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Things are going great with my new Daddy. i know, i was here with someone else about this same time last year with someone else. well, finding love is not a passive pursuit.
have some great new pics up on another site guess i could upload some here as well...
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Last night was really great. When i got off work i did not think that i would not have the energy to go out. My Daddy and i went to DD for Thanksgiving for food and it was nice to see everyone there. Then we headed over to the meet rack and it was kinda dull, but by the end of the evening it was hopping! so much fun! |
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Ok i think i have found someone who wants to have a primary relationship with me. i really like spending time with him and i think he feels the same way. taking things slow, but it is going well |
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Going today to buy a mattress cover. I am squirting all the time now so the wet spots are getting out of control. I feel kind of weird because for my first cum i need him to beat my clit till i cum; after that i just keep cumming.
is that weird?
oh well.....
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I am feeling great today. Celebrated Veterans Day with a veteran who knows how to treat a slut.
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This is hard to write and this is probably not the place for it, but here I go. I am trying to make some decisions in my life, and it is not easy. I am tired and just want someone to take care of me, or at least help me on my journey. However, I have to know that I can take care of myself and I know this.
I can take care of myself. I just wish that some of us, who I don't know could get together and form some sort of community.
I don't have a family I really want one, but I am not going about it in the right way.
I don't like being alone but that is not enough to build relationship on.
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so i think that Paul and i are going to the meet and greet at the meat rack tomorrow at 8pm...wanna play? |
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Today was a good day. I have a couple of interesting men in my life, got a raise and promotion at work and am relaxing at home with my cat.
I don't have any resentments, but I don't have to talk with anyone I don't want to.
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10/9/2011
A broken heart will not be rushed |
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| You Scored as Exhibitionist / Voyeur
(((Note: This has been placed into one category because the world of BDSM is simply too large to include all kink (unless you want an incredibly long quiz). I have included these two together with the sentiment that couples or people interested in one or the other want to include other people in their sexual activities. I understand that it is unfair but I plan on making more quizzes on subjects of this nature in the future. Also, I know that this quiz is very sexually based but that was the point of it, I was going for the psychologically aspects of sexuality for the list is a mile long and different for everyone.))) Watching or being watched is an arousing notion to you. There are many reasons why people enjoy this fetish. Being uncomfortable. Feeling guilty. Appreciation. For some it could simply be sex in public because there is a fear of getting caught. Either way, it turns you on. The best venue for this would be group sex. If you enjoy watching you would be considered a voyeur. If you would rat
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Today has been tricky. Feelings sort of taking over...shoot i may have to find me a sadist soon to knock that out of me...
nothing too exciting to report. i miss being in love. |
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Well no rest for the wicked. I am headed out to Casa Grande to spend some time with the house of eagles.
Dinner swiming and ???
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i had a good time last night and i am sure he did also. fucking all night is a good way to get over a bad realtionship...healing here i come. |
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Well the weekend is upon me again today. i have a guest comming over tonight. he is not in the running for a life partner, but a girl needs a little company once in awhile...so we will see how it goes.
I am amazed how quickly men run when i ask them to meet me for dinner.
oh well it is a good weeding process...
hope everyone has great plans for this weekend
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i have had some great play dates. i do miss my Papi, but mostly i am happy. i am looking for love...i know it is not easy, but well....
not much to say. i am tring to 'date' more by asking people to meet me for dinner and getting to know them better...idk.
not to creative today, mostly lonely
would love to have a lover come over now and just take care of me...but i don't have one |
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wow it has been awhile. i am single again. it just did not work out for us....hope you all are having a great day! |
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lets see where to start. Belly dancing is awsome, what a hobbie! i went to Desert Dominions bday party, it was great fun.
yesterday i finally got my wrist surgery, so i am on the mend and back on Vicoden...yeah me.
life with Papi is great for now
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Wow, belly dancing lesson number two. it is awsome! i got my first hip scarf tonight, it sounds so cool when i dance in it...yeah!
