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So, I am interested in a potential Daddy/Sir
He makes me feel, funny (in a good way)
He has as asked me to try to write it out, to help myself and him understand it.
We've been talking here & there for a few weeks. He has always been patient, always been kind.
He calls me, "little one." It drives me crazy, I love it. It makes me feel; little (duh), special, cared for, protected. It makes my tummy get butterflies.
Last night he helped me, he helped me get a mean dom to leave me alone. He was to cruel for me, & I didn't wanna talk anymore. Daddy helped me.
Then I heard his voice. My tummy fluttered when I answered the phone and he said, "Hello little girl." My heart was beating so fast & I felt tingles everywhere... I told him my tummy felt funny, he asked me if anything else felt funny. I said yeah, & when he asked what.. For some reason I couldn't bring myself to say, "my pussy." I was shy and timid, and afraid... But I did it, cuz he wanted to hear it. I mean, something that insignificant, shouldn't make me feel like that. I was horny, my pussy was tingly. I have no shame in saying that. Pussy, pussy, pussy! But IDK why saying it last night made me feel soo... dirty..?
I've been texting him all day today. Talking about many different things. He excites me, and scares me. Amazes me and makes me feel safe. I fear being his, because I have only been owned once before, & it was all done online, texting, cam & pics. But there could be a point when I am actually physically with him.. & that scares me, cuz I have nvr experienced it before.
He makes me feel excited; the things he says, fascinate me. The way he speaks, turns me on.
But I am conflicted, I want to be his. But he is gone right now I am not good with long distance. & I am starting college in the fall & I'm scared and nervous... Idk if I am looking for a relationship or just a Sir. & I am not sure what he wants either. There are other people I am talking to. Some want to train me, some want to be with me, & some want both.. Or want it sometime in the future.. I'm confused and Idk what to do. |
