SubsTeaser

Not been on here for a couple of weeks, and yet it amazes me that when I have logged in and checked my overflowing inbox,  still how many people on here really need to go to spec savers.... 

Would it really matter what I wrote in my journal/profile entries - because no one bothers to read it anyways!

So for the hard of reading once again...... NOT LOOKING - 

Does not mean I want a slave to buy me diamonds so I'll change my mind!

I don't want a new house Iv just bought one! 

I don't need you to tribute me to prove your genuine - If Im interested in a sub I take him on because I want to, not because he can pay for my whip to strike his ass!

I don't want a car - I cant drive so that would be pretty useless to me wouldnt you say!

I don't want a holiday, or break away at any destination of my choice!

I don't want to have your babies - with 2 kids already I'd say that was more than enough for anyone in this day and age and the way this country is right now bringing another mouth to feed into it just wouldn't be right! 

I don't want you to "prove to me" your worth taking on, because again I am NOT looking! 

On a lighter note, Got all the decorating now finished in my new house, Everything unpacked and in its place, and nothing left to do but enjoy the place, which means I can kick back chill out and relax! woohoo!!! :) 

                                   Currently Not Looking! 

Just as it says on the tin, I have possibly found that very sharp needle that was hidden so well in that extremely large haystack!

Someone who knows what it is to be a true submissive, To be totally open and honest from the onset and lives to serve one domme and one domme only! 

Therefore for the time being, I would prefer for people who read this profile to accept that and not message me asking me if I am looking to take on any subs - as the answer ofcourse will be no! 

I am ofcourse happy to converse with friends I have made on this site, and ofcourse if you are one of those friends, you know how to contact me! ;-)

Happy Hunting People! xx

If I have curves, Im fat. 

If I wear too much makeup, Im fake. 

If I like to get dressed up, Im a tart. 

If I say what I think, Im a bitch. 

If I cry sometimes, Im a drama queen. 

If I have guy friends, Im a slut. 

If I stand up for myself, Im too mouthy. 

Seems like you cant do anything now days without being labeled.... *sigh*

Well I have been doing alot of thinking the lately and for a while came to the conclusion it would be better for me to hang up the boots and give up on this journey for good, as all I ever seem to be encountered with on here is liars, cheats, players and dicks who just want to mess with your head and not be totally honest from the onset! 

However..... 

Over the last few days I have been chatting to a couple of very interesting people who have shown me this site isn't totally full of tossers who get off on wasting your time {thankyou and you know who you are ;-)}

So on the conclusion there might actually be that rough diamond somewhere in that haystack on here,even though its hard to find - I have decided to stick around to "try" to find it!

I will not however be making myself actively looking..... I am not - What I am looking for is people I can converse with, to find if there is a connection and spark first and foremost rather than "just getting on" {yes guys there is a difference}... If that shows true it will then be moved to the next stage - this will not happen over nite but contrary to what some think on here it will happen - I am in time looking for a LTFLR - If you are unable to committ to that over time fully to me for whatever reason do not waste my time, I dont care about what little you can give, if you can not give me 100% I am not interested - Its that simple!

So from now on, messages that ask me to take you on straight away, or declaring your undying submission to me will be immediately binned and not replied to, as will messages from people that cannot get their head around the fact I want to know the person before deciding wether or not he would be suitable to become my submissive/slave - Its really not that hard to work out, but I am sure there will be many in here that don't grasp it!

Anyone ofcourse who can actually read and digest this entry is more than welcome to get in touch and lets see where it goes! ;-)

Don't you just love it when other people you know and think are friends jump on the bandwagon and stir the shit for you when its not necessary!.........Wow - so many "genuine" people on here.................NOT!

Time for a break from this shithole me thinks.....

Firstly I want to say Rubbersmudge, even when caught out lying - cheating and denying what you have done, you still cant handle total honesty can you - you approached me as a friend???? what utter bullshit and you know so - since when do friends asks friends to marry them, tell them they love them unconditionally and that they complete you in life????? *throws the bar of soap your way to stick as far down your throat and secretly hopes you choke on it* 

Anyway moving on to the point of this journal entry today!

Trust - Honesty - and Loyalty - 3 little words the rubber girly bitch above doesnt have in his vocabulary!

I have been giving alot of thought to why I am a domme - sometimes this is hard work with the amount of fakes, wannabes, time-wasters and idiots on this site, and sometimes you find someone you think you can share your deepest most intimate thoughts and desires with only to be made a fool of at a later date {sometimes twice if your really lucky}!

So back to thinking.... My definition of a domme, A domme is a strong human being who can control not only her li of another - someone who is strong in mind and determined in heart  to put herself effortlessly in front of someone and take what they have to offer using no better judgement and forgetting all that has happened in the past be it with that sub or somebody new - forgetting all badness and looking to the furture with only 1 direction for their journey, and knowing they will embark on a new life together to become 1 - as true soul mates!

That said, what people tend to forget on here {or any other site for that matter} is that to gain that, and achieve that goal, you have to be honest, open, loyal and trustworthy - things alot of people tend to forget is that the person who is domme is also human, she has feelings, she has emotions, and  she too has scars to bare and bridges of confidence to build - but with the trust and honesty of a true being she can achieve this and become a stronger no better person in herself in order to give her sub his wants, needs, desires!