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i just wanted to share that i had my frist belly dancing lesson on Thursday. i am very sore but very excited to learn this sexy dance |
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the best part of relationship is that change is the norm. i love my Papi.
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OK you all know as well as i do that i can not stay away. i am now much more aware of what i am writing. Master and i went to the local munch...it was great fun! So glad we went. i just finished wraping Valentiens day presents...i hope He likes it. |
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i am not going to be posting my journal here anymore. |
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i don't have too much to add. i am a happy slut! Master had had a bit of a cold, but boy is He feeling better. We have yet to hook up with another couple; meeting new people is fun, but sometimes tricky.
i am longing to have my pussy eaten and have not been brave enough to ask for it. well really not that important, but the thought of Master pleasing me that way...well it has my heart racing. i do love this Man. |
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i am so glad this week is over, yeah Saturday!i am answering the mail that has piled up over the week. i love the notes from all the horny men out there! i am tempted to invite a couple over today, but i am waiting. i want all to be good with Master. i belong to this Man and will never do anything to hurt Him on purpose. i do carve more dick, and we are going to get out with other couples. Master fucks me and uses me so well, i am just a slut and do not apologize for that.
Yeah for lots of dick! but wait...
i am craving the attention of a woman, i am wanting to have some female domination. i do not know how to approach a woman, but i can not stop thinking about it.
wait there is more...
i am wanting to do some domination...yes it is true. i want to boss someone around and make them please me orally. i don't know yet how i feel about giving pain, but i am guessing that would be good too.
i am not thinking that i am up for all of this, but maybe... |
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i am here today wanting to write, but feeling a little nervous. Master does not want me sharing His business, so i have to be sure that i am only writing about what is going on with me and my life. ok im better. things are good. i was getting frustrated because i thought that Master was not listening to me because he was interupting me all the time. i asked Him about it, He reminded me that He is hard of hearning and told me that He likes hearing what i have to say, and then He apologized. i love this Man! i felt so loved and cared for when He heard me! it is scary being in this kind of love! part of me wants to hold back so that when the time comes for Him to go with another it does not hurt so much...another part of me wants to line up other men who make me feel the same way so i am the one to wander first. Mostly i just want to be happy and not make problems, just know that when they come i can manage.
i am still waiting for Master to take me to sub space again. i am afraid that He has me on another level where it is hard for Him to hurt me....i hope that is going to change, i am not very good at being the Madonna...it is a tought role to fulfill.
looking forward to Valentines Day, Master is taking the day off. |
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i have not written in awhile. i have been catching up on some much needed rest. life is going really well and Master is happy with me and i with Him. We may meet a couple next weekend to see if they may be potentional play partners. life is really good. |
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Happy New Year!
i am going to say that i am happy. this is not something that i was able to say for many years. i want to make this the best year for Master. i am going to trust and love Him with all that i have.
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i think Master loves the camera! He gave me the most beautiful necklace. . i am looking forward to having some fun with Master. i am so thankful and i told Master that the best thing that happened to me this year was when He agreed to stay with me in Tucson. |
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i am getting Master a camera for Christmas. i know this is something that He wants, i am so excited. i hope that He is happy with the one that i picked. This should also bring about some new photos...fun. Master bought me something, i can tell He is hidding it, i am not looking yet. |
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Happy Holidays! it was about a year ago that i traveled to see Master and found out that He was single again, that is when the idea of serving Him full time began to enter my thoughts. i count December as an important anniversery for myself in our relationship. i am cooking dinner for christmas and we are just staying home this weekend. |
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the move is pretty much over. We are tired and sore, but happy. i am working on how this fucking other people thing works. Master pretty much said to let Him know if i wnat to fuck another. ok...now my problem is, i would hate to cause any problems at home for a lousy lay... there i said it.
the rant i was on about Master wanting other girls...He loves me and i am trying to get this straight in my head. i had a friend over who is a Dom and he told me to realize what i have and to relax i have a good Man. He is right i do. i love Him, and he loves me.
so, to the busness of slutting around, hey im good at being a slut, that is what i am...Master says it is for fun...so if i am not having fun it is not happening.
