subbiesnoozin

yes we are still together, no you cannot kiss my shoes for money and no I do not mess around behind mi masters back. i am loyal.

yes, we are fine.

have taken a break from the journal. master has been very stressed over R/L issues but i have tried to support hm where and when i can. he's getting there i think.

the very heavy rain kept us indoors nearly all weekend.   i am very sore!  smiles

not seeing master this weekend. does not mean trouble in paradise, He is just busy and can't see me.

master and i were out in the woods on saturday and i posed fr some photos fr him. i wore a handcuffs bondage belt which i got from camden last year. master seemed to like it.

we did some out door 'play' as well bt i ws a bit too nervous so we went home. i have posted three of the photos now.

had long discussion with master at weekend. when i joined CM i went through a long phase of lots of pestery emails from many men and i do not want to repeat that newby phase if i move to another site. i allowed master to read my emials and hate mails and he said most could be put down to simple jealousy or people wanting more details about our life. he called it w*nk fodder. on balance we both think it better for me to sit tight and write my journal for me and how i want to write it. oh.. and to the person who said i had been put on 'on a list' master said: 'what list?'

master wants me to move to another website. judging by the hate mail this week i think i will move. seeing him tonight. its called real life. some of you should try it.

well screw the jubilee. we stayed indoors!

thank you master. thank yiu for your kind phone call tonight.

i humble myself before you and dream of wearing your collar again and feeling your loving discipline and firm hand

sorry this is delayed but i was very tired when i came backfrom masters. we had a hot and heavy session ontwo days but the weather was also oppressive and hot.

 a very nice guy who i had been chatting to since the beginning [and who i nearly met] suddenly turned very nasty on Friday before i met mi master. he seems to think i am not genuine. if i am not gebuine then what do i have to gain by keeping this profile? I am not chatting up other doms. I am using this profile to chart my own journey and also to keep in touch wuth a few freinds i have made ion here. i do not want to put them on my facebook profile. here is better.

 master thinks i do not have to expalin myself but i think i do. the 'dom' concerned has been blocked.

seeing master friday night for a long weekend

master read previous entry.

he has allowed me to acknowledge him as mi master.

i spent the weekend wearing his steel slave collar. i even wore it in sainsbury's. the woman cashier smiled at me. i think she 'knew'

lush! lush!  lush!

one hour to go before i see 'master' if i dar call him that.

butterflies in the stomach

have another long weekend booked. trouble is last weekends' marks have not yet disappeared. will he want "soiled goods"?

stayed for the whole weekemd. luckily i booked a monday off for recovery. i need it.

Phew!

seeing him again tomorrow. scared but more scared of letting him down

i posted a litte bit earlier then wnt to bed. it was a tough weekend. this time we played over 2 days and he made me go out in the street wearing a steel collar.

i liked it. i liked it a lot

errrrrr.... wow. just wow. i am still shaking. still. thank you master. more will follow when i find the words    xx

he's working tonight so we are having a weekend play

survived without sub drop as far as i know.

have been reading up on it just in case.

master-fr-the-night just phoned to say he was keeping up with mi journal. he offered to apologise fr the marks and i'm afraid i laughed. sorry. bad girl but he was very sweet. he also said he failed to warn me about "sub drop" the day after. he said i might get tearful and hv regrets. no regrets so far but i was vry glad of the warning.

TY my master fr the night!

shit! shit shit. i have just gt out of the shower and seen my back in the mirror. f**k i did not realize how many marks i had frm last night! funny thing is that i dnt mind but f**k i didnt expect those

wow, what can i say? just got back from mi new friends place after first proper play session. so much different to what i had done before. i called him master for the night and i wore one of his collars bt we are not in a relationship he says. i am on trial. i need to be tried and tested he says. i had never been on a wall cross before. i had never receved a sustained flogging before and i have never been caned hard before. we tried role play but when i giggled he inroduced me to "mr whippy stick" his little enforcer. i did not giggle again. plan was to stay fr a few hours bt i stayed the night and he drove me home this morning. did not take his collar off until we got nr mi home. i felt very comfortabke with it on despite it being made frm steel. i felt good wearing it, i liked that he wore the key on his belt. how do i feel? spaced - trippy - wonderful. THANK YOU mi master for the night (and morning) xxx xxx xxx xxx

if all goes well we have our 1st play session tomorrow. wish me luck... please!

might be having first play session this week... we need to sort out our calendars.

quietlty excited and slightly apprehensive bt in a good way!

Third meet was yesterday. we talked for hours.

the last entry means wht it means. there will be no follow-uop discussion in emails

met.... talked... interesting...

i told him abt some of my experiences here. he was not impresed.

if all goes according to plan i should be meetiung number 1 again tonight

some complaints abt me nt replying to emails.

real world issues got in the way and i have not been able to.

hoping to see the same guy agin this weekend if my real world matters have been sorted out.

met sum1 today. interesting. we talked a lot and  the time pssed very quickly. thts normally a good sign. we lft it tht we wd carry on tlking so could other doms pls give me some space.

mr nasty eventually contacted me four times and all hv been reported.

a 'dom' preaching honesty just threatend me so i blocked him.

then he threatened me from his OTHER two profiles. so much for honesty.

all have now been reported to collarme

no more contacts today pls, i am getting ready to meet someone

if things go according to plan i might be meeting some one later today. yes safe calls have all been set up and yes i am meeting them in a safe public place. i had sopme advice along those line yesterday.

 snoozin

blocked 3 today.

it appears mi refusal to accept dirty one line enquires is 'not submissive'

i am sub but not a door mat, ok?

seriously considering knocking this on the head.

CM is not what i expected.

OK. Ive had to remove one of my photos. 

just because it was taken in a street it does not mean i am a hooker.

Seriously reconsidering whetehr this was a good idea.

10% of people have been nice. the rest are jsut crude, rude or creepy.

wow..... a tidal wave of replies.

some nice and some creepy. Give me a chance to get to know this site.

Not doing chat at this stage.

snoozin