SupplePhoenix

It’s only been a few short months since i met and fell in love with my Daddy but the changes in me during that short time have been tremendous. 
For several years now i have been searching high and low for my life partner. i thought i found him a few times. Ultimately, the previous guys would quickly prove themselves to be users or liars or worse. i was becoming jaded and started to think that i would never find that elusive “One” i had been longing for and needing. 

When Daddy and i started talking, i honestly didn’t hold out much hope for Him being any different than the rest but i was trying to hold onto the dream that an honest, kind man was still out there. He had been through the same things with women and even asked me during one of O/our first conversations if i was going to disappear after one conversation like so many previous girls. my answer was, “Not unless You turn out to be a crazed lunatic…” lol. W/we decided to trust just once more that the person on the other end was being honest and sincere. Wow…the payoff! He wasn’t a crazed lunatic and i didn’t run away! ;) W/we have ended up being so deeply connected in such a short time. It’s like W/we have always known each other. If i believed in reincarnation, then i would swear that W/we knew each other in former lives. 

Daddy has reached inside of me and pulled out parts of me that i had hidden away; some i didn’t know even existed. Before Him, i was just cruising through life in a fog. At times i appeared happy but always felt like something was missing. He found the slave in me and each day pulls more of her out. i feel less and less like a typical human being and more like His owned property every single day. He has liberated me from all things. my only concern is pleasing Him. 

Not only has He pulled the slave out of me, but He has also brought out my little side. i’ve always been more of a middle than a little. Middle me could handle disappointment and hurt; she was used to it. Little me was always tucked away in the background, afraid to come out and trust anyone. Daddy is the first man who has ever made my little feel safe enough to truly be out. Even in the DD/bg lifestyle, i never really let her out before. Now she’s coming out full force and making herself known! i can talk to Daddy while little and not worry about judgment. He understands. He gets it. He encourages it. He loves my little. He loves every part of me. 

Today i stand in front of the mirror and i finally see my true self looking back; no parts hidden away. i look in the mirror and i see a middle, a little, a slave, a mother, a sister, a best friend, and a lover. i see the parts He has pulled out and know that, while i am far from complete, in His hands i am safe and whole. 

Life is full of choices. Some of the choices we have are difficult, some are easy. i knew that stepping into this lifestyle would not be an easy one in some regards. In some ways though, it has been the easiest thing i’ve ever done.

i have always been a slave, even before i openly owned it or knew that modern day people actually live this as a lifestyle choice. i have to say though that it’s not even really a choice for me, it is simply my nature. The tendencies i had would often show up in daily life in my vanilla marriage. The husband was never a Dom, Master, or Daddy. He didn’t get it. He would even get angry when my slave side would show. i wasn’t “trying” to be a slave…it’s just who i was and am. i have always hated having to make decisions, sometimes about even the smallest things, and so would defer to him, which would often annoy him. There were times when i got yelled at for trying to serve him in any manner. Serving someone i love is just that, an act of love. i would be left feeling bewildered as to why he was angry. Needles to say, that relationship was doomed from the start.

Some of you know that i am currently, and will forever after be, living as a 24/7, TPE, micromanaged slave. i never thought i would be a slave in this type of relationship, mainly because of my strong baby girl side. i didn’t understand how someone could be a slave and also a baby girl. i needed a Daddy. Since stepping into this lifestyle, i have learned that one can be both Master and Daddy or slave and babygirl. my Daddy is one of those types. He is a superb Master and Daddy; He introduced me to micromanagement.

Many people balk as soon as they hear the word “micromanagement.” They say, “I am a strong, independent person. I don’t want someone telling me everything to do or making my decisions for me.” If that’s what works for you, great. In all honesty, i was a little leery about micromanagement. After all, didn’t that mean that i was stupid…too ignorant to make decisions for myself? Well, i knew that wasn’t true. i was capable of making decisions. i simply hated doing it. i would often waste so much time worrying over simple decisions.