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it has been awhile writing here. i have been out of town, and now that i am back it is moving time. it is going well. i had a little commitment fear when We cosigned the lease, but i am doing ok. i was really jellious when i got home and i realized that Master had spent time looking for ? other females...idk, just looking. how do i accept that i am not enough and admit to myself that He is not enough for me either. this is an interesting point in this realtionship for me. i want to be happy, but i am worried. i know that worring about someting before it happends is a waste of joy. i think i am good with this. i have several experienced Doms who would like to use me, and i want that also. i think that i am ready to play and make friends. i am lonely, that has not really gotten better. i love the different ways men and women play with me. i hope to come out to play soon. and i wish Masters happiness always, and what He wants i want. |
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last night we went to a lifestyle couples house for movies. it was nice to socialize with other people. i am really new at being in a couple. i am so used to being the single slut in the room i am not always sure that i am acting correctly. the couples were very nice, Master said that He had a good time so i am sure that We will be able to go back again.
We are meeting the slut from before to give her her money today. i am looking forward to meeting her, maybe We can all have lunch together. i am leaving for Detroit Friday for a week. it will be good to see my Dad. then the following weekend We are moving. No wonder i am so stressed out, shoot. i asked Master to beat me this weekend, soon it will turn into begging. i am hopeing that it does not have to go that far. i don't understand why He is not wanting to play with me that way. i think that is part of the reason i am so upset about the slut comming back into the picture. she mentioned that she missed playing with Master; well the truth is so do i. |
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my Father is sick and i may have to fly to Detroit to see him, he is 87. Master has made sure that there is money (400.00) for me to go. He loves me and wants me to see my Dad. this month is going to be fun with the move, going to Detroit, and just keeping up at work.
when i think about finding real time friends, i think that i want people who are going to bring fun and relaxation; not more stress. i want to be that type of friend. i am looking to make friends. it is not easy to do.
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i did not think that He was going to call last night. i was really proud of my self. i stayed secure and calm, and well around 10pm or so the phone rang. i am more secure. i want to make Him proud. He is working so hard i am really amazed at how go to me He is. i am so fortuate that He wants me.
i may have to find another outlet for my journals, but for now i will keep posting here.
to be in service is to be in love
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i now am finding myself journaling on .com as well as here. i do enjoy the journaling and do hope that i am keeping it all about myself. |
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i spent a few hours this evening fishing around on the internet for someone to fuck, masterbated and now am watching tv. i may cat around tomorrow, we will see.
i also recieved a message from the slut that Master was going to have come visit awhile back. i do not know if she knew it was me or not, but i told her.
i am not sure that is what i should have done but that is what i did.
i will let Master know when He gets home.
He tells me that He is very private, He may want me to delete some of this. my bed is very empty and i am having trouble lying down to sleep. i miss Him, i know i am a silly girl. |
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Well i will be alone most of the weekend. Master has given me permission to have sex with anyone, but no pain. i don't really feel up to slutting around right now, maybe by Sat. i have plenty to keep me busy at work and at home. We found our apartment and will be moving soon, so i would like to start getting rid of things that i do not want to keep. i spent this morning not able to sleep just holding Master and listening to Him breathe. i do not want to admit to myself how much i love this Man. it is both exciting and terrifiying at the same time. i want to be with Him all the time. His touch melts my heart and mostens my pussy, every time. i am constantly ready for His wants, and i want Him. i did not think that i would ever be this happy again. |
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i have just been thinking about the different sites that i have used over the years. i used alt.com when i first started using the internet to find people to play with, then moved here to collarme, but now i am using . i am really looking for friends who want to chat about living this life. i love my Master and now would like to make more friends. Hell i am still friends with my first Master, He and i are chatting now. i love that about this life, that the relationship becomes more than just lovers, the family feeling never ends, and because it is not pre defined, We get to make up our own minds and that is fun. i don't know i am home sick today and just kinda rambleing. i am hopeing to feel well enough to suck Master's cock tonight, i miss that. |
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Papi loved his bday. We had dinner at the casino and saw a show. We left earily cuzz He was tired, so We has drinks at home and i gave Him a blow job for his Bday! He said He was pleased! |
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Well tonight i am taking Master to the Casino for His bday. i hope that He has a good time and that He is pleased with what i have planned for Him! |
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Master's Bday is soon and i am still looking for a girl. i know that it is not easy to find someone who is willing and inerested, but i would really love to do this for Him.Tthis week has been good and i am feeling pretty settled. i am caught up at work and almost caught up at home. i am really wanting some play. i need sub space and i feel myself getting manipulative. i think that i will try asking, but hey where is the fun in that. i almost bought a vibrator today, but i drove right by the sex shop. i spent most of Thursday watching porn and beating off...it was fun, but it gets old quickly. i am really wanting to bring a female in, i miss sex with a woman. i think i am just really wanting right now...i am going to cool my jets just a little.
