Mistress2one

Well having got back from Robin Hoods Bay I have decided I like it so Much I am going back for Christmas. In between then and now I am heading off to London on the 12th October Kensington and Knightsbridge for some retail therapy any one want to carry my bags? I am aiming to visit Harrods and have a picnic lunch in the park. then saunter up to the Goat Tavern and chill with bottle of wine and dish of Olives. That is as Kinky as that weekend gets LOL... Any way potential bag carriers can apply here private message me LOL

I have decided I need a hoilday... a total break from the norm... now decission is when and where!

I am really bored right now nothing to do other than think and plan... Really need a holiday to take me away from myself... Need a gaardener housee maid  driver dog walker need some one who I can depend on.... Oh and a painter and decorator LOL Dont want much really do I LOL Must sound totally dissatisfied I am not I am just tired.... Exhausted to be honest but no one seems to recognise just how tired I am x

HI I am now seeking a genuine handy man/Gardner I have my lawns cared for by a neighbour but since Ian health deteroration and my ever increasing work load I am finding it ever increasingly difficult to manage.  If there is a genuine submissive out there looking for nothing more than to serve me and make me happy please get in touch... megibbo35@hotmail.com

Well hello to my loyal few! I so want to write some thing positive and up beat but at the min I am brow beat, Is the over commercialised money making racket commonly known as valentines day on Tuesday. I already feel flat about what wont be happening yet an I wrong to expect or anticipate gifts or tokens of how hi I fit in with others estimation of me.  I guess that is the woman in me.

Ah well work as normal tomorrow all I will be doing is wondering if some one will just think is time I made my girl feel super special... Doubt it LOL any way enough of the woe is me shit!

Will write more when I am feeling a tad more loved and important.

MM x 

Well here I am 10th Dec almost not a thing done for Xmas and my darling Roxanne is back in hospital. She had a cardiac arrest Saturday night but thankfully came back too us. She has to reamin in hospital till they can fit an ICD she calls it and IED basically a pacemaker with a Difbrilator fitted to recharge her heart when it keeps stopping. Am at Hospital daily and working when I can also Dogs need a good walk so am Busy Busy Busy. its times like this I do wish there were more Genuine Submissives around that could offer help who come with a trusting rcord and good references.  Strange but I never thought I would get this desperate to get things done!

As long as my Darling Rox is on road to recovery though I will cope she is centre of my universe right now so I am happy while ever she improves.

Wll Here I am my life gets ever increasingly complicated. I have left the Care home decided I hate Care and the mere fact that those that want to change get side swiped or forced out of a job while the bad ones cover each others backs If I get old and need 24 hour care please Shoot me do not put me in a care home!

Due to the fact I have no paid work at the min I am seeking a Finacial slave for on line shopping or real life shopping trips genuine apply only no time for time wasters. I am not seeking anything out of the ordinary merely feel god shopping trips and lunch whils shopping a girl loves to shop!

If you can help would be great. I am not in this for anything other than the financial slave expereince as I have had expereince of almost every other kind of slave this would be some thing totally new to me and kst curious to see if it actually does work???

Any way enough of me waffling lets see what happens here on x

Well it has been a long time since my last entry. Here I am wondering what is relevant and whats not. A journal or Diary as we Brits call it should list all things. My Partner Roxanne (Ian) is at his best right now his health is steady and I am much more confident in being out of sight for longer periods.  I have given up work in hope to care for him as he needs me now more than ever. I am still working hard at the Dungeon Hosting the parties and taking care of bookings.  I never did find the perfect house maid, so I have given up on that! I am annoyed at the amount of people that look at my profile but never introduce themselves is like walking past some one's house and stareing through the window and walking off... HOW RUDE!

I am approachable and love conversing with like minded people and can normally fish out the freaks from the Genuine!

I am here and even though I am of a natural Dominant nature first and foremost I am Human and need other humans to survive LOL

Dont be afraid to say hello, I wont Hurt you unless you want me too of cause! LOL

Short and Sweet this entry...A bit like me really!

Mistress Maria

Well, today I found a part of me that I did not know exisited! I listened to a piece albeit momentarily of music by a guy on here, as any one ever become intoxicated with music? my head spun at a rate I thought I may fall over. was truely a magical moment that I feel will stay with me forever.  I am currently home alone Ian my partner of the last 6 wonderful if yet some what problematic years has gone back to London to have a reunion with his grandaughter. I fear this will be his last trip home alone as his heart condition and age is making him ever weaker.  I always feel jealous and torn that a part of him still feels the need to visit his wife and family, I am selfish I know as I am also aware of how much this man loves me.  I could sail the world a thousand times and I know I will never again find a man that will look at me with as much love in his eyes as Ian has for me.  For those just joining my journal I met Ian in cyber space 6 years ago and our world collided and we have been together ever since.  Ian is a cross dresser and has fought his inner demons for as long as he can remember.  He is also a very private person and would hate the fact I am talking to the world so openly!  excuse grammer and typo's I do also have surface Dyslexia.  So I genuinely hope what I write makes sense?  I do fear the Music has encouraged me to write today in such an open manner and for that I thank the artist now known to me as M LOL... My hopefully new and special friend on here.  I am torn between walking my dogs  some where nice in the counrty side locally  or House work Domestic Slavery at it's best.  I should have a small picnic for one and take off some where with the dogs.  But I loathe the lonelyiness of my own company. I do fear that loneliness can drive one to the edge of insanity! at times like this I wish there was that one true friend would call me and say hi fancy doing something wonderful today? alas that will never happen. Ah well I guess I am just over emotional after my touch with Magic this morning.  Any way I am going off with my dogs and I may incorprate some information about the dominat me at a later entry... But in reality that is what makes me a dominant after all. The mere fact that I can write what is in my heart and not some prefabricated Crap that some journal hold on here.  My writting is from the heart is where I am now, Where I have been and more importantly Where I am going! Bye for Now... MIstress Maria x

HI every one... Is glad to see I have so many followers but again sadly some of you are merely glancing in at my profile and not stopping to say hello!.... I do note that I seem to have a number of trans followers please say hello tell me something about your self and you longings...I am here to listen and to chat and always eager to make new friends...

