this is what i TRULY seek and i am looking to relocate for the right Daddy...
Daddy/little girl does not refer to the ages, real or pretend, of the participants. Nor does it imply closet desires. It refers to the environment that two people have created. A Daddy Dom is so named because of the qualities he possesses and the service he provides. So, what are these qualities? What is a Daddy Dom? A Daddy Dom wants to be the center of your universe. He wants to be able to provide for your every need and care. But more than that he wants to be able to shape and mold you to the image he thinks you should become. He sees in you someone who, in his mind, can achieve a much higher, much greater status. He believes more in you than you believe in yourself. What he wants in return is to be able to bask in his image of you, the image he has created. How does he achieve his goals? Through love, respect, and discipline. His love for his little girl goes without saying. He accepts every part of her and works to emphasize the good while improving the bad. He loves her as much for who she is as for who she will become with his guidance. It is this love that allows him to train her. He could not invest so much of himself in someone he did not love completely. This love would not be possible without respect. A Daddy Dom needs to feel great pride in his possession. He needs to know she can hold her own in the outside world and still submit to him. He holds the greatest respect for the gift she has given him and takes great pains to increase it's value. It is extremely important to him to know she can be with any man and she chooses to be with him. He knows that this makes discipline a priority in their lives, more important than in some other D/s relationships. In order for the little girl to really trust she must know he means what he says. He must constantly deepen her respect for him. If he does not enforce discipline, this respect becomes a tenuous thing. If his submissive finds that she can manipulate him out of punishing her, she begins to lose respect and the ability to empower becomes impeded. He needs to empower her as much as he wants to possess her and it becomes increasingly difficult to be possessed by someone you do not respect. The discipline is also important when it comes to her protection, both from those outside the relationship and those within. He is the one who makes the decisions about how she will relate to the world in general and his discipline ensures that she follows these rules. I think most Doms have a bit of the Daddy in them, taking on the role of male authority figure in their submissive's life and using their power to enrich that life. Daddy/little girl verbalizes that feeling, and adds a dimension of warmth, caring, and ritual that it's participants crave.
An Army of One...part deux! so some of you are wondering how things went with the Dom that i went to meet. all i can say is this: i am still an Army of One. i fear i may be chasing a ghost...while searching within myself to find what i TRULY seek. seems like such a mystery. i had a great weekend with him and for that i am thankful...but my search carries on for now. ;-)
"Army of One"... hoping to highlight individuality and alleviate fear of the unknown the right person at the right time spoke these words. my submissive journey is taking me to yet another place. a place where i fear the unknown...but yet am comforted by it. i have recently started speaking with a Dom who is VERY different from the others. he seems to actually care about what's going on in my head and isnt out to destroy my core self. he WANTS to help me be the sub that i truly am....he WANTS to be there for me and my son....he WANTS to begin a journey with me that may take an infinite amount of time. we are going to meet this weekend for the first time and i am excited and fearful. alot of "what if's" floating around in my head. the best thing about this meeting is that i know in my mind that there is stregnth in numbers and hopefully if all goes right i can change the "Army of One" to "Army of Three". ;) i will keep everyone posted and a big thanks goes out to all the interested Doms out there....
after taking a hiatus from the site to do some searching i have returned more open minded than ever...i am anxious to see what's out there and what the possibilities may be. i know the Dom for me is around...i am just sitting here waiting for him to say " get your knees and shut up". ;)
*ding ding* round 3! i feel like i am in a REALLY bad boxing match. the kind where there is no winner...25 rounds or something. i am about ready to give up. perhaps i am suffering from Goldilocks complex...this one's too tall...this one's too short. this one's too small...this one's too big. i don't know. i have recently come out of my latest "dom" meeting. what a DISASTER. we chatted for sometime before an opprotunity became available that i was able to meet him face to face. our chats were great...i learned alot about him and i was skeptical at first about divulging too much about me. i am no angel but i have paid for all of the bad decisions that i have made and i didn't want to scare him off. he told me that he was in the insurance feild...owned his own business. said he had 2 kids. he is the president of his kids PTO and in the choir at his church. wait...i failed to mention that he is still married. i was okay with all of this...until my feelings got stronger and i felt as though we had a part time thing...not anything REAL. i am in FL and he is in TN. when i went to visit him recently for the first time i was sssooooo nervous. when i felt the comfort of is arms wrapped around me i suddenly felt as though we were made for each other. that feeling was rapidly intercepted when we got to the hotel and he expected me to pay for it when he previously told me that he would cover hotel. this is when the rest of the trip went downhill. we had also discussed me living there...in my own place of course...and when the time came for me to get a place when i was there...he was NO HELP. i didn't want money from him. i wanted a signature....on a piece of paper. since he wanted me there so bad and he had a chance to make that happen...why didn't he? if he "loved" me like he said that he did....why didn't he make that happen? i don't think i will ever know. i was so upset when i returned to FL that i told him goodbye...for a couple of reasons. the first and foremost was the failure to help me and the second was i became uncomfortable about him wanting a "double life". now i feel like i am in a "better luck next time" mode. will i EVER find the Dom for me?
tick tock....the clock is STILL ticking. i met someone from another site that i thought would be a nice Dom/Master, but as it turns out he wasn't for me. the search continues. i posted a pic today, maybe that will help. i wait. we will see.
5 a.m. and i am wide awake. i haven't slept much lately. cannot seem to get comfortable as my body lies dormant and my mind races to nowhere. i think about all of the responses that i have received since my last journal entry. i would like to take the time and thank all of the Doms who responded to my query about physical attributes they prefer in a Sub. even though i received some good responses i still lay here wondering why i feel so alone. is part of being a Sub being able to handle that times in which you are held emotionally captive by your lack of service without a Dom? will i ever find the right Dom for me? this needle certianly is lonely in the haystack in which she resides.
since i am new to this site i am a little taken back by all of the people complaining about the "fakes" who are on the site. maybe these "fakes" have real intentions but just aren't interested? i am also wondering why the Dom's cannot be a little bit more descriptive about the physical attributes they are seeking in a Sub/Slave...hmmmm..
