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So I haven't written in a while. 

My mothers health, in the past 2 months has been on a steady decline.  Lots of hospital time for me and her.  We know that place well now.  This has kept me from really talking to anyone.  My friends have been so great to me.  Forcing me to reach out for help when needed, instead of shouldering all the responsibility.  I have amazing friends.

Tomorrow is my birthday, so this evening, my son and mother took me to an awesome dinner.  Antipasta salad, pasta primavera, delicious wine!  Just a great evening.  My son even did his best to write me a birthday card (with my mom's help).  Gotta say this has been a great evening.

Also finished up all my holiday shopping.  Spent so much money, I'm gonna be feeling it for weeks, but I just love watching someone's pleasure at opening a present they truly love.  Giving gifts is the best.

Hope everyone's holiday goes wonderfully.

So I recognized someone's picture on here.  Not a local person, but a writer.  The person using this picture's profile, doesn't actually match up with the writer.  Doesn't match at all...

Good day, bad day.

Good - went out and voted!

Bad - had to take off work for the rest of the day to deal with doctors for my mom.  Hoping she doesn't have to get admitted to the E.R. today. 

So, while at work :), I was emailing one of my friends. She was asking me why I haven't been dating and what I'm going to do to rectify that. I explained the issues of being a single parent and having an ill parent. That didn't go over to well. I was told that if a man was really interested, he'd deal with it. I don't know if I agree with that, but I'll think on it for a while. Who knows, maybe my profile will change soon.

I felt like writing this evening, so here I go...

I'll start this off with saying that I love to read the journal entries.  I find them fascinating. 

You can learn the most interesting things about people.  There some that make me laugh and others just that confuse the hell out of me.  Then there are those that honestly scare the shit out of me.  The pictures are a different story.

I have to give my props to those that are bold enough to post their face pics.  I know that some are stolen, but to those that aren't, bravo to you. 

The pics that I don't get?  The ever popular penis picture. 

Men do love their penis's don't they?  I've seen them from all angles.  Close up, very far away, hard, soft (or I hope so, 'cause if not...), at very odd angles that I'm assuming are supposed to make them look bigger.  I've even seen some poking out through boxer shorts.   Lately I saw one that made me cringe due to some form of strangulation.  (poor pee pee) 

When a woman is asked what her favorite part of a man is, you'll get answers like, his eyes, hands, pecs, biceps, abs, back, etc.  I don't think I've ever heard a woman say that her favorite part was the penis.  Well aside from hearing that she loves getting fucked by them.  I'm sure there are exceptions to this, but I've never heard a woman say, "I love the penis's!  I have my boyfriend (or whomever) send me pictures of his cock, because I love to look at it so much.  I even have him take pictures of when he jerks off so I can see the cum covering it, you know, to prove it's in working order for later.  Woo, get's me so fucking hot!"  Nope. 

I have seen women on here and other sites, complain about the penis picture.  Saying that yes, they do love the fact that men have them, but as an opening statement (that's really what it is), it really shows the mindset of the man attached to said penis.  It shows that the man attached to the penis is really only interested in one thing, and it ain't needlework. 

Maybe it's because of the nature of these types of sites, that some men think they are finally free to show their favorite asset.  But I feel if they sat back and really thought about it, they'd change the main picture. 

I don't know.  Could be that I've got it all wrong.

So I go outside to smoke a cigarette and read on the back porch, and sitting out there were a cat and a raccoon.  Just chilling out together.  Not even a foot apart.  So, I hissed at them, since I don't want the rabies.  They took off and went their separate ways. 

The book I'm reading?  Zoo by James Patterson and Michael Ledwidge.  Where the animals are all attacking humans. 

Freak'n weird.

Male Dom with your big ole bold letters, trying to get me to pay you to top me.  BAH!  Go be boldy somewhere else. 

So I was talking to someone today who asked me who I am, and what I'm all about.  That got me thinking...

My list of things I'm not and things I am.  Things I love and hate in just a random steam of consciousness.  Because it's more fun that way.

I am odd.  I like to break into song and sometimes even dance in the middle of a store.  I am lazy. I am hyper.  Sometimes I can't seem to sit still and other times, you couldn't move me with a forklift.  I love food.  I am very picky about food.  I am curious to the point of being obnoxious.  I hate when people message me and the first thing they want to know is what I want to know about them.  You messaged me, so...I hate long walks on the beach, because if you've looked at my profile pic, you'll notice I pale as a mother fucker.  I'd burn to a crisp and be on my way to the great state of ALOE.  Puppies are cute as hell and chew up all your shit.  Kittens are adorable and attack you in your sleep.  (Not about me, but needed to be said)  I love to laugh.  It makes me laugh when people end every sentence like --->!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh my god, you must be the most excited person ever!!!!!!  I hate LOL, I use it all the time.  I hate bullies, I am not a bully.  I do not have to ability to repeat things verbatim.  I'll fuck that shit up every time.  Math was made up by people who kick puppies.  Art is subjective, and a lot of it sucks.  I like holding the door open for people, I think it's just a nice thing to do.  If they don't say thank you, I yell, "You're Welcome" at them very loudly.  I love to cuddle.  Smart people just plain impress the shit out of me.  Pompous smart people usually will see a glazed look in my eyes.  I think about living forever, and can't seem to find a pro on that list.  Hanging my son upside down by his ankles, is one of my favorite things to do. 

This was fun.  I might do it again sometime.

Steady watch me navigate, hahaha

Things I learned about myself this weekend:

While not being a violent person, if my friends are attacked verbally, I can get a little...pushy.  This surprised me, since I normally do not act that way.  I'll walk away from that kind of confrontation if it's just me.  But if it's happening to a friend, I apparently react quite differently.

I remembered the joy of going to hockey games.  Even though it was the small local league, where there was only a few family members in the stands, I had a blast.  This will be something I do more of in the future.  The fact that it was free...total bonus!!!

If someone seems like they didn't pay attention to my profile from the first few messages, then I probably won't be answering after the next few messages.  I like conversing with different people, but I don't like when someone isn't paying attention.

I hate doing laundry.

Taking care of a sick parent can be infuriating, tiring and down right scary.  It can also be humbling and hilarious.

I really do love to laugh, and being around people who take themselves too seriously just isn't for me.  I don't care how smart you are, or how creative and artsy you can be.  If you can't let go and laugh at yourself, then we probably won't get along.  I laugh at myself constantly.

If a place sells a sausage biscuit with a side for $7.50, don't order the boiled peanuts.  They aren't going to be good.

So...this has been interesting so far.  I have had lots time to look around, and due to my curious nature, I have learned that everyone is FAKE!

Just kidding.  But that's what a lot of people seem to be talking about. 

I have met someone who was nice enough to offer to be my protector and give me the information I am so curious about.  Sweetie!

I have met someone who makes me laugh.  Awesome!

I have met quite a few who must not have read my profile.  Lame!

And lastly, I have met someone who wanted me to give out a lot of personal information that I am not that comfortable giving out after a few messages.

So yeah, very interesting so far.