I am in a state of renewal and self reform. I am trying to shed the weights of my past, and the burdens of my own creation to grow as a person, and become something closer to a whole being.
I am a dominant straight male who can not help be be protective and care about those I let into my life and heart. I am also a twisted sadist who enjoys causing someone to suffer and be trapped in my clutches, but only those who consent and enjoy that will I play with. I don't want to destroy a person for my enjoyment. I want someone who will enjoy what my twisted evil side brings forth so I may find peace with my dual nature of a protector and destroyer, and know that I am causing someone pleasure and enjoyment, which I find the most enjoyable part of play.
I am gamer, an amateur rigger, a creative deviant, a rules arbiter, a thinker, a seducer, a man with a flare for the dramatic, and someone who is trying to no longer take the easy path. I have weakness for helping people I feel a connection with out, but and I am used to being the rock of stability for some, and an organizer for others.
I am not someone you can sit down with and just talk about whatever with. I find a point, a goal, or something I am seeking to do and I pursue that. So I will either work towards gathering certain information when talking, try and just tell jokes or amusing stories to pass the time, or I will have nothing to say. But get me going on some of the things I know a bit about, and I will tell you so much you will probably end up tuning me out.
I am and will be me, unapologeticly and ever evolvingly.
This is farewell. I will be closing my account out Sunday November 25th. I have not had much luck here, and Want to move on. So if you had been considering messaging me, you have til then, else it will be too late.
