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A Note on Submissive Training
There is a likelihood (high, in fact) that some of the skills i'm learning may not be desired by my future Master. Even if He does desire something, i will still need training to perform tasks the way He wishes.
What i have outlined for myself is not the last step: it is the first. It is a means of gaining some rudimentary skills & experience, and of taking some personal responsibility for laying groundwork upon which He can build. i am not climbing a mountain and then demanding He climb the same: i am learning how to use climbing gear, visiting a climbing gym, and preparing myself to climb the mountain He wishes me to climb. i am preparing in the only way i know how.
I look back at the education I completed in order to begin my career, and I see that there was material I learned that I've never used.
Is it then a waste? Is it not worth the effort? Is it all for naught? I don't think so.
While some of these skills and experiences may not directly apply to serving my future Master, they are still worth learning. In this process, i am learning about myself, engaging a more service-oriented mindset, developing grace and confidence, leading an enriching life filled with curiosity and exploration, and perhaps learning a few things that may be applicable to whatever service He does desire of me.
Ultimately, i will serve as He commands. He leads and i follow. But i'm not going to sit around on my duff and then expect Him to do all the work: i'm going to learn what i can now—both with hard skills and in self-awareness—so i have a strong foundation to offer Him. |