Daddy has shown me how beautiful micromanagement can be and is. It works for U/us. i was always an independent woman but i was a slave to my bills, to the every day tasks of life, to my own mind when trying to make a decision or figure out how to handle a difficult relative even. Daddy now controls every aspect of my day. He tells me what to wear, what to eat, whom i may be friends with, and what to say (or not). He even controls my bodily functions. i never even knew that was possible or that i would even agree to it! Btw, you know you are totally owned when you are taking your dog for a walk and catch yourself saying to him, “lucky bastard, even you get to pee whenever you want!” lol (That was an ah-ha moment for me…lol)

So that you have a better understanding of exactly how serious i am when i say that Daddy micromanages me and controls my entire day, here are just some of the things in my life that He controls:

*when i get up in the morning and what time i go to bed
*what to wear; every detail, including socks and undergarments
*when and what to eat; including at restaurants and what i allow kids to eat
*how to cook what He wants me to eat; even how many eggs in omelettes
*banking and financial control
*who i am allowed to be friends with
*what to say (or not) when texting certain friends
*how to handle difficult relatives; including sister and parents
*when i shower and shave
*when and how i urinate
*what to watch on TV
*activities with my kids; sometimes i am ordered to take them out somewhere or to stay home and watch a movie or go hiking, etc
*what i am allowed to do in bed if i can’t sleep; read a book, no cell phone or electronics
*daily chores
*how He wants certain laundry folded and put away
*my hairstyle; including cut and color
*nail color if i have a manicure
*when and where i am allowed to go anywhere outside the home; including grocery shopping
*how i am to handle physical contact from anyone; such as male friends hugging me
*which insurance company to use
*etc ;-)

i have friends in the vanilla world who have said to me how they hate making decisions. One friend in particular, who knows i’m in this lifestyle, said that exact thing to me. She hates making decisions but refuses to give up control to her partner. She doesn’t understand how i can give up all of the above decision making to Daddy. It boils down to fear and lack of trust for her and many others. She is afraid to give up control. She doesn’t trust her partner fully with her safety and health. i explained to her that you don’t just give up control to anyone who passes by. It has to be the right person…not every man is capable of successfully micromanaging another person’s life. He has to be intelligent in many things and organized. He has to be able to consider all of your needs and plan for them. It is a beautiful thing indeed when it happens. my Daddy would not have full control over me and my actions if i thought He was going to tell me to do something that was detrimental in some way.

For successful TPE and micromanagement, you, as a slave, must trust your Master implicitly. i trust my Daddy infinitely. He controls every detail of my life, as you can see from the above list. W/we have no safe words because none are needed. i trust Him with my health, happiness, and well-being. Since being under His control, i have even noticed a change in my orgasms. Recently, i experienced something i have never experienced before. i have no doubt that it’s due to the mental connection between Daddy and myself. my orgasms definitely don’t belong to me anymore. my body is no longer mine, but His. He has liberated me from all of the things that enslaved me before. i now serve Him and Him alone; not my bills, my friends, or society and societal ways. i am more independent than i was before…all while being a 24/7, TPE, micromanaged slave. As long as i obey His orders, everything else falls into place and my life is much smoother. i am much happier. i don’t have the worries and constraints i had before because He handles all of those things now. i am His worthless doormat but in my servitude and devotion to Him, i am treated like a magic carpet. i am, and always will be, His most treasured possession. He will do anything in His power to make sure i am healthy, happy, and safe.

So my fellow sister slaves, be not afraid! If you are in a relationship with someone you trust implicitly, don’t be afraid of losing your independence because you are giving up control. Embrace it. You will become more independent and free of the daily struggles of life by giving up control.

i was talking to Daddy earlier and He was giving me my orders for the rest of today and tomorrow. He was so detailed that i began to fret. i thought He was going to be unavailable tomorrow. You see, W/we talk constantly each and every day so to go even one day without His voice or contact would just be devastating. i would feel so lost and lonely. As it turns out, i was wrong, He wasn't going to be unavailable. He was just going over details so that He would know what He needed me to do for the rest of the week as well.

Pretty early on, i learned that Daddy is a micromanager. i didn't know i needed or wanted that at the time. However, the more control He takes, the more He micromanages me...the happier and more loved and secure i feel. i always knew i had slave tendencies but He has ignited the slave in me and drawn her out. Each day brings U/us even closer than the last. The more dependent on Him i become, the deeper O/our connection becomes. i find myself lost when He's not able to answer a question or concern right away but i've learned to sit and wait patiently. He always gets back to me in a reasonable amount of time.

i feel so lucky to have such an awesome Daddy/Master who loves me so much that He tends to every detail of my day. It's a lot of work!! I couldn't be happier with how close and deep our bond has become. i am thriving under His attention and care. <3