Interested in the mental aspects of D/s. Entirely enjoy the physical aspects!!
Not on often. Lost interest ...
Took switch off b/c that is too much work to really navigate at the moment. Switch, for me, is really just to expand my horizons, but not at the core of my needs/wants.
Cheers.
Looking for a bi sub to sleep with a man or woman at my direction. Email me please.
I miss you Suzi.
Just got this message from 5'9", 60 lb. man in Nigeria...
Hello baby how is every thing over there i hope you are
enjoy you self,i saw your profile and am very happy .baby i like to meet a serious
person and a responsible person like you and i believe in real love,i love you
with all my heart and and i want you to be my wife not only friend , am a
footballer i dont have time for online charting because of my work but we can
mail our self time to time so at the end of the day it will easy for us.having
some one like you is a great thing in my life i love every thing about you,and
i will always love you, you can call me xxxxxxxxxxxx,my mail is xxx have a nice day from you man wale.bye
REALLY?
This is kind of exciting - check it out: www.level26.com
Out of commission for a bit. Sorry if I don't get back to you.
Ladies! chores4sf is my hero and is absolutely for real (at least from afar). He is helped me immensely in a great time of need with compassion and devotion. Kudos to you chores4sf - you are a gem in the sea that is CM. Thank you!
Would anyone that is familiar with the Lake Merritt/Piedmont area of Oakland like to help me in my search for a suitable apt for me in the area? I'm in San Diego County currently and moving up around Aug 1, but don't know the good vs. bad areas around Lake Merritt. Any suggestions or help (since I'm so far away and only up for a weekend to search) would be very much appreciated. Thanks in advance.
My admiring email to a male submissive: You have a very interesting profile. I don't fit your bill, but I still find you very interesting.
His response: who cares what you think about anything.
Ummm... bitter much? WOW!
WOW. Since becoming "single" rather than a couple on CM, I have been inundated with emails!!! I am only so shocked because of so few emails while coupled. No, for goodness sakes, I'm not tooting my own horn - but we all know how CM is... So to save some time for all parties involved: 1) I am not looking to be saved or soothed from my recent breakup (although thank you to the few that I ended up pouring my heart out to - you've been so kind to me!!!); 2) I do not want a Dom to come rescue me; 3) I am not looking to get into another intimate relationship at this time; and 4) I don't have an inclination to answer anyone's emails who are not located in California (sorry! but what's the point really?). Hope that helps as I hate to waste people's precious time. Warmest regards.
Holy shit!!! Watching the profile videos on CM has just taken away a couple hours of my life, but has given me some of the heartiest laughs I've had in quite a while. Hedoguy, you rock!
So sorry to everyone that has emailed me and I have not emailed back. I am very swamped with the move and work.
Consider me offline for a bit while I get things in order. I'll let you know when I'm back online and able to engage :)
Tech support here on CM fixed my logout issue by having me clear my cookies. Impressive.
Why the hell can't I logout? HELP!!!! Can you?
I MISS SUZI!
Farewell my fairytale.
But now the groundwork is laid.
Sorry to those that have emailed me and whom I have been so rude to by not emailing back. I'm buried in the hell that is finals. Think good thoughts for me.
Yes... there is a trend as of late. No, I'm not obsessed with shoving things in my ass (not obsessed anyway). But ass play seems to be the joke du jour.
"I think we could have fun with it, even without shoving it up our asses."
"Just because I say we can't have anal sex doesn't mean I won't fuck myself in the ass with a dildo."
It's just human. We all have the jungle inside of us. We all have wants and needs and desires, strange as they may seem. If you stop to think about it, we're all pretty creative, cooking up all these fantasies. it's like a kind of poetry. (Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider)
Rejected Doms are sometimes bitter. Yikes.
The most oddly delicious thing happened to me here this week. Yummy.
This is the first time I've seen this. I log on today and the first 50 people that I see online are all men. NO WOMEN. Odd. Very odd. I'm surprised I wasn't a victim of virtual gang rape.
I have the same luck on CM as in "real life." The most wonderful and compatible men (compatible by their profile at least) are the ones that are unavailable. *sigh* But then I remember - I AM NOT LOOKING... I keep forgetting - sorry.
It's ok. I REALLY enjoy myself enough to be single for extended periods of time. :) I'm just cool like that. Intimacy with yourself is always a growing experience.
