♦BDSM isn't just sex, it is a way of communicating and setting free certain urges. ≡
In order for me to submit it has to be with someone I have a connection with. Someone that can get into my head, if you can't get into my head then my reaction is not a submissive one but if that connection is there it makes it makes me crave submission. As much as I enjoy pain it hurts and without that mental connection allows me to enjoy the ride so that the other person can get what they need out of the exchange as well. I have found that I need pain in my life it is something I crave. I know that may sound a little odd but I am not really sure how else to explain it. Although I have been in this lifestyle I have had limited experiences and would really enjoy being explored.
Although I don't consider myself service oriented there are parts of service I really enjoy.
into being a forecedsub bi male
There is something about being both physically and mentally cornerd, the awkwardness and the uneasy feeling , and uncertainty , half of your mind and body says no and the other half refusing to say no ..waiting to see what will happen next ,, and to see how far you may be pushed .
