shimmering


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	shimmer, submissive by nature, shy and quiet, a tease and a flirt. when she loves, she loves with all of her heart. maybe some day the right one will come along and call her his own, until that day happens, she is spreading her wings and learning to fly. i dont know what else to say about myself, i guess in some, if not all of my poems theres a bit of me and who or how i am and feel. not interested in players and yet i don't want to say that i am really looking either. more or less i am trying to determine who or what i am. at one time i thought i was submissive and inside i still feel submissive but i don't know to what extent or if i truly want to have a full BDSM relationship. this is more of a learning time for me. the main thing i do know is that i have to be true to who i am and one of those things is that i do like to see people happy.

you just have to love the players on here and in any chat arena. i don't know how many times i have been asked to send a picture or to go on cam because they took the time to say hi. the best one though was when someone messaged me to say that they would be here in indiana for a few days and would like to use me. yeah right like that is going to happen. where does it say on my profile that i am willing to fuck anyone and everyone. even in the virtual worlds i go to i don't just have sex with anyone and everyone and there it would only be with my avatar. is there anything wrong with being particular? i don't take sex as a game or BDSM, to me its not. i may have said that i am searching inside myself for answers right now but that doesn't mean i don't know who or what i am because i do. i know i don't want players and that i am real. i know sex without emotions or attachments is meaningless, at least for me it is and it is too precious of a gift to all of us to be able to achieve this phenomon *misspelling i know* to treat it as a game and nothing more.
but since i am asked so often for a description of myself... here goes..........

i am 897 pounds, with bluish green hair, ok i only have the hair when i can keep the dogs from grabbing the wig and throwing it in the trash but i can't blame them as they were the ones who found it in a neighbors trash one day to begin with.

i have ten kids, nah lets make it fifteen, and two of them are twins, oh heck why not make them the youngest. the good news is that the dna test i had done on maury showed who the father is, the bad news is that he is in prison on some trumped up charges and will be there till his execution.

good news is the doctor is proud of me for the weight i lost and is also predicting that the new salve will soon clear up and heal all my opened wounds and scabs, whoopeee i can hardly wait.

oh yeah if you are interested in knocking me up, i can always use the extra money from the welfare not to mention the child support, i do have my mansion and cars to maintain. don't worry about having to take care of the kids, i just let them run wild and free in the neighborhood. some stupid sap will always feel sorry for them and take them in for meals and it saves on my food stamps so i have more to spend on almond joys for myself, uhmmm do they still make almond joys??

there you go, hit me up if interestedhttp://www.collarspace.com/htmlarea/smileys/0012.gif">

i have been looking around here for the past few days and am still trying to figure things out. i know profile says i have been a member for years but in all honestly i am still new. three years ago i came on and maybe spent a day here then forgot about it untill recently. to be honest i am surprised i was able to find my id and password after this long.

shimmering night jewel........... Acrostic
Someone to own her
Hold her tight
Images of love dancing through the night.
Memories holding her back
Making it impossible for her to let go
Entrapping her spirit
Raging at her soul.
Iridescent shreds of a broken heart
Naked, crying before the world
Giving in to the eternal cold.

Night caressing her shivering skin
Icy tendrils grasping her from within
Gnashing at the love she had left
Holding firmly
Thrashing with fingers so deft.

Jarring her from her peaceful world
Eternal longing, searching
Waiting as her life unfurls
Everlasting love beyond her grasp
Living with her heart encased in a visceral grasp.

~shimmer~

Maybe Someday

Where is your heart,
who do you love,
where did you go,
how have you been?

Is there anything,
anything at all,
to make you want to come back,
to make you want to call?

Strolling alone,
trying to look within,
not sure where things went wrong,
not sure why it ended.

Searching the crowds,
trying to find your face,
wanting to hear your voice,
wanting this pain to be erased.

But for now,
I will keep this smile,
let it hide
the tears that I carry inside.

I just wanted to say hello,
that I am sorry
that you felt you had to go.

Maybe someday,
someway,
we will meet again
maybe someday,
someway,
I will be again.
shimmer

Doing My Time

I’m sitting here all alone
I’m doing my time, (my time),
I have no prison walls
and I know that on the outside everything looks just fine, (just fine),
but I’m sitting here all alone
doing my time, (my time),
yeah I’m doing my time.

I am free to come and go
whenever I choose,
I am free to talk to anyone,
whoever I please,
but there was a crime that I committed,
it was such an awful deed,
a crime that I committed,
that brought this punishment down upon me.
I gave you all of my love,
my love that was inside of me,
I gave you all of my trust,
my trust as I was eager for you to be pleased.
I gave you all that I am,
and all that I thought you wanted me to be.
All this time I thought it was just you and me,
all this time I thought that you really wanted me.
But you turned and walked away,
there were no words to convince you to stay.
Yes, you turned and walked away,
leaving loneliness as my fate.
The crime that I committed was falling in love,
loving you was my awful deed.
Freedom is my prison,
which I am sure others would never understand.
Freedom is my prison,
and you hold the key in your hand.

I’m sitting here all alone
I’m doing my time, (my time),
I have no prison walls
and I know that on the outside everything looks just fine, (just fine),
but I’m sitting here all alone
doing my time, (my time),
yeah I’m doing my time.
shimmer

A Lonely Feeling

A lonely feeling overwhelms me,
as I walk alone in this big world
even though there are thousands that surrounds me,
I am the one that is ignored.
Walking alone on the beach,
watching the children at play,
clouds and mist engulfs me,
as the others enjoy the sun's rays.
At a deserted playground,
children's screams of delight,
barely filters through,
to me everyone is hidden from sight.
All I see are the empty swings whipping in the wind,
a chain clanging against its flagpole,
abandoned, lonely,
it is the loneliest sound
Walking through the forest,
I wonder if any ever trotted this way before,
I don't see any animals,
if there are any bird songs,
they go unheard.
Climbing the highest mountain,
I wonder where have all the people gone,
will I ever shake this feeling,
the feeling of being alone?

shimmer

Have you ever tasted the
salt from a blood tear,
answered the anguished cries of a drowning soul?
Have you ever looked in a dying man’s eyes
listened as the dead handed out their advice?
In your hands, have you ever held a broken heart,
while the world around you was blown apart?