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Finally the tooth is healed and "regular" sex is back...yeah! Wow i do not ever want to do that again. Master's birthday is comming up and i really would like to find a slut for Him to play with. He was so good to me while i was healing, i want to give Him a treat. i want to take Him to dinner and dancing, then up to a room where she will be for Him to use. i know that this is not easy to do. i wonder if i could get the slut that He canceled on. i don't know how to contact her discreatly so i am just going to see if that is something that He would enjoy. oh and Happy Veteran's Day!
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i am home today because i had to have a tooth pulled and i am a little sleepy. i just wanted to say that Master is liking His new job and i find myself joyfull in my submission to a worthy man i trust and love. i am happy. i am always wanting to make new friends and playing is one of my favorite things to do; however, what i have with Master is not play. i am finally living the lifestyle that i have wanted and i find that i have no reason to look outside. i am currious by nature, but my desire rests with keeping Him happy. When i do not bring Him pleasure and joy, then i will find another to try to please. He tells me i bring Him joy and pleasure; so i am home with Him and i love what He is building with me.
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i am very sleepy, just a quick post. i am longing for a good pain sex session. Master is fucking me often and well i just miss the pain, i guess i am too loud for our little apartment. i also i really wanting someone to eat my pussy out...i know i am a spoiled brat, i love Master and what He wants is what is. |
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Master is so good to me. He took me out last weekend, he took me to a parking lot. We drank afew beers listened to music then He told me to suck His cock, right there in the parking lot. i did what i was told and enjoyed very much the public aspect of the act, then he told me to go to the front of the car. He turned me around, told me to drop my pants, He bent me over the hood of the car and fucked me! i can feel myself getting wet and swelling just thinking about it.
Master has also been fisting me while i suck His cock...i cum and cum and cum. He has fisted my pussy and my ass. He does what He wants with no regard for how much it is hurting me, i love that.
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Master has found a job and starts working this month. i am happy because this is making Him happy. i am His and He is going to stay in Tucson. He uses me so well that part of me is afraid to admit to myself how much i love being His property, but my pride will not stand in my way. i am a submissive babi and that is it, and He is my Master, Dominate and Papi. Period. i had to tell a friend that i could not do something that she asked me to do because He said no, she pouted a little, i beemed with the excitement that comes with being owned and dominated. |
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i am thinking about a session with a woman top. i have never been topped by a female, i wonder if Master would enjoy watching that? i have a daydream of having my pussy eaten out in a public place. my need for exhibitionism grows. most of my fantcies include being forced or being in public. i may have to have some sort of session at the local dungon to see if i can get this out of my system. maybe if i can get used in front of some new people in a private place that will work.
i do not know how to tell Master what i want sexually, i am submissive...but i also know that He is not a mind reader. i will try to find a way to use my words and tell Him what i am wanting.
