What's Up?
Just wanted to let anyone who is wondering know that i am doing well. Thank you.
No i haven't found "the One", but i am enjoying life and laughing again. This month i'm actually going to my first GLLA event! Woohoo! For those who don't know, it's the Great Lakes Leather Alliance's big to do here in Indy.
I'm looking forward to the opportunity to hang out with 500 of my kinkiest friends. (So they say). And while i expect it to be a lot of fun, i know i will probably work my butt off helping out.
In the meantime, housework and yard work continue to dominate my life. (No pun intended). I did actually take a weeks vacation over my birthday in July. It was great to just get away from everything for a bit.
I continue to hope that i will find what i'm looking for, and hope that you all do the same. "We all deserve to be happy"
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UPDATE TO MY PROFILE
After months of reflecting and finding my lost self again, I must take a moment to say how grateful I am to my first 2 Masters for providing me with a solid foundation on which to find my footing. I must also thank my friends both old and new who have been here to help me look forward and keep moving in that direction.
I have kept my original introduction for those who do not know how I came to be where I am in my journey.
That said, I feel it is necessary to be more clear in who and what I am as well as what I am looking for in my life.
First off, please do not let my age fool you into thinking that I am an older docile girl who will be a doormat for you. If this is what you are looking for, you will be sadly disappointed. I work hard to keep myself in good shape and am very active. I love to ride motorcycles (Harleys) and am very into the outdoors. But I am perfectly happy with quiet evenings at home cooking a special meal. I am not a baby girl type, but am happy to dress appropriately as is necessary. Otherwise, I'm a jeans and sexy top kind of girl.
I love a party as much as the next girl, but do not need drama and chaos in my life to feel like i am living. I work full time and own my own home so I am not looking for someone to take care of me.
I am looking for a dominant man who doesn't just want a play partner, but is looking for someone who he can fulfill his life with. Someone who understands that two together will be much stronger than one alone could ever be. A dominant who wants a girl who he knows will be there for him and take her place where he wishes her to be.
Original Introduction
ARE YOU THE ONE?
Over 25 years ago, I came into the lifestyle. Having lost my first Master, I moved on for a number of years and ultimately met one I believed to be my true Master. I spent 13 years with this man.
In that time I found I had been lied to, among numerous other happenings, but stuck by him as best I could. Unfortunately, my love for this man and my sense of commitment where not enough to rekindle the flame of submission that once burned so brightly. No matter how hard I tried the bonds of trust and respect had been broken.
He has since moved on to train a new girl, leaving me alone and wondering what will become of this once cherished soul.
I am hoping to meet a strong Dominant man, who is secure in his life and in who, as well as what, He is. Someone who is not only strong, but caring and compassionate. One who is patient enough to nurture and help me come back to what I once loved and lived for.
I will not lie, and must say up front that this may not be an easy undertaking. If you are not up to the task, or feel that I am not worthy of your time and patience, please do not respond to this profile.
Because, I was brought to the Indy area under false pretenses, I am not looking to relocate any time in the near future and hope to find someone in my area. It is also important that this man be no younger than 45, as I feel a certain level of maturity and experience will be necessary in order for a true understanding and connection to be obtained.
Please understand that I am not demanding these attributes, but merely requesting with respect, that you consider these requests in order to not waste yours or my time in this journey. I have to believe that I will recognize the right one when He is in front of me, and hope that You might respect this.
Are you the one who can help to pick up and put back together these broken pieces?
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It has been recommended that I fill in the questionnaire on here to show my likes and dislikes. While I have marked many of the areas to give others an idea of my personal likes and dislikes, I am hesitant to mark the areas concerning the lifestyle itself. I would be listing things that I enjoyed in my past. These are not things that I have been able to enjoy for a number of years now, and would not want to give the impression that these are things that I would jump right into with someone with whom I do not have the connection that I am seeking.
To me it is a matter of what my Master's wants and needs are. It is the journey that we take together and where it leads us.
Perhaps in the future I will come to feel the want to make this information available to all. However, at this time I must follow my heart and will discuss this as I get to know a person. Thank you for your understanding.
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This has all been such a learning experience for me. i am finding that person that i was before my world was turned upside down. i'm learning to trust myself again. It seems impossible to trust others when you don't feel you can trust yourself anymore. But, i have come to realize that although my world came apart with a single word, that would not have happened had the foundation been strong. But a strong foundation can not be built on lies. And that the Master that i had fallen in love with, never really existed.
i think this is the beginning of a great journey.
