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I have been on a journey. It's had lots of twists and turns, but at this spot of respite I know more of who and what I am. Society tells us that you are dirty, unacceptable, unworthy or that you must change, conform or fit their 'standards'. I spent a lot of time in adolescence experiencing things that I felt were so natural. I explored various activities, feelings, edges, limits, pain and ultimately pleasure. I had no real grasp of society's control over me. I was free to be myself, free to enjoy what I was doing and fully embrace the person I was. Then society's message, my parents' lack of forthright information and guilt somehow found its way into my brain, into my heart and deep into my soul. You see I have a very big faith in God. I believe His son died to save me from hell. I believe that the Bible is a book all about His glorious life, mercy, love and grace. However, so many people do not understand, on a deep and basic level. People use God to level rules, judgement and even guilt on every thing and every individual that they don't understand or are frightened of. I spent a lot of my time, energy and adult life, feeling like there was no way I could meet these standards. How can I feel so right about the way I feel if it is so utterly wrong? So I prayed. I know it sounds strange here, but that is what I did. Now I feel as if I finally have wings. The weight of society's pressure is gone. Sure, I still keep some things more private than others, but I no longer allow that zealous judgement or fear rule my feelings, my mind, my life and my soul. I am a Sadist. I enjoy inflicting pain, watching others wince, flinch and cry. I am a Masochist. I enjoy very extreme forms of pain to be inflicted on my body. I am bisexual. I enjoy the soft flesh of a woman's body. I enjoy the rough hands and hardened cock of a man. I am a Dominant. I value, cherish and find great joy in the total trust and surrender of My pets. I am a submissive. I feel my heart soar when my Master uses my body for His pleasure, when He takes me to the edge of pain and soothes my skin on His way to my heart. I am free and I hope that you will find the courage to be free too.
I am~~~~~~ice
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