Mhari

Designing my wedding ring this week. Hopefully getting together with the jeweler on Wednesday to work through initial designs.

*gigglesnort* according to a Very Serious For Reals You Guys Dom on here I am in fact a sub and need to stop pretending. His reasoning?

"The look in your eyes is so submissive........ stop pretending little girl"

Laughed so hard I cried.

Downside to poly relationships? When they fail they fail hard. My fiance's girlfriend broke up with him last night because her primary partner was no longer ok with sharing her. So now I'm off to be all domestic and shit to try to make him feel better. It won't work, but I'm going to try.

New picture up. Decided to add one that wasn't quite so dark since I got a lot of complaints about my other professional ones being much too dark. This one was taken Feb of '11 at Wicked Faire by the wonderful Hugh Casey. He owns the copywrite to it.

Best thing about my live in boyfriend? I tell him I'm PMSing, he determines the best course of action is to go to the store and get me extra dark fair trade organic chocolate. He spoils me rotten he does. :-D

Still getting more messages from men then I am from any of the women I've attempted to start contact with. Not than any of them have been rude, in fact most if not all have been very polite about it. Sadly this is not what I'm looking for.

Bigben270 and I are looking for a woman that the two of us can share long term. That's already spelled out in my profile so it's not like this is news. Maybe eventually we'll find one that isn't flaky. The last one we were speaking with just suddenly cut off contact. One day 'I'm really looking forward to serving you' to messages deleted unread, an unsearchable profile and 'collared and owned' by someone else. I can't be the only one to think it's rude to give no indication that you're considering someone else's collar and just up and vanish. But that's life and the danger of the internet I suppose.

Got 8 inches hacked off my hair yesterday. It's now a normal human length instead of all the way down my back.

Huh. So apparently I'm a man and I fake. News to me. I guess 'not interested, so no I'm not going to cam with you' translates into 'Oh god I can't cam or call! Then you'll know I'm a guy!'

I am perfectly willing and able to prove I am who I say I am. However I do so on my terms, with people I am interested in. Not with people who insult me, and demand proof just to get me riled up. Sorry dipshit, not going to work.

So upon beginning to live alone I have decided something. I need a live-in slave soon damnit. This having to come home and do my own dishes thing is annoying. I enjoy cooking, not cleaning.

All I want is a maid/butler to keep my home neat, keep track of my finances and appointments, and that I can fuck when  I am so inclined. Is that so much to ask?

I think I have found my chair. It's an antique red velvet horsehair and rosewood chair that's sitting in an antique store down town. Now I just need to figure out how to come up with $400 by christmas so I can buy it so no one else does. Problem is I'm signing my lease on Friday, then paying bills, rent, buying food, ect...

Damn I hope I can get it. I think I'd be heartbroken if someone swoops it out from under me. I want my proper throne drat it!

Packing to leave for my vacation. I'll be gone from 7/29-8/15.

However I'm bored. Someone should distract me from the mound of stuff I need to pack.

Mundainaland- Doing props for a local theater troupe's production of Frankenstein. I realized, disturbingly enough, that I can supply most of the props out of my toy chest. Maybe I should cut back on my toys...

Cautiously excited and hopeful. There is a girl that Bigben270 and I are speaking to that could very well be Our submissive. I've been speaking to her a while, he's just started talking to her and hopefully she'll be ours soon. She's almost exactly what we're looking for,  and I hope we're close to what she needs. I have my hopes up I admit it, but I'm not going to hope that she's ours long term until we put a collar on her neck, I've been burned too many times to get stupid hopeful and attached.

Oh crap what have I started? So NOM (national organization for marriage) has been calling my house a lot recently. As in 4 times in the last 7 days. They are trying to spam New York into voting against marriage equality. This is a big issue for me, anyone who has known me more than 5 minutes knows my stance on marriage equality. So after telling them 4 times that 'No, I don't  agree with you you god damned bigoted assholes' I decided to make something positive out of it.

So I started a thing. Every time they call me I am going to embroider a patch with a big ass rainbow on it, and sell it for $10. All proceeds from this are being donated to a local group that offers not for profit legal advice to the GLBTQ community. I told the internet this, and I sent an e-mail to NOM explaining this.

After 6 hours, of very little advertising, I have $90 worth of definite orders and what looks like another $80-$100 of potential orders.

I need an embroidery machine.

What is it about the internet that brings the asshole out in people. Lets play the dissect a message game. I just received this message from AMG He claims to be a 30 year old Dom in New Jersey.

U need a man 1 in ur asshole 1 in ur toilet smelling cunt 1 in ur stinkbreath mouth piehole and 2 cocks 1 in each hand ur a useless cunt sooooo we will try to make use outta a whore pig likenu

1. We're not even going to try to count the Grammar mistakes. It'd be easier to count the words he spelled/capitalized correctly. Kids we learned how to spell in grade school, use this skill. This to me says lazy. Even if I were a sub it would have gotten deleted.

2. Completely disregards what I list myself as. This to me says misogynistic asshole with a small dick who can't deal with powerful women. 

3. The content of the message. Being offensive for the sake of offense. This to me says sub who gets off on humiliation and knows the best way to do so is to message a Domme and insult her.

Since I'm feeling generous AMG I gave you the public humiliation your tiny dick clearly so desperately seeks. No need to thank me. 

Don't Be This Guy.

So the search goes on. I am actively hunting for a unicorn. Sadly so far I get one or two replies tops and then nothing. Radio silence. Or in the case of one very promising girl a deleted profile.

I know I shouldn't bitch too much, I still have Boyfriend and my sub. But my sub is being released in September which leaves me with only Boyfriend. Which isn't bad, I love the man to death. But he isn't a sub, and he isn't a girl.

Someday I'll catch my unicorn. And when I do all three of us will be enjoy it, I promise that.

Boyfriend out at a party tonight, chances of him getting laid are high. Chances of me getting laid are nil. This pisses me off a bit. I want someone to play with damnit and boyfriend is 8 fucking hours away. *grumble*

Anyone want to be Dommed tonight? Must be local and willing to host but I'm bored and stressed and want to beat something. I figure it should be at least someone who wants to get beaten. Going to be picky-ish, your message should contain a reason why I should pick you instead of someone else and if you're a woman consider yourself chosen just message me and tell me who I'm playing with.

-Mhari.

So bored out of my skull tonight. Its times like this I really wish my boy was closer. The sub I'd been playing with decided he no longer wanted to be my submissive and we've parted ways. I've now got no body close to play with. I'm a sex-toy tester with all these awesome toys that I want to play with on another person (strap-on with massive 8inch dildo anyone?) and no one to play with. Starting to get kinda bummed out that I still haven't found a woman I'd be willing to take on who'd be willing to play with me. Occasionally I've gotten one but not the other. But meh whatever I'll find someone when I find someone, or they'll find me.

Any girl close to me willing to play tonight or tomorrow night?

So for the third night in a row I'm cursed with insomnia and no one to talk to/play with. I'd love if I had a girl close by that I could play with on nights like this. I've already got two boys, one as a sub and one on equal-ish terms. We're both Doms and we power jocky a bit. In any event I have enough cocks and I want a girl submissive. Sadly I can't find one who consistantly speaks with me. I know who'd I'd like to take on but not sure if its going to end up working out. Any other takers?

So again I sit here wondering what to do. I was hoping to have one specific partner for Halloween but he's not going to make it out. I don't want to ask the sub I've already got as he's in a bit of trouble at the moment. I was hoping that it would work out with prospective number 2, she knows who she is, but its looking less and less likely. So I'm going to grump for a bit.