what happens when we get past ourselves? beyond hearing what we want to hear?
do we find truth???
sure, it's harder, but to find a place that pulls us out of ourselves.... into others... how bad is that?
reality calls.... the darkside beckons.....
will we hear? will we answer?
yes, lots of questions. i've always had lots of questions. some of the answers i've found, others i still search for. why am i the way i am? the search grows long, lonely, i grow weary.... one day i'll find freedom in what i seek..
just looking for friends online and realtime for now. hugs to my unicorn https://www.collarspace.com/js/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/img/smiley-wink.gif" alt="Wink" border="0" />
finally beginning to understand those that have somethings in common but not other things. if what you have in common are the most important things... the things that have not been shared with others... then the other stuff isn't all that important after all. so simple... such a long time in understanding. lol
i've decided that i'll no longer let my fears and perceived deficiencies define the person that i'm becoming.
there is that place within me... most times it's quiet, it waits, it seems such a small place. it has learned to ignore most casual touches, i've learned to protect that place and the walls (though invisible) work quite well. occasionally a touch gets thru and a paw comes out to smack it away.. there's no searing pain anymore... i'm thankful for that. once in a great while - a very great while - there's a touch that is welcome.. the touch of a kindred spirit... and the small place within me fills me... and i get a glimpse of where i need to go, how i need to be... the freedom of who i am.
it's about living life... the way i need to live it, being what i need to be, doing what i need to do..... this is freedom to me.
reading profiles is interesting.... so many focus on the physical aspects (don't get me wrong... those are very fun)... but there is more. the mental and emotional connection is what i crave. i don't find many others who speak of that need... maybe, just as i haven't spoken of it here... neither do they. it's not a need for play... it's a need for something "more". it's a need that is almost overwhelming at times.... i wonder if others feel that as well?
a thought i've been contemplating - is there a difference between just living life ... and living this as a life style? hmmmmm i know i don't do things consciously... i just do what i've always done.... want the same things i've always wanted... i just understand it better now.