I am really not sure right now, wether I want to laugh, cry, scream or beat the crap out of someone just to relieve the frustration! 

I have recently had a long interesting chat with a domme on here, actually not only a domme but Rubbersmudge's other domme sadisticbiatch -  who he desperately tried to keep hidden from me, and me from her - How did that work out for ya bitch??? Not very well as  from where I am sitting today, it seems our rubber toy has been telling us both the same thing, {all lies - I might add} to cover his tracks!

He seems to think that by telling me sob stories of how this domme treated him badly, used and abused him and his trust was a way to get in my life - he then went on to tell her I was harassing him and he stayed in contact with me because he felt sorry for me??? LOL remind me again who came back with his tail between his legs begging forgiveness with the story he had been a victim of a revenge mission of a jealous domme only for her to lead him on then dump him, on the 31st march after previously cheating on sadisticbiacth with me  in the first place Rubber bitch???   

What he didn't bank on, was Both me and SB gaining contact and me showing her what he had been saying to me and vice versa, he thought or rather hoped that we would both be kept out of each others worlds, unfortunately for the rubber bitch, his world came crashing down on him yesterday when he was not only caught out by 1 domme for his poisonous lies and deceit but by both domme's who have now exchanged quite a number of messages and found out he was actually spouting out the same bullshit lies to us both just altering the names on the messages he was sending!

To speak the words "I love you" to somebody should be a sacred line, and only said when truly meant - this ass-hole says it on an hourly basis in order to gain attention from someone, I am not utterly convinced he actually knows what "love" truly is, he has an infatuation with expressing lies to people to make them feel sorry for him, he tells wonderful stories about things that happened to him in his life {only thing is they only happened in his head} he finds a way to be a complete charmer with words only to foil himself when it comes to being honest - and while he is filling your head with lies he is also gaining sympathy from you simply because up until last night he was very good at what he does best "bullshit his way through life"

I truly hope anyone reading this will note that it is not in a subs best interests to mess around with a domme, she may be human, she may be flawed with emotion and she may be easily fooled by men pretending to care about her, but one thing she isn't is stupid - and for a lesson learnt -  Karma truly is a bitch!

Some of the people on this site may be happy to know, that for all his outing of dommes and writing in his journal about them, taking the upmost piss - RUBBERSMUDGE is the biggest fake and hypocrite on this site!

This man "claims" to be honest - trustworthy - respectful - at all times, when in fact he;s a lying, cheating, no good asshole,who isnt worth the time of day! 

He has been caught out well and truly for being the fake he is, so anyone who has contact with him, take my word for it and forget the loser exsists because he isnt worth wiping on the end of your shoe (unless its in a big pile of dog shit)

I urge people to go read his bullshit profile about how "what you see is what you get - or this is me, I am just human and I am real" bollox - and when you have, then read it again with the lines "I use people, I am not loyal to a domme - I am only out for what I can get and I am a complete lying wanker" between because thats what his profile sums up to!

Oh and Rubbersmudge (if you can read this without it hurting your ego never mind your eyes) If you hadnt already guessed by this entry - Your fucking history you sad pathetic no good poisonous asshole !!!!! 

WOW I feel good for that...... Moving on..

Happy Easter Everyone! ;-)

A little something I wrote - Think it says it all really! :)

Mine are the hands

That will pick you up when broken

And put you back together

But yours is the Spirit

That will have guided them! 

Mine is the smile

That will make you feel wanted

And loved and adored like no sub before

But yours is the submission

That will have made me smile! 

Yours is the body

That will make me feel a complete woman

And satisfied to the core

But mine is the love and affection

That will have made you give me your all! 

Mine is the tender grasp

That will reach into your mind

And extract your soul

But yours is the heart and soul

That will help you release yourself unto me! 

Mine is the Faith

That believes in you completely

More than anything I have believed in before

But yours is the strength

That creates this Faith in my soul for you! 

Ours is the happiness that awaits

That is filled with obedience,honesty,and commitment

That completes both our souls!

And yours is the mind body and soul

I want to call my true submissive for life!

Often at times we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to - But that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped caring - No matter what they think or feel!

Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you, But the worst thing is holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to - You have to find the courage to finally let go and move on!

And sometimes  its better to of loved and lost, than to of never of loved at all!  

Thought of the Day! 

There are two kinds of power..... 

Well iv had a good few ppl lately, telling me i am too nice to be on here!  
 
So i thought i'd clear this matter up for all those future idiots that decide to message me with that same assumption! (given the fact Im in that confrontational kinda mood tonight)   
 
Being "Polite" is not the same as being "Nice"   I can be a bitch along with the rest of them when I choose to be - and I am sure there's a good few people on this site that will verify that!
 
Just because i reply with a "Thanx but no Thanx" message or a "Thankyou" because someone has said something that deserves it - or warrants a reply DOES NOT mean i am a complete walk over!  
 
