "I can do this for him".  I looked into his eyes hoping my fear wasn't seen, smiled and nodded "yes", afraid if I spoke my voice would betray me.

Master reached for the place where I knew he keeps his toys.  I closed my eyes thinking if I didn't see I could calm myself from the slight panic I could feel raising inside.  It wasn't a matter of trust, I trusted my Master completely in these matters.  I knew that He would never cause me more pain than he knew that I could take. It was the thought in my mind of being confined, not being able to move.  I kept my eyes closed tight so that if He should look Master wouldn't think that my fear inside was in anyway a fear of him or what he may do to me.  I knew my fears and they we not of my Master.

I felt Master take hold of my right wrist, I couldn't control myself I had to look.  I looked and as I did I saw him begin to wrap a small cloth around my wrist ensuring that if I did panic at anytime I would not cause injury to myself by fighting the ropes before he could get them loose.  I saw him glance at me, quickly I closed my eyes knowing that if he saw into them he would see the fear that was building within me.  He begin to talk softly to me, telling me of his love for me, telling me each step as he tied my wrist to the bed, and continuing to talk softly and soothing to me.  I closed everything else out of my mind and listened only to his voice.

He continued moving to my right leg.  Again with the same procedure of wraping a small cloth around the ankle.  Talking quietly and touching me letting me know that he was there for me.  I continued to listen to Master's voice and concentrate on his touch as he talked to me but I could still feel the panic growing within me as I realize that one leg and one arm was all that remained free.   I told myself to relax that I knew within me that no harm would come to me from my Master's hands.

I knew when Master moved to my left leg all my sense were very aware of every movement Master made.  His wraping of the cloth around my ankle, then the rope as it slipped closed onto the cloth.  His running the rope to the bottom of the bed then pulling it securely but then I realized something with each arm or leg after he drew it tight down with the rope he then loosened it a little allowing me some movement of my arms and legs.

He then moved to my left wrist.  The only remaining limb not tied down.  I could no longer help it my eyes flew open looking at him as he took hold of my wrist.  My mind fought with my body not to start to panic.   Not to try to jerk at the ropes tying the rest of me to the bed.  My mind keep saying to me what Master's voice had been repeating to me. "You are alright, Master is right here".  My mind keep telling me 'No harm will come to you from your Master's hand".  But at the same time could feel that my mind was about to lose its battle.  Then I looked into Master's eyes.  He leaned to me kissing me gently on the lips.  Master looked into my eyes, I knew he saw the fear that was there no matter how hard I had tried to hide it.  Master slowly smiled taking hold of my left wrist the only limb that was not yet held down.  Then Master looked at me again I saw in His eyes, His concern for me, He said " I think we will leave this one loose this time."  It was at that moment that all fear left me with those few words my body relaxed and realized what my mind had been saying.  "This is your Master no harm will every come to you from his hands."

What hurts more then anything is that when my Master passed from this world he took my collar with Him,I wore that collar for 11yrs and now I have no master and no collar......What am I to do now????

He looked at me and said "Be free my Pet, My Love,"and then my world ended with HIS last breath I felt it on my face as He gave me my LAST KISS........

To all everyone I would like to let you know that I am stilling in mourning and do need time to heal my soul. So if you can please respect the loss I am feeling. Thank you...