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i am always worried that i am not enough for Him. i worry that i am not pleasing Him. partly this is my self esteem, i know this and am able to talk myself out of those thoughts. the other part comes because this relationship is new, We are getting to know each other. Learning about Master is good, i want to know. i am happy and He says that He is also. i believe Him. i feel that He is bored durring the day while i am at work. it has to be hard comming to a new town and leaving friends behind. i hope that He knows that i understand and love Him so much for taking this risk with me. love is the best thing in the world, that feeling in my body when i see Him...it is the only reason i am. service and love...what else is there really? |
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i have not been here in awhile. i am spending more time with Master and less online. everyday He suprises me, just when i am sure that i know what is comming...i am wrong. i constantly worry that i am making Him as happy as He is making me. i feel safe with this Man taking care of me, that is a good feeling. |
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my watersport training started yesterday i am so happy to be under His direction. We are meeting a local couple tonight for pie, meeting new friends is so good i am so happy. |
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Master is using me more and more. Giving pain and taking sex. i feel drugged most of the time, intoxicated. Master is making requests of me that i want to fulfill, but they are going to take time. He is gentle and tells me not to worry, but i want to please so badly that i do worry; i can stop, if He tells me not to worry then i will not worry. Submission is not always easy, but it is always worth it. He owns me now forever; others may come, but it will always be Him they are being compared to. |
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my friends are missing me and my time. i understand, but can not wait to get back to His side whenever i am away. the passion i feel grows, it feels bigger than i am. this is scary but i don't care. |
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call me babi - breathe
Papi sees me, laughs, smiles -breathe
Love lost, now found -breathe |
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my desire for Master is constant and complete.
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Master is telling the slut not to come. i am so happy and i love Him like crazy. when He told me i was shocked, this Man never ceases to amaze me. |
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the slut that is comming to visit is to be used. i am comming to terms with this and making a list of what i expect of her. i do not consider myself a dominate person, but she will know her place in this household. i will have no problem asking her to leave any time that i feel that i am tired of having her here. Master is ok with this, i think. i have another 14 days to come up with ideas, this is exciting me more than i thought it would. Master wants me to laugh at her and have fun, i think i am begining to understand the relationship. i will do what pleases Him, always. |
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i am happy, i am feeling Him all the time. i love Him and He is loving me back. |
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i hope everyone is having a great weekend. We are home and spending the weekend together. i have not been full time before, i like the spontinaity of His use, i am always ready and He is trying to catch me off guard...this life is the only life for me. i could not imagine a life with out a Master, or love without dominance.... |
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Starting to settle in and look for friends in town. i told Master that i am really excited to get out and be social with Him. i do not know how one man's touch can make me shiver and get weak in the knees, i do know that i do not want it to end. |
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my heart is singing. Master used me to a point last night that will keep my at His side as long as He will have me. my kind hearted sadist...love is a good thing and being wanted is a good thing also. |
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Master said what i had been dreading for a week now, that if He does not find a job here that He is going back to Phoenix. my mind was racing and i wanted to cry, but i knew that this was the truth. i gathered myself and reminded myself that i can be a big girl; then decided to enjoy everyday that We have together. i do not know if i will be left alone, i am afraid to not be under His watchful eye. |
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i am not the property of Master MV, now i am just waiting to pick out a collar so it can be offical. We were at a gathering last night, mostly swingers; all Master has to do is put his arm around me and i melt...i am crazy in love with this Man, and He is making me very happy...His job search continues...i am so hopeful...i want Him to protect and use me, i want to make a home for Him and give Him all that i can...i have a brain, i use it to please Him and He loves me for that. |
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Master is looking for employment here in town...i think that He may be staying, if i make Him happy i am satisfied. |
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He is staying another week. i am pleasing Him. i am happy. |
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Daily life with Master MV is very good. i am going to have a second job for awhile, so my time at home is going to be limited. He is taking me where i have not been before. He says that i confuse Him, i do not mean to. i am confused about myself sometimes, but i am hoping with constant use something in me will break. i am realxed; driving home last night after work i noticed that my shoulders were completely relaxed. i hurt in all the good places, places that make me think of Him. He makes me cry, i am so...fluid is the only word that i can think of. i flow through time and space and feel a part of it all. i do not know if He understands how important He is to me. i love Him. |
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Master has been telling me some of what He is going to do to me this weekend. i am so wet all the time, i am so glad it is Friday. He is going to stay with me i think. it makes me proud that i make Him happy. i am a happy girl. |
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The idea that i am owned by a Master that i love has me crazy. i am wanting this to go full time long term. He wants my commitment, well i have given it to Him. |
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He is here and i am happy |
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i am ready for sleep, i am so excited. i really just want Him here for as long as He would like to stay. |
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waiting is hard. my pussy is just wet and swollen all the time. i can not even think straight. i finished my shoping today and now have nothing to do with myself, but wait. ok. maybe go to the mall and roam around.