Nor does it mean i am fake or here to just play games with people - so for you illiterate dicks that don't know the difference try reading up on it before sending me abusive messages! *sigh*   
 
Manners cost nothing - Its that simple!

Thought for the Day!

Intimacy is based on shared vulnerability...nothing deepens intimacy like the experiences that a sub shares when he feels flayed,scared and vulnerable, and his domme is there with him,helping him through and willing to share in the scary stuff!

A persons best piece of equipment is their mind.Reading and talking with people who are truly knowledgeable in the lifestyle is the best way to gain experience!!

Will you still love me even if I'm not perfect? Will you still love me even if I'm not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I'd let you down?

For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.

Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?

Sometimes I'd be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that's enshrouding me. Sometimes I'd get troubled and I'd fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn't be good company then, and I couldn't make you smile.

Sometimes I'd get moody and I might not enjoy the things you'd like us to do together. Sometimes I'd lose my temper and I'd no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I'd get jealous and I might say things I don't really mean. Sometimes I'd talk too much that I might drive you away.

You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)
You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)

Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you, oh I hate it
Cause if ya really wanna be alone
I will throw my hands up cause baby I tried
Everything with you is so complicated
Oh, why?

Sometimes I get you
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes it's you I can't stand
Sometimes I wanna hug you
Sometimes I wanna push you away
Most times I wanna kiss you
Other times put you in your place

Cause every minute you start switching up
And you say things like you don't give a f-ck
Then I say I'm through with you
Take my heart from you
And you come runnin after me and baby I'm back with you 

Sometimes I catch you 

Sometimes you get away
Sometimes I read you
Other times I'm like where are you on the page?
Sometimes I feel like we will be together forever
But you're so complicated
My heart knows better

Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you, oh I hate it
Cause if ya really wanna be alone
I will throw my hands up cause baby I tried
Everything with you is so complicated

Thought of the Day!

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew!

I always knew I would look back on my tears and laugh, But I never knew I would look back at my laughter and cry!

Thought Of The Day!

They say if you love somebody you should set them free - And if they don't come back again then it wasn't meant to be!

Sometimes in life you have to be selfish in order to find yourself - And sometimes what you thought you wanted isn't always what you really want - But it takes alot of courage to accept and admit that!

*Thought of the Day*

I've come to the conclusion that everyone wether it be submissive or dominant, has a personal calling in life, that's as unique as a fingerprint,and that the best way to succeed in making the perfect slave, is to discover what they love and then find a way to offer it to them in the form of their service to you! 

Thought of the Day! 

I'm not sure what it is about illiterate people on this site, but FFS - if you can't read go the bloody spec savers!!!

NOT LOOKING - doesn't mean I want to be fussy, or just take my time in choosing somebody, Or that I am here to find my perfect slave -  it means not looking!!!!!

Iv had some interesting messages today telling me what I want and need out of this place, so I would like to set the record straight here..... 

I do not need some dickhead sending me the offer of becoming a partner in his business to change my mind and become his superior  (Yes that actually happened today WTF lol) How good would a Domme be being partnered in a legal firm be LOL! 

I dont need £££££'s worth of jewellery bought to make me feel like a princess!

I do not need offers to see what "Potential my sub has by watching him on his webcam fucking a cuddly teddy bear" (poor bear) How will I ever look at winnie the same way again!!!

It really doesn't matter who you are, or how much you think you can sway me into wanting your submission...... Bottom line is I am here to chat with current friends, have a laugh with people who's company I enjoy and when and if I want to get down and dirty, I know exactly where to go to get it!!!

Happy Hunting!

*Thought of the Day*

Fear My Induce The Show Of Submission - But Its Love and Respect For The Slave That Helps Truly Subjagates His Heart, Spirit and Soul! :-)

Well Iv come on here today to think I was gaining a free holiday LOL!

A so called sub approached me yesterday and asked me to choose a destination and 3 friends for a holiday of a life time and he would go and get it booked! 

I replied cheekily (knowing it was bullshit and he was just a attention seeking dick) saying Id love 2 weeks in the caribbean soaking up the sun and drinking cocktails on the beach!!!!!

I recieved his reply 10mins ago - telling me I was too high maintanence and he couldn't stretch that far - (How surprising LOL) 

Looks like another day on blackpool beach this year for me -  thanx to yet another wannabe timewasting dick! *sigh* Haha!!!! 

*Thought Of The Day*

Sometimes in life, You fall too hard - and You get hurt along the way!

It takes a strong soul to put that to the back of a mind and to forgive and forget those that did it!

But it takes a courageous Man/Boy/Toy/Bitch (You know who you are don't you RS :-P) To come back and apologise for what he caused! 

Life is too short - Love with your Heart - Protect with your body - Trust with your mind, and Give your life with your soul! ;-)

Thought Of The Day!

Sometimes what seems like surrender, Isnt surrender at all, Its about whats going on in our hearts... About seeing clearly how life is and how it has to be,accepting it, and being true to yourself at whatever cost!

If it causes you pain so be it, If it causes heartache it will heal in time, If it just leaves memories then it wasn't meant to be.....Submission is a way of life, not a game so many like to play without reading up on or knowing the rules!

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