PetKitty3

My Master likes the idea of me getting my tongue pierced so it pleasures Him more when I suck Him.  What I like most about the idea is that I don't want to do it, and one day He'll make me.  When He wanted my clit pierced, it was so.  When He wanted my nipples pierced, it was so.  I accept that one day this too will be so.  My body is only mine to care for.  It belongs to Him.

Thinking of my pierced nipples, I want to buy some little weights to hang from them as soon as they are healed.  I'm thinking of posting to this journal how much weight I've hung from them along with how painful and pleasurable it felt.  I can't help but enjoy the pain and the humiliation.  I can torture myself if there is no one else around to do it...

I sometimes wonder if I should feel guilty when I go to the OB/GYN.  She's a beautiful woman, short like me.  She has shoulder-length brown hair.  She's smart and talks so fast!  She doesn't know how I've fantasized about her before, during, and after the exam.  I love her white coat.  I've wondered if she can tell how excited I am as she places her fingers inside of me.  I wish I could have seen her face when she first saw my clit hood was pierced!  I can't wait for my next breast exam, my nipples being pierced now.  

I have had so very many fantasies of what she could do to me in that position!  One of my favorites is how she tells me to lie still and quiet as she allows a male doctor to fuck me.  She assures me that it is in my best interest not to tell anyone.  She shoves a gloved finger up my ass as she reminds me to keep my annual appointments...

I have a beautiful red collar with "Kitten" on the name tag and a matching red leash.  I miss them both right now.  I can't put them on myself.  It's just not right.

At the chiropractor's office, face down on the table, I can't help but enjoy the helpless feeling.  My face, trapped in the head rest, I can't see anything.  I wish my arms were tied to the arm rests.  The vulnerability of lying this way, if only I were to be taken advantage of...

Love the submission necessary for face painting.  Submitting to a stranger, in public, for all to see...

I have a dominant boyfriend REALLY encouraging me to try my first girl-girl experience.  Actually, it wouldn't be my first.  My brother's girlfriend was my first back when I was 12.  She played with my clit once until I came - amazing experience.  When I was 18, my boyfriend tried really hard to get a threesome going with my best friend.  I found out right after he and I split up that he spent the night with her.  I made sure he found out about the threesome I had with her and HER boyfriend.  I never spoke to her after that either.  But that was decades ago.  I'm in my mid-40's now.  I've done the traditional things.  Married, divorced, kids.  I'm certainly curious and have always wanted to explore this side of me.  But, I want to do it on my terms, not my boyfriend's.  I'd love to find someone like me who can be gentle sometimes, forceful others.  Someone looking to explore and enjoy and willing to consider building something that could last long term.  I've been dreaming for decades.  I can keep dreaming.

Clit hood pierced last year.  Nipples pierced recently.  Wish I would have done both sooner.