i will be relieved when i am collared. to much decision making makes me cranky. i do it. i have done it. i manage my life and my job. i want someone to do it for me. |
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i am ready for Master MV, just need to do some shopping today and prim my body for his use.
i do not know if this will work with Him. i do know that i will be collared. i do not want to be on my own anymore. i need to be Dominated, to give up all control. i need a Daddy to care for me and for whom i can care.
i do not need to be trained, this comes to me naturally. i will mold to Him and His needs. my need is to fulfill Him.
i will be his slut and his trophy. mostly i will be near Him and love Him. |
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Woke up at 2am so excited. i put The Story of O on and watched. three more days. i can do this. Master says i need patients, and i know He is right. |
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i am wet all the time. i feel so good. Manny and i spoke tonight. my head is swiming. i have missed Him so much. |
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Waiting is hard to do. So i just busy myself with getting my body, mind, and space ready for Him. if He and i do not come to an agreement on ownership, i will put myself on the maket. i need to be used and to serve. i am in a constant state or arousal, and i like it. |
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He caled,l Master MV, He is ok and He is comming. Now i have a lot of dates to break...im not alone anymore. He is comming and He loves me. i am ready to take care of Him. to serve and love Him is all that i want now. |
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Well MV did not come but i met a new Dom C. He beat and fucked me for 5 hours...i need sleep! Wearning a collar now seems like where i want to be. Dom C asked me if i am a Sub or a Slave, i asked Him to tell me his opinion; he said "more like a slave."
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Wow it has been awhile. i am waiting for MV again, work is taking all my time and i am very lonely...i know cheer up well aparently i write when i am not cheery. i am done being alone. i will be collared, and i will be home. i would love a poly family. i know that anything that is worth havinng is worth working for. i can not date anyone outside of this life, i have tried. can You imagine the first time i ask them to strangle me while beating the shit out of me...yeah that will go well. so here i am and here i will stay. i need a Master i can not do without. |
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i have been reading in alot of profiles that people are tired of fakes. i have not experienced fakes that i know of. i am really wanting some play. |
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my grilfriend and i went shopping for lingerie and candy. feeling very sexy and looking forward to this weekend. happy valentines day. |
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so i was told to cheer up today and it is true i usually write when im down. life is good. i have a couple of play mates on line and work has slowed down enough right now for me to have some fun.
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well it has been awhile. i have seen Master MV again and i really missed Him. i am tired of being alone, have a crush on a man i suspect is vanilla...i don't know. things are good but i am very lonely and i do not like it. overall i am in very good sprits and hope to be seeing Master MV again and again. |
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im back...have the day off. I had to take some time off from here. I don't do this very well, but I am still going to try...why not. I don't think anyone is reading this so it doesn't matter |
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i finally have a small chain around my ankle and have a new Dom. i am very happy and very excited. |
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i think i have found a new Master in a small ployfamily...i hope this works out i am very excited. |
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i find that i am getting a little overwhelmed with all of the mail that i get, on this site as well as others. i am getting ppl confused and i don't like that. i hope that all of this comes to something...well actually it is i have met some really nice ppl i guess i am just feeling a little down. |
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Just wanted to wish everyone a merry Christmas....