Notice how I'm justifying all of this. I'm cool like that too - forever an optimist*
"A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval." Mark Twain
On a positive note - there sure are some incredibly intelligent, articulate people I've met on CM recently. Refreshing. It was getting a bit tiresome for a smidge there.
To possess me, I must be in a state of adoration of you. I will not be in a state of adoration of you if you start with a state of possession of me.
"I am a ALPHA Male, looking for a ture sub/slave." heehee
Someone - PLEASE - can you define ture for me?
OK - I'm a certifiable smart ass.... I beg forgiveness (but only from ALPHA males mind you).
"Don't worry about people stealing your ideas. If your ideas are any good, you'll have to ram them down people's throats."
Howard Aiken
Maybe I'm just more traditional as it pertains to gender roles and want the mental acknowledgment and purposeful manifestation of that.....
I'm going to have to explore my beliefs a little more before adopting this credo.
I'd like to see a nude opera, because when they hit the high notes I bet you can really see it in those genitals.
Well… this post on best-of-craigslist (type "proud of your country? your leader" under search) almost made me cry - I'm
NOT prone to crying. It brought to light issues that I felt but did not put together in my mind all at one time.
Exerpt from my response:
Is it OK to do a cost-benefit analysis when it comes to American lives (be it our own poor, our soldiers, our elderly) or when it comes to the lives of those outside of America (its ok to kill civilians, to torture citizens of other countries that may or may not have intelligence information, in complete violation of the UN Charter Against Torture and the Geneva Convention – SO LONG AS ITS FOR OUR SUPPOSED BENEFIT). DO AS I SAY – NOT AS I DO. We sure as shit wouldn’t allow it of our citizens- supposedly. But it is OK for other countries – oh, I mean other non-Western countries? Cost-benefit analysis – if it is a benefit to us – forget the costs to anyone besides us. And, while I’m at it – define "us" – is "us" the administration and all associated with "them" or is it "we," the American people. Is what is going on what "we the people" want – not just what "us" wants?
Do "we" feel proud that tens of thousands are dying in Darfur (Sudan) and hundreds of thousands are being displaced – and that they are calling it genocide – you know – think Nazi Germany, Rwanda, Cambodia, Bosnia . . . GENOCIDE: THE WIPING OUT OF ENTIRE NATIONAL, ETHNIC, RACIAL OR RELIGIOUS GROUPS. We are the most powerful country in the world, quick to come to the aid of those in need – with one condition – YOU MUST HAVE SOMETHING WE WANT – valuable resources, geo-strategic advantage, territory. Darfur has none of these because Russia and China already have their oil contracts with Sudan. Oh, and did I mention, Russia and China keep vetoing all humanitarian intervention proposals to Darfur.
Oh God - I need to get drunk I think. I need to be comfortably numb.
CASE IN POINT:
"What a cute little fuck doll you are Dam baby your fine" IGNORANT TOOL.
OK - at some point I'll go mute again, but for now, it seems, I have alot to say - not that any of it is worth anything, but...
I think I have got this whole D/s thing all wrong. See, I thought submission was about gaining trust, building a relationship, letting go of inhibitions, allowing yourself to guided by another, empowerment though enlightenment, etc. - not to mention some element of sexual deviancy (OK, for some, not others). (list not inclusive).
I had no idea that it was about performing like a fucking circus clown for any tom, dick and harry that feels like practicing his supposed "dominant" wiles. "Give me your screen name NOW, Call me Sir," and my personal favorite - "just give me a peek on your cam" and when I do - just to show them that I am who I say I am - all of the sudden it is "pull your hair back, get on your knees, avert your eyes, turn around."
Well, guess what guys - I may humor you if I am in the mood to amuse MYSELF. But you will not ever hear from me again unless I have a desire to, yet again, amuse myself with your attempts at dominating me. YOU are MY amusement.
Which brings me to another subject - I thought domination was about ... oh, another time perhaps.
Why am I writing this when I have full knowledge that there are so many guys on here with their dicks in their hands playing out some fantasy role of being dominant.
I know why - it is for the needles in the haystack.
Well, two days ago I bought those candy covered malted milk balls because they were on sale and, well, I was having a sweet tooth at the time (candy is EVIL btw - I know I know). So, last night, middle of the night I woke up - like I do 4-5 times a night, and went into the kitchen for a swig of milk and the little candy dish was sitting right there on the kitchen table. So I take a few and return back to bed, intending to munch. Why I wanted a sugar rush in the middle of the night is beyond me - but this is typical behavior for me (crackers in bed type).
