MinisterPhobia

So, I was initially unsure of what to write here, now, I have a better idea. I suppose I'll start with what I'm ideally looking for, the complete fantasy, and then I'll go into the more realistic vision...

FANTASY

Rich. Being rich is a definite necessity to the fantasy version of this. I see a life where I am free of any concerns of being able to support myself. A home fully paid for, sufficient funds to be able to travel and plan events with my friends, and, most importantly, a slave that I can put all of my time into making perfect. The slave would live with me, be available 24/7 for whatever I desire at any given moment, and would be well trained in what I expect of her. There would be a dungeon where we can play, a bedroom with a closet full of clothes that I can dress her in (or not), a large bed that we can share when she's a good girl, and a cage for when she's been bad.

REALISTIC

Unfortunately, I am not rich. The current economy has been problematic for stable employment. So, while I still want the slave that I can train, I recognize the need to compromise. We both may need to work to support ourselves, but, I would still want to live together. When she's not working, assuming she's getting enough sleep, she would still be available 24/7. I still want to have some select clothes to dress her (or not) in, including some lingerie because that's always fun. And when she's not working, she would still be well trained.

THERES MORE

But, there's more to it than just that. I don't just want a slave. I want a lover, a friend, and a long-term relationship. While this may start out as just a contract for slavery, I want to see it grow into a full relationship.

I NEED, however, for the relationship to start as Master/slave. If I don't know that that's going to work, then there's no point, in my mind, in bothering to continue with anything else. Until I know that she can commit herself to my service, and that she can accept the expectations that I have, I can't deal with anything on a romantic level.

IN THE END

I don't know if you're out there, but, if you are, please let me know! I've been looking for a long time for the perfect girl. I'm sure she exists, but, she has eluded me thus far.