Love
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getting to chat and message a lot of local Master and Mistress' cool...life is good... |
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Life could not be stranger. i have no Master, i do have a full time job, and i am really haveing fun with the online dating scene...although it is alot like work....
chat with you soon.... |
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Happy Halloween...well it has been awhile. Hello to everyone, i have some time at the puter today. Missing the lifestyle so much, this Vanilla life is not for me. Hope to make touch with some ole friends and meet some new.
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Well things are going well. i found my Papi and Joaquin and i are packing to move. Life may be worth living |
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Life is looking up. Living in Vegas looking to be topped. Drop me a line..... |
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Alot has happened since october. None of it very fun...(pout)... |
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Things have been going very well. i enjoy the power exchange more and more every day.
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Things are getting clearer every day...i love Sir and He loves me... |
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I know one thing i want...i want to get my membership up and going with apex again...join in some of the work and some of the fun. |
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It is late and i am tired. Everyday now i see the power excahnge in all transactions, watch and listen, power submission...its very exciting. bring in love and understanding and the excitment is expodentioal.
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i poped up the other day. was i read? oh my chat buddies have satisfied themselves. i had wonderful fantacy lastnight, all through my dreams, and woke up with it...dream state...and in that mortal sleep pehaps to dream...withdrawl is the worst punishment...i don't know what i did or what im supposed to be learning, or maybe im not under punishment i don't know...certianlly keeps me guessing |
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just when things can't get any stranger... the other profile is old, it is possible that it is some one else. a female. i have been with three men in the last two days hey one of them worth it... they are all facinated with the transformation...even some of my chat buddies have sougtht out the trans sexual and they are telling me how they want to use the trans sexual... |
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good news for me. Master has a nicer profile on, i am getting a better idea of what he is seeking. i am sure that He is never going to read this(or anyone else lol)....so, out on a limb...what am i seeking. i know what i think i want over all, but i don't know all the specifics. i don't think i understand or maybe i understand just fine... i write and think at the same time...bad habbit. someday it will bite me in the azz...a Dom wrote and asked for permission to play with me, Master said yes with out meeting Him...hey who cares about a pig anyway? |
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OK Master and I have talked and He is willing to try and train me as slave again and I am going to try. Wwe are going to work on communication. Lets see how this goes..lol could be good.
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Master's birthday week. Very exciting and a lot planned. Including the concert this week. I am suffering from the grass is greener syndrome. |
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I had a wonderful week, the weekend has been kinda a bust, but i needed the rest and to clean house.
wow...interviewing subbies and slaves is a challange..lol
i thought tops were tough...anyone think they might be brave enought to talk to a top..i think that is how ill put it from now on..lol.
on to the next episoide.
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ok, i need a secritary...how do i keep up. i hope master finds a slave soon, i need help...lol |
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Had a wonderful weekend. Swinging at discretions and meeting people at a munch...having wonderful conversations with Master, i am understand more everyday... |
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Hello everyone...
i have been droping a lot of mail lately so i thought i would share some of my most clever thinking...lol. oh and no i can't spell. Master and i are looking for slaves. Master and i are also looking to play and meet people. life is so hetic sometimes, but when fun occurs, the work often seems worth it, hi to all my new friends and lets see if we can keep things rolling. till next time... |
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Well...things are going well Master and I are getting lots of responces for slaves and playmates. I hope to post a new picture this week from the meet rack in tucson, had a great time, things going well. Have an empty room for a misplaced subbbie or slave. good night |
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Lets see..haven't been here in awhile. I am wiht a Master now, my first. I have had a birth day so I am 36 now. We both are looking for fun, and play, and Master is taking on trainees and needs a slave. I want to say thank you and i love you pappi, you helped me alot and i know we will get to play together again. |
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Previous Master emailed to check on me today...that was nice. |
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4/18
Things are going well. My first Maste has taken me back under his wing. I need the gudiance.
Being a free range subbie is intersting and fun. I guess right now fun is what I want most. |
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