Death, dying, the world in flames,
Monopoly and Life,
nothing but children’s games.
Kisses and blood tears,
living life in our fears.
Kisses and blood tears,
pretending the world cares.

Have you ever reached out in the dark to find no one there,
discovering them gone being too much to bare?
Have you ever seen blood seeping from the heart,
concealing the piercing received from love’s dying dart?
Have you ever tasted the salt from a blood tear?

~~shimmer~~

alone

alone
lost
confused
no one to call her own
no one to care.

silent tears
unheard pleas
brokened spirit
lying as a withered
dead
rose
in the cold
unforgiving snow.

scared
unfullfilled needs
wanting
longing
to be loved
touched
a place to belong
one to belong to.

shattered
battered
by life
battered
by love
no one to hear her cries.

trying
then
giving up
lying
dying
inside
crumbling
falling
to the ground
without a sound
alone.

shimmer

Hate/Love

I hate the way I love you,
I hate the way you make me feel.
I hate that when you call my name
I hold my breath wishing your love was real.

I hate the way you ignore me,
only seeing me when no one else is around.
I hate the way you walk all over me,
stepping on my heart as it lays on the ground.

I hate the way I need you,
I hate that I fear without you
I would no longer exist.
I hate that my love once so true
has now crumbled into this.

I hate that I no longer respect you,
I hate that you can't see,
things that were misconstrued and misunderstood,
blinded you to the good in me.

I hate the way I love you,
I hate the way you make me feel.
I hate that when you call my name
I hold my breath wishing your love was real.
shimmer

Anyone

Is there anyone out there,
anyone at all?
Will someone please love me,
catch me as I fall?

I am tired of running,
I'm tired of being alone.
I always find myself stumbling,
never finding a home.

Can anyone hear me,
hear me as I cry,
will anyone listen to my pleas,
can anyone tell me why?

Why am I so unlovable,
will you please answer me?
Am I really so much trouble
that no one will ever love me?

Is there anyone out there,
anyone at all?
Will someone please love me,
catch me as I fall?

shimmer

she looks so pretty
kneeling there on the floor,
Master towering above her,
she knows what she's there for.

Leaning down,
Master caresses her cheek,
running a finger over her lips,
her mouth will be the pleasure that He seeks.

Closing His eyes,
in her hair His fingers did hide,
entering her love offering,
seeking treasures she held for Him inside.

she looks so pretty
kneeling there on the floor.
Master towering above her,
she knows what she's there for.

Tightening her mouth around Him,
embracing His manhood,
for this love perfection,
to have and search for, E/everyone should.

To know that she belongs to Him,
that she is the one that He desire,
sucking on His shaft,
the knowledge sets her body on fire.

she looks so pretty
kneeling there on the floor,
Master towering above her,
she knows what she's there for.

To serve Him,
her body she willingly gives.
To drink in Him,
moments like this is the reason she lives.

Savoring His juices,
the reward with her that He shares,
thoughts of the outside world,
T/they give no care.

she looks so pretty
kneeling there on the floor.
Master towering above her,
she knows what she's there for.

Wrapping her in His arms
after He was spent and through,
leading her to the bedroom,
this love session He will start anew.

Belonging to Him
was all that she required.
Pleasuring Him
was all that her body desired.

she looks so pretty
kneeling there on the floor.
Master towering above her,
she knows what she's there for.
~shimmer~

I’m sitting here all alone
I’m doing my time, (my time),
I have no prison walls
and I know that on the outside everything looks just fine, (just fine),
but I’m sitting here all alone
doing my time, (my time),
yeah I’m doing my time.

I am free to come and go
whenever I choose,
I am free to talk to anyone,
whomever I please,
but there was a crime that I committed,
it was such an awful deed,
a crime that I committed,
that brought this punishment down upon me.
I gave you all of my love,
my love that was inside of me,
I gave you all of my trust,
my trust as I was eager for you to be pleased.
I gave you all that I am,
and all that I thought you wanted me to be.
All this time I thought it was just you and me,
all this time I thought that you really wanted me.
But you turned and walked away,
there were no words to convince you to stay.
Yes, you turned and walked away,
leaving loneliness as my fate.
The crime that I committed was falling in love,
loving you was my awful deed.
Freedom is my prison,
which I am sure others would never understand.
Freedom is my prison,
and you hold the key in your hand.

I’m sitting here all alone
I’m doing my time, (my time),
I have no prison walls
and I know that on the outside everything looks just fine, (just fine),
but I’m sitting here all alone
doing my time, (my time),
yeah I’m doing my time.
~shimmer~ `

You
You will never know
the pain that you left me in
the day that you said goodbye
without giving my love a try.

You
You will not remember my name
I will be nothing but a face in the crowd
another voice gone unheard
just a broken heart crying out loud.

I
I thought my love would be enough
something you could hold on to
when times would be tough.

I
I really looked up to you
gave you all of my love that was true
I only wanted to be there for you.

You
You broke more than my heart
it is more than miles that keeps us apart
now that I am completely shut out
I wonder what our love was all about.

You
You are always on my mind
all the things I see and do
I want to share with you
but you are gone
and I'm left here alone
and you will never know
the pain that you left me in
the day that you said goodbye
without giving my love a try.

~shimmer~

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