marcus2190

I have been bad....i havent kept up with my journal.

Every day without cumming gets more difficult

I edge many times per day watching gay or shemale porn.

Many times now I just sit and watch ....with my cock hard and wet.

Master still threatens to have me castrated.    He says I will still be able to cum even after he has me made into a eunuch.

I wonder if I will ever be able to feel the  sensation of an Orgasm ever again.......

i spoke to my master today

he reminded me i am a piece of shit

that i deserve to be made into a eunuch

told me he would have my balls and scrotum removed....leaving only my clit....because I dotn deserve to cum

I had sex with my wife today.....but after so much gay porn I couldnt cum......i could stay hard but not cum.....so frustrating and embarassing

Wanted to have sex with my wife this morning......ended up just giving her oral.

I am on strict orders NOT to cum....so I ate her pust instead.

I dripped so much during our time.

Wishing I could cum

just minutes ago I was watching gay/shemale porn as my master tells me to

He made me get a dildo and fuck myself as I watched

I had to keep stopping because I am not allowed to cum

the last time I did not stop soon enough and some of my cum squirted out.

Now i must be punished again.

So nervous

Was told to buy clothes pins by my master because i came without permission.

Sir had me put them on my nipples......my ball sac and most painfully on my cock tip

My precum ran.......my tears came out.....i hurt so much.

I have been told not to cum again until 08/20.

He made me share pics of my clothes pin punishment.....this made my master hot.

He orgasmed because of my pain.

I will try to be a better slave