So... on with the story (did I mention that I can ramble at times? oh, and I'm random too as you will see - read on). So I go back to bed and eat a couple of these malted milk balls and fell asleep. Problem is, when I woke up, my hands were dyed blue and I had a chocolate looking stain on my white sheets - well, right where my butt usually is while sleeping. I know immediately what happened - I feel asleep with one last little candy coated malt ball in my hands - hung on to it whilst sleeping until it fell from my hands and either moved gradually toward my mid-section or that was where my hand was when alleged drop occured. Hence the malted milk ball stain (not #2 stain mind you - do not get the two confused).
It took the kitchen sponge scrubber to get those stains off - I'm lucky it wasn't worse. Well, I haven't gotten into the shower yet today - so maybe there is something I'm not aware of.
I love the fact that I refuse to grow up!
"Best of Craigslist" post:
toys for sale - mw4mw (downtown / civic / van ness):
I have the following pre-owned adult toys for immediate sale:
Three-speed Vibrator with adjustable head, works great but rotator is slightly jammed with hair. $25
4 size small and extra small butt-plugs. I moved up the size rather quick so they are barely used and in perfect shape. $4 each
3 half eaten edible panties, size XXL. Flavors: virgin strawberry, smooth Irish cream, and backdoor fudge. $2.50 each
Soft rubber life-like (cock with balls) black dildo. The paint is slightly worn off at the tip but otherwise works great. $10
2 size extra small cock rings. $3 each or $5 for both.
1 set of glass anal beads. These beads have been used a lot so they are extra smooth! $8.
1 white leather sex swing, made in England. Slightly stained at the edges of leg straps. $25
Deep anal metal sphere mini-vibrator. The metal casing is slightly bent due to emergency retrieval surgery, but still vibrates perfectly well. $5
DAMN - if I didn't have all of these items already, I may have just responded. HEY, WAIT - JUST KIDDING FOLKS - I don't use those types of devices. It was a joke!! Can't you take a joke. Jeez. Or was it?????
Oh, wait - this isn't "my space" ... HELL YEAH I HAVE ALL THOSE DEVICES... except my edible panties are sized L.
OK - RANT HERE:
If you deliberately do something that you know you are not supposed to do - and get caught red handed - don't say "I'm sorry about that." YOU ARE NOT SORRY!!! Well, the only thing you ARE sorry for is getting caught.
You put your desires before another ON PURPOSE. Why say you are sorry when you knowingly and selfishly engaged in an action.
JUST FUCKING OWN YOUR SELFISHNESS and get on with your life. It's time people start living with integrity and honesty - to themselves and toward others.
I have found as of late that my schedule, general disinterest in banal conversation, and other distractions have led me to not answer 95% of emails/chat requests received here. I would say please forgive me - but right now - frankly, my dear, I don't give a fuck.
"The only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain." Marx
How great the difference between stunning and stunned.
"Power surrounds her - passion stirs deep in her body. Helpless - emotions rage and tangle among themselves. No restraint is place - yet still unable to move." Excerpt from "she waits" By M/WolfShadow
T.A. - you are a bonafide pussy!!!!! http://www.collarspace.com/htmlarea/smileys/0008.gif" align=absMiddle border=0>
Why is it that some believe that DOMINANT and SUBMISSIVE are diametric? It is as if ... it is not possible that a Dom/me may want to feel the experience of a sub or visa versa - when the right conditions are present. Since when have desires and emotions been so uncomplex? IT IS ONE OR THE OTHER - PICK SIDES???? What a joke.
And to those of you who feel the need to write nasty emails for no reason other than to make your pathetic little lives more meaningful - fuck off! There are those of us trying to expand our experiences, be more understanding of "the other," and to truly enjoy the company of like minds.
On that note - the last few days topped my "best of" list. Life is good. xoxo Ate
Sweet subFlora . . . YOU are amazing. WE are blessed. xoxo
Oh my.... I find some of the people on this site simply titillating. suzi, darling, you are yummy! Nuff said. *pant*
Thanks for all of the responses to my profile - what a way to make a girl feel welcome. There are some wonderful peeps here that I am quite enjoying chatting with.
I am feeling quite a bit of sensory overload from all of the desires of others, coupled with me realizing my own desires (at least desires in my head - have hardly acted out any of them)... I don't know what to do with myself - how to feel - how to act. I was told I "just need to get used to it."