I am some what amazed at the amount of followers I appear to have yet they choose to remain silent... I log on daily and note that it seems to be the same trusty few that have dropped by to look at my profile. Is it in aticipation of something changed?  I am curious as to why so many of you look but do not introduce yourselfs?  I am so bad? I dont bite...Welll actually I do but the recipiant has to like recieving as much as I like giving LOL! Any way enough of me over to you... Please talk to me. Conversation is a two way thing and I am lonely blogging... Maria x

Hi there to my trusty followers. Whats new in Maria world...? Well the Dungeon is going from strength to strength I have been off work for a while with stress related problem and a prolapsed disk in my back so form a line for those wishing to massage my back better.  My partner Rox aka Ian has been unwell for those not familiar with our situation Ian has Cardiomyopathy and has had problems with fluid on his lungs but is responding well to treatment at the moment. 

You must think I am mad... But this journal is a good form of therapy and even if no one cares to read the drivel I have typed at least I have had the pleasure of getting my problems outside the body instead of trapped inside eating away at my soul. 

During my time off work with ill health and caring for my darling Ian the house work has suffered and I am in desperate need of a house maid... Not some freak looking for sexual gratifacation or some one who would burn my best blouse whilst ironing just to get punished but some one with a genuine need to serve. Some one who cares and is eager to get the job done well for mere praise and recognition of a job well done. 

Any one who may be interested must be a dog lover and able to walk my dogs for me. prepare meals and make sure that Ian is ok while I return to work... In return I will offer session time at our parties on a Saturday or at the TV parties on a Wednesday...They also will be asked to clean the dungeon after events too so ideally the post would suit some one who maybe has retired and looking for a hobby or some one who can afford not to work and is looking for a realease? 

You may contact me directly on here if you are interested but be warned time wasters wont be tollerated in any way shape or form...

Mistress Maria x

Right! here goes, there has obviously been some so called friends or collegues of mine searching for information about me...Well I am here for all the right reasons, what amaze me is why are you here searching and what is it you were searching for to find me? What is it about me that you dislike so much the you attempted to assassinate me and tarnish my career??? All I will say is for my part I am here with my partner and yes my partner is a TV/CD/tranny or what ever you determin and together we have a great and happy life... 

Maybe that is it your lives are so sad and lonely you came here looking for happiness!

I very much doubt it...

I guess what you really came here for is a wank and some thing really kinky!

LOL I bet you nearly fell off your computer chair when you descovered your Deputy manager was a Dominatrix who ran a fetish club and on your door step LOL

How sad that I now know you are a closet wanker LOL!..Never mind... I am very forgiving. 

I have to say a big thank you to the friends who have stood by me at work... THANK YOU ALL!  

As for the few that thought outing me at work would get rid of me sadly I am entitled to a private life and this is my private life and you have no right in it...( Personal thanks to MAX MOSLEY for making the right to privacy act happen)

Could you now do me a favour and fuck off back to your hole... And if you dont like that Tough cos I like the invasion of my private life even less!....

At least I have a the back bone to stand up to who I am and stick by the power of my convictions. 

If you only realised what it takes to come this far in your private life and be able after a life time of hardship and struggleand pain to be here and say at last I am free. 

I am  for the first time ever my own person and in control of my own life you would then understand why I do what I do and why I believe in it so much...

Again thank you for my true friends and for the few that hoped to destroy me... You really must try harder. ....

Love and blessings till my next journal entry...x x x x

what can I say that has not already been said by a million others like me?... I am 41 years old and at my peak, I guess. After being in bondage some 20 years (marriage) I am now free to be the woman I really am... A strong confident assertive business woman.

I am in a wonderful relationship with my TV partner.  My equal in life yet my adorable submissive on the scene.

I believe that dominace come from deep within and is not a dominace to take over the world or to be the best there is, but a longing to take control on a sexual level and take love making to giddy new heights.

I also like to switch on occasion as I am a firm believer even thoough some of you will shoot me down for this, in that to understand submission you have to expereince it.  I could never take a flogger to the flesh of any submissive without first understanding the depth of pain that tool can inflict.

I come from a deep and complicated back ground (as I guess do many of you reading this) that makes submission for me an ultimate gift of love and trust...And believe me I have been to hell and back from childhood to now, so giving myself willingly as a sumissive has taken great inner courage and strength.  It has also helped me understand that being a Dom can be done for all the wrong reasons. Be careful of what you wish for...You might just get it!

My journey has been long and hard and sometimes a lonely road. But now with my love by my side I can see a shining bright light and I know that the future is what we make it.  I am heading for a wonderful life within the BDSM lifestyle and know that I still have a million and one wonders to sample.  The bonus is I am now out of the darkness and no longer alone.  Life is good....