periwolf

Due to computer crashing this past weekend I will not be online for a while.  Those who know my regular email can write me there.

Thanks all and Happy New Year.

periwolf.

I want to thank everyone who has written me and wish you a Merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

At the present time, i am currently talking to someone and it seems to be serious, want to see where this goes.

Thank you all. 

You are Ying, i am yang, the contrasting symbols.  I look into the window of your soul as i gaze into your eyes.  Ying shows the desire to dominate and contol a submssive.  yang shows her desire to submit and obey the Master Ying.  Our eyes are the windows into our souls and deepest pleasure.

New Credo for me:   Soft, sensual, erotic, comfortable and relaxing submissive.

i am no longer apologizing to anyone regarding my chaste life.  I am not apologizing for NOT jumping into bed with anyone who wants to go there.  I think there is a Dominant out there who might actually be impressed that i have restrained my nature and not gone to bed with anyone who comes my way.  I am a born again virgin, make no bones about it.  It was a decision of mine to do so.  Sex is too easy, lovemaking is what i want.  Connections, deep and soulful.  No just to scratch an itch. 

i just found out yesterday that my mentor died.  I had lost touch with him for a long while, but always he and his lovely wife Jess were fantastic people.  I learned a lot from him.  He taught me, trained me, was patient and even got frustrated with me.  But he was a true MASTER, not a Master.  He was a true to himself and those around him.

To JL, you are gone but will ever hold a place in my heart.  You were a great man and will be sorely missed. I loved you and will miss you for always.

T

I have been sitting here thinking about the twists and turns in my life.  I am a natural submissive, am pleasant and funny.  I can converse with anyone on a myriad of topics.  I am blunt and have a tendency to speak my mind,  I have a temper with a flashpoint, then it burns itself out.  One thing i know is that dominants do not find that attractive or at least i do not think so.  I have met such fun and interesting dominants on this site, some I would have wanted to know better, some the chemistry is just not there.  No one's fault or blame.  Just the way life goes.

After looking for a long time, have decided I think maybe we could be friends, who doesn't need a friend, right.  I guess i am destined to be alone and just have good friends.

I want to thank all those who have written, and those whom i have met and felt an attraction for (obviously one sided...LOL).  I think if we could be friends, maybe something could grow out of this, but then again i am usually wrong and i say or do something i regret. 

Take care, good luck and go with my best wishes.

Happy Thanksgiving to you from my house to yours.  Let us all take a moment to give thanks for the blessings we have received this past year.  I hope those will continue for the upcoming year.

There is one pet peeve of mine.  Men, dominants and others, think it is ok for the Dom's on this site to complain about lack or response.  I feel that that is a two way street.  I always try to respond, it might not be immediate, but you do get a response from me.  I have given out my YIM in the hopes i can get to know someone better instead and what generally happens is the dominant quits talking to me, will not explain why.  Look supposedly we are all adults, but it seems like men do not like to say, sorry hun, it doesn't seem like we are a fit.  I would thank them and move on.  No drama, no fuss, no muss instead of leaving me wondering why you fell off the face of the earth.  That is my rant.

Not going to work out, fine then let the submissive know you don't think we are a fit.  Tired of seeming needy and wanting and lacking something.